--bail me out, im just guilty for falling--

Saturday, July 16, 2005

f~ive learnt to let go, i will be happy for you~f

hiiya, im back to blog..
did nothing much during this holiday arh..
hahah, yesterday chose CDS.. =S

at first say hao hao 10am choose, then..
i tired arh, so i about 12 then go choose noh.. =X
then dont have film in e choices given, dont know why..
im so sadded, hahah..

oo then played maple, as usual..
then les called me noh, say go watch wetdreams2 at bishan..
and at first meet 5.30, changed to 6..
went to tpy interchange, only saw wx..
and we went to bishan noh, hahah..
on e bus saw my pri school friend, and ex neighbour..
but i think he couldnt recognise me..

so we went there, and roxanne, les, chris were there..
then johnson came, then isaac, then tuck..
so saddening de lah they, tu til change to fantasic4..
in e end never watch anything sia.. =S
tuu til blame here and there, very funny..
hahah, nevermind noh.. xi guan jiu hao..

then some ate ler, some of us haven eat, hungry..
no place at bishan, so go back tpy..
eat burger king, after that zl came also.. then dota..
gonna keesiao noh, everyday face computer..
at home, computer.. outside, still computer.. XD

play play, quite fun de.. hahah..
until third match, e last then not fun liao..
dont know why too laggy, then gave me headache.. =(
after that go home noh, hahah..
continue mapling.. everynight still same, 2+ to 3+ sleep..

next day (today) woke up at 10, cos tuck say 1 meet at bishan..
we going gym ma, hahah.. last week improper attire.. =X
then in e end change to 2.30 meet..
hahah, made me so sleepy..
then reached there, made my bus pass, BROKE..
went to find isaac, konghong also there.. hahah they just finish tennis ma..
after that find tuck noh, he stomachache.. =S

then we walked to e gym there, so many ppl there.. -.=
nevermind noh, then did alot of workout..
i abit lazy lah, i do one 5mins, change.. 5mins change..
lazy to run also, zz.. no lah, cos i dread running.. =}
then after that do hands and legs stuffs, not bad..
but cannot put too much weight, cannot even lift up..

then do e chin up thingy, hahah i didnt know how to step out..
i just step out, then e weight drop down BOOM.!!
hahah, everybody turned sia.. then i super paiseh, they also.. =X
then e instructor came to see noh, hahah.. see got spoil anot..
hehh, then she ask me want try anot.. i say dont want, i cannot..
then she said i can, why you cannot.. hahah..

so she taught me how to use that thingy noh, wont BOOM anymore.. XD
then after that we keesiao arh, fooled around..
tuck gone crazy, hahah, they so cute de noh.. lalals..
hmm then did some more workout, then went wash up noh..
they washed up so long de.. -.=

hmm, after that went to e pasar malam there..
hahah then we bought some food, then tuck left ler..
and i, kh and isaac went kfc noh..
we ordered "One Buddy Meal", hahah..
"yO yO wAsSuP, One Buddy Meal" =X
used up all my cash noh, totally empty wallet..

yea then ate finish, went to buy my thing.. kekek..
just my zen neeon de stik-on lah, yea so pretty now.. ^^
actually want buy e skirt from newworldorder noh, very pretty..
but no discount, so didnt buy.. ayy, how sad.. 30+bucks, no money..
then walked around, then went home ler..

oo kh say he want dye back his hair, means dye black..
ayy he say ppl think he paikia, i suddenly feel i ruined myself also..
hahah, im guai kia.. should i dye back my hair.?

anyway, actually never went home noh, i saw kh to his house there..
then on e way home, hahah actually very tired de..
in e end i went entertainment de sakae help my family take que..
hahah i saw so many ppl, i thot they inside liao..
in e end they haven reach, heng i took que noh, hahah..
i walked there, they took bus.. -.=

so sad, i should not have eaten that kfc, used my money..
hahah, quite full ler so ate abit sashimi and dessert nia..
sibeh shiok that itailian dessert, feel like trying all.. =p
very funny noh, we workout, then i ate so full..
like wasted.. -.=
nevermind, will go workout again ba..

