--bail me out, im just guilty for falling--

Monday, November 28, 2005

f~your imperfection is my type of perfection~f

hii its really been awhile since ive blogged..
well today starting was a good day, after that became a bad day..
i hadda bad day arh..

so i blog about yesterday first arh..
yesterday my gu ma (aunt) came and visit while i was sleeping..
then amazingly, my sis let her carry all that..
usually she bo chap "strangers" and never let anybody carry her..
hahah my aunt even carry her go out, she never cry or what..
still will wave and french kiss us eh.. my gu ma really is the best..

kekek, then after that zs was smsing me arh..
and he told me he walked past my block, so i asked him wait for me..
i went down had a talk with him.. he looked kinda tired out eh..
then his friend so kelian, sat at one corner slept.. really sleep eh..
after that we called my "papa" come down also..
and we slacked under my block noh.. talked rubbish..

after that they went play bball.. i went to find iz, wx, tuck and les at gym
then went there, iz suddenly walked quite fast then gone..
so les ran after him arh.. then we went shopNsave buy drinks..
and met rox and chris noh.. oo then i bought drinks so blurr..
very small bottle i thot 2 for 4+$.. actually 1 for 85cents nia, heh..
hmm after that they said want go crc noh.. i felt abit zz eh.. =x

like everytime crc, everytime dota.. hahah arghh..
then i really dont understand arh..
why people litter even thou the bin is just beside..?
i saw my friends infront me like that litter til so song..
looked at her awhile, then i walked away.. really buay tahan
hahah then chris friend also came, alot of people buay song..

after that we went up, actually i felt abit dont want de..
in the end just play one or two rounds noh..
first round was a 4v5 i think, my team 5 and i tio some weaver..
now i know what kaisheng meant ler, i dont know how to use also..
hahah really jialat noh, kept kena killed by stoopid NA..
blahh, after that yn came.. and he hanged once i think..

we won the second round noh.. hahah that noisy guy got lightning rev..
then he kept chain lightning and ks us, really quite turning me off..
hahah i was saving gold while thinking what to buy ma..
then he suddenly asked me what i was gonna buy.. and i said no idea..
he said go for yasha and sasha shyt.. hah i told him dont want..
very funny, then he surprised i think.. he said loly?
then i told him i want buy others.. lols who ask him so noisy..

and he ks so many times got double kills and triple kills all that..
he gave a :) and "awesome stuff" hah i wanted to talk back at him..
but like not very nice arh, just a game.. so i didnt arh.. kekek..
oo i tio some bloodseeker piggy.. seems not bad at all noh..
hmm after that left to eat at the zhi cha there..

then i really was confused noh, i dont know want call my mentee anot..
you see, i was chosen by my careperson to be a student mentor..
and each mentor will have a mentee who is a olevel student..
and he chose MTN as his first choice for this attachment program noh..
so have to take of this guy for a week, following me to my classes..
i really confused dont know want call anot noh, in the end i didnt.. =p

anyway after eating, there was a long discussion of where to go next..
then i really leg suan arh, i sat down.. then someone suggested crc..
most agreed i think, then les suddenly left.. i surprised..
hahah, nobody like bothered eh.. how can so bad sia, i really felt bad..
so i said to call him up, all teased me.. in the end i still call noh..
then called him up, he reaching bus stop i think..
and i said nevermind noh.. he said okok lah..
they asked me, i said i dont know what okok lah meant.. lols

hmm, then he really came back arh.. but we had nothing to do..
so we went to play the touch screen de.. so funny..
played crossword puzzle, have pa jiao aura..
played photohunt, pa jiao and too slow also.. then played the porn de..
hahah played halfway, i felt my bladder noh.. but i didnt pangseh him
later like some pervertic guy playing porn photohunt alone, lols..

after that play some animal game.. like find its match de..
so funny, ask him take photo.. he so slow.. i ownself complete the level
after that did manage to take and completed the game..
and that was the only game we completed arh, hahah..
quite fun noh, then went home sleep..

today woke up, i did report to the lecture hall noh..
and there was free food.. being typical singaporean, of cos i ate..
ate til i happy then went in the lecture hall..
after that met my mentee, gosh.. Karl Stanley seems like an eurasian
but he was a half indo half eura, and kinda short.. =x
hahah and he talks quite alot noh, james even complained to me..

