My Lost Prince

~bfore i met you, i nvr knew hw it was to look at somone and smile for no reason~

2006-02-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was Valentines' Day..
found some sweet final fantasy videos..
got my favourite song.! =]

~final fantasy x-2~

2006-02-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

just some videos ive found, rather nice..
do press accurately on the play buttons..
else to view it larger.. =D

~theres this one boy no matter what he does, you cant stop loving him~

2006-02-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

maybe when i knew, i should have said something..
anyway yesterday afternoon was quite zzzzzzz..
darling didnt reply me arh, then i zzzzz oready..
went to take bus, heart suddenly ached alot..
i suddenly miss darling alot arh, want to be with him..
but like knowing thats quite impossible, i teared..
then i think, cannot be sensitive all those..
yea ba, sometimes i think darling dont care for me..

after that went school and my friends have a new hobby
sharing porn among each other.. =s
its normal ba, thou they kept describing them..
but sometimes they talk about the stuffs..
if i join in, it isnt right arh..
there are some things, when you start..
you cant stop nor go back..

so after school going to meet darling de..
suddenly he gone missing, i see him never reply my msg..
i zzzzz ler, i sent another.. still never zzzzzz..
walked around, then 7pm called him..
no answer, really became zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
so walked home by the longest route noh, thinking..
should i give up.. in the end i really gave up..
i was stubborn, i rejected when he said he coming straight..
sighh, then he called again i rejected again..
heartached, why i so bad.. felt so useless that darling cried..
haiss, i didnt mean to make things this way.. sorry

~the spaces between your fingers are meant to be filled by mine~

2006-02-06T11:24:00.000+08:00

skipped some lectures, actually waking up at 12noon
james called saying ssmat lab due today instead of fri
hahah it doesnt bother my sleep as its quite urgent..
we have 2hours break, dont think i can reach there
so i did some part and told them to do the rest..

anyway yesterday was quite eventful i guess..
afternoon i woke up, viewing the usual blogs..
viewed one by one, until mine.. omg it got forbidden
then i checked the rest of my blogs, working well..
just this blog was forbidden, and previous entry gone..
sighh, my blog entry.. =(

i was shocked lah, even thot ive done something wrong
then ron told me should be fine later, hah..
kinda think too much, i thot i was claimed suicidical
so had to be forbidden then track me down.. =x
thats kinda lame.. but it was fine later lah..

after awhile played dota with ron against kai and winson..
hah all strength heroes, they didnt manage to kill us yet
and then we won noh.. i was supposed to call dar at 2.30
by the time i recalled needa wake him, oready 3.00
then saw him online, so thot no need to wake him ler..

=s didnt know he want to go repair earpiece..
in the end couldnt make it uh.. sorry darling..
hmm after that game, winson went out..
so played i and kai against darling and ron..
played -ar match then first time got treant..
its quite slow uh, and kept missing de.. lols

they pushed in, we pushed back..
then they went missing, we found it quite weird..
kai said then maybe just resting in base noh..
after that went darling place, then tuu quite long..
lols then went to find the rest at coffeeshop..
we were late for about 1.5hours, they quite dulan uh..

hahah after that lao yusheng ler.. so happy got yusheng
i ate two times were baoyus inside, not yusheng arh..
in the end they not lao, they pao yusheng sia..
lol lah, i got to eat one chopstick of veges and cracker
then had zhu chao, ate finish then they discuss whats next
while i chatted with kel, hahah.. they got listurb us i think

then went up to yh house outside..
darling got beaten up by the rest on the way up, so poor thing
he say pain arh.. -.- haiss..
then went back down, then walked to some carpark..
saw a stranger dog listurbing the woman's dog, want to gao..
quite funny, the neighbours all figure how to get rid of it..

then yh they said belong to some man down the trail..
so the woman used her dog to lure to dog along to the man..
hahah then want to play catching noh..
starting like lazy lazy, dont feel like doing anything..
but it was fun sia, so long never run and play catching ler..
we played 3 catchers, then had to catch 3 people nia..

played til raining, then got police came to play too..
they more pro nia, they caught all of us except 3.. =x
lols i thot really cham arh, i dont mind anything..
just that i dont want my parents know lah, later they kill me
dont let me go out dont let me do anything, very jialat de..
one still say need to call parents bail us.. i thot die sia..

then we had to surrender hp and write down our particulars
after that we all sat at one row and just chatted what not..
lols was quite funny i think.. in the end they let us go noh..
said we were nuisance arh, got neighbour called i think..
blahh after that went home ler noh..
going school soon, take care all.. peace

~the beauty of life depends on how happy others could be because of you~

2006-01-31T01:16:00.000+08:00

since its midnight, yesterday..
i went to visit my mother's side ler..
as the day before was father's side..

had lunch at mac, the girl who served us wasnt good..
we ordered too much, then made her too messy ba..
then alot of stuffs didnt get, delayed all those..
my parents were quite unhappy uh..
anyway after that went bukit ho swee to bai nian..

visit my ah ma and ah gu, my aunt and cousin also there..
hah my cousin became so thin noh, and still as 'open'..
she said alot of funny stuffs lah, and still smoke.. -.=
then some of my cousins came, with nephews and nieces
quite fun de, then talk talk talk.. played sparks..

hmm, my ah gu had sold away that house.. like a pity uh
that house was where everybody grew up from birth..
that small house was where everybody had ups and downs..
thats where they stayed and grew up.. like landmark noh..
really too bad ah gu had to sell it, as he claimed to be broke..
everybody just say if he wants to do that, nobody can stop him..

so after that went to visit my dua yi.. lols took car there..
we had to squeeze in my cousin's car noh, so xin ku..
but the distant is quite near, so had to just ren yi xia..
reached there, did nothing much uh.. just sat there..
and ate and drank and ate and drank and talked..

after that my cousins and their kids came over to my place..
where we had kfc and lao bao yu, not lao yu sheng..
hahah, i like to eat those veges and such.. very nice uh..
then finished my dinner ler, went over to darling's place..
at first told him stress arh, dont want go bai nian..
hehh then i think its quite alright ba, so went bai nian..

hmm, then bai nian finish jiu bring lazy bum go out eat..
eat finish then slack around, played playground de slides.. =D
then awhile go home ler.. start to open my angbaos..
i usually like to keep all my angbaos under pillow..
til no more bai nian then open them up noh..
then put back under pillow as ya shui qian, whatever it is..

may this new year no more disasters, tragedy and sickness..
may this new year be allwell all year round..
ich bin schnappi, das kleine krokodil..
schni schna schnappi schnappi schnappi schnapp~

~no matter what i will love you like i do, like i always do~

2006-01-30T01:28:00.000+08:00

Xing Nian Kuai Le, Gong Xi Gong Xi.!!
just reached home from friend house uh..
since its midnight already, so yesterday..
i woke up at 12noon+, then prepared to go bai nian..
wore my new clothings: white colour + brown skirt
and also the high cut shoes, which my papa didnt like..
lols, cos need to take some time taking off and wearing it..

anyway after having lunch at home, went to take cab..
wasnt very easy to get uh, and we headed to woodlands..
its kinda costly sia, 10+$ like that.. =s
then reached there ler, not many relatives reach either..
also some went overseas noh, then cannot make it..
so their children (my cousins) also not visiting.. -.=

its still so so, my bro couldnt really take the boredom thou..
hah, then i see my two nieces.. they have reach sec school..
hmm the way they present themselves.. ah lian-wannabes
lols but guess all teenagers are like that, will go thru the stage
hope they are like me, always guai guai.. =D

and alot of them left quite fast too, the shoes outside the door..
they are countable.. even by my two palms of fingers..
its quite sad uh, thou i dont interact with them much..
the feel and the atmosphere just lessen noh, isnt that fun ler..
but there are more kids, thats the good part.. lols esp babies
its very cute to just look and observe them..

so there is this 3year old nephew, cute looking marcus..
i like his cheeks, his teeth and his hyperness.. =D
hes very active, will dance along with the lion dance on tv..
then will keep playing with the door and jump in and out..
very adorable when he smiles, he has very nice teeth..

so then, he wanted to go playground.. his favourite is see-saw
but alot of people left, and nobody wanted to bring him down..
i see he so kelian, stood at the door pleading to his grandma..
then i offered to bring him down noh.. and my bro tagged along
lols i carried him arh, his grandma said dont spoil him..
i said nevermind lah, then carried him til i no strength..

waa, he happy happy just run off de.. too active arh..
he run very cute de, like skipping.. then very scared he fall
but heng he didnt fall arh, only once really scareded me..
he want to sit on some exercise stuff at the playground..
it look like some work out devise, bicycle-like de..
push the leg pad, handle will move in, seat also move up..

so my bro and i didnt know, we stepped on it quite hard..
then marcus flew.!! lols, really shocked the hell outta me
i straight away carried him away, and asked is he okay..
heng he still can show me his cute smile and laugh arh..
then told him cannot play that ler, for adult only..
brought him to play slides, since no see-saw uh..

quite cute de, played with him.. then papa came with sis
she also played the slide, then papa said very hot later sick
so had to bring marcus up ler, i know he sure sad noh..
but i kept telling him later if sick, more cannot play..
then i did some funny sounds, he also imitate.. hahah
after that sat awhile, then had dinner there.. then left ler

went home around 4+, like going to rain..
chatted with wl abit, so long never talk or see him ler
and 7+ going to visit wc's place noh..
in the end never rain uh, i walked there..
its kinda funny, i dont really know how to go there..
i only know how to walk there, but quite near also..
then walked to wrong block, lols all looked the same..

reached there, waa wc the man haven reach..
lucky got zs and yf noh, then watch tv.. mouse love cat
funny show, got andy lau neh.. ^^ the girl i also like
hmm, then alan reached ler.. i open door..
zs took key and unlock the lock.. then i sat down..
soon later, mh reached ler.. i open door again..
but funny, didnt take out the key from the lock..

waa, like so careless noh.. heng mh reach soon after
so then wc the man finally reached, he got angbao take
from my mama de.. kekek, then all complained..
hanrong and edward was with him also..
then hanrong sang afew of his composed songs..
nice lah, he got into the first audition of SuperBand..

hmm, then wc said he invited vincent also noh..
after that kh reached, then vincent reached..
hah everybody looked at me, but im normal lah..
its the past ler, we also got chat abit last night..
so then lawrence and some church peeps came
waa, the whole living room full noh.. no space left
really quite crowded and re nao arh, very nice..

hahah then everybody asked why never bring bf..
i said he go visit his relatives..
then they said next time bring darling along..
darling always dont want de noh.. =p
yea ba, almost everybody dont know de abit shy ba..

then hr let me see his SuperBand de audition noh..
not bad, sure very exciting able to perform that way
somemore so many people cheer all those..
he said got two more auditions i think..
hope he and his band can get into Fei Chang SuperBand..

after awhile thomas and idy came noh, no angbao =x
lols, then they brought their wedding photos album..
then hr and the church peeps left ler, then more space..
so they start to play some gambling games ba..
i siam aside noh, i dont gamble de.. im a good girl..
then see them play the computer..
slack til 11+ then went home ler noh..

good night all.. may all be happy and healthy..
and of course, WORLD PEACE..

~theres always that one person who will always have your heart~

2006-01-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

today is the Lunar New Year eve, not Lunar New Year yet..
anyway HappY LunaR NeW YeaR everybody.!!
had reunion dinner, everybody had to wear red shirt..
lols my mama said its to have good fortune..
so everybody were wearing new red shirts, and home pants..
and on this very day..

Happy One Monthsary, darling.. =] *hUgs
i just did that, and yea.. im still at Happyville..
im not sure if i could get out of there, haven try..
and im not sure why im still at Happyville, lols..

been lazy to blog uh.. tomorrow start to visit relatives ler..
yeah, kinda excited already..
new clothes, red packets, tibits, snacks, and more snacks.. =D
eat too much may fall sick too, do take care all..
may all be prosperous and have good luck and good fortune~

~never expect a lot in life, its the simple things that count~

2006-01-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

the day have been raining since then..
so cooling, i even thot why got aircon while sleeping..
oh ya, in the middle of the night i woke up..
=s i dreamt my papa died, then i cried..
i woke up i still teared abit, then went back to sleep..
hah yesterday watched two local films i rented..

so this is the local guy who made the two films..
a pretty creative guy, name: tzang merwyn tong

this 53mins film is a mixture of bizarre, school and adolescent.. it started with a boy named Wynn, he came to this new college called Faeryville.. he was expelled from his previous school as he fought with a bully who commented something nasty about his mother.. so he came to this new school, new environment, no friends yet; all strangers.. and came Faeke, he was the first guy who talked to him.. hes the type of crazy tragedic poetry guy, wore black and white from head to toe.. like those type of crazy sadist too, he talked like a poet.. so in this school, there was the Backside Boyz who girls screamed for, guys siamed for.. cos they also like to be big bullies, and they dont look very handsome lah.. only the head Ah Hock who is a malay, looks the best, the rest still so so or eee.. then they went to class, the lecturer talked so boring de.. and the Glamour Girls came in, the most pretty and popular girl among was Alicia who alot of guys fancied.. but shes abit "that dont impress me" "boring lah" on her face type of girl.. so anyway Faeke had a plan, he managed to gather Wynn, Lipp, Toilet and one more forget what name to join his outcast gang.. i like this part.. he started his poetic sayings, "wankers lamers losers, arent we all!" was his most famous.. choose your addiction, choose your poison.. actually the whole story is about being bullied or misfit, then they want to make sense out of their seemingly senseless world.. their first "plot" was Faeke got into trouble, and the Backside Boyz started to bash him up.. despite of all the pain, he still manage to laugh and smile.. so made Ah Hock very angry, and continued to bash him up real hard.. alot of peeps saw of course, then thats the first bad impression.. the principal came, then they just excused themselves by saying they were playing.. *shake head* too bad uh, the principal was Ah Hock's father.. then after that Wynn was eating his carrot cake alone, he was also admiring Alicia from another table of the Glamour Girls.. and the Backside Boyz came and sat with the Glamour Girls, they talked alot.. nothing interested Alicia, and most of their opinions were different from her.. she just sat there and listened.. so anyway then one of the Backside Boyz saw Wynn, and said hes with Faeke de, and hes staring at them.. they wanted to bash up Wynn, when suddenly Lipp came.. Lipp was kinda ah gua, he put make up and lip stick and wore a tube.. so he came running down the stairs, flew upon Ah Hock and kissed him on the lips *everyone stunned*.. he then said "i always wanted to do that" and grabbed Ah Hock's balls then ran.. all the peeps around of course stared, oww all the humilations for Ah Hock.. then he "ARGHH, get him.!" and the chase began.. Wynn had no choice, he followed behind.. they ran and ran, til Lipp reached a dead end.. then got bashed up, poor guy.. shortly later, the rest appeared as if demon summoners.. and started chanting, Faeke then cursed them.. the Backside Boyz of course got frightened and ran off.. then bad things really happened, their parents got into accidents.. everybody knew and they were frightened of Wynn and his friends.. only Alicia approached Wynn "why do you keep staring at me. when are you going to ask me out.?".. Wynn was speechless, just then the principal called to see him in his office.. oww wasted a chance.. Faeke had disappeared, hes a dangerous and a wanted man.. the principal wanted Wynn to tell him wheres Faeke, Wynn's mother kept sobbing.. he was rather furious when the principal mentioned about Wynn's past.. he just walked out, and Alicia was outside waiting.. they went to sit down to talk, but she wasnt what he expected.. Alicia started saying his group was so awesome, nobody ever stood up for the Backside Boyz.. Wynn was upset, nobody wanted to know about him, just him.. he bet nobody knew his name, he bet nobody cared.. he walked away, went to somewhere deserted he might belong.. the place where he found Faeke too, he started asking "whats so wrong with you.?".. but actually, Faeke had a past just like Wynn.. he was bullied, made fun of.. he just want to push back, but he didnt mean to push too hard.. Wynn finally understand, they are truly friends.. so they walked out, where they met face to face with the Backside Boyz again.. Ah Hock had a gun, then one of the Backside Boyz whose father was in accident wanted to kill Faeke.. Faeke didnt mean anything to happen, he just want the Backside Boyz to learn their lessons.. but they became sick and psychoed, they actually really believed they summoned demons.. and really, BANG Faeke got shot and died.. Wynn was very upset, he took the gun.. he hated everyone, his best friend is dead.. the principal came, "give me the gun".. Wynn said "you all look upon me now because i have a gun in my hand. when i dont have the gun, im nothing, NOTHING to any of you. i want to thank Faeke for giving me this day, thank you Faeke." BANG he shot himself in the head and died.. [the story has ended.. but life goes on]

this is another film, 45mins adult version of Little Red Riding Hood.. bloody, weird yet creative.. it started with this naive girl, and her mother asked her to visit grandmama.. she looks very cute, oww i like her big eyes.. anyway her name is Beth and so she was on her way to visit grandmama.. her mother told her not to speak to any strangers, as there are darkness lurking in the woods.. so she was on her way, walking skipping along the path.. then there was a stranger, he started to talk to her.. at first she didnt want to talk, then she didnt want to be unfriendly so she spoke up.. Uncle Charlie was nearby, he was accusing the stranger to be some pervert preying on innocent little things.. then Beth said dont worry they were just talking, and asked him to go away.. so the stranger then asked Beth where grandmama stayed, he gave her a lollipop and asked her to take another route as it wasnt safe.. so that guy went to find grandmama, and killed her.. he even took afew bites on her, then dragged her to somewhere.. blood everywhere, yucks.. he pulled down the curtains and took off his pants.. lite a cigarette and made himself cosy on the bed.. Beth finally reached, its funny she couldnt recognise voice de meh.. so anyway she went in, put down her stuffs and sat on the bed with "grandmama" and talked.. gave Beth afew puffs on the cigarette "what rough hands you have, grandmama" "to feel you better, my dear" "what big eyes you have, grandmama" "to see you better, my dear" "what big nose you have, grandmama" lols.. then she finally saw, she screamed and tried to run.. but he caught her, later Uncle Charlie came in (ps: he was peeping through the curtains all along, hes kinda slow when he start to bash in. was he enjoying watching part of the moment.? lols).. fought and fought, lots of blood.. Beth also saw her grandmama, dead.. she screamed and was terrified, she had no choice, she took grandmama's gun and tried to aim.. BANG shot Uncle Charlie dead, wth.. the guy was quite happy, he was about to leave.. just then, Beth took Uncle Charlie's grass mower and cut off both of his legs.. really very disgusting, then she stood there, got nervous and pee-d.. she took off her undies, and the guy's bird stood up.. she became curious, went over and sat herself up and down.. so then the pervert became paralyze, no legs.. poor thing, took care by Beth who became a nurse.. have to help him bath, but she kinda tortured him too.. [the fable of innocence lost]

