Thursday, January 13, 2005
f\ three words, one meaning, says it all \f
going to pack my bag soon, then sleep ler.. then morning wake up accompany friend to buy groceries..
wee` abit excited liao ba.. kevin told me the place everything also got, tv radio just name it.. seems like a comfortable place, but if i go there sian i maybe going home ba.. cos not many i close with de.. =S
naw so sad eh.. like nowadays girls r so thick skin..
hear liao like so disappointed eh.. dont know what ppl thinking de..
i scared they snatch away him.. =S
anyway i still hate everything and everyone around him lah, like crazy but dont know why de.. just feel this way, dont like..
cannot touch my darlin or talk to him de.. x)
hmm, continue e true story, its now de.. thou the guy still love her.. everytime she check on him time after time calling him and msging him.. he will give her an attitude, as if fed up but he will deny he is not.. the girl is going to start her school, she could go home late if she wants, because her mother will be working.. he is going on national service, he is afraid of what she is going to do out there, will she repeat.? its going to be mental torture for him.. as national service is like jail and he cant do anything, to even stop her.. he is afraid to talk to her as he is afraid to know anymore nasty truth.. before all these, he was a happy person.. he looked forward every meeting with her as her parents are strict and she is hardly allowed to go out.. now he is broken, he wanted to cry but its useless isnt it.. he dare not think too much, its worthless, WORTHLESS.. he cried when he thot one day when she was working, she had a break, she asked him to go accompany her.. but he was too far, by the time he reached there, her break will be over, so she called e second bf(he still didnt know).. and then he thot they might hug or something.. bcos he also found out his gf called that guy "dear" too.. but he thot he might be thinking too much.. WTH?! thick skinned siao zhar bo, make ppl disgusted seh.. LISGUSTED.. x( hahah, sorry got aggressive..
miss my darlin..
oops~ i never said i miss him before.. cannot stubborn liao i cant help hidding my feelings anymore..
wish to see him soon eh, i wanna hug him and muacks him and hold him tight tight.. =X
haixx.. really wonder every minute what he doing, where he is..
but its hard to ask, im still afraid to be upset..
if i upset, i will keep crying.. then will sian ler..
what to do, can easily say forget it, but things always get stuck in my mind..
go there san san xin, everyday think nonsense is useless, also nothing to do, nobody to talk to..
yeah, got ppl pei me play gb also quite good ler thou.. good friend =D
marry me, i will look after u 24\7.. then i will be very happy..
ur friends call i will say "he has a wife, stop calling".. my friends call i will say "i have a husband, stop calling"..
crazy, cannot be selfish de eh.. dreaming azz..
i go learn alot of stuff eh, like read then hear ppl say their stories.. i have to wait patiently for a relationship to be serious ba, then start to have mature thinkings.. i think its like that.. then he play, i also shld play first ba.. i will try to talk to more ppl then.. hahah, i last time is thot of gettin a big guy(really like macho, abit fat and strong but not violent de) then he will always be faithful and protective towards me, but still dotes me, then very gentle and listens to me.. like that noh.. then that time my bday he said wan make me happy and got surprise.. i thot he will get me something i really really like eh.. =X but still nice lah, still like them noh.. put beside my bed like u said, later turn black eh.. e minnie mouse de hood broke wor, i dont know why.. =(
hahah, remember i tell my friend to say sweet stuffs to his gf, then i said i really wish to hear those eh.. i hardly get to hear this kinda stuff de, so i really do.. one night my long term bro came talk to me eh, then he said im his precious.. hahah.. i said i dont wish to be his precious, i wanna be my darlin's precious.. then if these kinda sibling stuff is still normal friends, why still wanna call special name eh, its somehow closer isnt it.. dont understand u, i never say u flirt, but u admit u r really playful.. then say what.. its ur wrong, deserve to be ignored, wont happen again, then still got its nothing.. craps.. hate everybody, kns.. eek.! must go relax cant think these kinda stuff liao lah.. suay that i keep remembering stuff, but u forget then.. zz~ be back on sunday.. later..
if i stop dreaming. 11:15 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
