--bail me out, im just guilty for falling--

Friday, October 28, 2005

f~this wil be the last of illusions, the end of me~f

blahh, watch the sunburn~ kekek..
anyway the day before yesterday (wed) a group of us went out..
oo, at first it was fer wanted to go shopping..
and she asked gwy and me along too..
then in the end, kev, milky and ron went along..

hmm, but my mama had food poisoning of some sort..
i had to take care of sis and peiied her to see doc noh..
then i went later.. hahah..
hmm, went to meet them at the far east place where they played dota..
but forgetten where to alight, i alighted at somerset..
then walked all the way there, damm tiring arh..

reached there, couldnt find them playing computers..
i walked out, then called them..
hahah, very funny.. i put down my phone, ron infront of me only..
i also didnt notice, and heyy i had no idea why he there..
while the rest all upstairs.. then they teased us.. =(
blahh, then we went far east shopping there see fer want de prezzie..

kekek, she chose a nike shoe.. nice eh, cos its NIKE.. =p
and then we wanted to see got what movie, so walked to lido..
then we discussed quite long de, about what movie and what prezzie..
waa, then les reached liao.. and we still discussing..
damm amusing arh, in the end didnt watch any movie..
went to seek wx prezzie first.. and fer went off first..

but i bought wx prezzie from genting ler..
then we walked around, got one shop called dollz.inc i think..
never seen before, at wheelock place.. damm shiok..
got all the figurines and toys, wee..
then saw my gloomy bear figurines, but sold in a set..
theres 8 figurines in the set noh, 80+$ sia.. so exp..
actually quite alright, but they always sell in sets.. =s

and we walked somemore, til forget where that place..
hahah, and i, flor and gwy went toy'r'us played..
damm funny, got all those halloween stuffs.. nice eh..
lotsa masks, damm cute de plastic wigs, devil spears..
then got costumes noh, so cute.. and lotsa toys of cos..

hmm, then we played for quite some time de..
and the guys at man.u shop somewhere, dont know where..
hahah and we slackk at coffee bean arh..
after that asked them find us, they couldnt find us..
in the end we had to find them, hahah..
then we saw the jersey for wx, quite nice de..
and then flor had to go home..

and the jersey like treasure, keep reminding got take anot..
hahah, then we went back to the far east place..
deciding whether to play pool or lan.. flip some coin..
actually the flipping of coin decided lan, the guys played billard..
then blahh, after that played lan.. and played some cs..
woo quite fun so long didnt play, and i topped in my team.. =x
after that, fer came back and we played dota..

first round was milky, ron and kev.. vs gwy, les, fer and me..
then we won arh, after that i went to the other team..
we lost arh, hahah.. by that time, kinda zz ler..
had to take cab home, cos kinda late noh..
then les shared cab with me.. reached home faster zhao home..
my papa complained me, then i went to my mama room..
asked her how was she, hahah..
then she didnt say much, then i told her i was going sentosa..
she said alright, sleep early.. woots, kinda relief like that..

and yesterday was wx and mel birthday noh..
planned hao not to wish wx yet, hahah..
was kinda guilty feeling like that.. saw him liao, like want to laugh..
hmm and we brought a cake, hahah told him was meant for mel..
oo early morning 8.30 like that woke up noh.. haven pack bag..
and 10am meeting benson to pass him the sleeping bag..
then flor also meet me, then les also came..

and we three setted off by mrt, hahah my phone mood swing again..
starting see low batt eh, dont know why.. actually at night full again..
anyway went harbourfront, met milky, wx, kev, kh..
then we went to the hawker centre eat..
after that gwy, fer and ron came..
hmm, after eating we went to take the bus to sentosa noh..
then caught some fishes, kekek so cute..
but zz, swam til my legs alot of cuts.. then bled til my foot..
yucks noh, i hate blood.. still got sharp sharp feeling while in water..
then also caught squids and prawn, very cute..
hahah too bad no jellyfish, that time my papa caught before..

then burried les.. dont know why kh so weird de, made les face got sand..
hmm, then after that we planned to lure wx away..
and fer and i went to take wx tshirt and kept in fer bag.. kekek..
after that bathing then give him his jersey tee noh..