he stayed with us for one lecture only, overall hes fine to me..
then today i really dont know why arh..
i suddenly really felt i everytime got picked on, and i cant figure out why..
i cant understand, i felt really bad inside.. i even had a headache..
whats the deal anyway.. is it cos im the only girl in class.?
im really very irritated and sad.. i cried on the bus on the way home

so what if i always look strong or happy..
i really felt into deep shyt inside.. my heart was like sinking..
so what if they say me sensitive, or i wont get angry..
im really unhappy..

if i stop dreaming. 11:57 PM +

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

f~im ms brightside, yet i still think life is meaningless~f

yesterday i had a shock of my life..
my bro suddenly say he jumped from 7th storey never die..
i really scared til want to cry eh..
then his msg was like got haa and hee, and said cannot die..
really wth noh, really scared the hell outta me..

ayy yuan lai he was at his camp then got some free fall shyt..
waa, i really felt like flying there and check on him de noh..
luckily its just a misunderstanding arh, hahah..
but i now still feel abit scared scared.. really zz..

hahah i still remembered.. last time i was very mischevious..
i go listurb him saying i kena robbed.. say til like kena tortured
he like shocked eh, hahah.. and wanted to find me..
then i laughed, i was only pulling his leg..
actually today de, at first i really thot he pulling my leg..
then he reply damm long, i suddenly panic noh..

anyway yesterday we had two hours of break ma..
then i and my classmates decided to go tampines mall..
go there eat noh, quite fun arh.. 10 persons sit at a round table..
then they quite funny de, got listurb me abit still lah..
hmm, then we ate finish liao had nothing to do arh..
went up to arcade see see noh..

and got people played para para, then they know i got dance also ma..
hahah, very funny lah.. they like want me to dance noh..
then i hesitate quite abit, i saw 2 guys played.. so i think why not..
really kinda fun eh.. they even cheered for me, abit nervous noh..
then i trashed the guy before me, i got first position..
LOL i got down from the "stage" they all clapped for me..

real awesome sia..
oo finally i play dota 1v1 with my friend i won.. kekek..
i somemore wicked sick sia, quite fun de.. =x
goodnight.. life's a shyt..

if i stop dreaming. 12:42 AM +

Sunday, November 20, 2005

f~the beauty of life lies on how happy others can be because of you~f

hii its been awhile since i blogged..
actually yesterday i did blog, then everything closed..
then was kinda lazy to retype again, kekek..

hmm, recently felt kinda outcasted..
or probably thinking too much, but the feeling is really low..
but its alright ba, im still doing well on my own or not..
i could even lone myself..

anyway yesterday i went to my cousin's place..
somewhere at serangoon and kovan, aroozoo ave..
she gave birth to a new niece arh, a month's old i think..
hmm we were supposed to go her house for some buffet..
but we were informed kinda late, and papa bought lunch ler..
nevermind then..

so i told my papa "go there do what, so pointless"..
he said "just go there, sit awhile then go off ler"..
in my mind i still think "pointless" arh, kekek..
its like the baby is too young to do anything noh, cant even play..
then my mama "go there see, she just bought this private property..
see how she does it.. you got the ability or not"..

waa whats her house gonna do with me noh..
really wth, even if i had to live in a one room flat i also happy eh..
can save money and live simple, kekek..
then after that my cousin drove us to heartland mall there..
oo got one auntie very good eh..

she like keep asking me to eat, then when we left..
she said "want candy.?" then i said "no thanks"..
then she said "its okay, kids like candies" and took a handful give me
hahah actually i took quite afew ler, but she is good arh..
real cute to be called kid, i dont mind.. =p

hmm and my bro having dilemma arh..
his gf left him, for another guy.. really wth noh..
at first when he msged me, i thot he was pulling my leg..
then suddenly it seems real.. really wth..
fancy she still say she will keesiao if anything ever happen..
fancy she said plan hao hao after 5years will get married..
really feel like finding her up and confront her and slap her..

the reason was she had no feelings..
what kinda reason is that sia..
if no feelings then be cold blooded lah..
why still go meet other guy..
what nonsense sia.. think so easy just no feelings can do arh..
then why together at the first place..
why so much sweet loving rubbish..

