Friday, January 28, 2005
f\ friends hold ur hands, touch ur heart \f
dear friend, i saw ur email and u touched me actually.. i felt sad too.. at first i read, i thot u said im not last time de alicia anymore, u dont wanna be my friend eh.. hahah.. am i really pessimistic.? =S how do i say this.. well, actually from last year e period when school was ending, ive become tired and gloomy.. u asked of me before, from then on i didnt change i think.. e problem.? i dont really know, yes probably relationship, and probably something stuck inside.. i know myself, i know im not e past me who is always cheerful and rather noisy person anymore.. i did think of finding myself back, cos thats e real me ba.? maybe its not gloomy or what, ive become more serious ba, and sometimes sarcastic.. yea, i can imagine myself cheering everything out like u said.. dont know, now i never thot of that so i chose to just sit at one corner and look, thats what u meant right.. thank u for understanding i seldom share my problems, i will think about reorganising myself.. e best yrs in sec school will be abit of sec1.. and mainly sec2 and sec4.. cos we knew each other better and had lotsa fun.. special places, special days.. special memories i cant erase.. special people by my side.. all in a special space in my heart..
to mingli, sometimes u make me stress.. cos whenever im down, u somehow will be e first one to notice and sense somethings wrong with me.. but thanks, u r a great sis.. one day i will get better, and u r neither my burden..
to sy, heyy i had fun on ur bday.. i spent almost 50$ on that day, maybe cos of those gifts i bought for someone.. thankies for everything u've done for me actually..
to farz, we've been friends for e longest time.. somehow i like u very much and i treasure u.. gd luck on ur decisions in life, ur darling(my ss..bro) is a great person too, dont doubt him..
to huimin, long time no see and chat.. u r one of e nicest person to chat with, i enjoyed talkin to u in english lessons especially.. hahah.. hope to see u soon, cny.?
to gang of da ge ge, i told them before ler anyway.. e days i had with u all were e best days of my sec life actually, will never forget e memories we had.. though we've changed and less contact, we will remember one another.. somehow its them who started to show me e world ba..
to good friends, whenever im down, i know where to go to cheer me up.. heh, simple but rather effective.. cheer up too, its nai that de, thats life.. always :D and stay crazy and crappy.. and thankies for those being there for me at times.. dont know who said before saddists together will be happists..
to someone, that night i finally saw u.. but something held me back inside me, now i know.. u are not e guy i used to know and like very much of.. i dont know, you are just different.. many things different.. im uncertain of what to do with the matter, but im still waiting.. til i realise.. somehow, i want to delete all e photos and writings of us ive placed in all my public profiles, cos somehow they r pointless..
to e rest, life sometimes suks from e straw.. still, make yourself (you r e ruler of yourself) happy by living to e fullest(everybody sure knows).. just stir it with a spoon and top it up with ur favourite flavours of ice creams with sprinkles and cherries..
and i had fun with u all..
-*cheeros*-
if i stop dreaming. 1:26 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
