Tuesday, January 11, 2005
f\ never ending song \f
eek.. i must be going crazy.. i decorate e pic hao liao and put in profile, then i think its rubbish.. anyway he always say i die he also wont care.. zz, forget it really forget it ma.. eek, life so suks.. bbyex ma.? still nothing, gdbye liao ba, he dont want me ler ba.. to not know is better than to know ba.. dont care liao ba, what can i say.. everything upsets me, and i cant do anything i cant help myself.. i can feel e feelings for him there, its presence is always there, even if its not strong at times.. so what if im tearing, and so alone and everyday at home.. waiting for shyt happens.? he really want me find someone better, isit really that easy anyway.. many things matter.. maybe he should find someone suitable for him ba.. he happy hao ler.. i dont even wish to be happy, my heart keep sinking, suky feeling.. why last time he cried anyway, and do those silly stuff, i dont understand liao.. if i knew i`d become like this, i shldnt have started wanna be with him, break still want patch.. why last time i dont mind and think so much, now i everything mind and think so much about everything.. i dont understand what i thinkin liao, so much nasty stuff.. i dont wish to control him or expecting him to stick to me only and always wa, why do i have to be this way.. and everybody does mistakes, why i cant forgive and forget liao.. i dont know what i want liao, dont want anything better ba.. let it be an experience.? maybe we r too young for this, cant handle very well.. its not i wanna become this way de, i dont even know how i become like this.. maybe its a linkage of stuff upsetted me, why cant i take it.. haixx.. i dont know we r over or what, let it be.? i know e way im talkin to u its like dont wish to talk to u, but i really wish to know what u do all that de, but sometimes its cos i really dont like(but what can i do, i dont wish to stop u), so i like that but im rather glad u let me know.. if u let me know, i wont think that much too, right..? its really sad some things dont wish to know, but someone else tells me or ownself see.. i know myself, i know what will upset me, but u dont know.. u know, no matter how u explain, it always make no sense, i dont know why.. actually u r different ler, last time u got abit sensitive, i know.. but now maybe cos u r doing those stuff, then dont mind ler ba.. upsettin stuff i sure dont wish to know, what can i do.. what can i do if i remember so many stuff u said to me, too bad if u forgotten.. how much do u know anyway, keep givin shyt promises then deny.. we have gone far and been together for so long, what really matters truly.? are we really fated or what not, hey i feel we look alike.. =S oo well, i dont know him i dont know anything liao.. although he is not everything, he is still something .?
if i stop dreaming. 5:50 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