so he said he was at her house, as usual..
then she left him alone, and went to meet another guy..
and she used the guy's handphone to msg a break up..
the worst part was, while my bro was packing..
she came home along with the guy eh, really cruel sia..
and he said he felt lonely and lost..
really whao noh, they like together a year plus ler..
suddenly like that.. zz

then i was thinking noh.. really kinda guilty..
last time i really dont like this girl eh.. hahah..
but of cos slowly get to know her arh, shes pretty good..
probably cos she changed abit.. then i treat her as big sis too..
now really dont understand why suddenly like that..
such tregedy.. i even used to envy them, happy for my bro..
i could even smile when i see them together..

oh ya.. i really dont know how to say arh.. i have a girlfriend..
recently ive been avoiding her.. i didnt answer her calls..
im actually afraid noh.. she always had alot of problems..
i felt kinda terrible eh, why i treat her like that now..
her problems always are money problems..
i really cant help eh.. but i shouldnt be avoiding her eh..?

so anyway after my cousin drove us to kovan mrt..
as my hp has no batt, i called les noh.. cos he want go out
then he told me nobody online all those, so meet first..
after that i waited for him, and i also called zs to check on him..
he sounded fine noh.. and i waited for les quite long sia, lols

after that, we actually wanted to go watch wcg de..
in the end we took mrt to douby ghaut de PS walk walk..
then he said go see got what movie, so we went top floor..
hahah then we went to see the arcade.. he looked at the racers
then i pulled him to play the japanese drums game noh..

not bad, then some very easy.. our last song was a cny song, funny..
he seemed to have a better rthym than me noh.. played well
then after that we went to see the crawl catch toys de machines..
very cute noh all the soft toys.. said they are from japan de..
then got one piggy very cute noh.. and he spent about 15$ on those
worst part was.. he didnt manage to catch any.. sometimes almost..

very kelian arh.. i felt rather bad, i asked him catch for what..
lols he said for fun.. but i had a feeling was catch for someone de..
if its me, i really felt guilty eh.. then i pulled him to another arcade
and i was lucky to change my points for 10$ value of credits noh..
since he spent so much on the piggy, i treat him play arcade noh..

it was quite funny to see him like blurr blurr first time play arcade..
but i had fun, think he had fun too..
oh ya, when i wanted to leave liao.. cos i left only afew credits
then i wanted to play a game, but didnt know where it was..
when about to exit, i found it.. then we had our last credits on it

think that was the most fun arh.. some sort of challenging each other de
then must be fast de noh.. very funny lah, then very hot also..
after that, no more credits ler.. we left noh.. went to see the xbox place
not bad noh, got big screens to play xbox.. but should be quite exp
then we went to tpy noh, and he said he think the rest were at crc..

so we went up.. but nobody arh, and we slackked there.. lols
everytime go crc is play game de.. we went there really sat and chatted
after that, quite late ler.. we walked to the bus stop noh..
then his bus came liao, he went half way.. forgot to take things from me
cos i also forgot, then he missed the bus.. =s

and he peiied me walked noh.. then reached near my house, i said no need
then bidded and went home ler..
and the rest teased me, i dont know how they knew de..
really funny, they even told me they were online since quite early..
but they were happy that it should happen..
dont know.. blahh.. -.=

if i stop dreaming. 12:39 PM +

Sunday, November 13, 2005

f~zai shuo yi ci . wo ai ni~f

yesterday i went to one mall..
i stepped in, i wondered why is it so familiar..
could it be.? but its so far, how can i came here before..
i walked, and i went in the arcade..

yes, just as i expected.. i went there before with someone..
i just wanted to walk around the place..
to find out other familiar places..
yup, the bean bag shop is there.. the rest i cant recall..
i cant recall what we did there..
yet i remembered we did play at the arcade..

these three days, you came online..
i even wished i just have the courage to even say "how are you"..
but no.. i only asked "how was he" once.. to your friend..

APPLES OF MY EYE : one red nike shoe, my kind of cutting..
got a tiny heart sewed at the side, infront of the nike tick..
but i dont really like it red, probably some other colour will be best..
and i want to get a slipper..

andy lau's [ all about love ] cd
the cd cover is uniquely tied with a red string to a heart..
simple, cute and romantic..
at the back of the cd are some words, very meaningful..
yet i forget how it goes.. =( i tried checking, didnt manage to find..
next time go see again, kekek.. or anybody knows please tell me.!

and also [ zhen ming tian nu ] set; got SHE photo frame and keychains
=pp yeah yeah, S.H.E.!! they each even sang a song..
hmm, yesterday i downloaded some of the songs from both cds..
and checked up on some of the lyrics..
yupps they are pretty meaningful, sweet..

