--bail me out, im just guilty for falling--

Saturday, February 26, 2005

f-\ never ending stories of my faded memories \-f

now listening to Beatles Medley, my happy homones came out.. bought new cd, e songs are so cute, and i jst love tea dance party ba, retro 80s.. nowadays (to me) quite late go home de.. but still good, at first 11.55pm, then 11.45pm, then 11.25pm jst now.. hmm, abit not used to it, but quite fun ba.. i felt abit grown up, lalal~ oo ya, heard Purest Of Pain chinese version de, i love it cos kinda suit me.. but i dont know whats its title, anybody know can tell me.? hmm, ytd was with those hiadis.. yuan lai they go out so unsteady de.. they were standing arnd, then said want go this place.. then okie~ but still stand there n continued to chat.. then said go where again, then okie~lets go.. but continued to chat again, til sat down.. hahah, chat til no need to move.. today also, we were discussing where to go.. then cannot think so chat, but ferline cannot tahan n bored ba.. she asked go where, we wanted to think, then started chatting again.. e solution, is to stand n move.. hahah.. jst now had a secret, omg cannot say.. hope we wont do it again, hahah cos i felt like a bady, like my those outside de ahlian and ahbeng friends and their friends.. that night, zz..

if i stop dreaming. 1:58 AM +

Thursday, February 24, 2005

f-\ group photos.. testing only \-f

oo, i let my place to kev.. playing mini mahjong..

hahah, i took de.. bunch of gays =X

playing blackjack.. i won 1.50$ from konghong, nice..

if i stop dreaming. 1:30 AM +

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

f-\ beautiful soul \-f

[Intro:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

[Chorus:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

[Chorus]

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

[Chorus]

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

^_jesse mccartney^_

if i stop dreaming. 3:00 AM +

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

f-\ so what if u make me emotional \-f

testing.. this pic is one of e grp photos, got somemore grp photos but with kev.. now still outside noh, my house de comps so lousy now.. met my frens, nearly got lost cos dont know they at where.. cos didnt know there got two lan shops, and i went one of them once nia.. then called them still dont know where, they sent one of them to find me, then went play comp then buy things, hope e shops nvr close but in e end close cos play til forget time, quite cheap noh play at e lan shop.. i felt ive regretted n unsure of letting go cos i felt ive gave u many things, in e end i dont understand, u dont love me liao ba.. u dont cared anymore, i gave up and my bros said u will come back, when eh.? will i still want to be with u, til forever.? i dont regret loving u (honestly even my past ones), but im really upset as there was no reason for me to let go actually, and i didnt get to know ur reason.. i was just selfish and at first cant forgive forget, slowly i forgave, but really i cant forget.. we dont understand each other even thou we've been together for so long, maybe cos of e holes in between.. i cant predict of what u were thinking anymore, and u accused me of things i will nvr do.. or we've changed, and we expected differently ba.. i did wrong things, still u are my one and only in e heart, cos im stubborn.. and i was selfish i thot i can tie u up and i wanted to be ur one and only.. i thot i didnt control u, cos everything u do i dont like i stayed quiet.. but actually forcing u to treat me as ur one n only was controlling, i didnt realise as i really wanted to be, im afraid of losing u and e ppl arnd u are scaring me, yes im paranoid n sensitive.. i wanted assurance n reassurance, but u nvr know what i wanted.. u liked frogs (first thing i noticed when i get to know u), mickey n gundam stuff.. honestly everytime i see those toys, i so tempted to buy u some.. that time i saw so many of those toys, so nice n cute, wanted to buy for u.. but i cant, so i spent e money and bought toys for myself n fren.. i know im not ur wife, so i shldnt actually.. i cant tie u up, and i still go out n didnt let u.. im actually rather sorry.. then u kept telling me to pour my unhappiness to u, i did, but maybe at e wrong time.. i poured all my unhappiness one shot, and u became afraid i think, or tired.. love someone, he will be far from u.? we've actually been thru so many things, ups and downs, fun tears laughter anger passion, yet now i felt numb and i think ive forgotten u already.. i will remember e days we had, so what if we nvr contact now or ever.. i swore at first we started out, i didnt know many things.. i even thot i dont love u once and even thot i hated u, actually i nvr stopped loving u and thinking about you, serious.. i kept being jealous, and u always think i look down on u n ppl, i really didnt, i jst dont like and cant stand some things.. now i think u will jst be one part of my life, which will be a past and gone.. lalal~ if ive found my half someday, i will honestly tell him everything ive done with my ex, one day, eventually.. and hope he will accept me, hahah.. typed this whole entry in tears, but no worries.. i think im back to my old self, which quite long ago realised ler.. =] i love me, but i dont obssess and am not selfish..

if i stop dreaming. 10:17 PM +

f-\ chalet 18-20 feb`05 \-f

comp still lao lao, now free so write about chalet.. chatting with my Mexico friend, if u are seeing this.. HELLO~! =] nowadays quite hot n no wind hor, only at night damm nice.. open window got alot of wind liao, but got haze so abit scared actually.. stay so high can smell abit of smelly also..