quite fun de, and played some games.. tuck and iz also came..
and we played poison ball, dog and bone, dodge ball..
then zz, was kicking the ball.. i kicked dao wx leg..
my toe like dislocated abit, damm pain.. and i became teary, paiseh all..
rub rub til no more the lump come out, but now..
its swollen and red and black and still freaking pain, hahah..
kinda hard to walk, really hope can faster recover..
tomorrow my da ge ge birthday, dont know how sia..
anyway then burried tuck at the bottom, with kev and kh on top..

hmm, then cut cake liao ba.. hahah, very funny..
wx very kelian, kena squashed on the face quite alot..
worst, they played with the cake, hahah then les damm funny.. =x
waa i never laugh at him, just think very funny.. he gan me.. azz..
hmm, and we ate the cake with our hands..
after that all go bath at the water there.. then forget what ler..
went to bath liao noh, after that gave wx his prezzies..

then after that went to bishan waited for mel and the rest..
cos next is to celebrate mel's birthday, thou not very shou..
waa went to marina bay eat steamboat, i abit zz eh..
then hahah, we ate halfway rained elephants and rinos..
made me recall that time at genting.. i didnt want to go theme park..
then i abit zz, especially when my bro asked me play go-kart..
qued so long noh, then halfway rained cats and dogs..
the whole theme park had to close, hahah..
but anyway should be coincidence lah.. im not some freak..

hmm, then one part made me abit flared up eh..
but forget it lah, then after that flor's dad fetched her home..
awhile later, gwy, wx, milky, fer and i also left..
thanks alot mel for the treat eh, abit paiseh didnt prepare anything..
then went home noh, took same bus as wx ma.. and waited so long..
and we chatted, hahah like so long never talk to him..
then said alot, he said my shirt behind got words in tamil..
dots noh, i went home see.. really its in english ma..
hahah he cannot spot dao nia.. lalala..

woots sunburns, kinda itchy and kinda pain..
sometimes i really like to peel the skin, kinda fun.. =x
will there be never endings.?

if i stop dreaming. 4:18 PM +

Monday, October 24, 2005

f~got caught in the rain, nobody knew i was crying~f

hi im ms sadist, how are you today.?
today i shall talk about "no life" and "understanding"..
no im not going to speech, i will also share stuffs about me..

lets start from no life.. what is no life.?
i used to think doing the same things everyday is called no life..
but yet, do people expect a perfect life.?
how will a perfect life be like.?
lets assume a perfect life means always happy, no problems..
but little do we know, if life is too perfect..
we wont need to use our brain and heart anymore..
then there wont be any smart people, no problems to be solved..
hmm, imagine that isnt a perfect life anymore..
its a boring life..

im a sadist, its true i guess.. but of cos not all the time..
i can say ive been disappointed many times..
i still dont think i have no life, i still live on..
maybe its bcos there are still alot of people who cared..
yet you get disappointed, of cos you dont wish to disappoint others..
its like not doing the things you dont wish others to do upon you..
and of cos, there are azz people de lah..

anyway disappointments, quite alot recently..
like beginning, kept seeing the guy i loved yet lost being with another girl..
then being flew aeroplane, lied to..
and found someone im got fond of, yet not holding the chance well..
recently i also found another disappointment..
i have a good friend, oo yaa i admire people who can understand me well..
so this friend kinda had been with me through thick and thin..
i had bf, i still approach him.. which made troubles..
now, he has a gf he left me.. i have nobody to turn to liao..
i have nobody to make me laugh when my eyes turn watery..
i have nobody to go out just for a walk with me..
i have nobody to talk to me even i need not say a word..
cause he understands me, he just fill in my words..
nobody to hear my stories, and share with me..

