--bail me out, im just guilty for falling--

Sunday, June 26, 2005

f~if it is so popular, why dont i like it~f

hii, just now went out..
hear e 5cents per minute plan thingy..
hahah, had an interesting talk with a bunch of adults..
they were chatting ma, then think they very cute..

anyway yesterday midnight, still online ma..
suddenly got one private number called..
so i just answer noh..
he was like "hello ah girl arh.."
i was "hello who are you.?"
he said "oo i dont think you know me"..
i was "huh.? then why you calling me"..
he then said "you last time isit got go irc de.? nick isit ahgirl.?"
i said "yaa.." and he said "oo maybe you know me lah.."

it was freaking weird arh..
then i was abit scared also, hahah..
so i said "err next time then talk.."
he asked "oo, busy arh.."
i said "yaa, bye"..

hahah wth sia.. dont know who.?
dont tell me nicholas, but that guy's voice more man..
hope he wont dii siao me anymore..

oo, on friday.. i went to watch A Lot Like Love..
hahah purposely bought midnight tix..
oo it was a very nice show..
its like.. 2 years later meet, together.. then seperate..
another 2 years later meet, together.. then seperate..
total of 7 years, still together or rather finally together.. so fun arh..

oo was at crc, wished vincent happy birthday..
then play lan arh, play with outsiders..
hahah was arguing away with my team mates..
they say i childish, lalals.. i dont care..
they more childish noh, DIE MEANS FEED..
WHAT SENSE.. but we never angry at each other lah..
play game sometimes have to take risk and chiong ma..
or else wont be so exciting liao, kekek..
hahah then my score e best, 1 kill and 1 death..
cos they all steal my frags de, IDIOTS.!

so long never blog ler, hahah..
im so sadded arh..
firstly, elf interview.. failed..
i didnt get into elf, paul bluffed me..
he said i got a big chance, in e end.. im not in e list..
sighh, but doesnt matter.. im still in ac..

secondly, i thot visual central will email to my hotmail..
waited so long, no mail, thot haven start..
yuan lai, they email to TP account de..
piangs~ then e day i checked mail..
was e day e registration for a workshop closed.!

so saddening..
oo finally all e quizzes over ler..
but dont think ckt can make it, thou i was late to class..
i first to chiong out, HAH..
cos i finish fast, of cos.. and i cant remember..
got mistakes, due to careless or remembered wrongly noh..
so louzy memory i have.. =(

oo i also first to finish for IT and engdraw quizes..
yea im nuts.. sorry if i make you feel stress sitting beside me..
^^ my typing quite fast ba, and i have some interest in them noh..
for lab, slowly getting used to it noh.. did quite fast also..
hahah, remember that day nothing to do.. just practice on our own..
nigel go make 120++V, by connecting two dcc machines together..
COOL right, was like making many sparks and burning stuff..
XD

hmm, sometimes i think e ckt lab tcher..
abit.. dont know.. e feeling..
like hes abit odd.. kekek.!
BOTH e ckt tchers are weird.!
lec tcher christopher diong likes to SMILE ALOT..
well wells, ckt made them crazy.? =S

rest of e papers, theres a possibility to get full marks de noh..
yea, then next week exam period ler.. after that, break.. how sweet..
i cant think of any outing arh, why arent you all giving me ideas.?
really want chalet, oversea, cruise..?

oo yaa, hahah.. i think im quite good at engdrawing ma..
then that dominic tcher, OMG sia.. (why cant he say my name, hes always calling me class rep)
i dont know whats he doing, hahah..
i was talking away, suddenly got someone hitting my head..
i turn, he was using e worksheet to hit my head..
so i took it noh, and he never say anything.. or i never hear.?
then i continued talking..
someone hit my head again, and again was him hitting my head with another worksheet..
i was shocked this time, i took e paper and asked what you doing..
hahah, i didnt catch what he said arh.. or he never say, or i couldnt hear..
but really odd lah, really funny noh..

so thats all.. tomorrow bringing camera, again..
this time hope to take everybody, at least someone ask me to bring de..
XD dont know you are vain or self loving..
yet im honoured to be your personal photographer, mr six-pac aka pull-up guy.. LOL~

chaos.
my heart stays the same; wondering why..