if i stop dreaming. 12:39 PM +

Thursday, November 10, 2005

f~never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down~f

hiiya, yesterday i had my cds arh.. culture and expression
not bad noh, the lecturer also quite funny de..
but he like say "bloody bastard" "what the hell" all those..
i felt abit funny eh, hahah like he should not say noh..
blahh, but should see more open ba.. =s

anyway this subject is about culture arh, like example..
chinese wear qi pao, thats culture noh.. another example..
one guy likes to dig nose, thats his culture noh.. hah mind my cowshyt
and then the lecturer like very funny noh, he will say jokes..
then also say how he loves chinese wear qi pao, malay wear sari..
and the english wear mini skirt, hahah.. thats his interest lah..
he said he like to travel and also hear people say stories..
and he said hes going to share some stories with us, and get asked questions..

hmm, one part we had to look at a video noh.. shown at channel newsasia..
he recorded it.. it was about evolution of man, from ape.. million years ago
then honestly lah, the apes are kinda disgusting looking..
when they evolved further, really are naked yet hairy people noh..
more disgusting, how can show on tv sia.. hahah..
but really tiring lah, my school started at 8am, this cds thingy ended at 6pm..
that lecturer really talked for the 3hours eh, i dont know how to survive..
hopefully next year, i can get into psychology or socialology noh..
its pretty interesting arh, i now lazy to change my cds..

after school went to find gwy they all and had dinner noh..
then talked quite abit, then gwy was troubled arh..
like very kelian noh, she suffered and held on for so long..
finally she got it, but it wasnt going smoothly..
alot of confusion and frustration ba.. but still, love is blind..
besides communication, have to be honest then will have trust..

- never give up on the things that make you smile.
- always follow your heart, regretting may be too late.
- never regret the things you done, only regret the things you didnt do.

its alright to be stuck inbetween friends..
but its really tough to be stuck in the middle, ive mine once..
in the end, its still my decision whether to listen anot.. i followed what i believe
hah, sometimes never to be afraid to see it with your own eyes..
then will you will know whats the facts, whats the lies..
nevertheless its still one's choice..

anyway today milky sick arh, hahah i got abit of cold actually..
then during maths sat at the near front, cos everybody kop seats ler..
then the lecturer really look abit disgusting eh, hahah..
from far only found his voice abit disgusting, very funny noh..
his voice and face really like those niang niang qiang..
like real guy and want to be guy, but they cannot be guy like that..
kinda evil arh, james kept saying dont feel like facing him..

hahah, then the way he held the pen really like girl eh..
but his handwriting is really nice lah..
oo then i was listening to his lesson de noh..
damm some people kept talking, and made him angry stop his lesson..
i really very interested and waiting for him to teach further..
but too bad arh, gotta go read about it ourselves.. argh

today only one break noh, and i spent it in the toilet.. =x
hahah not very long lah, just awhile.. =s
anyway today not bad noh, quite fun de got laugh here there..
cos we got one lecturer arh, he damm dont know disgusting or funny..
he likes to tuck his hand inside his pants at the back noh..
then he even walk around the classroom with his hand in his pants..

waa its kinda er xin lah, but we kept laughing non stop about it..
and today we went to take picture of his hand in his pants..
hahah nigel crazy eh, go take damm near.. cannot see much
then darren say anyway got alot of chances.. LOL
hmm, then we go decorate our desktop de wallpaper noh..
use paint, then set as wallpaper.. cos the rest are locked..
then nigel so bad go put "dig your ass" dont know the lecturer saw anot..
i drew a "hello i love java ..not" cos thats what we learnt arh..
i just add a "..not" noh, hahah i also dont dare set as wallpaper..

oo then the lecturer everytime see what we doing on his computer..
and can have access to our screen thru his computer de ma..
then he was viewing the guy next to me de, i go purposely paint a rabbit..
he really go access my computer eh, then close the paint..
very funny noh, we kept laughing..
then he just sat there did nothing, we all hack care and just left noh.. hah

and last period de tutor showed us the 40+$ de textbook noh..
this lecturer like not bad eh, looked quite cool and friendly..
he letted us go off early noh, then shawn came out.. we walked walked..
then he shouted give back the book lah.. then we one whole group stared
the tutor was behind noh, he like say first lesson with him got such problem
forgot what he mumbled lah, then he went to chase the guy..
shyt that guy eh, the tutor said "wonderful class"..