~you never see it coming, because you're blinded from the start~

2006-01-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

its friday, its the weekends~ woohoo
got to know my term tests results this week..
dfund2 - 30+/50 and 97/100 (lab)
ssmat - 30+/50 and 20/20 (quiz)
edeckt - 25/100 (pathetic.!!) and 70/100 (lab)
emaths2 - 99/100 (omg, just bcos i didnt show working)

lols, first time in my life get pathetic marks.. 1/4 looks nicer
really feel like giving up on the subject noh..
i seriously dont understand a single shyt about it, arghh..
so demoralising too, really more and more no interest..
the tutorial tcher and lecturer also dont click with me..
no feel to them arh, lols.. real jialat, i dont wish to repeat..

sometimes i cannot tahan people talking about dota liao eh..
my class lah, their brains have been OWNAGED by dota..
kept yakking and mentioning about dota whole day long..
whenever theres break, will consider for a dota break.. -.=
hah, then i everytime reject their games.. abit tired of it
think i didnt play dota for a week or so ler, teehee..

so anyway my darling sick sia.. =( so kelian..
went to visit him at his house and pei him just now..
his mama so good, cooked dinner.. then i bought cakes
kinda embarrassing uh, i didnt know i ran outta cash..
then i owed the cake shop auntie 60cents..

i kept insisiting on taking one of the cakes out..
but she told me keyed in ler, cannot erase ba..
then told me next time return to her when i have the time..
she even asked me if i have money to take transport..
such a nice lady noh, i was really bu hao yi si..

i can admit my mind is quite messy.. weird and uncertain
hmm, anyway i tired ler.. got a little cold too..
goodnight all.. darling take care, must get well soon arh~

~在我的世界没有的后悔我是绝对不会放弃往前追~

2006-01-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

用尽一生去寻找绝对
会不会太累
完美是个骗人的词
爱没有谁欠谁
爱没有对不对
爱有完整
爱也有破碎
何必太伤悲
答案永远没有绝对
你不必太完美
我不必太完美
人性的可爱就是不能完美

~you melt my broken heart, gave my life a brand new start~

2006-01-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

on saturday [31st] was kev's birthday..
so in the afternoon actually wanted to meet 4pm..
then dragged abit, in the end around 5+ then meet..
so after i reached, fer, ron, yn, kh was there already..
awhile later, wx came.. then we went to buy drinks

went to see benson awhile, i gave him his present arh..
then gwy came noh.. after that we deciding where to go
benson then called that he come find us during his break..
hmm, after that les also came.. silly boy still slept so less

then we chatted at burgerKing awhile.. benson left ler
we headed to forkNspoon and had dinner..
after that we went to take 56 and headed to marinaSquare
went there didnt do much uh, lols window shop i guess
tuck came liao, also got discuss abit what to buy for kev..

in the end couldnt find the ideal one uh..
initially i wanted to buy a mini fan for him, hahah..
marinaSquare also not many ideal shops to buy present
so then, kev, zl, iz were meeting to go pasirRis arh..
then we had abit of discussion on where to go..
esplanade seems like a fine place to countdown
and see fireworks arh..

i kinda dread the crowd, so i dont really want to stay..
and kev is my good friend arh, kinda bad if dont go..
so then we took cabs down to pasirRis..
it was so expensive arh, kinda heart ached..
blahh, so reached there ler.. we went to find kev..
we walked down the beach quite awhile..
then walked back to fisherman'sVillage as they were there..

reached there liao, we walked back to downtownEast..
was kinda crazy, but its alright ba.. lols kev was the man
but the journey was freaking tired and the night was humid
so we reached downtownEast ler, forgot did what..
then had countdown, alot of people sprayed all kinds of shyt
and that was Happy New Year.!! and the whole place stinked

after that we went in to a big tent or something..
inside got a dj playing technos, and people dancing noh..
like clubbing arh, lols pretty awesome.. but poor darling
he had to carry the bag with some of their stuffs..
so i peiied him arh, then awhile later went out to take a sit

then after some time, they came out liao..
hmm forgot did what, then go celebrate kev's birthday noh
kinda funny arh, always play the same old trick..
but kev tio the worst i guess, lols.. darling also tio abit
then i lost him, sorry darling.. =( i wont lose you again

so after that went to the park, played some firecrackers..
also played some sparks and all that.. lotsa smoke, lols..
then played catching at the maze, kinda funny arh..
starting got caught, then darling said go out and hide..
he wanted to play cheat arh, hahah.. it also started to rain

then next round liao, we ran to the middle of the maze..
hahah almost all were there too, then like got catcher came
then all zhao, i didnt manage to zhao.. but tuck let me off
lols was quite surprised, then i went out i saw kh..
he oready became next round catcher ma, so quite safe..

after that game over ler, all went out.. then stopped
due to the rain ba.. then we all went to toilet wash up
whao my eyes were damm puffy and baggy, hah zz
then went to some shelter and rest abit..
awhile later they all left ler, then i rest with darling..
zl and ika also stayed at the shelter noh..

hahah, and i couldnt really sleep eh.. it was still raining
was kinda itchy, kinda wet, kinda hard also.. gave me aches
zl and ika left about 4+, 5+am to take bus..
darling and i stayed til morning noh, lols kinda crazy..
still couldnt really sleep arh, then saw the sky bright ler

went to wash up then went beach there..
the scenery was nice, only the water was dirty.. lols
then wanted to walk out de, in the end came to dead end
got stucked in a shelter for awhile as it started to rain
after that we managed to walk out, and took bus..
then reached the interchange, took 88 to tpy..

whao it was so freaking cold, i managed to sleep abit..
hahah then reached tpy interchange, still freaking tired
i couldnt even open my eyes liao, then darling hungry..
so he ate, while i drank barley.. i wasnt hungry noh..
after that went home bath then slept ler..
oww how i miss my warm bed.. =s

evening woke up, had dinner and iron my parents' clothes
finished liao, went to meet darling again..
lols he bluffed me out, say want eat.. in the end never eat
so went to walk and slack around, then went home ler..

ive promised i will follow you, i will never regret..

darling ah darling, must guai and study alright..
i will miss you, huggiess muackkies..

~i may never know whats been missing in my life~

2005-12-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

the beautiful day always let one remembering fondly.
the happy time always let one reluctanting to part with.

~confessions of the rugged doll~

2005-12-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

wherever my life leads me to.
i wish my soul will never be always blue.
with a gentle touch on my broken heart.
the pieces will just shatter into the dark.
heartaches ive brought upon my loved ones and myself.
how i wished i was never bought from the shelf.
tears ive cried and tears ive hold.
should i still believe i am always bold.
lessons learnt and knowledge gained.
no one may understand my feelings of pain.
whatever my life may leads me to.
i wish i could see the light as my life is through..

~between us, "friends" is never a word. but a promise~

2005-12-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

today, or was it yesterday oready.. 22nd dec noh..
was such a tiring day, and so emotional uh.. lols
holiday is finally here, yet it will still be quite stressful
have about 3-4 projects + some online assignments..
maybe have to plan my time ler, if i want to enjoy too..

so morning i woke up 7+am, so tired..
the day before i didnt study for edeckt, lazy..
even played dota, totally no hope for edeckt ler..
mon..monn..monster kill me uh.. lool
played too much dota ler, influenced by my friends..

and that morning i felt like giving up, dont go school..
but i still had to lah, at least get afew marks or something
so i was on the bus reaching soon, i read my textbook..
really at the last minute, suddenly i understood some stuffs
too bad its really too late, i went in the classroom..
everybody had settled down..

had time to read the questions.. i stoned, how can this be..
i read some stuffs at the last minute, i couldnt understand still
going to start, the angmo examiner had to read instructions
he really started my day with a smile.. he read like machine gun
somemore with his angmo accent, it was kinda funny..
at first everybody got surprised, then some laughed..

i wanted to laugh, but i scared rude.. so i controlled abit
then i saw some people laughed, i laughed abit noh.. lols
start ler, i had no choice.. my mind turned messy..
lols, i really dont wish to repeat any module uh..
so i just anyhow use formulae in, heck care relevant or not..
i just hope arh, really hope.. to get some marks..

after the paper, i turned.. waa so many people left..
but most of them should be gave up de, edeckt suks lah..
morever, nat (top student) was pretty fumed up..
he banged here and there, so scary uh.. he said he dont know
if he dont know, then i really doomed sia.. =s

so anyway, after that went TM de kfc to eat noh..
with winson, winston, shawn, kai, darren, nigel, jasp and manhin
stoopid kfc, i asked for mug yea mug.. the woman said okay okay..
and even asked again, in the end i got same black black drink..
but its coke, arghh.. somemore i nearly didnt get my cheese fries
the auntie sending food told me that fat woman forgot..

lols, if i bad mood arh.. i sure take the coke and scold her..
after that went raiders and played dota noh..
arghh 8+$ neh, played for about 4+hrs.? my heart so pain..
used lich, enchantress then lycanthrope noh.. lost 2 won 1
after that, took bus to punggol there.. then took 88 to bishan

i hadnt eat, hadnt loo.. so i chionged to 7eleven and bought milk
then chionged to toilet, the toilet crowded.. then went to another
after that went up meet the rest to watch kingKong..
quite alot of peeps: gwy, ck, tuck, ron, js, wx, les, igna, vic, iz, kh, kev
then vic didnt watch uh, after that tuu awhile.. we went in noh

hmm, the movie not bad noh.. kinda long nia, 3+hours.?
then got some part quite exciting, some part quite horrible..
and lastly some part quite touching, oww i sobbed..
greedy bastards, only think for themselves.. caused troubles
and so sad, why kong had to die.. he just want to be with ann nia..
whats their damm problems sia.. cant they understand, arghh..

then still got those freaking giant insects and worms.. disgusted me
i really felt so freak out.. i cant imagine really got such living things
lols, and i dont understand why got dinosaurs.. mixed up world
most funny was the dinosaurs all tumbling down.. alot of lame stuffs
overall, its a great movie i guess.. starting part i almost fell asleep nia

so after the movie, we went toilet.. then stood somewhere
dont know doing what, then kev, kh and i went s&k see see..
no nice tee ler eh, last time got alot.. but i was broke uh..
so nevermind, after that went to find the rest at kopitiam..
then had some drinks, and slackked abit uh..

lols, after that they want go up to the carpark or dont know where..
im a very practical person uh, i dont see a need.. i rather go home rest
so i kept insisting i want to go home.. but they all didnt let me..
i kept asking them go up for what, they told me just go up.. zz
hahah, sorry to make you all pek chek.. im a very stubborn person

so i was still insisting on my decision.. then like abit weird noh
why must they insist me of going there.. i didnt have any idea
then the feeling wasnt very good ler, i nearly felt like crying..
err they saw or something, and didnt force ler..
but i still felt kinda low uh..

hmm, after that they surprised me with a cake behind the wall..
and they sang me birthday song, lols.. real surprised, speechless
then that really hitted me, i teared abit..
i wished, i blew the candles and i cut the cake..
kinda paiseh uh, need to cut alot of pieces.. then became ugly

then we ate the fruit cake, i couldnt finish eh..
think they wanted to smash my face with the leftover cake..
i seriously dont wish that to happen, i stayed away.. lols
in the end they aimed les.. =s sorry and thanks uh..
after that i finally get to go home noh.. real tired

thankies all, really appreciates everything you all have done.. ^^

~as our lifes change, come whatever. we will still be friends forever~

2005-12-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

today i had my term test emaths2 paper arh..
yesterday i reached home yn posted me some questions..
from past year papers, really killer questions noh..
both of us couldnt figure out..

but certainly was a relief arh, wasnt that tough..
was quite straightforward de.. then again, i aim to score 100%
lols, i checked with the pros.. most of our ans are the same

so anyway yesterday (18th dec) was my birthday noh..
im not the type who expect alot lah, just that..
yesterday happen de stuffs really unexpectable, lols..
quite alot of misunderstandings noh..

firstly, kev planned that since it was my birthday..
everybody should go out and eat together..
secondly kh wanted to watch kingKong.. so did kev
but wx going to genting, so not everybody agreed..
and i had to make a decision arh..

then les also want to meet me.. which i didnt have a clue
i thot could meet the rest after that, but i really not sure
what time i can make it.. les didnt say go where do what ma..

so there was some sort of conflict arh..
was like ron and wx knew what les wanted to do..
so they disagreed with kh and kev noh..
then somemore i couldnt decide can go anot..
caused til kh and kev abit disappointed ba, cant go watch..

then kh and kev wanted to go shopping first too..
im not very sure why they didnt go arh..
actually still got fer and iz able to go too ba..
think like very few people, so they didnt go in the end..

then i had to go meet les liao.. i told them to decide first..
and i went off, some survey guy came to talk to me..
asked me if i care about my skin, i said no.. he laughed
then he got nothing to ask liao, he chatted with me..
he actually chatted with me.. it was like so weird noh..

i asked him no more questions liao arh.. he said yes alot..
then he just chatted with me.. asked me for my name
he asked for my number, i rejected..
so then he asked if i got bf.. i said no.. he laughed..

really weird fella.. i was surprised, and he said why no bf..
i said "whats your problem.. do you have a gf.?"
he just laughed and laughed, and then he said no..
then i said "then you still say me" he still laughing
really wth arh.. les lah, so late then come.. lols

zl was there also noh.. then we peiied him go popular buy stuffs
i called kh, he said everybody dont seem to have the mood ler
and i still didnt have a clue what we going to do..
lols, so in the end les and i went town de swensens eat..

eat some apple crumble, banana split and fries..
the apple crumble was nice at first, eat more ler seemed boring
then we couldnt finish it, we played zhong ji mi ma..
kinda funny arh, i lost.. then he also ate with me..
the taste really funny arh.. salty, ketchupy, chocolatey

and really kinda wasted arh, didnt finish everything..
except the banana split, kekek.. it was nice..
so after that we went to walk walk arh.. quite crowded de
and he wanted to buy soccer bet, in the end didnt buy..
cos of the long que arh, then we went cineleisure noh..