if i stop dreaming. 9:27 PM +

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

f~really addicted to music, just like you as my eye candy~f

OMG, i met him.! after two years, i finally met him again..
hahah really freaking qiao noh, somemore same school as me..

it was like, i saw this guy freaking familiar walking past when i was sitting down at canteen..
then i eat eat, i suddenly remember noh.. OMG, hahah..
then i want to see him again, after school really saw him behind me..
so i approached him, but he dont recognise me sia..
to confirm, i asked him he went to Japan last last year with his sis and mother right..
hahah, then i told him i was e birthday girl, he remembered liao..
he also abit surprised noh.. then he turn out to be same school as me also..

hahah, really funny sia.. hmm he grew abit old, then not as shuai i saw him before liao.. =X

so lalals, nowadays got quiz arh..
currently doing.. great~ kekek..
feel so smart, hahah oops..
please dont feel stress sitting beside me, i can teach you also de, YOU KNOW.?
hahah, so albert never talk to me liao since then..
they say why so fast chapter close, ayy i dont mind de actually..
we are still friends ba, cos i chat with him in msn he got reply arh..
hahah sometimes i feel like asking him "ehh you dont friend me liao arh"..
but like abit childish, so forget it.. i also never lose anything..

what uh, oo saw my msn space de blog.?
\you turned your back.
i cant see you, but you are still there.. gosh, actually i dont know why i still think of you.. probably i still love you, but somehow i cant go back.. i held too tight, and i let you go.. left me with shattered pieces, each piece lost wherever we went to.. wonder what you think, or are you still a coward.? anyway you changed your number, i cant contact you cos i dont know.. i knew its over cos you changed all your passwords also.. well well, its been 4 months liao.. i wonder what you did to that box, or you didnt recieve it and its gone.? anyway so take care, it doesnt matter.. like that song goes, i will find love in someone else one day.. =]
kekek, didnt know i so "chi qing" hor..
actually not much of "chi qing" ba, its just cant forget noh..
anyway ive been isolated by him..
whenever i wanted to talk to him, i will think of those things he had done..
then i dont feel like talking to him liao, its so obvious..

today i abit keesiao i admit, hahah cos not enough sleep arh..
i played dota til 1am+ sia, really crazy..
went school abit fun arh, =S hahah..
oo yesterday more funny..
was sitting at e top row ma, then was playing around..
then that stoopid junli sitting infront of me, pulled me sia.!
and i fell down one row lah, freaking funny and shocked..
everybody scold junli noh, xia si wo ler..
then i pull myself back up noh, heng never tease or what arh.. or very paiseh de eh..

junli still dare to say "want to fly anot", when i listurb him..
tsktsk, and heng never wear skirt.. =p
oo vincent (a friend i met at camp) asked me out sia, see movie..
aiyo actually we hardly know each other, he always send me those nice msgs..
can like sense something arh, but too bad im not interested in this vincent.. =S
err abit bad sia, i kinda rejected him.. in a way..
then he like abit sad sia..

well wells, tired arh..
more tests, zz..
tomorrow gonna shop for my mp3 player, YEAH..
like my friends alot, never a dull day.. lalals..

if i stop dreaming. 9:54 PM +

Saturday, June 11, 2005

f~i cant see you, but you are still there~f

hiiya, so long never blog ler..

this week nothing much arh.. got tanner and tanner.. =S
hahah, cos went to adventure camp.. then today went e high and low elements thingy..
got suntan, again~ then today really shiok i guess..
its like low elements are for team work, so okok.. quite fun..
then high elements, all i can make it.. except that climb up e log then jump to grab that stick..
so sickening, i cant jump.!

anyway its still great to know more and more friends too, lalals..
oo yaa, so yesterday i did went out with albert..
i found him, then i was like standing talking to him, while hes sitting down..
then my friend from another corner was like signaling me to sit down..
hahah actually i wanted to, but albert like never say anything ma..
hmm, then at first thot he not gentleman.. and we went up e bus noh..
we chatted, hmm he doesnt like to study at all arh.. his mama force him de..
so kelian, and hes not really paikia ba.. maybe abit..