but actually it doesnt matter.. probably used to it..
i also have a dear bro, we became quite distant some time ago..
yet we still misses each other, and remember each other..
so lets talk about understanding..
think understand is important between relations..
its really great to have friends understanding each other..
so i really admire people who has almost same personality with me..
there will be like lots of chemistry..
like "hey i like to drink carrot+tomato+celery drink"
then the friend "wow i also like to drink that, everybody thot its gross"
and another example, if one person doesnt like to wait..
if the person is friend enough, of cos wont let that person wait..
and yet if there is no understanding between people..
i think there will be lots of frustrations and confusion..
like WTH, how the hell i know what you want..
or WTH, why you like that de sia..
yet sometimes its not always what you expect..
you see one person like very azz, but actually that person has soft spots..
its how you get to know the person..
sometimes first impression counts..
yet the understanding still judges one person..

and if one person dont like lies.. hmm who likes anyway.?
then should not lie, if its serious then will break relations..
but still, people still lie.. dont understand why..
if dont want say secret, then dont say at all..

blahh, actually i dont know why i write here.. zz..
dont know what to write ler, next time then add.. tired..
glad that you listen to my craps..

if i stop dreaming. 1:57 AM +

Saturday, October 22, 2005

f~will you listen to my heart if i stay~f

hiya posting at genting now.. kekek..
very funny leh, i saw my tagboard got min tag..
then when i want to tag, her post is gone..
then i kena blurred..
anyway if she really did post..
what admirer arh.? hahah, and sorry..
the farewell dinner too expensive arh..
its funny, hotel 45$..
yet country club 48$, so its rather bo hua..
hmm today last day at play ler, tomorrow morning booking out..
here quite cold de, i abit buai tahan sometimes..
here no shuai ge eh, mostly all taken..
like so fun noh, if come here with bf or friends..
hmm my parents like keep eating those ho liao..
i think i become abit fatter eh, hahah..
but i kept going to do business arh, but sometimes cannot come out..
hahah, then every morning kept sneezing..
sometimes sneeze until want pluck out my nose eh..
anyway got one day i, my bro and my father went to the haunted adventure..
hahah, wth its scarier, longer "adventure" and cheaper than singapore one..
its like introducing different types of devils and ghosts lah..
then got alot of figures and got at least two people listurb us noh..
hahah my papa walk at the front, then my bro mid i last..
waa i admit i quite scared leh, its like thou i know its people..
i still scared eh, hahah.. and its super dark inside..
cannot see a thing noh, we only have light stick each to guide us..
then got one part was we saw bars lah, then suddenly light up..
got one fake de and the person.. he wears a skeleton costume de..
then like dont care walk away, then i turned back..
wth noh, the person came out of the bars eh, i like OMG..
hahah, then i kept looking behind what the person going to do..
then the person chased me eh, hahah.. i scared til ran infront eh..
actually its all nothing lah, its the darkness, the sound damm loud..
then the stoopid person kept listurbing us noh..
hahah, then starting got ground rules saying cannot touch anything..
at the end the skeleton hid at one corner, so obvious..
then he came out, touched dao me..
i shouted at him, and use the light stick poke his nose eh..
then he dont know mumbled what, hahah..
then we went out liao, like not bad lah.. quite fun..
actually nothing to be afraid of, probably the darkness and sound effects..
blahh, then bought quite afew stuffs..
so many people birthday coming eh, hahah..
wanted to buy for each of them, but theres nothing much to buy here..
so sad, its either too expensive or not suitable noh..
oo one day i bought something with my bro ma..
then its like buy one get one free, then we chose afew stuff..
he forked out 50rm, while i paid 100rm..
telling him sure got alot of change de..
then the woman calculated finish, its 160++ noh..
my bro said see, then he paid the rest..
after that i felt like something wrong, so i asked for receipt..
the person like hestitated abit then tore out give me..
then i see see, i went back and asked isnt it buy one get one free..
then the woman laughed and said shes not working there, just helping out..
dots de noh, heng i quite alert eh.. or else kena cheated 35rm..
hmm then my mama every night go gamble..
first night won lah, then after that came back losing..
zz, oo here also got the ripley's believe or not museum..
very interesting noh, then got the most luckiest chair..
hahah only i sat on it, but like not very effective eh..
bluff people de ba, then here the theme park not bad..
got one roller coaster is lie on the stomach de..
not bad lah, lie down then cannot see what will happen next..
its freaking fast, and will 360degrees turn afew times..
hahah, very fun ba.. its said to be asia's first dont know what roller coaster..
yea, then now like nothing much to do ler noh..
so came to cyber.. cos we only stayed around the few hotels connected..
then like almost all the places gone before ler noh..
shopping also not many places, hahah..
among my family, i spent the less arh..
but my papa kept saying come oversea is to have fun..
just spend, but like nothing much to buy leh..
even buy, also like never think for myself eh..
i kept thinking buy for others eh, hahah dont know why..
but got one shop damm nice noh, like it alot..
all are girls' stuffs but for kids nia..
so sad noh, the sales persons all say adult de sold out ler..
how nice if im still a kid, can wear those cute stuffs..
last time where got so many those kinda cute stuffs de..
then i also got buy shorts and shirt for myself..
then my bro damm funny noh, he say how he wish he stay genting de..
he likes the cold weather very much ba, hahah..
nothing to say ler ba, hmm i miss alot of peeps ba.. XD
seeya tomorrow, do wait for me.. take care all..