spoilt our class name, we also dont have so boliao..
then kai said the guy oready had badguy looks, got scars on his face..
hahah then say not just ugly, also a stealer..
then we saw they go the bookshop, hehh probably to steal stuff.. =x
who ask those guys give us bad impression.. they in class also noisy

hmm then i went off noh, saw the indian guy from my class..
he walked towards, i thot nothing going to walk pass or what..
he suddenly "whats your name.?" i abit surprised noh..
so i just say "alicia.." then he nodded, then i asked back noh..
hahah now i forget liao, then like silence..

i think just like that.? how come never hear my name during class..
then i asked "what you waiting for.?" then he said "nothing, friend"..
and pointed behind, then i said "alright then, see you"..
actually this guy he like always look at me, want to say something like that..
can abit sense arh, waa now i forget his name.. abit paiseh.. hahah

nowadays also like abit restless eh, like not feeling very good noh..
either nose itchy or throat itchy or feeling very cold or body very hot..
then sometimes also eyes burning, maybe its the weather arh..
i tried to sleep very early liao, still feel like that noh..
maybe its heaty arh, not very sure..

actually i dont know how i was feeling.. i feel kinda weird..
like im drifting away from something, like avoiding something..
i dont know what, i dont know why.. dont know how to say..
hmm, i felt life is meaningless and pointless arh.. really zz..
then again, maybe just restless ba.. so feel abit messy..
and really kinda tiring, have alot of things to do.. alot being expected
=] anyway take care all..

if i stop dreaming. 6:17 PM +

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

f~anything is possible; impossible is nothing~f

hii im back to blog again..
today wasnt as bad arh, school started at 12noon..
really how nice if everyday start school that late..
but dont know why, still abit tired arh..

anyway as usual, the different faces supposed to be in my class de..
kept on different de noh, except three to four..
mostly same class, but always didnt turn up de..
tsktsk, scully kena debarred eh.. dont know what they up to..
today the guys talked about games, xbox, playstation and computers..
kinda zz arh, hahah.. bobian arh just sat one corner and stared blankly noh..

hmm during break, i kinda needa do pass it out ma..
then i took my bag just in case very long, i came back my friends looked funny..
yuan lai they thot my auntie came, hah then i think no girl pei me ler..
nobody can pei me go toilet, then if really auntie came.. abit paiseh eh..
can tell one of them lah cos quite close, but also not nice ma.. blahh

then milky told me that time he waved to me, i looked kinda sian..
oo going to first lecture, then the previous class came out..
the girls quite pretty eh, then saw milky in that class.. hah
but always see him de anyway, then suddenly.. so many tall guys eh..
my friend also "waa, all so tall".. hahah really alot of trees arh..
cos we stood near the door at the corner, then suddenly became dark..

anyway today met one female lecturer, her face damm bright..
its like her smile very can lan, then she taught abit like kindergarden type..
very nice noh, confirm can pass liao the subject.. hahah..
like last time really, think mr ow's face quite can lan noh.. cos he always smile..
then he like wont get tired de, i also wont get tired looking at him..
but too bad lah, i always never listen.. and very bored of the subject..
so didnt pass my humanities.. =x

oo then last time the ckt lab tcher, became our tut..
piangs eh, he damm lame arh.. ask him properly questions..
he go give us lame answer, LOL damm cold noh.. but kinda like it..
then we gei siao say something, he like believe sometimes..
sometimes he also gei siao with us, very funny..
he sometimes got that tiko face eh.. =x
but he very good, last time lab test we ask him.. he gave us answer in choices
waa he now our tut, later we keep asking for answer.. hahah

hmm, then after school i peiied zheqi for his an hour break..
after that he got his cds lecture.. fundamentals of entrepenuership..
hahah, cos it was lecture ma.. so i went in with him and see how was it..
rather interesting noh the briefing.. talked about local entrepenuers..
and said the points to be an entrepenuer arh..
i went there like frog in a well arh.. i dont read newspaper liao ma..
also dont know what or who they were talking about..
but listen liao, quite interesting lah.. but not interested..

tomorrow i will be having my cds noh.. culture and expression..
i thot is drawing de, hahah.. i think not liao.. 3hours of lecture straight..
first time sia, then i think talk about cultures and somemore other stuff ba..
think something like geography and history type ba..
but still like quite easy, just have to listen.? tomorrow see how is it like noh..
oo then after that cds, went to bus stop.. saw my friends just finish..