hahah i still remember, my friends were like so worried..
say be careful, must go back in one piece, and one person..
meaning, dont have another person in me lah, hah..
then get back, we played pool noh.. hes quite good i guess..
only some shots he slack, or let me.. im not sure..
cos im very louzy, =( i won 3 cos he shot in 8ball..
and he won 5 times lah, he everything also better than me..
we everytime play msn games (cos he was bored)..
he said he louzy all those, then he kept winning me de..
yaa, then he treated me sia.. so quite gentleman.. ^^

and he off to e JJ concert in my school, while i slept in e bus..
haixx, maybe bcos of e weather arh..
almost my whole class got sore throat eh.. so lihai right..
we were like blaming jess, cos she likes to HEM HEM loud loud..
then we blamed her for spreading e virus noh..
err actually i think its not true ba.? later she saded arh..

just reached home, going out again.. lalals

then thats all ba, nothing to say liao..
kekek, why that guy everytime wear same colour shirt as me.? =X

=shou fang kai, xue zhe deng dai=

if i stop dreaming. 6:53 PM +

Monday, June 06, 2005

f~muscle strains + sun burn = PAIN~f

today, fun day.. but very tired arh..
hmm laughed almost whole day cos of jess right.. =P
and some other craps and jokes lah..

hahah, then what uh..
oo, was at lecture hall.. then suddenly one guy behind tapped my shoulder..
then i turned back, he said want to get my number..
i was so shocked, so direct like that..
then i see another side, looking and thinking..
cos mostly my bros will help me reject arh..
then i was staring at my friend, he also like blurr blurr de..
hahah then i think hao liao, so ownself said dont want.. =X
but that guy said not for himself de, its his friend want de.. then said make friends lah..
hmm then i anything noh..
waa i was really totally in shock noh, first time got ppl suddenly like that actually..
cos totally dont know him de, not my friend friend nor what.. xS

i very kelian leh, everytime kena teased by my friends..
they made one long list of "boyfriends" for me, kaos.!
actually i felt very paiseh eh, and abit uneasy..
its like jess may felt sad.?

haixx, then freaking tired lah..
yaa i was buai song today, cos..
i dont know why arh, i somehow did alot of things..
mostly is i initiative ownself do de noh..
somehow somewhat, lalals..
then e guy like no respect never call name or what, just whistle to ask me help him pass up..
ayy, then i ignore e rest who called me.. =X and was really tight hearted lah..
really buai song noh, then i dont care just go out and with my friends, sure better de..
cos we everytime crap and make fun of each other ma.. =]

yaa, thou we just knew each other for less than 2weeks..
its agreed that we are like we knew each other for very long..

yeah, [JAN]^2 rules..
really qiao stuffs:
2Js - Jessica, James.
2As - Alicia (me), Alton.
2Ns - Nigel, Nat.
register numbers:
1. Alicia
2. Nigel
3. James
15. Nat
16. Jessica
17. Alton
surnames:
Alicia Ang, Nigel Ang. distant cousins.?
Jessica Teo, Nataniel Teo. distant cousins also.?

really qiao, and super nice right.? =P
oo yaa, sometimes they tease me till quite stress sia..
hope i wont get angry with them, or else.. i dont know what to say ler.. =S
and tomorrow its Nigel's birthday~