-8.25pm-
hahah just now went to snow world.. damm cold noh..
my fingers and nose like gonna break eh..
then the ride inside also not nice de, cracked my butt eh..
and its really very cold arh, -4degrees..
hahah, then my nose very cold ma..
want to cover nose but cannot.. know why.?
cos the jacket and gloves damm smelly, hahah..
damm buai tahan noh..
then after that came out let the person draw my cartoon..
hmm i saw other people draw til damm funny de noh..
mine like normal, quite disappointed eh.. =s
maybe he think i still young, dont want bully me arh..
hahah, then he kept listurbing me noh..
asked to smile widely, waa damm tired de noh..
oo yaa, got movies on the tv de, but all the same..
everytime only spiderman, what women want..
thats all ba, tomorrow going home liao..
=]

if i stop dreaming. 3:58 PM +

Sunday, October 16, 2005

fzzARGHzzf

IM SO SO VERY VERY SORRY SORRY.!!
I REALLY DIDNT MEAN TO, I WAS TOO CARELESS..
IM REALLY VERY GUILTY.!!
IM SOO VERYY SORRY.!!
though you said you were fine, i really scared to death eh..
i scared till want cry eh.. >.<
i still feel freakishly heart dropping eh, dont know why..
you seemed fine liao, and sent me nice sms..
i still cant even smile eh, zz.. oww all the guilt..

if i stop dreaming. 11:23 PM +

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

f~theres an empty story waiting to be tale~f

such a surprise eh..
i saw he wrote PLS VOTE ME IN STAR IDOL..
i thot he was just playing..

but true enough, the guy..
who called his friend to approach me..
who gave me a shock..
who wanted to ask for my number..
who said i wore very nicely everyday..
who everyday sms me say bored..
who dated me..
who paid 10$ while i paid 10cents..
who then never talk anymore..

is in channel 8's star idol..
hahah, gosh..

shuai is shuai, but too bad he has small eyes..
or else i may consider.. XD
and he look abit like linjunjie actually..

blahh, so i have something to write ler..
anyway really damm fan nowadays, dont know why..
get irritated easily, is it cos of my sis.?
she every morning cry so loudly for soo long..
she has really long breath, and i dont understand why she cry..
i every morning cant go back to sleep..

then theres the ups and downs..
starting make me look forward, then surely got thing upset me..
so for the past two days, i really feel like breaking down eh..
got that freaking sour feeling, but luckily..
yesterday watched a movie, damm touching..
then last part til ending i cried quite badly all the way.. XD
why such things happen anyway.. going insane..
going up and down isnt very fun ya..
in the end i will still be pulled down..

blahh.. still, im quite alright ba..
only sometimes really feel like loning myself..
but talking is always good too..

if i stop dreaming. 12:46 PM +

Friday, October 07, 2005

f~just the boy~f

hii wassup, just woke up..
hahah played maple half way went to sleep, very tired..
should be the medicine or something..
still got abit of cough like that and nose blockage..