their cds, management of entreprising something like that.. just ended ma..
then milky also in that cds, so maybe will see him..
actually wanted to wait, heng didnt arh.. he went up the bus then i saw..
hahah then we talked noh.. he kept suanning zheqi stress all those..
zheqi that time really very stress and stressed up noh..
kept after school want chiong home, even want share cab..

then his relative let him live at bedok, then he like studied very hard arh..
but he said he disappointed with the results.. never get his expected de..
then milky kept saying cannot stress de all those noh..
hah actually i bought my new books liao, i kinda stress eh..
more formulae, higher level stuff.. sure more things to remember ba..
hope i can just pass..

oo got email asking me be maths mentor like that..
hahah i dont know want to join anot noh.. milky also got, he joined ler..
then i like abit scared i cannot teach well arh, later make people fail..
but i think should be not a problem arh, later go email back.. =D
nothing to write about ler, see ya..

if i stop dreaming. 8:57 PM +

Monday, November 07, 2005

f~you colour my world and brighten up my every day~f

heyy, been awhile since i blogged arh..
but i lost track of my days ler, only can remember yesterday..
sunday, went gym.. before that went to cut hair..
hahah i want to cut like that, the hairdresser quite nice de..
she said not suit me and i still young, so help me cut like this..

after that went gym find iz, wx, kev and les..
oo from the time i woke up, i kept sneezing arh, hahah..
really felt like plucking my nose out noh..
waa they all hionged the gym.. only me never, cos i latest then i dont know..
hmm, then after that done liao.. went long john waited for kh..
then at the cybercentre there, the guys say got one uncle..
he chatting in msn, then his contacts are young girls..

ahaha, then say what see their pictures.. and he will say beautiful..
very funny arh, this kinda uncle is kinda nice to prank actually.. =x
they like abit desperate, abit ti ko.. probably what also yuan yi to meet a girl..
hmm his face kinda toot arh actually.. =x then he wont get distracted de..
people look at him he also dont know eh, his eyes sticked onto the screen noh..
after that kh reached liao, forgotten did what..

then went near my house there eat.. not bad arh the crispy noodle..
hmm, and the guys talk about personal stuffs arh.. hahah kinda buai tahan..
oo after that went to play pool with iz, kh and les..
then we kept laughing noh, like kept on got pattern..
i team with kh like cannot get in any ball de.. but will win..

then team with iz felt more pro, kekek.. team with les was so so..
hmm then played 9balls, like damm funny.. we orh ya peh ya soom..
two times also same postion, kh then les then me then iz..
really dont know why arh, really not purposely de.. i kept giving free ball to iz..
then they bth liao, whoever foul or park will say "pay you how much"..
hahah, very hilarious noh.. hmm then last round liao..
i still played very louzy noh, kept foul.. then they like never expect arh..
les say scully i won the game, and i really won.. its a ball of a time thou abit exp..

blahh, anyway today was the first day of school in this new semester..
morning went school with milky, hahah joked alot arh..
the guy always take from tpy interchange til the end with me also took..
hmm, honestly lah.. i from the first day saw him take with me same..
same engineering, same bus stop, but dont know which course..
i feel like knowing him, hahah but didnt arh.. no good chance.. =x

oo my friends were saying their female friends kinda attracted to albert..
then they said i best, hah got his hp, his msn, and got jioed by him before..
hmm, then jess, ky, sala and satish got transferred to other classes ba..
and another 4 joined my class, the rest same faces..
but different de that 4 people, majority of the tut will see the 3 guys lah..
then the rest, sometimes its a girl, sometimes a malay girl, sometimes a guy..
for what i saw today..

kinda hard eh, scully absent for which class.. i dont remember take notes for who..
hmm, then today i think.. the only air con food court was open..
not bad lah, the feeling is like koufu noh.. but some dishes like not nice..
oo today walked alot, from one end to the other.. then another end to the other..
hahah kinda tiring actually.. bobian engineering block is the longest..
actually classes still quite alright lah, only sometimes abit left out..

cos now all guys arh, then they had their common topic..
its either they never talk to me, or i dont have anything to say noh..
ayy but its alright ba, i dont mind de..
and today is ron's birthday noh, then met les at tpy interchange..
on the way in the bus, i want reply sms and held a book..
then no hand to hold i fell backwards, heng just right behind was an empty seat..
the small girl heng shifted in, hahah.. then i damm paiseh arh..