we went level9 to see, then wanted to watch movie de..
then he say i still looked kinda upset..
actually i was not noh, i really dont mind de..
its not a matter of whether got people celebrate with me anot..
its not a matter of whether i will be happy anot..

its just that.. why everybody had to be sad..
i felt bad that they couldnt do what they planned..
i appreciated, sure no prob.. but i couldnt give them an answer..
like made them disappointed eh..

think les found it abit guilty too, so he called everybody down..
actually its alright de noh.. the rest did say i just go enjoy
thou i felt bad, he did make me feel glad.. i didnt mind completely
but his thinking was like.. its my birthday.. so i letted him be
lols, i still think its just a day.. another day..
then abit paiseh need to mafan them down.. =s

anyway i appreciated everything arh..
then kh, ron came down.. went to see the Nike shop..
kh couldnt find his M white shirt, so didnt buy..
then went down to the food court, tuck, gwy and fer reached
after that siong and charmaine came and i spoke to charmaine..

very long never see her ler.. hahah had a short conversation
after that they left.. then we decided where to go next..
and we crossed the road and went to heeren..
walked around, while i told fer and gwy the story noh..
kev then called me noh.. he was at tpy

then i was still unsure when we will be heading to tpy..
so i told him to call me later noh..
after that he put down liao, they said go crc..
lols i said take bus, some said taxi, some said mrt..
waa until we reached a mrt, fer then side them..

so in the end we took mrt to tpy.. but nevermind lah..
then kev smsed me with someone's hp.. to contact him..
even thou kev always disappoint me, i never blamed him
i still treat him as my good friend arh..
sometimes i wont want to care either..

its not i want to say arh.. some peers like to bad mouth
when that person is not around.. my poly friends are like that
it really hurts arh.. sometimes i will wonder..
if i were not around, will they insult behind me like that.?

sometimes when one person did something for fun..
the opposite party may take it seriously, then became mad..
really equals to hurting of ties eh..

well well, if i ever say or do anything stoopid and wrong..
do tell me in my face.. im born to take insults, i wont mind..
im not mad, im just disappointed..

so we went to crc noh.. fer, les and me vs tuck, gwy, ron and kh
we -ap, they -random noh..
then we won.. after that fer, gwy and ron took taxi..
and les walked me home.. then all went home noh..
went home did some maths question with yn.. ownage me

then i started to talk to kev.. i asked him about the tagboard stuff
waa i sort of scolded him at first eh.. then i wanted to know why
then he told me he didnt tag, i was so sorry.. he was very upset
i admitted i suspected him, then i listened and talked to him noh..

then he confronted les, i was so sorry eh.. =s
i wasnt as mad lah, i thot that person really joker..
yet it wasnt that simple noh, really hurted him..
its not i want to tell kev de.. its just that i was concerned
everytime people bad mouthed him, i also dont dare tell him..
sure will upset him wa..

but those really quite serious de, i want to know the truth..
ayy, hope wont happen again ba..
whoever that bastard really caused wreckage..

i really wished for world peace and happiness on my cakes..
no joke at all..
anyway i had a great time, friends.. thankies
thankies everybody who wished me too.. =]

~photos fade away, but memories always stay~

2005-12-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday (17th dec) my bros said want celebrate my bday..
so from 11am siong called me eh, dont know why..
i was still sleeping noh, really crazy shyt noh..
around 3pm i left my house, i saw him outside de staircase..
really shocked dao, then i asked him what he doing..
he said he waited since he called me, really wth arh..

and he gave me present, i went to take bus..
he said want pei me go, i said no need noh..
lols then he went home noh.. he had bball match ma..
so i met jane, wc and minghui at tpy noh..
after that go bishan noh, wanted to watch movie.. zs came

the cinema only had chickenLittle, thePromise and kingKong..
then kingKong selling fast arh, so in the end didnt watch arh..
waa they really like to tuu noh.. want eat dont want eat de..
kept walking around to decide, in the end went food court to eat

hmm, after that went PS noh.. caught two winnieThePooh eh
one small and one big de, they spent quite alot of money..
the small one very funny, wc kept trying cannot catch dao..
zs tried one time caught dao ler, then gave me noh..
the big one wc kept for himself noh, then not much luck ler..

oo i was feeling very uncomfortable noh.. i vomitted arh..
then vomitted finish still got want to vomit de feeling eh..
think i had gastric problem arh.. really very very xin ku..
walk also walk til very slow, then headache also..
it was until evening, going to zs house eat ler..
then zs went to bought some medicine..

went to his house ler, he told me the medicine was for me..
hahah first time eat the medicine, one tube de..
alot of small bits inside de, i was quite surprised noh..
had to eat the whole tube at one go eh, lols.. first time ma..
then ate ler, felt better noh.. thanks alot bro.. =D

after that, kaihong, longhui and hanrong reached ler..
then they cooked fried noodles and prepared steamboat..
very heart warming arh, lols all they cook de..
then the fried noodles very funny, tasted like carrot cake..
but its nice arh.. and we watched 40yearOldVirgin wc brought
then siong also came liao, said his team lost by 10+points noh..

so the show quite funny de.. alot of uncensored stuff and vulgars arh..
then after that cut cake noh, fruit cake.. ^^
they also bought me something from Perlini`sSilver..
reminded me of something.. =s
and we took some photos noh, then went home ler..

missed one bus, in the end took taxi noh..
reached home around 12.05 never tio gan, kekek..
opened the box, they bought me dolphin earrings+necklace
yeah i enjoyed and had a great time, thanks alot bros.!

~my heart was broken, i thought loving you was out of question~

2005-12-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

today i skipped first lecture and went for psps tut..
some problem solving skill stuff arh, then had to do presentation
hahah, i still remember yesterday night we last min do de..
its a group assignment arh, then i thot of doing the slides myself..

then i think, waa abit zz.. so didnt do..
i asked manhin, he like abit blurr blurr.. dont know what is it about
lols, then lucky james came online.. i was kinda rushing arh
i told them il do slides and description, they think of an example for it
heng we did it quite fast, then i sent to them.. and was freaking relieved

james did the presentation noh, not bad lah..
then he kept saying got throw my face all those, aiyo pass can ler..
this subject no grade no nothing, i just want a P.. lols
then they say about never did much, i did most of it..
so anyway after that was emaths lecture..

the whole bunch of us decided not to go.. cos do revision nia..
then we also decided not to go the two java labs after break..
so altogether we had 4 hours of freetime before our ssmat test..
and guess what.. DOTA again, and CS.. sad seh, yesterday spent 5+$
today spent another 5+$ noh.. about 16 of us went, lecturer sure sad

so the whole gang went to take bus.. the bus came and we ran for it..
then some sort our class has 3 "outsider" ma, so versus them..
they had one friend with them lah.. then we best 4 play with them..
lols, quite a hard game arh.. like kill here and there, quite a long one
and in the end we won arh.. then no game, we played cs ler noh..

after that went for ssmat test ler noh..
oo then very funny arh.. forget who said kai very fat..
then kai squeezed his tummy and asked "you got anot.?" to nat..
nat and nigel dont have.. then nat suddenly point the "outsider" girl
and said "why you didnt ask her.?" lols, really wth noh..

the girl stared very fierce sia.. scary noh, aiyo very poor thing..
she quiet quiet sat there so innocent then suddenly got shot at..
ayy, dont know why they like to mock others.. im not that fierce nia
actually her situation was cos got one time arh..
that girl said she think shes the prettiest.. then took pics of herself
using other people's hp, lols.. then they started to pick on her ler

so anyway the test wasnt as hard as i thot eh, was straightforward..
and i manage.. for the first time in my life.. to do it myself..
with some guidiance from the lecturer arh..
lols, doesnt seem like a test de noh.. the lecturer told us our mistakes..
told us we did correct all those de.. i think he scared we cannot make it

=] my mugging holiday..

~then i saw my reflection saying please dont let this go~

2005-12-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday night after one dota match, i let my bro play..
then i went to sleep, nice sia.. usually he play very noisy..
and i cant sleep.. yesterday i really slept, i was very tired..
kekek, was sneezing non stop also yesterday..

anyway today was quite a short day arh.. two labs nia, and cds..
then both labs have lab tests noh.. i was late for java lab noh..
and i thot tomorrow then java test, lucky it was a open book test..
kinda irritating noh.. i manage to do the TextListener shyt..
then i thot i finished ler, i was so happy.. i raised up my hand..

alot of people quite surprised arh, lols i was the first.. =s
then the lecturer came, omg noh.. i forget got button..
kinda paiseh arh.. so i debug and debug, i couldnt get.!
so irritating.. got one example on it, and i didnt take down notes..
waa so many examples i got take down, why that example didnt..
really disappointed sia.. hope can pass lah, at least..

then after that was dfund2 lab test.. i didnt really prepare for it..
whao i was relieved that the lab was straightforward arh.. quite easy
oh ya, yesterday got back my dfund2 quiz result..
just becos didnt state "output" i got minus 1 mark.. arghh heartache
but at least lah, i got around the marks i was expecting..

so was happy noh.. hope i can score well..
but arghh, i can score well for two subjects.. so what sia..
the two other subjects im really in total shyt arh.. zz
really scared noh, i dont want to repeat any module eh..

blahh, then after that lab test.. got about 2-3 hours break..
james, nigel, shawn, jasp, winson and me went raiders to play cs..
quite fun noh, but they kept using artic arh.. so zhun eh
then cannot escape from it de.. i dont even know how to use
i only know how to use the B-4-2 terrorist de scout.. lols

after that darren, kai and winston came, and we played cs noh..
awhile later, we played dota noh..
nigel and shawn are beginners arh, then we team up noh..
my team got james, winston and shawn noh.. 4v5

then opposite team all use their main hero sia..
jasp used naix, winson used gondar, darren used treant..
kai used soulkeeper then darren asked nigel to use death phophet..
waa, i thot will lose noh.. then i just use lyncanthrope..
james used bone, winston used his venomancer, shawn used riki..

riki very cute, play til quite some time he still level1..
then he kept smoke screen noh, also good arh..
our lane got treant and death arh.. then i kept aiming death.. =x

then winston lane got gondar and naix, he not bad noh..
his venomancer really strong arh.. heng naix cannot farm..
i really very zz with naix noh, see naix is confirm die de..
then james also not bad, thou he only know how to use bone..
hahah, then i first time get 4 kills at one time.. triple kill, triple kill

abit paiseh arh actually, then i always go chiong..
chase til kill liao, in the end got killed also.. oww..
venomancer also beyond godlike, bone also unstoppable..
i gave my wolf powerthreads, mom, basher, mkb, heart, sacred relic..
then going to end got radiance noh.. hahah then got killed by firebush
90secs then can come out.. haven come out, gg ler..

then went back school, wanted to attend ssmat extra lesson de..
in the end, dont have time.. azz wipe the chair nia, have to go to cds liao
hahah, 4+ i zhao noh cos got break ma.. very tired arh, very sian also
then walked around and waited for zheqi til 5+ then he dismiss..
zz my hp keep on spoiling like that.. insert sim card shyt..

want change phone, dont want change phone too.. cos alot of stuffs inside
lols, somemore also cant find another phone similiar to mine ler..
the keypad is good and the phone is pretty.. hah next time then see how ba..

oh ya, later got star idol.. i quite enjoy watching it arh, some act really good..
then see my friend, then will think kinda funny noh..
that time he asked me to support by joining his fan club i think..
at first really weird arh, like know him not long.. suddenly he became famous
thou i never support by smsing or calling, i support by watching noh..

so tomorrow got one test, next day got lab test..
monday got test, wednesday got two tests, thursday got last paper..
woots, so many tests uh.. good luck to all having tests~ ^^
happy holidays and seasons greetings soon..

~i think its amazing, the way how love can set you free~

2005-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

saturday (10th) - went my buddy's wedding.. went at 7 started at 8
cos everybody was tuuing and late arh.. =s still took taxi..
so that night the bride is pretty, the groom is handsome.. =]
it was held at some vegetarian restaurant at upp serangoon rd..
the food not bad eh, thou some are not meat.. they still taste nice..

and we had yakult (another brand of vitagen) as dessert.. lols
very unique noh.. we were kinda expecting some nice dessert..
when suddenly yakult was served.. then we just laughed noh..
i sat with amylia, eric, andrew, ailing, yen and some guy..
seen before but dont remember name.. kekek..

then eric was saying alot of people wearing masks..
in the means that everybody acted happy ba..? not sure..
and it ended quite fast, about 2 hours..
then we had photoshots noh.. dont know the guy will send me anot
later make me wait, never send me i sure go find him.. lols

sunday (11th) - afternoon went to orchard noh.. walked around
like shopping noh, but for me.. i was window shopping.. kekek
something like outing sia, just walk around and talk talk..
oo then we went to some coffee bean to slack arh..
i dont take coffee, so les and i went to have ice cream noh..
i chose pistacho flavour and black sesame flavour.. ^^ nice nice.!

and we took quite afew pictures noh..
then also got do boliao stuff arh.. -.= hahah, real embarrassing..

and now, its monday oready.. today was quite a happening day..
early morning went school, i wrote my feelings in mms..
lols but i unsure want send anot, err.. nevermind about that..
so i reached my bus stop ler, i squeezed through the crowds..
then when i wanted to take out my bus pass.. omg lah, dont know where

bobian, i went back to my seat and find.. very cham if lost
then the guy beside me helped me find too..
he even plucked out the seat noh, dirtyed his hands.. =s
so sorry arh.. and quite embarrassing.. some people helped also
then they asked something, i didnt hear properly arh..

and the guy said he will help me find and return to me..
then i nodded and alighted the next bus stop noh..
i went down, i started to feel around my pants arh..
then omg noh, i put it in my left pocket.. lols so paiseh arh
i didnt dare to take out arh, oready very embarrassing..
gave so much trouble on the bus.. =s

so fast forward, during break i went to toilet noh..
did my business.. then ate blueberry cheese cake and drank milk..
then i went to dfund2 lecture ler.. i dozed off sia..
really boring topic ba, kekek.. then i dreamt noh..
i dreamt i fell from the escalator, and woke up in shock..
so paiseh.!! nobody saw i guess, but the lecturer was looking at me..

lols, then james beside me also just right woke up.. i told him noh..
then he said sometimes will like that de.. forgot what ler..
and i turned to see what kai drew, nothing much.. then turned back
kai like said "she angry ler".. lols i really didnt notice eh..
then he started erasing something, then i saw.. my name.. =s
he gave me an ugly face.. sad lah, everytime bully me..

blahh, then nevermind.. i was telling kai i really didnt notice..
then my stomach super pain.. i kept thinking why so pain..
lols, cannot be i needa go do business noh.. cos done ler
then i think is it cheese cake + milk then stomachache..
really not sure arh.. until the lecture finish then realised felt wet..

lols then i think i know ler.. went to toilet and check.. really menses
arghh, dirtyed my pants abit arh.. but my friend said cannot see..
so its a suay and heng day arh..
i had full marks for my emaths2 test noh, so happy..
but i also worried for those who didnt score well eh..

then emaths2 tut ended early, so left early..
and saw weiliang and his gf noh.. awhile later, their bus arrived first..
then they left, then my bus behind noh..
went to meet les, kev, wx, kel and ron to have dinner..
after that saw kh, then we played dota..

the last game not bad noh.. kh was saying he want use spiritbreaker..
then -ar liao, we see see.. i tio spiritbreaker sia, so heng..
he was so happy like that, lols then he exchanged comp with me..
i used enchantress noh.. yeahh first time use til so lihai eh..
the other time i used, i still blurr blurr.. the hero not bad noh..

so thats the end.. really tired sia..