hmm, lets start from leslie's birthday.. kekek..
which is on friday, 30th of september..
on that day, afew of us want to meet to discuss about the grocery list..
in the end alot of people came too, hahah..
actually also cos to celebrate les birthday..
oo then i decided to gei siao dont know his birthday..
everybody wished him liao, i never..

hmm then we one whole group walked around the ntuc damm funny..
cause our group is rather big, then we want to stop and discuss..
we blocked the way noh, hahah.. and we bought some stuff noh..
cos promotion ending that day ma..

hmm then after that we want to go bishan pei weiliang buy his stuff..
before going there, we played with the drink bottle de vending machine..
its like pay for one bottle can get two bottles noh, kekek..

then after everything bought ler, want to eat dinner..
discuss so long, in the end went back tpy to eat mac..
but like very sian noh, so fer, gwy, tuck, iz and i went banquet..
then they eat like very expensive eh, hahah..
i couldnt see ma, so i just gamble and ordered the carrot cake..
quite cheap de, 2.50$ and very full noh..

hmm after that went to school, dont know why walk so far de..
zz, then reach liao.. the guys broke into the campus2 cabin..
and we celebrated les birthday there, alot of people eh..
its like so heart warming, kekek..
his present was 3 maple cards, very cute noh..
oo i also got buy a small rolie ollie monkey for him..
the monkey wore orange shirt, really like him..

hahah, then they put the candle inside the cake and listurb him..
ask him use his mouth to take out.. quite deep noh..
then they want to smash les face onto the cake, so funny noh..
but only tio abit, oww.. hahah then the cake like quite small to divide to all..
so share share noh, kekek.. after that the guys want rape les..
we girls went out with a small soccer ball..

very funny de.. we wanted to listurb the guys inside the cabin..
but didnt succeed arh, then i turned the ball gone..
should be at the drain so i go see, but too dark..
then dont know who freaked out.. =s
cos did hear "tud tud tud" should be the ball.. but dont know where..

then one screamed all screamed, hahah..
so have to use torch and find, and really at the drain there..
but too deep, hahah so nevermind about it..
hmm then got couple dont know doing what, hahah..
after the guys done, we went in noh..
then went to parade square they played soccer..

after that went home ler, waa i carry the stuff like siao eh..
then i think why i take go home sia, but sua ler..
damm heavy noh, hahah..
reach home i bathed then i tired so slept.. in air con room..
and got sick the next day..
actually my whole family sick except me..

anyway yesterday just came back from the chalet..
hmm quite happening i guess, kekek..
the night before the chalet i had fever..

i slept at around 11 arh, hahah i woke up at 2+ i got stunned..
then i couldnt sleep noh, hahah cos whole body damm hot..
i just lay on my bed til 6+ then decided to take that panadol lemon drink..
the drink not bad noh, quite sour only..
then after that no more fever, and i slept at around 7+..
and slept for afew hours only noh, so tired eh..

ayy then after that didnt want to sleep ler, cos meet at 1pm..
then gave les wake up call, then carry the heavy stuff and went there..
almost everybody reach liao, we went shopping noh..
then bought finish liao, took mrt there..
and we didnt know what time the shuttle bus will arrive ma..
so half took everything went to the chalet by taxi first..

then we waited til decided to take taxi, and we got 5 people ma..
around the 4th or 5th taxi then let us eh, kekek..
went in liao started eating, and cook with the microwave noh..
then eat finish liao, wanted to sleep..
but couldnt sleep noh, i just close my eyes for the 2 hours..
thanks isaac for giving me the blanket eh, quite touched..
then time liao, so ate medicine.. then went back still cant sleep..

after that bbq liao, then blah blah..
then played truth or dare, but most people choose dare de..
truth can bluff and too awkward to confess ma..
then more and more people play, the game became twisted..
the game was like the one get ace card will call out two numbers..
and the first number is victim, the second number is the one doing it..
all the crap ideas came out noh, hahah alot licking especially..

starting afew games, i tio 3 times in a row noh..
damm suay, first time was got licked on the ear..
i rather lick the person ear than got licked eh..
then second time was luckily with a girl..
we had to put our fingers into each other mouth and lick..
then peck on the mouth, hahah we did a quick one..
third one was a peck on my forehead, but very paiseh noh..