after that the girl went off, a girl from my school sat beside me..
then the guy who is benson's classmate's bf asked me whats my name..
hahah, i said why should i tell him.. i heard hes a joker, so joked with him..
he said benson told him before my name, he forgot..
tsktsk, then i said ask benson again noh..

hmm, then forget what ler.. talked about last incident..
he talked to me halfway then walked off, then i was kinda zz..
then he asked again, whats my name.. then i asked back..
his name is xin long, i said new dragon arh.? hah he said yaa..
kinda funny arh, then he asked me whats my name.. i said bai long.. =x
then he said to his friend why got this kinda people de, hahah.!
in the end i told him my name, then he asked his friend help remember also..

after that i slept noh.. very tired arh, i kept dozing off in lectures..
really quite paiseh noh, the lecturer sure can see de noh..
but i really cannot tahan arh, really will faintx eh..
then after that reached tpy interchange, then went mac waited with les..
sat there awhile, decided to go bishan first..

reached there, then awhile.. went to eat at the hawker nearby..
then went back, decided place to celebrate ron's birthday..
decided to go school arh, hahah then les lost his wallet..
heng think the sell drinks de people saw, then returned to him..
after that went school celebrate ron's birthday noh..
very funny, the cake from think nicely decorated..
til become empty, just a plain vanilla cake..
cos chris tian mi mi arh, then swing til the cake like that..

as always, ate with hand.. hahah but quite xiguan liao..
hmm then they wanted to climb up to the school there play catching..
i from starting, dont wish to violate, dont wish to climb arh..
my heart still messy from the last converse thingy, i cannot do it arh..

really sorry, especially les arh.. hai you cannot play like that..
oo hahah, he was looking for fer wallet.. then he looked at the corner..
scareded me eh, he suddenly pulled back.. got lizard kiss his face..
hah then on the way out, les kept eerie here and there.. so funny..
scaring ownself nia, dont think so much lah..
we went playground there noh, chatted alot arh..
then played tic tac toe, hahah like hard to counter de.. and rock on the kiddy rides
there were kids ma, then we dii siao them abit.. hahah and see them playing noh..

so cute arh.. how nice if forever be kids, no worries always energitic..
then do silly things wont be called mad fella, hahah..
wont get tired of playing silly games, no matter how boliao the game is..
then the mind still innocent, anyhow make friends also nevermind de..
can play together good enough, i still remember i young anyhow make friends de..
like play with alot of kids outside, then i just say be my friend okie.?
then i still count got how many friends, hahah til i lost count arh..
ayy like very energitic and cute noh.. see them laugh, also will make people laugh..

blahh, but grow up also good arh.. can have more freedom i guess..
hah anyway i tired ler.. yawns, goodnight..

if i stop dreaming. 11:56 PM +

Thursday, November 03, 2005

f~if tomorrow never comes~f

actually today im gonna blog about happy stuff..
due to something happened just now..
everything just crashed down.. headached..

just today, i bought my nike shirt.. nice eh, got "Believe" word..
then after that went to converse shop..
to help my friend's friend choose a bag for his girl friend..
hmm, then i kinda helped him chose the right one arh..
then i went to see the shoe, got one white shirt guy also see..
he like kinda cool, i thot hes one of the sale assistant..

then after that, minqian had to leave.. so i walked with her..
walked halfway, my friend called me back to the converse shop..
cos we got accused of stealing its stoopid keychain..
dammit, at first i thot nothing much..
then its like kinda serious, i was kinda fumed arh..
we didnt steal anything, we have the cash, we even bought something..

then he said either pay for it, or copy down ic..
i really think kinda weird, why copy ic.. and no way we pay for things we didnt buy
and was too naive arh, let the sales person copied our ic..
dammit noh, converse shop no camera..
two sales person kept looking at us, DID SHE SEE US TAKING ANYTHING.?
WHY THE HELL CALL US BACK, NOT JUST US WERE IN THAT DAMM SHOP..
WHY THEY NEVER CALLED THOSE PEOPLE BACK, WHY US.?
i really NOT SATISFIED eh..

if can find still quite alright..
WHAT IF CANNOT FIND.? ISNT OUR NAMES WILL BE SENT TO POLICE..
ISNT OUR NAMES WILL BE RUINED.. FOR LIFE ARH.!!
EVEN THOU ITS NOT OUR FAULT, WHAT HELL.!!
i told my parents about it, they scolded me..
why never call home.. why give them copy ic, they also not police..
why never just call the police.. why never fight back, we are innocent..
ARGH.!! i even more scared eh like that..

i cried when i bath, crying when im typing..
i really felt tomorrow will never come arh..
if something really happen, what if i cant talk it out anymore..
what if.. im totally speechless..