if i stop dreaming. 9:14 PM +

Sunday, June 05, 2005

f~never judge book by its cover, sometimes also read between e lines~f

oo finally back from that adventure camp, yeah.! on friday, after school went tpy with milky, then had dinner together went home.. then pack finish my stuff, i took taxi to school noh.. lazy arh, cos it will be my first time going to pulau ubin ma, so just bring everything on e list given.. and my bag super big lah, still got water bottle and sleeping bag eh.. hmm so reached there just on time, 6pm yaa its weird to go camp quite late in e afternoon hor, not morning de.. then made one friend soonwai, cos i see her alone just talk to her noh.. i went that camp alone leh, i dont know anybody in e whole camp de, they all say i so steady arh, hahah.. then what uh, oo at first my team "Belatok" (nobody knows what it means, even e seniors) got 5 ppl only, then slowly slowly got more of cos.. anyway in e end got 14 ppl arh, hahah i think e most ppl.. then first night was at school camping all those noh, got night walk then played games de.. my team is a very energitic and quirky group noh, cos we shortformed our group name to "batok", buttock lah.. then invented crazy batok cheers, kekek.. yaa its really fun to be with them arh, then at night sleep under e fan in e sports hall.. blah blah then next morning woke up at 6, but actually dont know why very hard to sleep arh.. soonwai and i chatted alot also, so qiao she was my pri school mate sia, but i dont know her.. then i keep on sleep wake sleep wake noh, so woke quite early.. then we brush teeth all those, and still early we went to see sunrise arh.. but cannot see, only can see moving clouds and e smiley moon.. after breakfast, we setted off to ubin noh.. very fun lah, but ubin has nothing.. no light, no water, no good food, no nothing noh.. e thing which ubin got alot is organisms, like weird looking insects, lotsa mosquitoes, eww.. next day we went trekking, some sorta treasure hunt, walked alot and sweated alot.. moreover cannot bath, hahah but have to tahan lah.. and we camped beside e beach noh, and we had to pitch our own tent, and e worst part was my group got 7 girls noh.. then boys also full, cannot share.. so dinner we ownself cook de eh, use alot of simple equipments noh, and not bad lah.. then at night we had campfire, each team had to perform noh, hahah.. alot of funny skits noh, then washed up.. not really washing up de, just wipe body and change.. but alot of ppl never even wipe body nor change de, hahah like survivor lah.. but e most important stuffs are insect repellent and powder, without them really cannot survive i think.. then chatt chatt, then went our own night walk, which was completely dark everywhere de, cannot see a thing de.. we didnt walk far lah, alot of ppl scared.. hmm after that talk cok somemore, then go sleep.. haixx sad case arh, cos 2 girls oready slept then they occupied quite some space in e middle, we seperate 2 one side, 3 one side and rolled into balls and sleep noh.. morning woke up, so many mosquitoes in e tent, so surprised that i got no bites at all.. hahah, then slacked abit, 8+ then woke my team friend, together go brush teeth noh.. oo yaa, i dont understand sia.. in e toilet got one big bucket, inside filled with stailed water, its like as if for e mosquitoes to bear their babies arh.. its really crazy noh, everywhere got mosquito, toilet also got.. hahah its so sick noh, then after that ate breakfast.. then ppl got chosen to play tug-o-war, hmm after that cleared our tents, and kept them.. then we setted off to basketball court there, played games and ate lunch.. hah i learnt alot of new games during this camp arh, some quite fun.. hmm then made fun of e very hyper and crazy guy, we said do what he really go do noh.. crazy guy noh, hahah.. then got two guys asked for my number, actually im not sure for what lah.. then finally took ferry back to changi, took bus back to school and finally took taxi home again.. must bath very clean from top to toe noh, or else like very lisgusting.. yea and abit of muscle strain, and tio sunburn also.. hahah arms also got afew poka dots, they say its sand flies.. but dont itch de leh, hmm then next saturday maybe going to play low and high elements, yeah thats what i want actually.. then i actually miss my classmates eh, we shared alot of things then got more things to talk ma.. at e camp, its like not much things to talk about de.. hmm anyway tonight gonna sleep early i guess, i cant sleep now also.. =P playing online games with my friends..