hmm nothing much, hahah..
suddenly.. i found someone very cute.. ^^
in my class hor, i only think hes cute..
holiday gonna end ler, oww.. monday got lab test, oww..
hahah, actually i prefer schooling.. YEAH..

if i stop dreaming. 11:53 PM +

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

f~look for the girl with her broken smile, hidden tears~f

yozzie, hahah.. just came back..
today went out with kaisheng and shawn..
err, nothing much..
went to douby ghaut de arcade noh..

hahah, kaisheng say meet at 2.45, i 2.45 then go bath and leave house..
then i took taxi, then actually no need de.. -.=
hahah, went there dont know where e place..
was walking down e stairs, then oo its just up another stairs..
so hidden, no wonder so few ppl there lah..

then just chiong arcade noh, played alot of games..
video games, shooting games, para also..
then went to ps, cos kaisheng said he hungry..
then waa, he really treat me e seafood coroke sia..
hmm, then went to ps de arcade.. see ppl catch e toy..

hahah, so suay de noh.. they caught e toy..
but when e claw went up, jerked.. then e toy dropped..
ALOT of ppl like that, then ALOT of money wasted..
and ALOT of ppl gave up in e end, hahah..

japan de better, their toys super big and quite exp de..
then e ppl there very good de, i still remember..
they will approach then ask which you like..
then they will put at e hole there, say push e toy in.. XD
then if still cannot, they open and put closer..
its like touch abit drop ler noh, hahah good right..

anyway then they all bluffed me, i was gonna dine outside..
hahah, but in e end at least they good..
pei me eat, hahah.. i dont mind ppl looking at me eat de..
then eat and chat noh, hahah e noodles suks.. =X

and eat finish liao, go back that mrt there de arcade..
hahah, then played awhile more noh..
hmm actually told wx i will go crc, hahah.. in e end i 8+ then leave e place..
chionged there, in e end zhenleong say no need..
haixx, always like that de.. hahah..
then played dota noh..

teamed with kev, chris and wx.. then les, johnson and zl another team..
first match won them, second match we lost..
but chris nuts, ownself kill our throne.. -.=
then after that, went home noh..
so so tired, abit headache.. but cant sleep..

oo i dreamt of him again.. why.? i was happy in e dream..
yet im such a fool, hahah..
anyway dont stay, i will forget you..

if i stop dreaming. 11:59 PM +

Monday, July 11, 2005

f~im afraid to close my eyes, theres you deep inside me~f

hii, waa this afternoon internet got problem eh..
i think, or my comp got problem.?
anyway..

yesterday (sunday) went to bishan de gym noh..
with tuck and isaac..
oo before that, saw m502 de CP, hahah..
forget his name, so i just say "you m502 CP right.?"
hahah then i told him where im from, he asked me where i go..
blah blah..

then met them liao, went to e gym..
hahah, then we squeeze our stuffs into e 40cents locker..
they contributed 20cents each, then put in liao..
nevermind, i forget put in handphone..

hahah then open, then i contributed 40cents..
nevermind, i improper attire.!
omg noh, i was so paiseh.. not allowed to e gym..
hahah, then e instructor gave us refund within a week de..
so next weekend then go.. -.=
i was really paiseh noh.. they can go, but didnt go..
sorry sorry..

then after that, stucked..
so went to see children doing gymnastics..
very nice noh, i got think before why i young my mother never let me learn..
how fun sia, hahah can sumersaut..

after that, we wanted call ppl arh..
but like nobody de.. hahah..
so we went j8 buy something, then isaac went back ler..
and we went to crc meet zhenleong..

hahah played first round, was join other ppl de game..
then we owned them lah, very fun..
after that, got younger boys asked to play..
they total got 6ppl, we 3 nia.. =(
still got clan somemore, tsktsk.. then we sorta got trashed lah..
XD got afew round kill them, but in e end still lose lah..

anyway after that, we went to hawker center..
too many ppl, so went my house downstairs de "ze cha"..
hahah, we ordered horfun, which they didnt prefer actually..
and ku lu yok, and tie ban toufu.. and they had plain rice..