>day 1<
was raining heavily for a couple of times, but heng want go out that two times rain stopped for me.. went to meet les, he said 6pm.. i went to buy eggs at shop n save, thot i will b late so walked quite fast.. reached there zhun zhun 6pm but he late for 20mins+.. saw ika, her bro and lenny, they going out noh.. hahah was rather sianed cos i nvr brought any cash with me.! so azz i forget to put cny money into my wallet again.. so we went to my house de provision shop bought tibits, drinks and what not.. nearly lost my eggs but heng it was e auntie scared ppl steal so kept.. then we left our stuff there first as really alot to carry.. and we went to fairprice buy 10kg of wings.. he carried til quite heavy eh, as we bought 5packets of frozen wings.. went to shop n save again bought sara lee cake and ice cream for ourselves cos we hungry.. then we went back to e provision where wx father's lorry at there e carpark waited for quite awhile ba.? then finally gwy n grace came, they late for 2hrs accordin to les and made him quite dulan.. and we carried all e stuff onto e lorry and off we went.. i so so long nvr sit lorry ler, rmb everytime sat my uncle's lorry so song.. wind blow til so big, wx father's lorry got shelter de but still not bad cos i got long hair, abit mafan.. and i was eating ice cream, hahah i think got tio my shirt n pants.. we ate ice cream on e lorry and chatted noh.. then we abit lost cos wx father dont know how to go, then les went to e front.. we 3 girls chatted til very nice de, about family and body stuff.. hahh, then we reached there ler.. broke some eggs cos we chatted til totally forgotten got eggs.. then we carried everything, i last to go down.. at first i carried nothing then les said i not paiseh arh.. then carried e wings til so heavy, so changed til carry quite light de stuff, then i can run n led e way to 31 noh.. e other time was 28.. then they were having steamboat, we prepared e stuff liao then joined in and ate.. blah blah (forget) then went to play pool, and played alot of photohunt, we kept on topp de chart with e nick "bwlss".. went to e playground play around, then got guard came.. he said we not small kids, e playground is for small kids.. he scared we make spoilt e playground, then they gei kiang said wont de, then johnson said everything bill to his house.. he said he everything also dont have(we thot he will say "except for money"), even money also dont have.. quite funny noh, then wx hurted my butt cos was playing e metal kiddy ride.. he go swing very hard n i stood up and *bang* i kept jumping noh cos really damm pain.. my butt bone broke, nah hurted.. next day still quite pain noh, after that nth to do ba.. so went to sleep, yea got bed.. abit no space cos wx took space, also cos kel stole wx space..