~i may not be e perfect one. but to be sure, il always care for you~

2005-12-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a long day.. i had school from 8am to 1pm de..
but i skipped two hours lab, and went at 10 noh..
too bad that lab got take attendance then can leave..
this lab cannot skip liao, kekek i didnt go two times ler..

anyway then 10am went for the test.. i lazy bring textbook
cos i brought emaths1 for maths clinic arh.. bag very heavy ler
but after school i still had to go celebrate zheqi bday.. then was unsure
hahah, then yn said he not going.. then i think i also not noh..
hmm hope the test i could get full marks arh.. kekek

then after that left two lectures noh.. edeckt = sure die
i dont know a single shyt about it.! i dont know term test how arh..
lols, and i think i was lucky to just pass my edeckt test noh..
then i really like dfund2 alot sia, really fun and easy subject.. ^^
i like the lecturers who teach dfund2 also.. just see them happy arh

anyway after school walking together with the rest..
we were at some corner, then got shadow like running very fast..
suddenly i got scared, lols.. then winson behind also got stunned..
kinda funny arh.. the person haven appear i suddenly stunned dao eh..
dont know how come.. i really got frightened suddenly noh, kekek
then those infront said the guy was running in zig zag crazily..
with hands waving around, hahah.. -.=

blahh, anyway then went home played dota with them noh..
they also created a hamachi network, hahah..
so sad noh, i lost in both games.. 3v2 also lose, 2v3 also lose..
really felt like noob ler, hahah.. but nevermind lah, just a game..
anyway why play dota.? whats the purpose..
every game restarts, sometimes will get buay song.. =s
but luckily we usually laugh ourselves out after that noh..

so after the games, i went to city hall noh.. i reached abit late nia..
sy was the first.. then she bought present liao, so i went to see see
actually could buy something from ig'sHeaven, but dont know why gone..
so sad, then in the end couldnt find anything and went back..
then diana, mj and weijoo also reach ler.. left zheqi himself, lols..
hmm, he looked quite charming without specs arh..

and we went to raffles place shopping centre to see any restaurant..
he only wants to eat at restaurant ma.. at first he had Petals in mind de..
but he scared expensive to us, in the end we still went arh..
Petals is a Shatec restaurant noh.. not bad sia, high class restaurant neh..
their service must be very good noh, hahah make you feel pampered..
i ate til very happy arh.. the food looked good and tasted good..

it started with bread then appetizer, soup, main course, dessert, tea then petit four..
its like cant wait til the next come de noh.. have to eat finish then next will come..
woots, hahah zheqi jiu shi like that de.. know where got the best food, lols..
then we were figuring out what is petit four..
err, i said petit four was four more times the whole package.. hahah kinda lame arh
then mj said petit four meant the four dishes.. but actually..
petit four is something like small chocolates and pastry for us.. ^^

after our dinner, we still have christmas cookies noh.. so cute eh..
got one gingerbread man and a christmas tree de.. later after lunch go eat =D
then after that took photos noh, later i post some of them here..
hmm, after that i left ler noh.. went to crc see see them..
then went to my pri school friend's grandpa de funeral thingy..
it was at my house downstairs arh.. in the morning i saw, but didnt notice anything

then went there, left my friend's father and one auntie talk to me and my mama..
the rest went to sleep ler.. didnt get to see my friend sia, so long didnt see her..
last time we very good de noh.. she was my neighbour and pri school mate..
kekek, abit blurr blurr type de.. then likes to laugh.. then always go her house play
after i shifted house and graduated ler, like didnt get to see her ler.. =s

blahh, then the grown ups advise me before midnight go home noh..
cos i tonight got wedding dinner arh.. my buddy de..
dont know need to wear very nice de anot, lols i no formal wears arh..
had to wear what my closet have noh.. hehh, then go there see how it is like..
hope hes happy..

~if i were to die, will you let me die in your arms~

2005-12-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

hii, i have afew mins to spare before doing my project..
so i came to blog..
yesterday i had a headache sia, dont know why..
played quite afew dotas last night.. arghh

anyway yesterday i 2pm went school, for 3hours..
today i 2pm, went school for 2 hours only.. the test was easy
freaking sicked, woke up got nonsense..
mama didnt cook anything, so i decided to eat bread..
then she dont let me eat.. say only tea time then can eat

she asked me go out eat.. thats fine arh
but which logic says cannot eat bread sia.. so i argued
thou theres no point, its really ridiculous lah..
waa then everytime i argue with her, i want to cry sia..
this time i didnt cry, i went back to my room cool down
after that i left noh.. i rather dont eat went school..

but my heart really very arghh.. i felt super low..
then i bought sweets to eat, wrote down how i felt in mms..
sometimes i will write how i felt in mms then save it noh..
then after i felt alright liao, i will delete it..
felt like crying while typing on the bus, but only eyes wet abit..
the uncle beside me kept turning over ma.. see outside scenery

anyway these few days really like lotsa nonsense eh..
yesterday jasp smsed me mushy stuff, and i didnt have his number
but the way he typed really like pulling my leg noh.. too mushy
so didnt take it seriously, didnt bother much about it..
just that it was quite funny.. then went home kai told me noh..
he said he asked jasp to cheer me up de..

err, thanks for the concern.? i actually didnt know i look sad..
i did feel abit low arh, but i did act normally arh..
people talk to me, i still got talk.. only nonsense then i turn away
then another was this morning.. i was still sleeping arh..
someone smsed me, then i was still blurred i deleted it..

until i went school, i remembered someone smsed me..
and i remembered what my brotha told me.. -.=
he said he want to surprise me with a bikini on my birthday..
really wth arh, it was seriously shocking..
then james suddenly ask if i were scared of him or uncomfortable with him
and told me if he did do anything wrong can tell him.. =s
well, i admit im avoiding.. sometimes i rather be left alone arh

i really cant figure out how come these few days like that..
abit funny, abit weird, abit ridiculous.. ya.?
then im really confused not sure arh.. =s confused and scared

~my heart keep falling all over again and again~

2005-12-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

hii, well i more and more see buay song my blog arh..
dont really know why arh.. like kinda sian with it..
want to change layout everything, but lazy..
maybe one day free then change everything.. ^^

anyway very tired nowadays, couldnt sleep well..
everytime got people disturb my sleep, arghh..
anyway yesterday de yesterday (friday) was a long day..
morning woke up early in the morning 6.20 went school..
took bus, went to lab.. graded lab.. woots..

then my mentee sat beside me, i abit stress..
lols cos he kept looking at me arh..
i dont know arh.. people look at me i sure know de..
then i will have an uneasy feeling, so i dont like people stare
usually i will check if the person is staring, then look away..
i think people stare abit irritating noh.. lols

anyway then first part of the lab i can do, behind i couldnt..
then i bobian had to copy answers, hahah..
oh ya that day was 12th dec also, james' birthday..
i could see he quite sad noh.. i hadnt wish him that day..
felt abit bad for him noh.. i wanted to buy him a lil something de
then one day he provoked me, i decided not to..
but on that day, i felt really bad arh.. zz

1pm we finished school, but i had maths mentoring at 1.30
so i couldnt pei james arh, can tell hes quite disappointed..
seems like nobody celebrated for him noh, poor thing..
then i went up, registered and waited in the classroom..
hmm, i got a 21yr old girl to teach.. she approached me

shes matured and cute cute de.. i like her very much arh..
kekek, she very keen at learning noh.. and quite hardworking..
when i forget some formulae and on how to do a question..
she said nevermind take your time..
really great, gave me the confidence to teach her noh..

starting i really abit stressed.. didnt know want to go anot..
scully really got diisiao people kept asking me questions..
or didnt understand what im trying to teach.. real jialat noh..
luckily what i taught her, she understood..
hahah, she even told her friends i teach good and clicked to her
then after 4pm we chatted noh.. as i was waiting for yn..

hahah he had a hard time arh.. his mentee kept want to do gaussian
do til he also got confused.. lols, then they both wore green..
like couple noh, somemore the girl small size he big size.. =x
then announcement said 4.30 got fire drill..
we before 4.30 left noh.. took cab with yn, as he was rushing..

hmm, after that walked home.. like think of some stuff..
then til today i still dont know why and how my leg hurt.. lols
anyway now better, wont walk like bai kar ler..
went home ler, after that went to meet john, fer, gwy, flo and wx..
i really tired noh.. then watched people dancing and cheerleading
it was a crowd sia, then cheerleading only can see when people fly..

hmm then iz came, kev and tuck also came.. johnson left..
we went to watch movie noh, really sian half..
at first discuss quite long, some dont want watch this that..
lols, in the end we watched chicken little..
quite a cute show noh, then some part quite touching..

oww, i sobbed.. kekek its about trust between father and son..
rest of the show is really cute noh.. alot of old songs.. =D
"oh dont go breaking my heart" "no i wont go breaking your heart"
still got "so tell me what you want, what you really really want"
lols, awesome songs..

after that went crc.. arghh.. =s
met keyou, zhenleong and lun there.. keyou fat ler.. =x
i didnt want to play de noh.. but uneven number.. 9 people
then they said til i like bobian sia.. lols so i played..
i thot they 3 together quite pro, with tuck and fer..
in the end with iz, wx, kev and gwy.. we won them
kekek, i first time crystal maiden beyond godlike sia..

after that went home noh.. tired tired..
almost whole day outside eh.. wished james happy birthday last min
sometimes i like to do that.. kekek
then saw him online, he talked to me.. woots..
he started asking me to rest, heart pain for me..
really kinda weird weird noh..

then he asked if could catch a movie together.. his treat
hmm, i dont mind lah.. but i wont truthful to myself
firstly i dont want give wrong impression..
secondly i felt as if i was pitying him..
so nono, cannot like that de..

yupps, then yesterday (saturday) went out again..
tired tired.. i wanted to go cine noh, join some lucky draw..
then fer had tuition til 4, so went with ron and yn first..
hahah, they were at cold storage quite some time eh..
by the time i reached there, they were looking at the different beers

really funny peeps.. then went to some section..
gosh, i dont understand why so many types of condoms..
what the hell is for lubricating gel.. lols and i never touch any before
no way am i gonna touch them.. i see liao also will paiseh noh..
after buying some stuff, we went to take bus to cine noh..

went there, put my lucky draw form.. really hope i could get
and it was a pity i didnt bring my lime magazine..
could have gotten a goodie bag with a limited edition figurine.. arghh
after that walked around, wanted to watch movie..
in the end decided fer reach first then say.. so we went up level9
real awesome place.. its a big lan shop, with good computers..
with xbox, nice lightings, overall its a swell place lah..

then we slacked there for quite some time.. hahah fer was abit slow
after she reached, we went to eat.. talked some rubbish too..
then headed to cuppage, wanted to play 2v2 noh..
reached there, saw mel with his two friends.. then played together
fer like said they quite pro, then we 4v3 with them..
then one darren came in, didnt remember why the decision was to 5v3

then we won of cos.. then after that they left noh..
hmm, after that two small boys want play with us 4v2..
woots, nearly lost sia.. one of them is pro, one of them is newbie
then the pro one got nerubian weaver, so pro noh..
first time see nerubian weaver so pro.. kekek

we played 2v1 in two lanes ma.. then fer and yn with the newbie..
they kept killing the boy.. the pro boy said "dont feed" something something
then i thot he saying to his friend dont feed fer and yn..
fer asked who.? then the boy said his friend lah.. so its dont feed on newbie
then we said play game jiu shi yao try kill here and there de..
then do what.? stand around or let him kill meh.. boliao sia..

hmm, and three people also cannot kill weaver noh..
in the end was weaver triple kill.. arghh sadness
the boyboy still so xialan de, i bought gem.. dropped he dared me buy another
waa shocking, i said "waa dare me sia".. he gave me a "jk"..
think he want xialan also cannot noh, later yn or ron box him one punch =x

lols, ron still chat with him.. the boy asked if any of us play in bnet..
ron said he played barbie dolls only, still full collection sia..
very funny noh.. we laughing our way while playing, even died..
but yn good arh, he farmed.. and still know how to buy for armour
only yn can conquer weaver noh, kekek..

after that the two boys lost and left noh.. i asked why never say bbyex de..
they said the boy talked so xialan, still can face us.. =s
then got quite afew people said want play with us.. they 5 people
wx haven reach, so we said later noh.. hahah
and they went to eat.. wx came liao we went back down.. not much space

then we went to find a shoe sale somewhere.. forgotten where
cos yn go throw away the leaflet.. -.= hahah then we walked around noh
wanted to play at cine, i couldnt stay out late.. wx like not happy.. =s
after much decision, we went to crc noh..
saw the "awesome stuff" guy, chris, rox, bl, cm, dom, ray there..
really qiao arh..

then blah blah, starting fer owned them sia..
then comp hang, then i left ler.. ^^ fer you owe me my 10$ =x

tomorrow will be a better day.. everyday will be a sunny day

~your imperfection is my type of perfection~

2005-11-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

hii its really been awhile since ive blogged..
well today starting was a good day, after that became a bad day..
i hadda bad day arh..

so i blog about yesterday first arh..
yesterday my gu ma (aunt) came and visit while i was sleeping..
then amazingly, my sis let her carry all that..
usually she bo chap "strangers" and never let anybody carry her..
hahah my aunt even carry her go out, she never cry or what..
still will wave and french kiss us eh.. my gu ma really is the best..

kekek, then after that zs was smsing me arh..
and he told me he walked past my block, so i asked him wait for me..
i went down had a talk with him.. he looked kinda tired out eh..
then his friend so kelian, sat at one corner slept.. really sleep eh..
after that we called my "papa" come down also..
and we slacked under my block noh.. talked rubbish..

after that they went play bball.. i went to find iz, wx, tuck and les at gym
then went there, iz suddenly walked quite fast then gone..
so les ran after him arh.. then we went shopNsave buy drinks..
and met rox and chris noh.. oo then i bought drinks so blurr..
very small bottle i thot 2 for 4+$.. actually 1 for 85cents nia, heh..
hmm after that they said want go crc noh.. i felt abit zz eh.. =x

like everytime crc, everytime dota.. hahah arghh..
then i really dont understand arh..
why people litter even thou the bin is just beside..?
i saw my friends infront me like that litter til so song..
looked at her awhile, then i walked away.. really buay tahan
hahah then chris friend also came, alot of people buay song..

after that we went up, actually i felt abit dont want de..
in the end just play one or two rounds noh..
first round was a 4v5 i think, my team 5 and i tio some weaver..
now i know what kaisheng meant ler, i dont know how to use also..
hahah really jialat noh, kept kena killed by stoopid NA..
blahh, after that yn came.. and he hanged once i think..

we won the second round noh.. hahah that noisy guy got lightning rev..
then he kept chain lightning and ks us, really quite turning me off..
hahah i was saving gold while thinking what to buy ma..
then he suddenly asked me what i was gonna buy.. and i said no idea..
he said go for yasha and sasha shyt.. hah i told him dont want..
very funny, then he surprised i think.. he said loly?
then i told him i want buy others.. lols who ask him so noisy..

and he ks so many times got double kills and triple kills all that..
he gave a :) and "awesome stuff" hah i wanted to talk back at him..
but like not very nice arh, just a game.. so i didnt arh.. kekek..
oo i tio some bloodseeker piggy.. seems not bad at all noh..
hmm after that left to eat at the zhi cha there..

then i really was confused noh, i dont know want call my mentee anot..
you see, i was chosen by my careperson to be a student mentor..
and each mentor will have a mentee who is a olevel student..
and he chose MTN as his first choice for this attachment program noh..
so have to take of this guy for a week, following me to my classes..
i really confused dont know want call anot noh, in the end i didnt.. =p

anyway after eating, there was a long discussion of where to go next..
then i really leg suan arh, i sat down.. then someone suggested crc..
most agreed i think, then les suddenly left.. i surprised..
hahah, nobody like bothered eh.. how can so bad sia, i really felt bad..
so i said to call him up, all teased me.. in the end i still call noh..
then called him up, he reaching bus stop i think..
and i said nevermind noh.. he said okok lah..
they asked me, i said i dont know what okok lah meant.. lols

hmm, then he really came back arh.. but we had nothing to do..
so we went to play the touch screen de.. so funny..
played crossword puzzle, have pa jiao aura..
played photohunt, pa jiao and too slow also.. then played the porn de..
hahah played halfway, i felt my bladder noh.. but i didnt pangseh him
later like some pervertic guy playing porn photohunt alone, lols..

after that play some animal game.. like find its match de..
so funny, ask him take photo.. he so slow.. i ownself complete the level
after that did manage to take and completed the game..
and that was the only game we completed arh, hahah..
quite fun noh, then went home sleep..

today woke up, i did report to the lecture hall noh..
and there was free food.. being typical singaporean, of cos i ate..
ate til i happy then went in the lecture hall..
after that met my mentee, gosh.. Karl Stanley seems like an eurasian
but he was a half indo half eura, and kinda short.. =x
hahah and he talks quite alot noh, james even complained to me..

he stayed with us for one lecture only, overall hes fine to me..
then today i really dont know why arh..
i suddenly really felt i everytime got picked on, and i cant figure out why..
i cant understand, i felt really bad inside.. i even had a headache..
whats the deal anyway.. is it cos im the only girl in class.?
im really very irritated and sad.. i cried on the bus on the way home

so what if i always look strong or happy..
i really felt into deep shyt inside.. my heart was like sinking..
so what if they say me sensitive, or i wont get angry..
im really unhappy..