and then everybody play noh, hahah very funny de..
never tio me dao, very heng de noh..
sometimes was call dao the number, but not the colour..
kekek, then very funny noh watching them do..
some really see very lisgusting.. will got that yucky feeling..

then after that fer, gwy, flo, mel, cm, wx, boon and me went och..
we walked damm far noh, then got crazy motorcyclists..
then after that got one nice sports car brought half of us go..
and the other half took taxi noh, kekek..
and went to eat, then got the show quite nice eh..

then we walked up to och, can say its freaking creepy.. its about 3am+ i think
did hear sound, like footsteps on stairs, bang of door..
then had to u-turn all those, kekek..
and its very dark noh..

after that went out cos fer got scared, and we went to the bus stop..
and it started raining heavily..
but luckily got taxi pass by, and we went back noh..
reached back at around 5am+, went up to the room and rest..
then couldnt sleep so watched tv, then after that made tang yuan..
watched spirited away and spiral..

hahah then i and tuck prepared the pasta, quite fun de..
and flora help cut mushroom.. then i said i think this is the best meal..
kekek, cos of the sauce i think.. got mushroom and tomato ma..
nice nice, and yaa they all say nice..
but didnt get to eat much, but still nevermind..
oo yaa, while preparing the sauce very funny..

we went back into the kitchen to take out the bottles of sauce..
then suddenly dont know why the kitchen was messed up with sauce..
there was like a bottle opened, then sauce everywhere noh..
then we really dont know why eh, like one minute nothing wrong..
another minute, the kitchen became like that..
then we like playing detective noh, giving all the possibilities..

hahah, and i found out the nearest to the bottle de window not locked eh..
then i assumed someone hated us, then opened the bottle and shook it..
and we had alot of assumptions lah.. until isaac came in..
then we questioned him if he knew anot, then dont know what..

yuan lai really its him, hahah then we asked him why never tell us or clean it..
actually it was bcos he opened the bottle then his shirt also tio the sauce..
so he went up to change clothes first, then clean up.. hahah..
and our investigation ended, not fun at all.. cos our assumptions all wrong..

then the rest woke up, no more food ler.. so sorry..
lazy to cook again..
hmm, then at night they prepare bbq, we ate mian xian..
not bad lah, added quite alot of stuff in..

after that played some Go!Fish.. kekek..
quite a nice game, very exciting noh.. especially play 7players..
like shyt sia, dont know who to ask..
then kept forgetting who asked for what..

hmm then went down saw them play the garbage car..
like very funny, but scary noh.. anyhow drive de..
they came back with blue blacks..

then forget what ler, after that watched ju-on and ju-on prequel..
after that played catching, kekek..
quite fun de, its like the catcher have to be blind folded..
then try to catch someone in the dark, and then guess who..

very exciting arh, must run here there..
but when i be catcher i damm lazy noh, hahah..
catch dao me 3 times, but i be catcher 2 times..
then after that, play til about going to 7am all rest..
then i slept ler.. woke up going to 10, then had to leave soon..

then got chicken and pasta, but never eat much..
after that alot of troubles arh.. about the fines and the car..
had to pay alot noh, and the fuel for the car.. -.=
then they fined us 30$ cos part of the chair lose only..
freaking ridiculous noh, but lucky they help us discount..
so in the end we got fined 40$ instead of 60..

and then we started our sarcastism..
its like dirty what need to pay for the whole thing noh..
damm amusing noh..
and the guys wanted to take the chair arh, then they really got it..
hahah, they took the chair around like emperor chair noh..
very funny, and we had our lunch at some chinese restaurant..

after that went arcade, then some played bowling, the rest sleeping..
then dont know who say leave, then we left..
didnt know never tell those who were bowling, then they got mad i think..
then we went to toapayoh noh, in the bus so cold noh..
i was like gonna freeze to death, kekek..
so the end ba, freaking tired to write so long..

if i stop dreaming. 2:48 PM +