>day 2<
work up saw morning breaks ler, its about 7 like that ba.. saw kt on e floor with nth, so i asked him to go up.. i go downstairs, ate tang yuan.. ate fin tang yuan washed e big bowl, gambled blackjack.. jimmy owed me 20cents and i forgot e rest liao, but nvm.. then cooked maggi for kel cos he n some guys r leaving, that night then come back.. some nvr sleep cos talked whole night while some cos too noisy.. some abit dulan then kev said want to catch crab, i said okie.. then i cooked maggi for wl then they gone to catch crab, i forgot what was i doing so missed out.. then slept on sofa ba, and more came and ate spag and got play mini mahjong brought by flora.. then i think slept in a room, with grace, wl n benson.. chatted n listen to music.. i demo wl superman, hahah and chatted with benson about "i do i do".. then i think wanted to cycle but in e end go beach catch crabs.. needa climb that gate again, so siann then i fell and scratched my leg, got wound on my knee.. zz then was fun seeing them catch crabs, kept passing e bucket arnd.. then got one crab cut zq finger, so gross so many blood came out.. then he go put plaster ba, and got someone caught hermit crab.. so CUTE eh hermit crab, but let me think of someone cos he wanted to buy hermit crab for me cos they are simply so CUte and can deco their shells de cos they everytime will change shell.. haixx, then saw nice sunset later i and benson went back with e bucket so we can yan jiu.. we went back play daidee, i won afew times.. hahah, then e rest came back liao, then started to bbq i think.. helped out abit and ate marshmallows, satay.. then i took care of crab sticks de.. then blah blah (i forgot) i, iz, benson and chris (only e four of us) played daidee downstairs.. then i wanted to take sth or what, then they said they wanted to say ppl.. so i joined in (sorry benson) then i admitted something.. -tsktsk- hahah, im a bad person.. then said about a guy alot of ppl hates and we abit think he heard.. then later we took grp photos, damm nice cos got alot of ppl, quite a close view yet can see everybody's face.. then went to play pool there, i played puzzle bubble 4 (my fav) and i first again (everytime, hahah).. then see them play bowling, then tuck kept sticking onto e use finger play de machine there.. he spent more than 15$ on that machine noh, i think 20 also got.. then went back forgot did what.. then played blind mice, quite fun lah.. at first i first time play ma, then at first its jst simple hide n seek n had to guess e person.. abit scared, then kept bth have to laugh noh.. first time kel from bed went to e end, i was at e end ma.. he go touch my leg.. i so paiseh n abit ticklish, i laughed noh n know its me ler.. once i hid behind e door, dont know how wl know im there.. so scary he like straight away caught my shoulder, i shocked tio.. then he go shake my head i bth laugh then know its me ler.. -.= then rex joined in, zl also, gwy also.. played til more violent, got throw blanket n hit e person n running around de.. at first got rex, wl and kel.. i and flora hid in e cupboard, then they kept listurbing ferline cos catcher cannot open eyes.. then they ran around e room, we in e cupboard kept laughing.. n poor ferline kept guessing e wrong person so kept being e catcher.. then more ppl ler, they go put e bed in e middle ba, and e room no light i really abit cannot see very well.. one game someone pushed me then i tripped on e bed n fell noh.. quite pain eh, got blue black on my knee ler.. waa quite gan jiong e game, everybody had to push push n run run to keep away from e catcher.. damm funny got one game i nowhere to zhao, e rest managed to zhao thru.. i got cornered then i covered my eyes, hahah e catcher NEARLY touched me ba.. then one game alot of ppl got blanket ba, kel also got pillow.. he came in he immediately jumped on e bed and slapped everybody with e pillow.. violent seh, i got caught by kel ma, then he guessing who am i.. then dont know who still slapped us with e blanket, kaos.! then kel guessed wrongly, thot i flora.. then got ppl still wanna slap us and got ppl complained, i faster shouted "uh hor" guessed wrongly so can on light.. then flora complained someone slapped her, dont know who kept swaying e blanket so hard n slap us arh, kaos.. hahah.. got one game ferline got slapped quite hard ba, she cried n called for time out.. haiyo, then one game she became catcher.. e guys pushed her i think, too dark i cannot see.. then she cried noh, and said restart.. so brave eh.. after that dont want play ler ba, then went down chatted.. after that i went to sleep on e bed, kel really very lihai at stealing space.. quite afew ppl came in, les also slept at e end of e bed.. some slept at e corridor noh..

>day 3<
then i pushed kel no reaction.. les good lah, like sleeping on half e bed.. then i bth kel, i decided not to sleep.. i called ck up to sleep on e bed noh cos he sleeping on e floor.. its about 6+ gonna 7 ba.. then went down, kh sleep will kick his right leg de.. then blah blah, i kept falling asleep on e chair, alot of times.. very tired noh, then jm cooked maggi for us.. i ate ler, found my jacket, took back my toothpaste n left ler.. aft that kt one person took bus back home to amk.. e rest took mrt to lavender to eat.. i n benson took bus to tpy interchange.. at first not very tired, then i turned back saw him sleep ler.. i rest also.. hahah then not bad lah, quite fast reach tpy and then we wave wave.. then took bus home ler, our bus jst right reach noh.. actually compared to e rest, i slept quite alot ba.. then reached home slept for 4hours or so, after that went to bai nian.. went to bukit ho swee shaked many ppl hands, actually i got one cousin look like e kung fu hustle de stephen chow, no joke.. and then went to tiong bahru plaza, bought new set of clothes.. ate sakae sushi, then saw tanned shuai ge who looked like a guy who wooed me before (for less than 2yrs like that).. hahah, he kept walking arnd dont know doing what, our plates also nvr clear.. other ppl cleared noh.. -tsktsk- then ate alot til quite full, and then went shopping~ nike got so many nice shirts n pants nowadays, so trendy n unique also.. then see mirror then realised my skirt so baggy eh, i wore til damm low.. pull abit can come out liao, hahah too bad last piece and i like it very much so hack care jst buy e L size noh.. blah blah then took taxi go home, played abit of gb.. still tired n quite long nvr play, abit no feel and lao lao but still played.. then ^the end^ ba.. lalal~ its 3.15am now, zz..

if i stop dreaming. 1:01 AM +

Monday, February 21, 2005

f-\ what can i do \-f

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I say to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I change to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)

And love me... love me...