~im ms brightside, yet i still think life is meaningless~

2005-11-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday i had a shock of my life..
my bro suddenly say he jumped from 7th storey never die..
i really scared til want to cry eh..
then his msg was like got haa and hee, and said cannot die..
really wth noh, really scared the hell outta me..

ayy yuan lai he was at his camp then got some free fall shyt..
waa, i really felt like flying there and check on him de noh..
luckily its just a misunderstanding arh, hahah..
but i now still feel abit scared scared.. really zz..

hahah i still remembered.. last time i was very mischevious..
i go listurb him saying i kena robbed.. say til like kena tortured
he like shocked eh, hahah.. and wanted to find me..
then i laughed, i was only pulling his leg..
actually today de, at first i really thot he pulling my leg..
then he reply damm long, i suddenly panic noh..

anyway yesterday we had two hours of break ma..
then i and my classmates decided to go tampines mall..
go there eat noh, quite fun arh.. 10 persons sit at a round table..
then they quite funny de, got listurb me abit still lah..
hmm, then we ate finish liao had nothing to do arh..
went up to arcade see see noh..

and got people played para para, then they know i got dance also ma..
hahah, very funny lah.. they like want me to dance noh..
then i hesitate quite abit, i saw 2 guys played.. so i think why not..
really kinda fun eh.. they even cheered for me, abit nervous noh..
then i trashed the guy before me, i got first position..
LOL i got down from the "stage" they all clapped for me..

real awesome sia..
oo finally i play dota 1v1 with my friend i won.. kekek..
i somemore wicked sick sia, quite fun de.. =x
goodnight.. life's a shyt..

~the beauty of life lies on how happy others can be because of you~

2005-11-20T12:39:00.000+08:00

hii its been awhile since i blogged..
actually yesterday i did blog, then everything closed..
then was kinda lazy to retype again, kekek..

hmm, recently felt kinda outcasted..
or probably thinking too much, but the feeling is really low..
but its alright ba, im still doing well on my own or not..
i could even lone myself..

anyway yesterday i went to my cousin's place..
somewhere at serangoon and kovan, aroozoo ave..
she gave birth to a new niece arh, a month's old i think..
hmm we were supposed to go her house for some buffet..
but we were informed kinda late, and papa bought lunch ler..
nevermind then..

so i told my papa "go there do what, so pointless"..
he said "just go there, sit awhile then go off ler"..
in my mind i still think "pointless" arh, kekek..
its like the baby is too young to do anything noh, cant even play..
then my mama "go there see, she just bought this private property..
see how she does it.. you got the ability or not"..

waa whats her house gonna do with me noh..
really wth, even if i had to live in a one room flat i also happy eh..
can save money and live simple, kekek..
then after that my cousin drove us to heartland mall there..
oo got one auntie very good eh..

she like keep asking me to eat, then when we left..
she said "want candy.?" then i said "no thanks"..
then she said "its okay, kids like candies" and took a handful give me
hahah actually i took quite afew ler, but she is good arh..
real cute to be called kid, i dont mind.. =p

hmm and my bro having dilemma arh..
his gf left him, for another guy.. really wth noh..
at first when he msged me, i thot he was pulling my leg..
then suddenly it seems real.. really wth..
fancy she still say she will keesiao if anything ever happen..
fancy she said plan hao hao after 5years will get married..
really feel like finding her up and confront her and slap her..

the reason was she had no feelings..
what kinda reason is that sia..
if no feelings then be cold blooded lah..
why still go meet other guy..
what nonsense sia.. think so easy just no feelings can do arh..
then why together at the first place..
why so much sweet loving rubbish..

so he said he was at her house, as usual..
then she left him alone, and went to meet another guy..
and she used the guy's handphone to msg a break up..
the worst part was, while my bro was packing..
she came home along with the guy eh, really cruel sia..
and he said he felt lonely and lost..
really whao noh, they like together a year plus ler..
suddenly like that.. zz

then i was thinking noh.. really kinda guilty..
last time i really dont like this girl eh.. hahah..
but of cos slowly get to know her arh, shes pretty good..
probably cos she changed abit.. then i treat her as big sis too..
now really dont understand why suddenly like that..
such tregedy.. i even used to envy them, happy for my bro..
i could even smile when i see them together..

oh ya.. i really dont know how to say arh.. i have a girlfriend..
recently ive been avoiding her.. i didnt answer her calls..
im actually afraid noh.. she always had alot of problems..
i felt kinda terrible eh, why i treat her like that now..
her problems always are money problems..
i really cant help eh.. but i shouldnt be avoiding her eh..?

so anyway after my cousin drove us to kovan mrt..
as my hp has no batt, i called les noh.. cos he want go out
then he told me nobody online all those, so meet first..
after that i waited for him, and i also called zs to check on him..
he sounded fine noh.. and i waited for les quite long sia, lols

after that, we actually wanted to go watch wcg de..
in the end we took mrt to douby ghaut de PS walk walk..
then he said go see got what movie, so we went top floor..
hahah then we went to see the arcade.. he looked at the racers
then i pulled him to play the japanese drums game noh..

not bad, then some very easy.. our last song was a cny song, funny..
he seemed to have a better rthym than me noh.. played well
then after that we went to see the crawl catch toys de machines..
very cute noh all the soft toys.. said they are from japan de..
then got one piggy very cute noh.. and he spent about 15$ on those
worst part was.. he didnt manage to catch any.. sometimes almost..

very kelian arh.. i felt rather bad, i asked him catch for what..
lols he said for fun.. but i had a feeling was catch for someone de..
if its me, i really felt guilty eh.. then i pulled him to another arcade
and i was lucky to change my points for 10$ value of credits noh..
since he spent so much on the piggy, i treat him play arcade noh..

it was quite funny to see him like blurr blurr first time play arcade..
but i had fun, think he had fun too..
oh ya, when i wanted to leave liao.. cos i left only afew credits
then i wanted to play a game, but didnt know where it was..
when about to exit, i found it.. then we had our last credits on it

think that was the most fun arh.. some sort of challenging each other de
then must be fast de noh.. very funny lah, then very hot also..
after that, no more credits ler.. we left noh.. went to see the xbox place
not bad noh, got big screens to play xbox.. but should be quite exp
then we went to tpy noh, and he said he think the rest were at crc..

so we went up.. but nobody arh, and we slackked there.. lols
everytime go crc is play game de.. we went there really sat and chatted
after that, quite late ler.. we walked to the bus stop noh..
then his bus came liao, he went half way.. forgot to take things from me
cos i also forgot, then he missed the bus.. =s

and he peiied me walked noh.. then reached near my house, i said no need
then bidded and went home ler..
and the rest teased me, i dont know how they knew de..
really funny, they even told me they were online since quite early..
but they were happy that it should happen..
dont know.. blahh.. -.=

~zai shuo yi ci . wo ai ni~

2005-11-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to one mall..
i stepped in, i wondered why is it so familiar..
could it be.? but its so far, how can i came here before..
i walked, and i went in the arcade..

yes, just as i expected.. i went there before with someone..
i just wanted to walk around the place..
to find out other familiar places..
yup, the bean bag shop is there.. the rest i cant recall..
i cant recall what we did there..
yet i remembered we did play at the arcade..

these three days, you came online..
i even wished i just have the courage to even say "how are you"..
but no.. i only asked "how was he" once.. to your friend..

APPLES OF MY EYE : one red nike shoe, my kind of cutting..
got a tiny heart sewed at the side, infront of the nike tick..
but i dont really like it red, probably some other colour will be best..
and i want to get a slipper..

andy lau's [ all about love ] cd
the cd cover is uniquely tied with a red string to a heart..
simple, cute and romantic..
at the back of the cd are some words, very meaningful..
yet i forget how it goes.. =( i tried checking, didnt manage to find..
next time go see again, kekek.. or anybody knows please tell me.!

and also [ zhen ming tian nu ] set; got SHE photo frame and keychains
=pp yeah yeah, S.H.E.!! they each even sang a song..
hmm, yesterday i downloaded some of the songs from both cds..
and checked up on some of the lyrics..
yupps they are pretty meaningful, sweet..

~never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down~

2005-11-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

hiiya, yesterday i had my cds arh.. culture and expression
not bad noh, the lecturer also quite funny de..
but he like say "bloody bastard" "what the hell" all those..
i felt abit funny eh, hahah like he should not say noh..
blahh, but should see more open ba.. =s

anyway this subject is about culture arh, like example..
chinese wear qi pao, thats culture noh.. another example..
one guy likes to dig nose, thats his culture noh.. hah mind my cowshyt
and then the lecturer like very funny noh, he will say jokes..
then also say how he loves chinese wear qi pao, malay wear sari..
and the english wear mini skirt, hahah.. thats his interest lah..
he said he like to travel and also hear people say stories..
and he said hes going to share some stories with us, and get asked questions..

hmm, one part we had to look at a video noh.. shown at channel newsasia..
he recorded it.. it was about evolution of man, from ape.. million years ago
then honestly lah, the apes are kinda disgusting looking..
when they evolved further, really are naked yet hairy people noh..
more disgusting, how can show on tv sia.. hahah..
but really tiring lah, my school started at 8am, this cds thingy ended at 6pm..
that lecturer really talked for the 3hours eh, i dont know how to survive..
hopefully next year, i can get into psychology or socialology noh..
its pretty interesting arh, i now lazy to change my cds..

after school went to find gwy they all and had dinner noh..
then talked quite abit, then gwy was troubled arh..
like very kelian noh, she suffered and held on for so long..
finally she got it, but it wasnt going smoothly..
alot of confusion and frustration ba.. but still, love is blind..
besides communication, have to be honest then will have trust..

- never give up on the things that make you smile.
- always follow your heart, regretting may be too late.
- never regret the things you done, only regret the things you didnt do.

its alright to be stuck inbetween friends..
but its really tough to be stuck in the middle, ive mine once..
in the end, its still my decision whether to listen anot.. i followed what i believe
hah, sometimes never to be afraid to see it with your own eyes..
then will you will know whats the facts, whats the lies..
nevertheless its still one's choice..

anyway today milky sick arh, hahah i got abit of cold actually..
then during maths sat at the near front, cos everybody kop seats ler..
then the lecturer really look abit disgusting eh, hahah..
from far only found his voice abit disgusting, very funny noh..
his voice and face really like those niang niang qiang..
like real guy and want to be guy, but they cannot be guy like that..
kinda evil arh, james kept saying dont feel like facing him..

hahah, then the way he held the pen really like girl eh..
but his handwriting is really nice lah..
oo then i was listening to his lesson de noh..
damm some people kept talking, and made him angry stop his lesson..
i really very interested and waiting for him to teach further..
but too bad arh, gotta go read about it ourselves.. argh

today only one break noh, and i spent it in the toilet.. =x
hahah not very long lah, just awhile.. =s
anyway today not bad noh, quite fun de got laugh here there..
cos we got one lecturer arh, he damm dont know disgusting or funny..
he likes to tuck his hand inside his pants at the back noh..
then he even walk around the classroom with his hand in his pants..

waa its kinda er xin lah, but we kept laughing non stop about it..
and today we went to take picture of his hand in his pants..
hahah nigel crazy eh, go take damm near.. cannot see much
then darren say anyway got alot of chances.. LOL
hmm, then we go decorate our desktop de wallpaper noh..
use paint, then set as wallpaper.. cos the rest are locked..
then nigel so bad go put "dig your ass" dont know the lecturer saw anot..
i drew a "hello i love java ..not" cos thats what we learnt arh..
i just add a "..not" noh, hahah i also dont dare set as wallpaper..

oo then the lecturer everytime see what we doing on his computer..
and can have access to our screen thru his computer de ma..
then he was viewing the guy next to me de, i go purposely paint a rabbit..
he really go access my computer eh, then close the paint..
very funny noh, we kept laughing..
then he just sat there did nothing, we all hack care and just left noh.. hah

and last period de tutor showed us the 40+$ de textbook noh..
this lecturer like not bad eh, looked quite cool and friendly..
he letted us go off early noh, then shawn came out.. we walked walked..
then he shouted give back the book lah.. then we one whole group stared
the tutor was behind noh, he like say first lesson with him got such problem
forgot what he mumbled lah, then he went to chase the guy..
shyt that guy eh, the tutor said "wonderful class"..

spoilt our class name, we also dont have so boliao..
then kai said the guy oready had badguy looks, got scars on his face..
hahah then say not just ugly, also a stealer..
then we saw they go the bookshop, hehh probably to steal stuff.. =x
who ask those guys give us bad impression.. they in class also noisy

hmm then i went off noh, saw the indian guy from my class..
he walked towards, i thot nothing going to walk pass or what..
he suddenly "whats your name.?" i abit surprised noh..
so i just say "alicia.." then he nodded, then i asked back noh..
hahah now i forget liao, then like silence..

i think just like that.? how come never hear my name during class..
then i asked "what you waiting for.?" then he said "nothing, friend"..
and pointed behind, then i said "alright then, see you"..
actually this guy he like always look at me, want to say something like that..
can abit sense arh, waa now i forget his name.. abit paiseh.. hahah

nowadays also like abit restless eh, like not feeling very good noh..
either nose itchy or throat itchy or feeling very cold or body very hot..
then sometimes also eyes burning, maybe its the weather arh..
i tried to sleep very early liao, still feel like that noh..
maybe its heaty arh, not very sure..

actually i dont know how i was feeling.. i feel kinda weird..
like im drifting away from something, like avoiding something..
i dont know what, i dont know why.. dont know how to say..
hmm, i felt life is meaningless and pointless arh.. really zz..
then again, maybe just restless ba.. so feel abit messy..
and really kinda tiring, have alot of things to do.. alot being expected
=] anyway take care all..

~anything is possible; impossible is nothing~

2005-11-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

hii im back to blog again..
today wasnt as bad arh, school started at 12noon..
really how nice if everyday start school that late..
but dont know why, still abit tired arh..

anyway as usual, the different faces supposed to be in my class de..
kept on different de noh, except three to four..
mostly same class, but always didnt turn up de..
tsktsk, scully kena debarred eh.. dont know what they up to..
today the guys talked about games, xbox, playstation and computers..
kinda zz arh, hahah.. bobian arh just sat one corner and stared blankly noh..

hmm during break, i kinda needa do pass it out ma..
then i took my bag just in case very long, i came back my friends looked funny..
yuan lai they thot my auntie came, hah then i think no girl pei me ler..
nobody can pei me go toilet, then if really auntie came.. abit paiseh eh..
can tell one of them lah cos quite close, but also not nice ma.. blahh

then milky told me that time he waved to me, i looked kinda sian..
oo going to first lecture, then the previous class came out..
the girls quite pretty eh, then saw milky in that class.. hah
but always see him de anyway, then suddenly.. so many tall guys eh..
my friend also "waa, all so tall".. hahah really alot of trees arh..
cos we stood near the door at the corner, then suddenly became dark..

anyway today met one female lecturer, her face damm bright..
its like her smile very can lan, then she taught abit like kindergarden type..
very nice noh, confirm can pass liao the subject.. hahah..
like last time really, think mr ow's face quite can lan noh.. cos he always smile..
then he like wont get tired de, i also wont get tired looking at him..
but too bad lah, i always never listen.. and very bored of the subject..
so didnt pass my humanities.. =x

oo then last time the ckt lab tcher, became our tut..
piangs eh, he damm lame arh.. ask him properly questions..
he go give us lame answer, LOL damm cold noh.. but kinda like it..
then we gei siao say something, he like believe sometimes..
sometimes he also gei siao with us, very funny..
he sometimes got that tiko face eh.. =x
but he very good, last time lab test we ask him.. he gave us answer in choices
waa he now our tut, later we keep asking for answer.. hahah

hmm, then after school i peiied zheqi for his an hour break..
after that he got his cds lecture.. fundamentals of entrepenuership..
hahah, cos it was lecture ma.. so i went in with him and see how was it..
rather interesting noh the briefing.. talked about local entrepenuers..
and said the points to be an entrepenuer arh..
i went there like frog in a well arh.. i dont read newspaper liao ma..
also dont know what or who they were talking about..
but listen liao, quite interesting lah.. but not interested..

tomorrow i will be having my cds noh.. culture and expression..
i thot is drawing de, hahah.. i think not liao.. 3hours of lecture straight..
first time sia, then i think talk about cultures and somemore other stuff ba..
think something like geography and history type ba..
but still like quite easy, just have to listen.? tomorrow see how is it like noh..
oo then after that cds, went to bus stop.. saw my friends just finish..

their cds, management of entreprising something like that.. just ended ma..
then milky also in that cds, so maybe will see him..
actually wanted to wait, heng didnt arh.. he went up the bus then i saw..
hahah then we talked noh.. he kept suanning zheqi stress all those..
zheqi that time really very stress and stressed up noh..
kept after school want chiong home, even want share cab..

then his relative let him live at bedok, then he like studied very hard arh..
but he said he disappointed with the results.. never get his expected de..
then milky kept saying cannot stress de all those noh..
hah actually i bought my new books liao, i kinda stress eh..
more formulae, higher level stuff.. sure more things to remember ba..
hope i can just pass..

oo got email asking me be maths mentor like that..
hahah i dont know want to join anot noh.. milky also got, he joined ler..
then i like abit scared i cannot teach well arh, later make people fail..
but i think should be not a problem arh, later go email back.. =D
nothing to write about ler, see ya..