hahah i still remember i was in school canteen..
wanted to order toufu, i kept saying tower..
dont know what im thinking.. -.=

anyway we ate super long noh, we talked alot sia..
hahah so long, that even thot of running away, but better not lah..
then kept saying those funny stuffs, like last time sec school de things..
very funny noh, sometimes dont know we are naughty or just smart..

oo, then i in my school.. dont know why so simple eh..
so simple that, my expectation turned high..
i kept aiming for full marks.. -.=
but usually i cant remember acouple of stuffs de.. hahah..
get at least distinction noh..

hahah, then after that chris came noh..
then we stucked one place to another, dont know where to go..
in e end we went arcade, hahah..
very funny lah, we played quite afew games noh..
not bad eh, got new metal slug but abit hard to play..

then i played para, they say i cute, haixx..
so paiseh noh, hahah..
then i see tuck to my house e bus stop there, hahah i so good..
hmm then went home maple arh, one day level up one noh..

then today woke up my fingers super pain eh..
hahah, gonna kee siao ler..
moreover arh, nowadays i everynight 2-3 am sleep..
everyday 9-11am wake, and wont sleep back de..
dont feel like sleeping noh, hahah..

oo then actually maybe lah, going out with my classmates..
but they want go century, i dont want noh..
too far ler, i lazy..
hahah but they say tomorrow maybe go douby there, so maybe go noh..
its funny, one of them i dont like de..
but talking to him is quite interesting..

and hor, haixx..
e two guys dont really like de, they both have gf de.. ee..
hahah, like abit what noh, they still got nickname for me..
ask him what it means, dont want tell me..
blah blah, whatever noh..

hmm, oo got crazy guy..
he called me bytch, want to make friends with me..
wth noh, hahah.. get lost lah..

yupps, im crazier, but im still sensitive eh..
=( my classmates alot too open ler, hahah..
thou i can play along with them arh, but..
sometimes will scare say wrong things ma, then..
too personal de stuff, really sometimes very unpleasant to hear ma..
dont mind, but really.. ayy very hard to say..
XD

anyway this holiday, dont know do what noh..
scared nothing to do everyday go maple, sure keesiao noh..
schooling is still best.. ^^
tata~

if i stop dreaming. 10:06 PM +

Friday, July 08, 2005

f~why would i want to be your only one~f

finally~ Holiday ler..
gonna change my blogskin, it suks.. soon ba..
oo hahah, but Ngee Ann Poly de bad lah..
they holiday then test..

anyway yesterday went sakae to eat noh..
my parents want to get e VIP card arh, hahah..
must get 300$ for about two months like that..
then eat finish liao, played arcade..
saw a guy so familiar, so i asked he is it fabian..

i knew him from network webby de, hahah..
then he said yaa, then i told him im who lah..
he abit gan jiong like that, hahah..
anyway then played abit of parapara..
then my bro very pro at e soccer game noh..

play finish liao, then go home..
kekek, then next day.. means today..
went for test late arh..
cos was super stressed eh, dont know why..
i felt like breaking down noh, but never lah..

in e end, i finished e test, thou some say cannot finish..
but may got careless mistakes noh, cos i just on time finish..
didnt get to check, haixx..
and went to play badminton noh..
before that, went cyber played computer..

chatted with friend..
yaa shes right, hes not important to me, why should i be like that..
i dont want to snatch, so hes just a memory, a past..
whether will forget anot, will still forget him sooner or later ba..
then my another friend say maybe someone will replace him..
then i will forget even faster..

hmm anyway, then played badminton til my arms gonna break sia..
wed 1hr badminton, thurs 5rounds of para, today 2hrs badminton again..
hahah dont know tomorrow what sports..
oo then hor, my friend and i went to tampines mall and century there noh..
looked at e arcade, then played para para again..

hahah, then we played e marvel fighting game..
very funny noh, i dont know how to play.. was like gonna pull out e josstick..
then he nearly completed all arh, until e last part..
and we played metal slug, so funny..
i abit gan jiong arh, then played and laughed noh.. quite fun de..

hahah maybe next time play again ba..
but there so exp noh, except for video games i mean, zz..
then took my 1hour 10mins bus, just then reach home..
headache now, hahah..
i will try to be crazy and cheerful always, thankies to all my friends..