_^the corrs^_

if i stop dreaming. 9:12 PM +

f-\ the hardest thing \-f

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby, it's killin' me, it's killin' you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep

I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you

I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay

I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you

_^98degrees^_

if i stop dreaming. 8:05 PM +

f\ chalet was fun \f

this is a pic of us playing mini mahjong.. comp spoilt ler, very lousy and heart pain, so many things gone.. =( abit lazy to blog.. suddenly i feel like settling down.. hahah i may be young, but i jst feel like wanting so.. =S

if i stop dreaming. 1:00 AM +

Friday, February 18, 2005

f\ chalet number two \f

this afternoon went back to school with mingli n tzeyong noh.. was surprised to see tzeyong, i thot he jst walking past my hse de bus stop.. hahah, minqian came later.. then chatted with afew ppl, quite fun ba.. then fetched my mother n baby sis from shop n save, together go home.. thot raining, even got, nvm all thanks to johnny's umbrella.. lalal~ let me tell u a story.. at first i was going to meet wx, les n gwy arnd 7pm.. then kev came, he said he also meeting us cos he n wx working til 6pm.. but wl came then say meet at 12pm.. i said too early, so we discussed further.. we decided not to wait for wx and kev.. les n gwy meeting at 6pm, then asked us to join in also.. then wl said we going to amk, so i and wl discussed til nxt day then say.. then nxt day wl said he meeting johnson.. then i meet les n gwy at 6pm noh.. then les said johnson also meeting him.. so in the end we all still together go.. -.= lalal, confusing story right.. in e end dont know will what happen cos johnson lost ler.. hahah.. yea, going out to buy groceries for chalet ler.. bbyex cya on sunday.. remember bring camera okie.? =D im actually still abit sick.. =X

if i stop dreaming. 4:47 PM +

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

f\ i had crazy days.. but fun \f

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after afew seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.
_____________________

Dont ever leave the one you LOVE for the one you LIKE,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love!

Guys drinks to forget about the girl..
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..

When guys are in love, they become poorer..
But when girls are in love, they become prettier..

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive..
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love..
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl..
Girls break-up when they feel separation from her man..

if i stop dreaming. 1:29 AM +

Monday, February 14, 2005

f\ vday`05 \f

i think my fever and cold no more ler, left the cough.. hehh, yea later going out whole day ba.. quite afew ppl wished me happy vday eh.. i all never reply.. =X hahah, cos honestly.. im selfish, i wish to spend every special or not occasions with only one special person.. hahah.. thats why to choose go out with frens or bf, i mostly want spend my day with my bf.. but no more.. still its okay, my da ge ge said no worries, i have buddies, brothas and friends.. hmm, my best vday will be during sec3 ler.. last time i only hang out with my big brothas, then on vday after school.. they gave me one stalk of ferrero rocher flower.. then honestly i abit disappointed.. hahah, cos so many big bros, gimme one stalk of chocolate flower nia.. then that night, usually is only zs bro come fetch me.. then suddenly rest of e bros also there noh.. hahah, it was a pleasant surprised then.. then we walk walk to somewhere we can sit, they poured me many many small soft toys.. waa, i so happy noh.. cos all very cute and nice.. then they said they catch from bishan arcade there de (they very lihai in catching those toys).. then some is i told them i like de, they also catch.. then we played around with e toys, really funny.. oh ya, they also bought me a OP vday special pink shirt, got one heart with angel wings de.. which i said i like de also.. then that OP vday special shirt must buy 3 op shirts then can buy de, they were wearing it noh.. hahah.. then say next time we go out i also wear that op shirt.. hahah, yupp we did..