~you colour my world and brighten up my every day~

2005-11-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

heyy, been awhile since i blogged arh..
but i lost track of my days ler, only can remember yesterday..
sunday, went gym.. before that went to cut hair..
hahah i want to cut like that, the hairdresser quite nice de..
she said not suit me and i still young, so help me cut like this..

after that went gym find iz, wx, kev and les..
oo from the time i woke up, i kept sneezing arh, hahah..
really felt like plucking my nose out noh..
waa they all hionged the gym.. only me never, cos i latest then i dont know..
hmm, then after that done liao.. went long john waited for kh..
then at the cybercentre there, the guys say got one uncle..
he chatting in msn, then his contacts are young girls..

ahaha, then say what see their pictures.. and he will say beautiful..
very funny arh, this kinda uncle is kinda nice to prank actually.. =x
they like abit desperate, abit ti ko.. probably what also yuan yi to meet a girl..
hmm his face kinda toot arh actually.. =x then he wont get distracted de..
people look at him he also dont know eh, his eyes sticked onto the screen noh..
after that kh reached liao, forgotten did what..

then went near my house there eat.. not bad arh the crispy noodle..
hmm, and the guys talk about personal stuffs arh.. hahah kinda buai tahan..
oo after that went to play pool with iz, kh and les..
then we kept laughing noh, like kept on got pattern..
i team with kh like cannot get in any ball de.. but will win..

then team with iz felt more pro, kekek.. team with les was so so..
hmm then played 9balls, like damm funny.. we orh ya peh ya soom..
two times also same postion, kh then les then me then iz..
really dont know why arh, really not purposely de.. i kept giving free ball to iz..
then they bth liao, whoever foul or park will say "pay you how much"..
hahah, very hilarious noh.. hmm then last round liao..
i still played very louzy noh, kept foul.. then they like never expect arh..
les say scully i won the game, and i really won.. its a ball of a time thou abit exp..

blahh, anyway today was the first day of school in this new semester..
morning went school with milky, hahah joked alot arh..
the guy always take from tpy interchange til the end with me also took..
hmm, honestly lah.. i from the first day saw him take with me same..
same engineering, same bus stop, but dont know which course..
i feel like knowing him, hahah but didnt arh.. no good chance.. =x

oo my friends were saying their female friends kinda attracted to albert..
then they said i best, hah got his hp, his msn, and got jioed by him before..
hmm, then jess, ky, sala and satish got transferred to other classes ba..
and another 4 joined my class, the rest same faces..
but different de that 4 people, majority of the tut will see the 3 guys lah..
then the rest, sometimes its a girl, sometimes a malay girl, sometimes a guy..
for what i saw today..

kinda hard eh, scully absent for which class.. i dont remember take notes for who..
hmm, then today i think.. the only air con food court was open..
not bad lah, the feeling is like koufu noh.. but some dishes like not nice..
oo today walked alot, from one end to the other.. then another end to the other..
hahah kinda tiring actually.. bobian engineering block is the longest..
actually classes still quite alright lah, only sometimes abit left out..

cos now all guys arh, then they had their common topic..
its either they never talk to me, or i dont have anything to say noh..
ayy but its alright ba, i dont mind de..
and today is ron's birthday noh, then met les at tpy interchange..
on the way in the bus, i want reply sms and held a book..
then no hand to hold i fell backwards, heng just right behind was an empty seat..
the small girl heng shifted in, hahah.. then i damm paiseh arh..

after that the girl went off, a girl from my school sat beside me..
then the guy who is benson's classmate's bf asked me whats my name..
hahah, i said why should i tell him.. i heard hes a joker, so joked with him..
he said benson told him before my name, he forgot..
tsktsk, then i said ask benson again noh..

hmm, then forget what ler.. talked about last incident..
he talked to me halfway then walked off, then i was kinda zz..
then he asked again, whats my name.. then i asked back..
his name is xin long, i said new dragon arh.? hah he said yaa..
kinda funny arh, then he asked me whats my name.. i said bai long.. =x
then he said to his friend why got this kinda people de, hahah.!
in the end i told him my name, then he asked his friend help remember also..

after that i slept noh.. very tired arh, i kept dozing off in lectures..
really quite paiseh noh, the lecturer sure can see de noh..
but i really cannot tahan arh, really will faintx eh..
then after that reached tpy interchange, then went mac waited with les..
sat there awhile, decided to go bishan first..

reached there, then awhile.. went to eat at the hawker nearby..
then went back, decided place to celebrate ron's birthday..
decided to go school arh, hahah then les lost his wallet..
heng think the sell drinks de people saw, then returned to him..
after that went school celebrate ron's birthday noh..
very funny, the cake from think nicely decorated..
til become empty, just a plain vanilla cake..
cos chris tian mi mi arh, then swing til the cake like that..

as always, ate with hand.. hahah but quite xiguan liao..
hmm then they wanted to climb up to the school there play catching..
i from starting, dont wish to violate, dont wish to climb arh..
my heart still messy from the last converse thingy, i cannot do it arh..

really sorry, especially les arh.. hai you cannot play like that..
oo hahah, he was looking for fer wallet.. then he looked at the corner..
scareded me eh, he suddenly pulled back.. got lizard kiss his face..
hah then on the way out, les kept eerie here and there.. so funny..
scaring ownself nia, dont think so much lah..
we went playground there noh, chatted alot arh..
then played tic tac toe, hahah like hard to counter de.. and rock on the kiddy rides
there were kids ma, then we dii siao them abit.. hahah and see them playing noh..

so cute arh.. how nice if forever be kids, no worries always energitic..
then do silly things wont be called mad fella, hahah..
wont get tired of playing silly games, no matter how boliao the game is..
then the mind still innocent, anyhow make friends also nevermind de..
can play together good enough, i still remember i young anyhow make friends de..
like play with alot of kids outside, then i just say be my friend okie.?
then i still count got how many friends, hahah til i lost count arh..
ayy like very energitic and cute noh.. see them laugh, also will make people laugh..

blahh, but grow up also good arh.. can have more freedom i guess..
hah anyway i tired ler.. yawns, goodnight..

~if tomorrow never comes~

2005-11-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

actually today im gonna blog about happy stuff..
due to something happened just now..
everything just crashed down.. headached..

just today, i bought my nike shirt.. nice eh, got "Believe" word..
then after that went to converse shop..
to help my friend's friend choose a bag for his girl friend..
hmm, then i kinda helped him chose the right one arh..
then i went to see the shoe, got one white shirt guy also see..
he like kinda cool, i thot hes one of the sale assistant..

then after that, minqian had to leave.. so i walked with her..
walked halfway, my friend called me back to the converse shop..
cos we got accused of stealing its stoopid keychain..
dammit, at first i thot nothing much..
then its like kinda serious, i was kinda fumed arh..
we didnt steal anything, we have the cash, we even bought something..

then he said either pay for it, or copy down ic..
i really think kinda weird, why copy ic.. and no way we pay for things we didnt buy
and was too naive arh, let the sales person copied our ic..
dammit noh, converse shop no camera..
two sales person kept looking at us, DID SHE SEE US TAKING ANYTHING.?
WHY THE HELL CALL US BACK, NOT JUST US WERE IN THAT DAMM SHOP..
WHY THEY NEVER CALLED THOSE PEOPLE BACK, WHY US.?
i really NOT SATISFIED eh..

if can find still quite alright..
WHAT IF CANNOT FIND.? ISNT OUR NAMES WILL BE SENT TO POLICE..
ISNT OUR NAMES WILL BE RUINED.. FOR LIFE ARH.!!
EVEN THOU ITS NOT OUR FAULT, WHAT HELL.!!
i told my parents about it, they scolded me..
why never call home.. why give them copy ic, they also not police..
why never just call the police.. why never fight back, we are innocent..
ARGH.!! i even more scared eh like that..

i cried when i bath, crying when im typing..
i really felt tomorrow will never come arh..
if something really happen, what if i cant talk it out anymore..
what if.. im totally speechless..

I REALLY HOPE THAT DAMM BASTARD KNOW..
I HOPE YOU FELT REALLY REALLY DAMM BAD..
I CURSE YOU BAD LUCK FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE..
I SWEAR YOU FALL INTO A NASTY DEATH..
DAMM YOU BALL LESS DE BASTARD..
USELESS WORTHLESS BRAINLESS HEARTLESS BASTARD..

~days are never dull with a mind full of hope~

2005-11-01T11:21:00.000+08:00

zz, couldnt get back to sleep.. and i slept for 5hours like that only..
gonna turn mad sia, i 4am sleep 8am woke up..
9am managed to sleep, but 10am woke up liao..
dont know why like that, must be les spread his sickness to me.. x_X
but last night lotsa thots were on my mind arh..

i wrote in my mms and saved them, still cannot sleep..
ahaha, really kinda angry eh..
so yesterday i gambled with my bro eh..
hah won him 20$, but after that felt kinda bad..
cos that was all he had, so i gave him back..
hmm yesterday went to meet gwy, kev, js, wx, les, boon and mel..
then they were playing bball noh, i and gwy slacked..
after awhile, kev went off.. say go play soccer..

did play some throwing, then went to play playground..
ahaha so funny.. we played high tide on the see saw..
then lose de must get zhamed on the butt, really the pressure quite qiang eh..
shot up to the head de, then she bullied me arh..
never lose or what, also zham me down..
blahh, oo then les hurted his finger.. then waa got blood, scareded me..
i really scared of blood arh, will get a funny feeling de..

hmm, then they finally started to walk arh.. reached the bus stop..
saw that guy, later then share what i thot..
ahaha, its like from far can notice dao him ler, with his mama..
then he took bus, then js also left.. and we went to eat..
ahaha, then les shared alot of past injuries arh..
last time i always fall down de noh, last time not very scared of pain..
now abit, and of cos dont like pain and injuries lah.. so sickening..

after that, went crc saw kh and his friends..
then i teamed with kh and his friends, vs the rest.. 5v5
hahah, quite fun arh.. second time using stealth assassin..
but this time i enjoyed it more.. =s
oo, at first couldnt get a nice game arh.. keep on got people comp hang..
then after that played one round nia noh..
last part, kh and his friends all had to leave eh..
then i bobian took their stuff, awesome sia.. i killed them all..

want buy stuff then gg ler, hahah.. so it was kinda funny arh..
after that went home ler noh..
so i was saying, i saw that guy.. i thot my friends the other day asked me eh..
am i still waiting for him.? am i.?
hmm, i also dont know arh, i just tell them i will probaby forget him..
he is probably just a memory noh.. then da ge ge said have hope and faith..
not sure hes referring to him or future someone, hahah..

last time i was still uncertain of myself, cant take a little nonsense.. just break..
but kept running back to him.. =x
girls probably need someone to share, pei and to be dote of..
some could even put aside the world and have her whole set on him only..
yet sometimes not having a return upsets alot..
i had my whole set, too serious for him..
became sensitive, til i think and sputter nonsense..

turned out he didnt bother me, nothing could be done..
i had to give up, this time not breaking off a relationship..
but to let him go..
my elder friends said i grew up after that.. hah dont know.?
i tried to be less serious noh, but alot of things still matter..
need to understand that person well, and consider whether i can give happiness..
then decide noh.. like my good friend, we knew each other for quite somewhile..
and we understand each other well, after that became fond.. but too bad..
i was too afraid he might reject me, and will ruin our good friend relationship..

thats my story.. oo i have a good friend arh..
from the day i knew him, i found him quite cute ler..
recently, i found him quite charming..
hahah, thou sometimes he disappoint me arh..
i still manage to forgive him and treat him as good friend..
too bad arh, he lacks a point which matters to me..
i think if he doesnt lack that point, sure alot of suitors de..
and it also seem like quite alot of shuai ges lack that point.. =s
its not a bad thing lah..

lalala, later going out..
=] thankies for killing my time..

~this wil be the last of illusions, the end of me~

2005-10-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

blahh, watch the sunburn~ kekek..
anyway the day before yesterday (wed) a group of us went out..
oo, at first it was fer wanted to go shopping..
and she asked gwy and me along too..
then in the end, kev, milky and ron went along..

hmm, but my mama had food poisoning of some sort..
i had to take care of sis and peiied her to see doc noh..
then i went later.. hahah..
hmm, went to meet them at the far east place where they played dota..
but forgetten where to alight, i alighted at somerset..
then walked all the way there, damm tiring arh..

reached there, couldnt find them playing computers..
i walked out, then called them..
hahah, very funny.. i put down my phone, ron infront of me only..
i also didnt notice, and heyy i had no idea why he there..
while the rest all upstairs.. then they teased us.. =(
blahh, then we went far east shopping there see fer want de prezzie..

kekek, she chose a nike shoe.. nice eh, cos its NIKE.. =p
and then we wanted to see got what movie, so walked to lido..
then we discussed quite long de, about what movie and what prezzie..
waa, then les reached liao.. and we still discussing..
damm amusing arh, in the end didnt watch any movie..
went to seek wx prezzie first.. and fer went off first..

but i bought wx prezzie from genting ler..
then we walked around, got one shop called dollz.inc i think..
never seen before, at wheelock place.. damm shiok..
got all the figurines and toys, wee..
then saw my gloomy bear figurines, but sold in a set..
theres 8 figurines in the set noh, 80+$ sia.. so exp..
actually quite alright, but they always sell in sets.. =s

and we walked somemore, til forget where that place..
hahah, and i, flor and gwy went toy'r'us played..
damm funny, got all those halloween stuffs.. nice eh..
lotsa masks, damm cute de plastic wigs, devil spears..
then got costumes noh, so cute.. and lotsa toys of cos..

hmm, then we played for quite some time de..
and the guys at man.u shop somewhere, dont know where..
hahah and we slackk at coffee bean arh..
after that asked them find us, they couldnt find us..
in the end we had to find them, hahah..
then we saw the jersey for wx, quite nice de..
and then flor had to go home..

and the jersey like treasure, keep reminding got take anot..
hahah, then we went back to the far east place..
deciding whether to play pool or lan.. flip some coin..
actually the flipping of coin decided lan, the guys played billard..
then blahh, after that played lan.. and played some cs..
woo quite fun so long didnt play, and i topped in my team.. =x
after that, fer came back and we played dota..

first round was milky, ron and kev.. vs gwy, les, fer and me..
then we won arh, after that i went to the other team..
we lost arh, hahah.. by that time, kinda zz ler..
had to take cab home, cos kinda late noh..
then les shared cab with me.. reached home faster zhao home..
my papa complained me, then i went to my mama room..
asked her how was she, hahah..
then she didnt say much, then i told her i was going sentosa..
she said alright, sleep early.. woots, kinda relief like that..

and yesterday was wx and mel birthday noh..
planned hao not to wish wx yet, hahah..
was kinda guilty feeling like that.. saw him liao, like want to laugh..
hmm and we brought a cake, hahah told him was meant for mel..
oo early morning 8.30 like that woke up noh.. haven pack bag..
and 10am meeting benson to pass him the sleeping bag..
then flor also meet me, then les also came..

