Wednesday, May 18, 2005
f~the love may be fake, yet the heart always stay true~f
Damm. I'm soo freaking tired arr..
woots, today went to my institution, wasnt really far actually.. 45mins or so ba, hmm woke up real early, 6 like that then laze 15mins.. went out took bus to interchange, then took bus8.. lucky it was a double decker, then listen to my walkman, listen to e song then cried.. -.= i dont really understand ba, probably still emotional, or is there a deep scar.? i dont really know, anyway reached liao, got ppl asked me do survey, remembered one girl name nia.. hahah, then qued up to take our matrixcard, its like our id ba.. psst, e photo i took i really looked very mature, hehh.. after that went into e auditorium, real huge.. then alot of things lah, briefing then cheers, video clips then briefing then cheer again.. then my course really alot of guys sia, and very spontaneous sia, will just like that shout out and sometimes shoot e emcee.. i abit paiseh arh i didnt participate in any of e cheers, i just laughed and clapped, its weird, also no friend to support me.. got many talented ppl ba, played band, e electic guitarists are great, e singer is great.! oo he really sounded like Red Hot Chilli Pepper that main singer, so man right.. hehh, then im in e first class of mechantronics, then got 7 or more classes i think, each class only 1 or 2 girl nia noh.. hahah this class is not really e study class noh, lesson classes will assign again, then everybody mix up they say.. e class we got assigned, is like share problems de, then we under one teacher call our Care Person.. yeah, time table haven ready yet, cos still got DAE de students haven know appeal results arh.. oo im e class rep eh, so fast arh, hahah so fast can earn SEAL points liao.. its like CCA de points noh, oo still cannot decide sia.. photography, drama, sports or music de.? sheez, i like so many, so many to choose from, i cant decide sia.. hmm and my class heng got one girl noh, Jessica.. err shes really cute noh, then she kept saying she fat.. i think shes just chubby ba, but still cute, and shes one year my senior noh, cos she graduated from 5n.. whao she stayed at bukit batok sia, even further than me, needa wake even earlier than me sia.. hmm then we got to know our Care Person, his name is.. hahah, i forget liao.! then he talked alot arh, alot of logic.? hahah hmm i really like to look at ppl talking arh, got unique or cute style or pattern de.. its like very special and nice to look at, hahah.. =S then what arh, oo got free food, rice with vege and toufu and chicken arh.. we eating, he still talking eh, say treat him as radio or what.. he really really, really got alot to say.. some going rounds, whao some really funny sia and his actions.. and then went downstairs, sat on floor, did cheers again, learn new de also.. hahah whole school of mine no friend, only one senior friend, he saw me.. he said waa my eye bags so big, hahah i said yes i haven get use to it, and no i also got put eyeliner.. =X hmm then tour around, sight seeing arh.. then saw vid kor arh, didnt know will see him at tp, hahah.. hmm he cannot recognise me or what sia.? anyway then toured finish liao, sat on e field de tracks there.. hahah got one guy looked really like jay chou sia, but some part dont really look like.. hmm then e institution has its own DANCE, its like everybody must know de, its known as a legendary mass dance.. omg its suppose to be a girl and a boy noh, then i got a partner.. my friend, J also have.. then guess what, i think cos my partner more shuai than hers (hes really decent looking de shuai sia, thou hes quiet, he still look decent.. hers is abit nerd ba), she want exchange place with me.. i said no need lah, then she nevermind.. then know what, when e emcee said girls at front row, she exchanged place with her partner arh, i abit slow de, then she switched with my partner.. meaning i will be dancing with her, im a "guy".. then got ppl caught lah, they asked whos ur partners.. i pointed my partner, he pointed at me, then J's partner pointed at her.. if i were to change place, i obviously had to change with my partner ma to save e trouble, which ends me with J's partner.. oo shes smart or cunning i dont know, my mother said she had a strong bud of jealousy.. waa my mother scolded me for her, she said this kinda friend no good, dont want.. but i dont really care so much wa, somemore this current class only i and her are girls.. hmm then anyway e dancing was really fun sia, very tiring yet funny.. then after that learn finish liao, we danced e CHICKY DANCE, soo suuper duuper fun sia.. hmm dance one last time e legendary mass dance, hahah really sweated alot and damm tired noh.. after that went back classroom take stuff then go home ler, on e way back i went up e bus, i didnt get to sit or lazy to find.. it was single deck, then i stood for more than 45mins like that.? reached interchange took bus again, still no seat stood somemore.. haixx really very tired sia, my legs one day really paralyze i could blame nobody or nothing, just myself.. last time walk too much, now sit too less.. tomorrow is gonna be horrible, 8.30am gonna reach school is good news, cos today 8am.. then ends at 10PM, dammit sia, cos got what bbq and campfire arh.. i really gonna go bongkaz, headache sia, must sleep more.. oo yaa very interesting, my course no need laptop, only need tools (screwdriver all those), hahah i will be a good engineer de.. ^^
hmm, last time i posted "please forgive me" is for u, thou i dont know u know anot.. anyway now i listen to liang jing ru's "jie shou", its for u.. i cried, yes i did.. what does that mean, is it e words, is it that they are talking about me, is it my failure, or my past or u, or is it that they are so related.? is it bcos theres a scar, or is it that im just emotional, or is it e memories which hurt.? memories could never be forgetten, ups downs sweet bitter.. i started to think, if i were to be married, will i still cry bcos of things related to e past, yet my hubby sure dont like ma.. hmm im probably stubborn, or just uncertain.. i dont have any intentions, some things when they collapse and fall, and break and shattered, its hard to pick up e pieces and mend them back.. but one thing is still for sure, i wish u happy, even thou i curse u when i was mad.. if u find someone special, i hope u will be happy, and i bet she will give u many things i couldnt give u, or even better.. =] i never hate u, u can ask any of my friends..
if i stop dreaming. 11:29 PM +
-=perfect day=-
i was fretting last night
lost out in the cold
couldnt see the light
then he opened up the door
i came in from the dark
fell into his arms
just in time
wow i know that ive
left the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
theres a look in his eyes
that makes me feel all right
lights the perfect sky
that i couldnt see before
that he helped me to find
now that ive seen him shine
i know ill never be alone
cause now i know that i
have love i cant deny
wont let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
i think i lost you in another life
a part of me that ive left behind
i wont go on without you
and now i know that i
have put the past behind
i let it go
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
you could tell me tonight
that maybe the world would end
that the sun wouldnt rise
and it was gonna rain again
just as long as hes in my arms
its gonna be a perfect day
its gonna be a perfect day