if i stop dreaming. 11:17 AM +

Sunday, February 13, 2005

f\ bitter \f

today my cousins came to my house, then their children so cute eh.. esp darren(or darryl i dont know), i was playing gb with leslei then he point here and there ask me what game is this.. then i told him "that is me" "that is my fren".. then i told him its lik streets fighter or pokemon, then can versus de.. he said he 6yrs old p1 noh.. then i told him e opposite team are bad ppl, then he point leslei say "thats me".. hahah, so cute noh.. whenever its leslei's turn, he will "my turn liao, chOooo.. yeah see i so lihai".. so cute til i keep missing.. abit stress arh, he keep looking at e screen then point here and there ask this and that.. kids really have good memories eh, he so long nvr come my house.. he still rmb what he did on his last visit to my house.. but too bad my bro not there to help him on xbox.. then i go bath, i let him anyhow play with my noob acc.. abit heartpain cos e acc % quite good, but nvm lah.. he dont know how to angle and power, let him use grub he kill himself.. then he use lightning better(cos angle small) but still every round lose.. hahah.. everybody want leave liao, he still want play noh.. so cute.. then went to bai nian at my mother side de.. everytime i go never see xiaopeng eh, so so long nvr see him ler.. from young we play together de, then joey also.. but i saw him at arcade play para para afew times ler.. hahah.. my mother side, to me lah.. all are those aunties uncles then ah huay ah seng de.. hahah.. my father side are more "wealthy" type noh.. hmm, then my mother side is more fun because my mother is the youngest, then her siblings' daughters and sons from young play together de.. then my father is well liked by them because he understand business stuff and he everytime make fun of people.. hahah.. today he made fun of my grandmother then everybody also kinda join in.. lazy to type ler.. lalal~ call me young yi-yi.. call my brother young jiu-jiu.. call my sister baby yi-yi.. x)

if i stop dreaming. 10:19 PM +

Saturday, February 12, 2005

f\ sick v2 \f

today went to the funfair, played the same ride when i came the other day.. hahah, abit sian ba.. my frens either scare headache all that, or no money.. then this noon when taking e medicine.. i vomited e medicine out and cried.. hahah, i felt abit xin ku ba, and they are really very bitter.. lalala,. another chalet.. wee`

if i stop dreaming. 10:03 PM +

Friday, February 11, 2005

f\ sick \f

today wake up then waa.. my body feel so hot eh.. then my eyes very tired.. i checked my temperature, 39.5degrees.. my mother got shocked noh.. then ate abit of lunch, took panadol then sleep ler.. wake up still same temperature 39.5.. zz.. yesterday got headache eh, then after watch finish movie abit hao ler.. i think its someone spread his illness to me, but nevermind ba.. then bath then become 38.8degrees liao, and feeling better.. =] still got cough, running nose and abit of sneezing.. sad eh, fever means cannot go bai nian.? and first time see my bro so caring towards me, pour a big bottle of water for me and say must drink then help me put aside, help me take temperature.. hehh..

now its 8.40pm, jst went to see doc.. heng my mama ask me wear long sleeve and jeans, outside de wind so big.. i feel so cold eh.. hahah, e doc said i tio e flu (again).. then ate porridge noh, eating and coughing and having running nose.. hahah, then use finish all e tissue.. waa, e fever medicine need to take two ma, thats e most bitter ones i ever tasted (yucks).. then i no key, my didi pei me go home, my parents and mei go buy meat for my tmr's meals ba.. my papa asked us to walk, then my didi said "she too weak lah".. then my mama "waa so caring to his sis" in hokkien, although she quite far, i can hear noh.. hahah.. then at e bus stop my didi say "why u so old no bf, u quite good wa".. then he said "u like got alot of admirers wa, and alot of boy friends".. hahah, he like abit weird weird de why so concerned eh.. then i said i not old lah, then we waited so long, i said lets walk home ba.. he said "can ma" i say lets go.. then as we walk, he ask me so many riddles and jokes, all so simple de.. as i walk arh, i saw one by one afew guys wearing my ex's pants.. then think of him noh, then my didi kept yakking, i abit nvr listen.. hahah.. then ask him repeat, he said "i said so long leh".. then i excuse "so long then i dont understand ma".. yea, then must drink plenty of water.. lalala..

if i stop dreaming. 2:39 PM +

Thursday, February 10, 2005

f\ happy lunar new year to all \f

having headaches and very tired nowadays.. sleep late, go home(to me) also quite late.. hahah, poor leslei.. haixx, feeling so uncomfortable, vomit and vomit.. sorry wasted food, especially abalone.. i learnt my lesson ler.. i will try not to do it again, unless i just want to lah.. hahah.. x)

if i stop dreaming. 1:37 AM +

Thursday, February 03, 2005

f\ my story \f

im not supposed to love you..
im not supposed to care for you..
im not supposed to wonder..
where you are and what you do..
im not supposed to live my life..
wishing you will be there for me..
giving me support..
im sorry..
i cannot help myself..
simply because im in love with you..

sweet beginnings..
bitter endings..
love wasnt fair to be start with..
it starts with a smile :)
grows with a kiss <3
and ends with a tear );

my mind's made up..
by the way that i feel..
theres no beginning..
there'll be no end..
cause i can never pretend..

love never has an ending..
but a story can have an ending ..

if i stop dreaming. 1:16 AM +