and we three setted off by mrt, hahah my phone mood swing again..
starting see low batt eh, dont know why.. actually at night full again..
anyway went harbourfront, met milky, wx, kev, kh..
then we went to the hawker centre eat..
after that gwy, fer and ron came..
hmm, after eating we went to take the bus to sentosa noh..
then caught some fishes, kekek so cute..
but zz, swam til my legs alot of cuts.. then bled til my foot..
yucks noh, i hate blood.. still got sharp sharp feeling while in water..
then also caught squids and prawn, very cute..
hahah too bad no jellyfish, that time my papa caught before..

then burried les.. dont know why kh so weird de, made les face got sand..
hmm, then after that we planned to lure wx away..
and fer and i went to take wx tshirt and kept in fer bag.. kekek..
after that bathing then give him his jersey tee noh..

quite fun de, and played some games.. tuck and iz also came..
and we played poison ball, dog and bone, dodge ball..
then zz, was kicking the ball.. i kicked dao wx leg..
my toe like dislocated abit, damm pain.. and i became teary, paiseh all..
rub rub til no more the lump come out, but now..
its swollen and red and black and still freaking pain, hahah..
kinda hard to walk, really hope can faster recover..
tomorrow my da ge ge birthday, dont know how sia..
anyway then burried tuck at the bottom, with kev and kh on top..

hmm, then cut cake liao ba.. hahah, very funny..
wx very kelian, kena squashed on the face quite alot..
worst, they played with the cake, hahah then les damm funny.. =x
waa i never laugh at him, just think very funny.. he gan me.. azz..
hmm, and we ate the cake with our hands..
after that all go bath at the water there.. then forget what ler..
went to bath liao noh, after that gave wx his prezzies..

then after that went to bishan waited for mel and the rest..
cos next is to celebrate mel's birthday, thou not very shou..
waa went to marina bay eat steamboat, i abit zz eh..
then hahah, we ate halfway rained elephants and rinos..
made me recall that time at genting.. i didnt want to go theme park..
then i abit zz, especially when my bro asked me play go-kart..
qued so long noh, then halfway rained cats and dogs..
the whole theme park had to close, hahah..
but anyway should be coincidence lah.. im not some freak..

hmm, then one part made me abit flared up eh..
but forget it lah, then after that flor's dad fetched her home..
awhile later, gwy, wx, milky, fer and i also left..
thanks alot mel for the treat eh, abit paiseh didnt prepare anything..
then went home noh, took same bus as wx ma.. and waited so long..
and we chatted, hahah like so long never talk to him..
then said alot, he said my shirt behind got words in tamil..
dots noh, i went home see.. really its in english ma..
hahah he cannot spot dao nia.. lalala..

woots sunburns, kinda itchy and kinda pain..
sometimes i really like to peel the skin, kinda fun.. =x
will there be never endings.?

~got caught in the rain, nobody knew i was crying~

2005-10-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

hi im ms sadist, how are you today.?
today i shall talk about "no life" and "understanding"..
no im not going to speech, i will also share stuffs about me..

lets start from no life.. what is no life.?
i used to think doing the same things everyday is called no life..
but yet, do people expect a perfect life.?
how will a perfect life be like.?
lets assume a perfect life means always happy, no problems..
but little do we know, if life is too perfect..
we wont need to use our brain and heart anymore..
then there wont be any smart people, no problems to be solved..
hmm, imagine that isnt a perfect life anymore..
its a boring life..

im a sadist, its true i guess.. but of cos not all the time..
i can say ive been disappointed many times..
i still dont think i have no life, i still live on..
maybe its bcos there are still alot of people who cared..
yet you get disappointed, of cos you dont wish to disappoint others..
its like not doing the things you dont wish others to do upon you..
and of cos, there are azz people de lah..

anyway disappointments, quite alot recently..
like beginning, kept seeing the guy i loved yet lost being with another girl..
then being flew aeroplane, lied to..
and found someone im got fond of, yet not holding the chance well..
recently i also found another disappointment..
i have a good friend, oo yaa i admire people who can understand me well..
so this friend kinda had been with me through thick and thin..
i had bf, i still approach him.. which made troubles..
now, he has a gf he left me.. i have nobody to turn to liao..
i have nobody to make me laugh when my eyes turn watery..
i have nobody to go out just for a walk with me..
i have nobody to talk to me even i need not say a word..
cause he understands me, he just fill in my words..
nobody to hear my stories, and share with me..

but actually it doesnt matter.. probably used to it..
i also have a dear bro, we became quite distant some time ago..
yet we still misses each other, and remember each other..
so lets talk about understanding..
think understand is important between relations..
its really great to have friends understanding each other..
so i really admire people who has almost same personality with me..
there will be like lots of chemistry..
like "hey i like to drink carrot+tomato+celery drink"
then the friend "wow i also like to drink that, everybody thot its gross"
and another example, if one person doesnt like to wait..
if the person is friend enough, of cos wont let that person wait..
and yet if there is no understanding between people..
i think there will be lots of frustrations and confusion..
like WTH, how the hell i know what you want..
or WTH, why you like that de sia..
yet sometimes its not always what you expect..
you see one person like very azz, but actually that person has soft spots..
its how you get to know the person..
sometimes first impression counts..
yet the understanding still judges one person..

and if one person dont like lies.. hmm who likes anyway.?
then should not lie, if its serious then will break relations..
but still, people still lie.. dont understand why..
if dont want say secret, then dont say at all..

blahh, actually i dont know why i write here.. zz..
dont know what to write ler, next time then add.. tired..
glad that you listen to my craps..

~will you listen to my heart if i stay~

2005-10-22T15:58:00.000+08:00

hiya posting at genting now.. kekek..
very funny leh, i saw my tagboard got min tag..
then when i want to tag, her post is gone..
then i kena blurred..
anyway if she really did post..
what admirer arh.? hahah, and sorry..
the farewell dinner too expensive arh..
its funny, hotel 45$..
yet country club 48$, so its rather bo hua..
hmm today last day at play ler, tomorrow morning booking out..
here quite cold de, i abit buai tahan sometimes..
here no shuai ge eh, mostly all taken..
like so fun noh, if come here with bf or friends..
hmm my parents like keep eating those ho liao..
i think i become abit fatter eh, hahah..
but i kept going to do business arh, but sometimes cannot come out..
hahah, then every morning kept sneezing..
sometimes sneeze until want pluck out my nose eh..
anyway got one day i, my bro and my father went to the haunted adventure..
hahah, wth its scarier, longer "adventure" and cheaper than singapore one..
its like introducing different types of devils and ghosts lah..
then got alot of figures and got at least two people listurb us noh..
hahah my papa walk at the front, then my bro mid i last..
waa i admit i quite scared leh, its like thou i know its people..
i still scared eh, hahah.. and its super dark inside..
cannot see a thing noh, we only have light stick each to guide us..
then got one part was we saw bars lah, then suddenly light up..
got one fake de and the person.. he wears a skeleton costume de..
then like dont care walk away, then i turned back..
wth noh, the person came out of the bars eh, i like OMG..
hahah, then i kept looking behind what the person going to do..
then the person chased me eh, hahah.. i scared til ran infront eh..
actually its all nothing lah, its the darkness, the sound damm loud..
then the stoopid person kept listurbing us noh..
hahah, then starting got ground rules saying cannot touch anything..
at the end the skeleton hid at one corner, so obvious..
then he came out, touched dao me..
i shouted at him, and use the light stick poke his nose eh..
then he dont know mumbled what, hahah..
then we went out liao, like not bad lah.. quite fun..
actually nothing to be afraid of, probably the darkness and sound effects..
blahh, then bought quite afew stuffs..
so many people birthday coming eh, hahah..
wanted to buy for each of them, but theres nothing much to buy here..
so sad, its either too expensive or not suitable noh..
oo one day i bought something with my bro ma..
then its like buy one get one free, then we chose afew stuff..
he forked out 50rm, while i paid 100rm..
telling him sure got alot of change de..
then the woman calculated finish, its 160++ noh..
my bro said see, then he paid the rest..
after that i felt like something wrong, so i asked for receipt..
the person like hestitated abit then tore out give me..
then i see see, i went back and asked isnt it buy one get one free..
then the woman laughed and said shes not working there, just helping out..
dots de noh, heng i quite alert eh.. or else kena cheated 35rm..
hmm then my mama every night go gamble..
first night won lah, then after that came back losing..
zz, oo here also got the ripley's believe or not museum..
very interesting noh, then got the most luckiest chair..
hahah only i sat on it, but like not very effective eh..
bluff people de ba, then here the theme park not bad..
got one roller coaster is lie on the stomach de..
not bad lah, lie down then cannot see what will happen next..
its freaking fast, and will 360degrees turn afew times..
hahah, very fun ba.. its said to be asia's first dont know what roller coaster..
yea, then now like nothing much to do ler noh..
so came to cyber.. cos we only stayed around the few hotels connected..
then like almost all the places gone before ler noh..
shopping also not many places, hahah..
among my family, i spent the less arh..
but my papa kept saying come oversea is to have fun..
just spend, but like nothing much to buy leh..
even buy, also like never think for myself eh..
i kept thinking buy for others eh, hahah dont know why..
but got one shop damm nice noh, like it alot..
all are girls' stuffs but for kids nia..
so sad noh, the sales persons all say adult de sold out ler..
how nice if im still a kid, can wear those cute stuffs..
last time where got so many those kinda cute stuffs de..
then i also got buy shorts and shirt for myself..
then my bro damm funny noh, he say how he wish he stay genting de..
he likes the cold weather very much ba, hahah..
nothing to say ler ba, hmm i miss alot of peeps ba.. XD
seeya tomorrow, do wait for me.. take care all..

-8.25pm-
hahah just now went to snow world.. damm cold noh..
my fingers and nose like gonna break eh..
then the ride inside also not nice de, cracked my butt eh..
and its really very cold arh, -4degrees..
hahah, then my nose very cold ma..
want to cover nose but cannot.. know why.?
cos the jacket and gloves damm smelly, hahah..
damm buai tahan noh..
then after that came out let the person draw my cartoon..
hmm i saw other people draw til damm funny de noh..
mine like normal, quite disappointed eh.. =s
maybe he think i still young, dont want bully me arh..
hahah, then he kept listurbing me noh..
asked to smile widely, waa damm tired de noh..
oo yaa, got movies on the tv de, but all the same..
everytime only spiderman, what women want..
thats all ba, tomorrow going home liao..
=]

zzARGHzz

2005-10-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

IM SO SO VERY VERY SORRY SORRY.!!
I REALLY DIDNT MEAN TO, I WAS TOO CARELESS..
IM REALLY VERY GUILTY.!!
IM SOO VERYY SORRY.!!
though you said you were fine, i really scared to death eh..
i scared till want cry eh.. >.<
i still feel freakishly heart dropping eh, dont know why..
you seemed fine liao, and sent me nice sms..
i still cant even smile eh, zz.. oww all the guilt..

~theres an empty story waiting to be tale~

2005-10-11T12:46:00.000+08:00

such a surprise eh..
i saw he wrote PLS VOTE ME IN STAR IDOL..
i thot he was just playing..

but true enough, the guy..
who called his friend to approach me..
who gave me a shock..
who wanted to ask for my number..
who said i wore very nicely everyday..
who everyday sms me say bored..
who dated me..
who paid 10$ while i paid 10cents..
who then never talk anymore..

is in channel 8's star idol..
hahah, gosh..

shuai is shuai, but too bad he has small eyes..
or else i may consider.. XD
and he look abit like linjunjie actually..

blahh, so i have something to write ler..
anyway really damm fan nowadays, dont know why..
get irritated easily, is it cos of my sis.?
she every morning cry so loudly for soo long..
she has really long breath, and i dont understand why she cry..
i every morning cant go back to sleep..

then theres the ups and downs..
starting make me look forward, then surely got thing upset me..
so for the past two days, i really feel like breaking down eh..
got that freaking sour feeling, but luckily..
yesterday watched a movie, damm touching..
then last part til ending i cried quite badly all the way.. XD
why such things happen anyway.. going insane..
going up and down isnt very fun ya..
in the end i will still be pulled down..

blahh.. still, im quite alright ba..
only sometimes really feel like loning myself..
but talking is always good too..

~just the boy~

2005-10-07T14:48:00.000+08:00

hii wassup, just woke up..
hahah played maple half way went to sleep, very tired..
should be the medicine or something..
still got abit of cough like that and nose blockage..

hmm, lets start from leslie's birthday.. kekek..
which is on friday, 30th of september..
on that day, afew of us want to meet to discuss about the grocery list..
in the end alot of people came too, hahah..
actually also cos to celebrate les birthday..
oo then i decided to gei siao dont know his birthday..
everybody wished him liao, i never..

hmm then we one whole group walked around the ntuc damm funny..
cause our group is rather big, then we want to stop and discuss..
we blocked the way noh, hahah.. and we bought some stuff noh..
cos promotion ending that day ma..

hmm then after that we want to go bishan pei weiliang buy his stuff..
before going there, we played with the drink bottle de vending machine..
its like pay for one bottle can get two bottles noh, kekek..

then after everything bought ler, want to eat dinner..
discuss so long, in the end went back tpy to eat mac..
but like very sian noh, so fer, gwy, tuck, iz and i went banquet..
then they eat like very expensive eh, hahah..
i couldnt see ma, so i just gamble and ordered the carrot cake..
quite cheap de, 2.50$ and very full noh..

hmm after that went to school, dont know why walk so far de..
zz, then reach liao.. the guys broke into the campus2 cabin..
and we celebrated les birthday there, alot of people eh..
its like so heart warming, kekek..
his present was 3 maple cards, very cute noh..
oo i also got buy a small rolie ollie monkey for him..
the monkey wore orange shirt, really like him..

hahah, then they put the candle inside the cake and listurb him..
ask him use his mouth to take out.. quite deep noh..
then they want to smash les face onto the cake, so funny noh..
but only tio abit, oww.. hahah then the cake like quite small to divide to all..
so share share noh, kekek.. after that the guys want rape les..
we girls went out with a small soccer ball..

very funny de.. we wanted to listurb the guys inside the cabin..
but didnt succeed arh, then i turned the ball gone..
should be at the drain so i go see, but too dark..
then dont know who freaked out.. =s
cos did hear "tud tud tud" should be the ball.. but dont know where..

then one screamed all screamed, hahah..
so have to use torch and find, and really at the drain there..
but too deep, hahah so nevermind about it..
hmm then got couple dont know doing what, hahah..
after the guys done, we went in noh..
then went to parade square they played soccer..

after that went home ler, waa i carry the stuff like siao eh..
then i think why i take go home sia, but sua ler..
damm heavy noh, hahah..
reach home i bathed then i tired so slept.. in air con room..
and got sick the next day..
actually my whole family sick except me..

anyway yesterday just came back from the chalet..
hmm quite happening i guess, kekek..
the night before the chalet i had fever..

i slept at around 11 arh, hahah i woke up at 2+ i got stunned..
then i couldnt sleep noh, hahah cos whole body damm hot..
i just lay on my bed til 6+ then decided to take that panadol lemon drink..
the drink not bad noh, quite sour only..
then after that no more fever, and i slept at around 7+..
and slept for afew hours only noh, so tired eh..

ayy then after that didnt want to sleep ler, cos meet at 1pm..
then gave les wake up call, then carry the heavy stuff and went there..
almost everybody reach liao, we went shopping noh..
then bought finish liao, took mrt there..
and we didnt know what time the shuttle bus will arrive ma..
so half took everything went to the chalet by taxi first..

then we waited til decided to take taxi, and we got 5 people ma..
around the 4th or 5th taxi then let us eh, kekek..
went in liao started eating, and cook with the microwave noh..
then eat finish liao, wanted to sleep..
but couldnt sleep noh, i just close my eyes for the 2 hours..
thanks isaac for giving me the blanket eh, quite touched..
then time liao, so ate medicine.. then went back still cant sleep..

after that bbq liao, then blah blah..
then played truth or dare, but most people choose dare de..
truth can bluff and too awkward to confess ma..
then more and more people play, the game became twisted..
the game was like the one get ace card will call out two numbers..
and the first number is victim, the second number is the one doing it..
all the crap ideas came out noh, hahah alot licking especially..

