Monday, January 03, 2005
f\ i want u and ur beautiful soul \f
yuan lai i can go aust with my fren eh.. too bad i nvr tell my parents about it.. maybe, i go visit for a week or so.?
i nvr cry that much liao, but i still cant eat and sleep well eh.. hmm, got ppl whom we can understand each other.. why i nvr ask my good fren be my bro eh.. cos i dont wan listurb him and his dear noh.. one can cos of frens jealous, can also die cos of 'closer frens'.. yes, i say my darlin ugly eh.. but different ppl got different thinking, some sure think he is handsome, some may even think hes their type.. some gf may be proud and think "waa, my darlin so attractive, hes e best.. heng i got him".. but some will think "wah lao, wan snatch my bf arh.. so thick skin, go to hell arh.!".. got ppl ask me jst try stead thou he know i got bf eh, then some ppl can like interact more liao, then become closer, later snatch e bf over eh.. he wont know i care for him and like him too much.. he matters so much cos hes my everything.. i know he sure stress eh, cos he dont understand, maybe he think simpler.. see, thou i know he is faithful, why i still so protective.. i now trying very hard to control myself ler.. i trying not to think about stuff, and think too much.. i wan try to forget, if i want dont care, i maybe wont care at all eh.. but i cant noh.. ive past relationship and cried for afew months, i can forget eh.. i got prepare to cry for two yrs, cos got ppl like that before, then they nvr die.. hahah.. then why i last time can easily accept and forget stuff, cos i last time thot its jst a game, then like nothing really important.. now its hard to forgive and forget..
lost contact means lost contact.. wont talk means wont talk ler.. ive known a guy for more than two full months, we understand each other, i then fell in love eh.. too bad i and my darlin started out as jst a game(maybe i was heartbroken, so i said to darlin anything.. but thou that guy came back, i reject him many times.. which was past lah), it was probably a bad start ba.. i believe once i tear, im always broken eh.. cos i cant forget.. mafia bro say stead for 6months with his darling, 1month of departure is somehow nothing.. cos he know they love each other and gone thru many things.. this shows bond strong.. beng bro say stead for 2months liao, meet his dear 10times only, then they learn to give in and take also.. thou they dont know my prob, somehow comforted me.. but then mafia bro said if he saw his darling with another guy, he said its the end of their game.. then my good friend's bf left her again, cos got guy keep touching her at her workplace.. harsh eh.. -.= like me.? but people have their own reason.. things happen also got reason..
oei lah, thou i know i have my own problem haven settle.. still want help others, shes my good fren noh.. and u also want me help u buy stuff.. dont lazy lah.. i almost everyday de whole day see u online, i also feel sian for u.. i almost everyday de whole day online arh, my parents scold me liao noh.. hahah.. yeaa, after this post.. i gonna write one of my happiest and memorable day noh.. lalala.. then change blogskin liao..
if i stop dreaming. 2:04 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
