Thursday, January 06, 2005
f\ reality of fantasy \f
nothing to do, so i decorate my gloomy azzes pic and put it up.. hahah, dont know isit a good spot anot, and i put my photo in my profile too.. so tired eh still cannot sleep well noh.. hmm, dont know who is unknown, i scared is someone i dont like, hahah, jk.. most ppl dont know alot ppl care for them, cos they nvr show.. thats what i learn noh.. so i gone to cut my hair, my mama say dont look like ahlian, dont look like guaikia, gam gam ho.. i thot i look like guai kia eh.. hmm, actually i dont really understand what unknown was referring.. does he/she meant my decision was break with darlin, thats my path and i have to move on and cannot sad and cannot think of my past.? i think so ba, but i dont think we break liao noh, thou i dont know what we r, we certainly did not break, we dont know much about each other and also not friends.. yes(think e way im talkin to him he also know), im not ready, im not ready to face him either.. x.X" im like waiting for e both of us ba, but think to him he is waiting for me only.. i dont even know what am i now, i dont seek happiness.. im contented, but i looking for reassurance and trust eh.. but i like have nothing to care about, cos im afraid to ask, im afraid of hurting myself.. haixx.. i simply love Teenage Nov`04 issue, got one letter i can read again and again, and my horoscope is so true.. eek.! yesterday my mama talk to me til midnight eh, we talk from this topic then link to another then to another topic.. then she got say til her relationship noh.. she shared that she had two real relationship only.. first one was she love at first sight, she liked e guy alot.. but e guy not very mature so dont know love ba.. so this kinda guy "use" e girl to pei him go out and play noh, fun fun only.. hardly talk to her, but he was fun to be with noh.. hmm, my friend say my darlin use me eh, sometimes i do feel that way, but sometimes we quite get along de, i dont know whats love either.. so back to e story, so then my papa came.. my papa is e best lah(even i have crush on his young self in passport photo, i keep it in my drawer, heh), he everyday call her talk to her.. everyday talk, then thou she got sometimes go out with her previous, she said she slowly grew apart from him.. until e day he begged her to come back to him, she said too late, its over.. then my mama and papa together for 6yrs then marry.. =D then like that noh, got me got my didi got my meimei.. the end.. then actually tmr (friday 7th jan) is our last time break then patch de 4th months noh.. see i remember.. =S alot ppl say girls will remember how long they stead with their bf eh.. i never.. =X i dont remember any dates, i lost my last time de diary.. ='( got alot of stuff de, i think i one day read everything then think its e past then threw away eh.. eek.! why u all pangseh me here.. Lol~
if i stop dreaming. 9:24 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