if i stop dreaming. 4:53 PM +

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

f~i can see it in my heart, dream is just a waste of time~f

hiyee, long time no blog ler.. why.? cos very busy of course.. monday after school, james nigel jess and me went to eat lunch first.. cos alton went home take rackets, while nat went to play his bball.. then we chatt chatt, they actually said bad things about one of our friends sia.. hahah it was like, we knew each other for about a week only, we started to say bad things behind his back.. hahah funny right, then e booking time liao, we went to play badminton in our school's sport complex noh.. rented somemore racket, there were alot of people sia, cos it was e same day as badminton cca trial.. then james didnt join us arh, he always pangseh us de.. =X but its alright lah, then we asked for our court noh.. hmm then we played 2by2 at first, woo i and alton quite strong lah, we stayed for 3-4 rounds.. then i think i got tired abit, so lost noh.. and we get to rest anyway, hahah after that played 1by1 de.. hmm after that we left at 7+ like that, and it was quite dark liao.. hmm yesterday also abit crazy arh, hahah.. i suddenly split out my secret, hahah.! not what big deal secret lah, its just that.. i usually look everybody equally, so i may tend to get crush on both guys and girls.. but not all lah of cos, its like to me, shes very attractive then i may admire her noh, but im still straight lah.. yaa then i finished school at 5 ma, then i went to suntec find weiling.. it was fun lah thou, chionged arcade for afew hours.. hahah quite nice noh, then went to eat arh.. saw afew restaurants, but either exp or not suitable our taste.. then we decided to go pizza hut eat arh, eat til quite shiok also.. damm full noh, then her someone also at there working.. hmm then considered we ate quite alot eh, hahah growing fat for one day nia.. i need alot of energy to carry my heavy bag and books, and walk long distances de noh, and im also not afraid of getting fat or what.. hmm then eat finish liao, she still want play arcade sia.. oo we played e bball game, quite fun sia.. but cant beat e high score lah, its really crazy noh 190+.. e highest we got was 48 i think, hahah i think must score every ball and fast fast then can beat.. then played finish liao, we went to cd shop where she bought her cd.. then we sat down, chatt alot of stuffs arh.. laughed and listen to our discman, hahah.. shared afew stuffs also, then she also waiting for alvin noh.. hmm then 11 liao, we went down to find him and they dialed for cab noh.. hahah dialed afew times then finally got cab to go home eh.. so i said crazy day becos i reached home at 11.30 like that noh, then my mama nagged lah.. say no need go school next day all that, lalals.. then slept, today wanted to go wc pop.. in e end i really really dont know whats going on sia.. nobody answered me, i got pangsehed lah.. walked around and stood around for nothing, i was so tired and sad lah.. hahah, but its alright ba.. waa then today also got maths bonus test, so sad lah.. if my last qns wrong, it will be careless mistake noh, will be so disappointed.. haixx, why like that, i want to get full marks de noh.. hahah actually i dont mind lah.. hmm and we went to e cybercentre, played their comp.. so fun but no lan games sia.. oo i brought my camera today arh, then took photo with two potato heads.. hahah quite cute arh, but only i and jess took.. e rest shy arh, and even say those things are ugly, cute noh, lalals.. later after lunch, i and nigel nothing to do arh.. nat played bball, jess went mahjong.. then i and nigel just walked around e school for hours noh, and chatting, hahah.. many things we are almost opposite noh, like he like this, i like that.. quite interesting, lalals.. then busy busy busy lah, friday going to pulau ubin liao, sunday then come back.. hahah, everybody say will become "black" (actually should be tan) after i come back.. shall see ba, then got homework to do noh, hand up on friday, another is ready by monday.. hahah oo i always kena bullied in class leh.. not so lah, but like kena listurbed noh.. what people are falling in love with me, cos they asked and got my contacts.. rubbish noh.. i talk to guys, they kept "oo why never continue somemore, we dont mind de".. hahah heyy come on noh, i had to "take care" of 1girl and 20boys, cannot help it de right.. simple minded, hahah.! then today also abit paiseh, i wore pink, james also wore pink.. then i felt so odd sia, heng we agreed someone should sit inbetween us.. but he got stood next to me, i oready felt weird.. hahah, but its alright lah.. we are all friends, happy family remember, infront of e cable tv we sqeeze together in e seats.. lalals~
oo yaa, i want to say something.. afew asked, and some wondered, can i really just like that forget my past.? of cos not lah, still will think back and yaa i do love him.. but really, some things done may be leading to hate, so its hard to turn back.. some things are also shattered, hard to mend back.. so dont ask anymore, but i dont mind cos i dont have any hard feelings towards such things anymore.. so just let it be lah, i knew i cant do anything, thats all..
KEYS..signing out..

if i stop dreaming. 11:21 PM +