I REALLY HOPE THAT DAMM BASTARD KNOW..
I HOPE YOU FELT REALLY REALLY DAMM BAD..
I CURSE YOU BAD LUCK FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE..
I SWEAR YOU FALL INTO A NASTY DEATH..
DAMM YOU BALL LESS DE BASTARD..
USELESS WORTHLESS BRAINLESS HEARTLESS BASTARD..

if i stop dreaming. 11:01 PM +

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

f~days are never dull with a mind full of hope~f

zz, couldnt get back to sleep.. and i slept for 5hours like that only..
gonna turn mad sia, i 4am sleep 8am woke up..
9am managed to sleep, but 10am woke up liao..
dont know why like that, must be les spread his sickness to me.. x_X
but last night lotsa thots were on my mind arh..

i wrote in my mms and saved them, still cannot sleep..
ahaha, really kinda angry eh..
so yesterday i gambled with my bro eh..
hah won him 20$, but after that felt kinda bad..
cos that was all he had, so i gave him back..
hmm yesterday went to meet gwy, kev, js, wx, les, boon and mel..
then they were playing bball noh, i and gwy slacked..
after awhile, kev went off.. say go play soccer..

did play some throwing, then went to play playground..
ahaha so funny.. we played high tide on the see saw..
then lose de must get zhamed on the butt, really the pressure quite qiang eh..
shot up to the head de, then she bullied me arh..
never lose or what, also zham me down..
blahh, oo then les hurted his finger.. then waa got blood, scareded me..
i really scared of blood arh, will get a funny feeling de..

hmm, then they finally started to walk arh.. reached the bus stop..
saw that guy, later then share what i thot..
ahaha, its like from far can notice dao him ler, with his mama..
then he took bus, then js also left.. and we went to eat..
ahaha, then les shared alot of past injuries arh..
last time i always fall down de noh, last time not very scared of pain..
now abit, and of cos dont like pain and injuries lah.. so sickening..

after that, went crc saw kh and his friends..
then i teamed with kh and his friends, vs the rest.. 5v5
hahah, quite fun arh.. second time using stealth assassin..
but this time i enjoyed it more.. =s
oo, at first couldnt get a nice game arh.. keep on got people comp hang..
then after that played one round nia noh..
last part, kh and his friends all had to leave eh..
then i bobian took their stuff, awesome sia.. i killed them all..

want buy stuff then gg ler, hahah.. so it was kinda funny arh..
after that went home ler noh..
so i was saying, i saw that guy.. i thot my friends the other day asked me eh..
am i still waiting for him.? am i.?
hmm, i also dont know arh, i just tell them i will probaby forget him..
he is probably just a memory noh.. then da ge ge said have hope and faith..
not sure hes referring to him or future someone, hahah..

last time i was still uncertain of myself, cant take a little nonsense.. just break..
but kept running back to him.. =x
girls probably need someone to share, pei and to be dote of..
some could even put aside the world and have her whole set on him only..
yet sometimes not having a return upsets alot..
i had my whole set, too serious for him..
became sensitive, til i think and sputter nonsense..

turned out he didnt bother me, nothing could be done..
i had to give up, this time not breaking off a relationship..
but to let him go..
my elder friends said i grew up after that.. hah dont know.?
i tried to be less serious noh, but alot of things still matter..
need to understand that person well, and consider whether i can give happiness..
then decide noh.. like my good friend, we knew each other for quite somewhile..
and we understand each other well, after that became fond.. but too bad..
i was too afraid he might reject me, and will ruin our good friend relationship..

thats my story.. oo i have a good friend arh..
from the day i knew him, i found him quite cute ler..
recently, i found him quite charming..
hahah, thou sometimes he disappoint me arh..
i still manage to forgive him and treat him as good friend..
too bad arh, he lacks a point which matters to me..
i think if he doesnt lack that point, sure alot of suitors de..
and it also seem like quite alot of shuai ges lack that point.. =s
its not a bad thing lah..

lalala, later going out..
=] thankies for killing my time..

if i stop dreaming. 11:21 AM +