if i stop dreaming. 9:52 PM +

Thursday, July 07, 2005

f~under the same sky, we will meet again somewhere somehow~f

hiiya, today "holiday" so come and blog..
just woke up, going to cook something to eat..
hmm, monday no youth day for us.. =(
cos we old ler, hahah but anyway can treat today as youthday ba..

oo sunday went watch InitialD noh..
with isaac, johnson, les, wx and zq..
not too bad arh, ending very sad noh..
e show abit expected like that, cos e main star (jay) confirm win ma..
but still, quite exciting, see e show is better than at e arcade de.. XD
then we bought quite late de, so went crc played awhile..
tuck watch before ler, so stayed at crc.. =S
then finish liao, went home study..

so anyway monday was dfund, haixx..
had confident to score super well, until..
i had a careless mistake, on e 14marks qn..
soured my heart, dont wish to think about it..

cos arh, in poly..
one qn, even only got afew steps, carry so much marks..
it can be simple, but dont know if one step wrong..
can get how much sia..

haixx forget it, then tuesday iT and CF..
hahah, didnt study much for it, but think can pass ba.?
oo morning jess came then told me..
e guys same lecture as us invited me to go their chalet..
i was like "huh", dots de.. dont really know them, they also abit.. not3not4..

then she told me its e guy asked her to go their chalet, then ask me along..
then she asked him isit invite her, cos want me to go..
then e guy so direct said yaa, wth sia.. she sad then say dont want go noh..
so i asked her can bring e guys along, she said they said no guy friends..
more wth noh, then i dont want ba.. even she also know i wont agree..

then we thot of alot of freaky ideas, like we book a chalet next to them..
and hang our undergarments outside, so funny noh..
then we bbq sausage, purposely burn them til black black and throw at them..
hahah, and also put charcoal into their shoes to see them dance..
we are nuts ba, hahah.. but just ideas..
i also dont know if i could plan an outing, winson maybe going overseas.. =S

oo didnt know between after 30mins of e paper,
and before 10mins e paper ends, can leave noh..
then after school wanted to meet milky, but needa book court..

hahah didnt know he also at one-stop there..
his friends really all about his height de.. XD good for him..
then finish liao, went bus stop..
saw melvin, weiliang and dont know e guy but is my schoolmate..

hahah then melvin, again say take 23..
then we all took 23 noh, in e end.. melvin dropped us at wrong place i think..
so funny de, then we chat chat.. then i milky and weiliang went bk..
then i ate mos burger de that vege beef thingy..
zz, so hard to eat noh, too much sauce then drip drip..
hmm, was quite fun.. cos quite long never see them ler..
except milky, always see him around de.. =S

and yesterday de ckt, morning meet them as usual..
i had no appetite arh, so bend e fork and spoon and ate abit and played..
then nigel is crazy, cant finish m&ms and 100plus liao..
he go put e m&ms inside e 100plus.. then shake shake, ee so ligusting noh..
e water turned green sia, its like very dark de green noh..
then got abit of chocolate particles..
and he poured out e water, e chocolate still like wont melt, got e shape..
they looked like shyt noh, hahah~
category 1: nuisance in public.. =X

hmm anyway for e paper, i felt quite satisfied..
at least i think i memorize e formulae correctly..
lalals.. after school went to eat, then went manhin house..
on e way kept playing with e big big rocks, threw then will break..
hahah we are nuts.. then went his house help him install maple..
then talk talk, heng never play gundam seed..
my thumb oready got a hole, cant play.. later bleed..

then 3pm liao, go play badminton..
ayy i nowadays i abit sad inside.. =S
hahah played okok noh, then very funny..
we went to play badminton at e volleyball net there..
so high noh, then just play for fun, ownself make rules..
quite funny arh, can cheat de, cos e holes super big..

played finish liao, went to eat noh..
then yesterday night played maple with james, shawn, jasper and winson..
hahah quite fun de, we party..
then left james and jasper, they brought me to see monsters noh..
kaos, i got 200+ hp, e dino breath one fireball, i died..
so kelian noh, then saw alot of monsters i never seen before de..
quite nice, nice exploring with them.. =]

then played til 2+, actually not very tired..
i need to be level 15 sia, one more~
then can wear nice stuffs liao..
e stoopid monsters killed me, then my exp went down.. -.=
oo then got alot of nice ppl in maple de noh..
they gave me stuffs, then i got quite alot of stuffs..
esp my arrows, ppl gave me til 7000++ arrows sia.. ^^

anyway its not so addictive ba, just play for fun noh..
thats why i dont mind chionging e monsters.. =X
and died..

today is my mama's birthday..
I Love my Mother <3
__/\_
>' ' ,< my shining star..

if i stop dreaming. 1:50 PM +

Sunday, July 03, 2005

f~you could just light up my fire~f

hiya, tomorrow de week term test ler..
hahah, gonna study hard eh..
i think all my tests got 90%+ eh, hah..
but sad lah, all cos forget or careless, zz..
that manhin got all full marks, kaos..

hmm, i didnt update, so i forget how my days went..
oo got one day we quite early dismiss i guess..
then we went to run against e sprinkles..
damm funny sia, so fun..
we thot its like obstacles, but not really arh..
first few sprinkles can go thru..
e rest cant ler, they sure will tio us acouple of times..
we are nuts.. XD

oo got one day someone wanted me to help do survey..
i thot it was fine, so i said alright..
and when i told my friend, she started warning me lotsa stuff..
real scary sia, then i was like omg, scaring me eh..
hahah, then i actually still decided to go, and see how it goes..
and she called me again, told me all e scary stuffs..
i was like, omg better not then..
hahah then heard from her that guy meeting me only..
i one person do what survey in e whole of tpy arh..

so i was kinda blessed, to her arh..
cos i was using school comp (as always) then i saw her in msn..
so i just chat with her, since so long never chat with her..
then i told her about that guy, and she was worried..
hahah, so i was blessed to see her, and to let her know..

hmm, then what uh..
e day before yesterday went to play badminton after school noh..
quite fun arh, at first only me jess and james..
then we called manhin, his father tagged along also..
waa so fun sia, i think i not bad if i warmed up.. =D
cos im a lazy person ma, then i lazy to run for a save or what..
warmed up liao, will run abit..
waa they like to shoot straight shots or light shots..
quite jian, but some i can kop..

and yesterday went to my sec school's carnival noh..
to me, really alot of ppl went arh.. i mean ex schoolmates..
hahah, then was quite fun arh, joking around..
hmm, and after that they wanted to play pool or dota i guess..
but i cant.. =( cos i went to cut and highlight my hair..
while my mother did rebonding, next week then highlight..
at my father's friend's lor'eal salon..

kekek, funny eh.. i chose copper brown, i got blonde..
zz, and that hairstylist gave me a hairdo, really different.!
omg noh, my heart was like so sour, cut soo many layers..
moreover, short layers.. sigh, e comment i gave was..
"i look like a lion" and everybody there just laughed..
really noh, and my bro said i looked like a paikia..

blah blah, after that i and my bro went to eat nachos with extra cheese..
damm shiok sia e cheese, heyy im a cheese fan.. =]
we ate finish liao, i was like sucking all e cheese with a straw..
LOlzz yea its gross, but i just ask my bro to hide me just in case ppl dont like to see..
then that was our dinner, hahah..
and we bought 3 ice cream, and he had abit of beef noodles..
while i took one beef ball, hahah..

quite shiok arh, i didnt pay for anything..
all my parents and didi pay de..
and oo, my father's friend didnt charge us also..
was quite surprised, such a nice guy..
but err, alot of male hairdresser like kinda.. feminine.? =S

so if any of my friends want to have a cut or what, tell me noh..
i bring you all go there, its at great world city.. not far..
near orchard.. =D

hmm, oo then went to meet my friends after that..
and we chatted alot arh..
didnt know alot of ppl have e same kinda problems de.. in relationship..
sigh, we all are failures.. =(

i cant forget my past, but i got like someone else..
but why.?
why.?
why..?
that guy should knew i like him, why wont he give me an answer..
isit cos he dont like me.?
even if its so, why wont he at least let me know..

anyway doesnt matter..
i became a truthful person since then..

if i stop dreaming. 12:31 PM +