starting afew games, i tio 3 times in a row noh..
damm suay, first time was got licked on the ear..
i rather lick the person ear than got licked eh..
then second time was luckily with a girl..
we had to put our fingers into each other mouth and lick..
then peck on the mouth, hahah we did a quick one..
third one was a peck on my forehead, but very paiseh noh..

and then everybody play noh, hahah very funny de..
never tio me dao, very heng de noh..
sometimes was call dao the number, but not the colour..
kekek, then very funny noh watching them do..
some really see very lisgusting.. will got that yucky feeling..

then after that fer, gwy, flo, mel, cm, wx, boon and me went och..
we walked damm far noh, then got crazy motorcyclists..
then after that got one nice sports car brought half of us go..
and the other half took taxi noh, kekek..
and went to eat, then got the show quite nice eh..

then we walked up to och, can say its freaking creepy.. its about 3am+ i think
did hear sound, like footsteps on stairs, bang of door..
then had to u-turn all those, kekek..
and its very dark noh..

after that went out cos fer got scared, and we went to the bus stop..
and it started raining heavily..
but luckily got taxi pass by, and we went back noh..
reached back at around 5am+, went up to the room and rest..
then couldnt sleep so watched tv, then after that made tang yuan..
watched spirited away and spiral..

hahah then i and tuck prepared the pasta, quite fun de..
and flora help cut mushroom.. then i said i think this is the best meal..
kekek, cos of the sauce i think.. got mushroom and tomato ma..
nice nice, and yaa they all say nice..
but didnt get to eat much, but still nevermind..
oo yaa, while preparing the sauce very funny..

we went back into the kitchen to take out the bottles of sauce..
then suddenly dont know why the kitchen was messed up with sauce..
there was like a bottle opened, then sauce everywhere noh..
then we really dont know why eh, like one minute nothing wrong..
another minute, the kitchen became like that..
then we like playing detective noh, giving all the possibilities..

hahah, and i found out the nearest to the bottle de window not locked eh..
then i assumed someone hated us, then opened the bottle and shook it..
and we had alot of assumptions lah.. until isaac came in..
then we questioned him if he knew anot, then dont know what..

yuan lai really its him, hahah then we asked him why never tell us or clean it..
actually it was bcos he opened the bottle then his shirt also tio the sauce..
so he went up to change clothes first, then clean up.. hahah..
and our investigation ended, not fun at all.. cos our assumptions all wrong..

then the rest woke up, no more food ler.. so sorry..
lazy to cook again..
hmm, then at night they prepare bbq, we ate mian xian..
not bad lah, added quite alot of stuff in..

after that played some Go!Fish.. kekek..
quite a nice game, very exciting noh.. especially play 7players..
like shyt sia, dont know who to ask..
then kept forgetting who asked for what..

hmm then went down saw them play the garbage car..
like very funny, but scary noh.. anyhow drive de..
they came back with blue blacks..

then forget what ler, after that watched ju-on and ju-on prequel..
after that played catching, kekek..
quite fun de, its like the catcher have to be blind folded..
then try to catch someone in the dark, and then guess who..

very exciting arh, must run here there..
but when i be catcher i damm lazy noh, hahah..
catch dao me 3 times, but i be catcher 2 times..
then after that, play til about going to 7am all rest..
then i slept ler.. woke up going to 10, then had to leave soon..

then got chicken and pasta, but never eat much..
after that alot of troubles arh.. about the fines and the car..
had to pay alot noh, and the fuel for the car.. -.=
then they fined us 30$ cos part of the chair lose only..
freaking ridiculous noh, but lucky they help us discount..
so in the end we got fined 40$ instead of 60..

and then we started our sarcastism..
its like dirty what need to pay for the whole thing noh..
damm amusing noh..
and the guys wanted to take the chair arh, then they really got it..
hahah, they took the chair around like emperor chair noh..
very funny, and we had our lunch at some chinese restaurant..

after that went arcade, then some played bowling, the rest sleeping..
then dont know who say leave, then we left..
didnt know never tell those who were bowling, then they got mad i think..
then we went to toapayoh noh, in the bus so cold noh..
i was like gonna freeze to death, kekek..
so the end ba, freaking tired to write so long..

~you are gone, you scar me. i am lost, i miss you~

2005-09-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

" baby baby baby, from the day i saw you
i really really wanted to catch your eye
theres something special about you
i must really like you
cos not a lot of guys are worth my type

ohh baby baby baby, its getting kinda crazy
cos you are taking over my mind
and it feels like.. ohh
but you dont know my name
i swear it feels like.. ohh
but you dont know my name

round and round and round we go
will you ever know "

nice song, will never get bored of it.. kekek..
its such a sweet song..

anyway yesterday went to ice skate noh, quite fun de..
kekek, quite tired and sleepy so kept resting.. =s
hmm i now want to wait my hair dry first arh, thou tired..

then alot of people left ler, then became quite chilly eh..
hahah, then we played ice and water.. so funny..
have to skate fast fast and zhao fast fast and chase fast fast..
i never fall dao noh, until i became catcher..
then i chase johnny til i fell..
crashed my butt sia..

then by 6.30pm had to clear the place noh..
cos got ice hockey.. woots, the small boys carry the bag super big..
never seen such big bags before, kekek..
then they pulled out their armour-like clothes..

after that went to eat, then dota..
woots johnny also know how to dota ler, kekek..
our circle of dota-ers is really becoming bigger eh..
hmm then first two rounds cant play properly de..
keep got people disconnect due to comp hang..

til the third time then managed to play normally ba..
hahah at first like gonna lose eh, their heroes quite strong..
then we rax rax til won, wee~
felt so pro, most of the raxing was done by me teehee..

anyway so happy that i pass my semester..
and even more proud that i got 2 disctinctions, 3 As and 1 Bs..
the B was the cause of my weakest subject arh, CKT..
tsktsk, yet surprised that my TCS got distinction sia..
and the rest quite expected ba.. =D

LESLIE OWE ME SWENSEN, lalala..
i have alot of evidence noh.. XD
sigh, my father is sick..
and i have no money..
who can feed me.? =x

chalet also coming soon, hope everything goes smoothly..
planning for a chalet is really such a headache..

~i shouldnt have let you go, i lied to myself~

2005-09-25T15:47:00.000+08:00

never look back we said
how was i to know i`d miss you so
loneliness up ahead
emptiness behind
where do i go

and you didnt hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears

did you now
still i miss you somehow

[[from the bottom of my broken heart
theres just a thing or two i`d like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even though time may find me somebody new

you were my real love
i never knew love
til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart]]

baby i said
please stay
give our love a chance for one more day
we could have worked things out

taking time is what love`s all about
but you put a dart
through my dreams
through my heart

and im back where i started again
never thought it would end

[[chorus]]

you promised yourself
but to somebody else

and you made it so perfectly clear
still i wish you were here now

[[chorus]]

never look back we said
how was i to know

i`d miss you so

~one thousand confessions, have never been spoken~

2005-09-05T15:27:00.000+08:00

heya, so long never blog ler..
been enjoying my holiday.. =x

cos arh, 27th aug to 5th sep is study break..
then 6 7 8 is exam for me..
so from 8th sep til 6th nov is holiday..
but i consider 27th aug to 6th nov is holiday ba..
need go school for 3days, 3papers..

ohh saturday, actually want buy present for johnson..
in e end eat, then play dota..

sunday- after gym, played dota.. then ate bk, then go prata..
and played zhong ji mi ma.. hahah..

monday- went school to pass up project, mama and sis also tagged along..
then went shopping, damm song.. my nike air shoe.. ^^

tuesday- went to plaza singapura to get my nike skirt..
cos suntec dont have, so help me reserve..
after that went to celebrate johnson birthday at esplanade..

wednesday- teachers day, so went back sec school see performance..
then went mac eat, after that played dota.. then ate banquet.. then talk talk..

thursday- went poly to meet friends and study.. study awhile ba..
then went braddell mac, then ate at market, then fooled around and talk cok..

friday- didnt do anything, cos lent my bus pass to friend..
slackk at home, and abit heartache cos of something.. cried at night.. =x

saturday- saw alot of people, then went carepoint.. after that went blk222 bball..
then les, johnson, wx played bball.. after eating, they went watch movie..
i went to find kev and talk talk.. cried again at night..

sunday- went gym, i ran sia.. then played dota and eat..
and played dota again.. -.=

so thats all.. XD
tired sia, heartache sia..

you are beautiful. you are beautiful.
i saw your face in a crowded place, and i dont know what to do.
'cause i'll never be with you..

~im waiting for someone in the future~

2005-08-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

heya, e bathroom is occupied now..
cant brush teeth, cant eat my lunch..
so came to blog.. =x

woots, so so.. on thursday was isaac's bday..
i bought him a shirt, but hope he likes it ba..
hmm, e colour.. i never seen him wear de..
but ayy, hahah its e thought that counts ma..

so anyway, before thursday i asked him what time he finish school..
he told me got tuition, haixx..
hahah, but in e end he cancelled his tuition eh..
so good.. i thot we want make him happy, he dont want..

and we met at amk central after school arh..
hahah, then les, johnson, wx, fian bro went to buy prezzie..
cos isaac every sunday forget to bring towel de, so i suggested..
and they really bought sia, kekek..
then i played e spider game, so hard to play de..
kev play like so easy, gosh..

after that, isaac reach liao..
went to eat dinner noh.. hawker centres were full..
and we ate at kfc in e end..
hahah rox abit kelian eh, she paiseh ba.. cos of chris..
then i cannot pangseh her noh..

hmm, e que damm long noh..
like never ending de, hahah..
then tuck reach liao..

after eating, went out, saw boonliang and his group..
hahah they wore abit funny de, so formal..
like went to crash weddings.. =x
hmm, then went to raiders play dota noh..

played 2rounds, waa super tired..
left eye became very pain also, zz..
whao first game, got that bone fletcher, dont know how to use..
hahah, then second game used naix..
quite fun de.. =x

blah blah, after that went home liao noh..
12 then reach home leh, heng my mama sleep liao..
then next day went school with swollen eyes and left eye super red and pain..
hahah, very tired noh..

wahh e tcs tcher very good noh.. she saw my eye like that..
she want give me one whole box of eye drops..
omg noh, hahah but i insisted dont want..
she damm cute, i took out a set of 3 eye drops..
she just snatched away and give me a set of 4 de..

haixx, so touched..
waa damm pain noh put that eye drop..
went home faster sleep, then better ler..

saddening sia.. leslei going overseas soon..
like good, also bad.. come back soon arh.. ^^

~im waiting for you, or is it we could never be together~

2005-08-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

hiiya, so long never blog ler..
tomorrow have lab test eh, so zz..

hmm, so these couple of days quite fun de..
today went gym as usual, but tuck was early..
then i second, isaac third..
and wx came to join us, he last to reach..

hahah, we bought e "mystery drink" from e vendor..
and it was.. a h2o apple drink arh..
also good lah, hahah.. i think its just a random drink..

so done liao, we went to cold storage noh..
hahah, and bought tibits.. -.=
oo, got girls suan wx..
then they all trying to suan back..
very funny..

after that, we went crc noh..
hahah, actually we 2v2 each other..
in e end e [BtY] clan ask for match noh..
so we 4v5 them.. -ar

hahah still remember kena trashed by them..
so sad, but this time good arh..
we won them, yeah~
after one game, tuck say want go liao..
cos he going wedding dinner..

but we went to e arcade play awhile noh..
hahah e car game got two credits..
but e start button got something wrong..
i dont know how i press, suddenly start..
but cannot another time..

stoopid game lai de noh..
bang dao other cars, will got a scream..
cos accident, hahah.. very noisy..
then tuck played e bball game, lost..
then he played e wwe de tag team de..

very funny sia.. e game like very easy..
until round3, he and e opponent 1bit life each..
then wx and iz very ganjiong, so funny noh..
in e end he lost lah, hahah..

after that went home noh, never go crash wedding dinner.. =x
then e day before, saturday..
went shopping with iz, milky and wx..
hahah, went bishan first..

then iz and wx finding formal de shirt noh..
woots, one tie 40+ eh.. equals to 2 formal shirts..
so expensive noh, hahah..
then iz also bought a shoe, i haven buy my shoe yet.. =s

and i bought two clothes noh, yeah yeah..
after that, we went tpy play pool..
hahah i and iz vs wx and milky..
ayy i never wear specs ma, and so long never play..

so we never win dao lah..
two "wins" was they went in their black ball.. kekek..
after that, we walked somemore..
saw ms aw, and we stood outside e entrance..
ms aw never see us.. very odd de, hahah..

blah blah, we hanged around tpy central noh..
then e day before (friday) went to watch The Maid arh..
ohh, before that.. after school went to Pavilion there..
i taught james dota while darren be e feeder..

hahah, very funny de.. abit felt bad for darren.. =x
after that, saw zheqi.. so i joined in with his friend..
so they ate then just chat chat noh..
after that, went orchard to find fer, gwy, flora and wx noh..
then tuck reached later..

watched 7+ de, first row somemore..
hahah not scary de, but e story not bad..
cos arh.. i have an ambition..
which is anything to do with film..
director, script writer, camera man, actress also can..
mostly i see film for e story, and curious how they make e effect..

hahah so not very scared lah..
ghost movies, jap, korean and thailand better ba..
e movie i really cant watch is american psycho movies..
those torturing stuffs, yucks.. i will cry sia..
so after that, went to tpy noh..

they had supper, after that went home..
nowadays really tired..
my papa calls me a corpse..
my mama calls me a vampire..

woots.. i dont really know what to do..
am i ruining myself.?

~if i have 1000wishes, i would give 999 to you, and 1 to wish you happy~

2005-08-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

today.. such tregedy..
im so sadded, gosh..
why.??

cos i was doing engdrawing..
then i did for quite long, you know..
and i opened something extra, so i want to close..
and then..
i didnt SAVE.!!

and so.. my hardwork went down e drain..
moreover, still need de..
gonna die liao noh.. hahah..
lucky did one part of e work done.. printing out..

well well, i went Ooo Ooo Ooo.. very loud..
some shhed..
very funny, then some like knew what happen noh..
tregedy sia..
but heng arh, got ppl want help me.. ^^ thankies..

~if i couldnt find the words, i hope my face says it all~

2005-08-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

hah, long time never blog ler..
today actually wanted to do two projects..
in e end did one then left ler.. =x

cannot noh, will die sia.. so tight..
hmm, like every sunday, went gym with tuck and isaac noh..
we went to tpy de gym, hahah..
then after gym went to find leong and lun at snooker zone..

after that went to crc played cs then dota noh..
hahah i and leong vs tuck and iz..
then after that, we went to eat zhi cha..
not bad lah.. very funny de..
they ordered two is chilli de, and e tie ban doufu no onion..
but actually i and iz dont take spicy, and i like onions..

but nevermind de lah, can eat good enough.. kekek..
then next day (monday) we said hao hao watch movie noh..
so last period have that stoopid IT quiz, didnt prepare..
totally flunk it ba, dont know a single shyt about anything..
abit paiseh lah, like those teacher treat me quite good..
but my theory really cannot make it.. =x

anyway after school got time, so went home..
oo, that night didnt sleep well eh, dont know why..
hahah, and i on my computer to charge my mp3 player ma..
suddenly got sound from my computer, so i on e screen to see..

then i shocked sia, got ppl chat with me in a "msn"..
i open and see my msn messanger, never sign in..
but why got an invisible msn de.?? i dont understand noh..
then i go sign in my msn messanger, it said like signed out from another place de..
so weird, dont know why like that..

so anyway went to bishan meet they all, didnt expect soo many people..
hahah, got iz, tuck, roxanne, johnson, chris, zq, les, wx, caiping, grace, gwy, ck..
so we ate at j8 first, then e que too long, so we decided to go tpy.. -.=
and we watched Wedding Crashers, woohoo~
can see my Owen Wilson, kekek..

the secret is.. i first saw him at The Haunting during p6..
then finally had a crush on him at Shanghai Noon during sec1..
see, i like him for so long ler, dont know why arh..
i think hes charming and cute.. XD

and that vince guy also not bad, quite like him at Dougeball..
hes funny, lalala.. another secret..
im attracted to people with their unique way of speaking..
very hard to explain lah, hahah.. just unique..
anyway we watched and chatted abit, and i was freaking tired..

both my eyes were red noh, hahah gonna faint.. x.X
then i and roxanne walked home, ayy so sad..
12.30++ reached home, faster change then zZzzZ ler..
hahah then next day went to see fireworks with weiling noh..

it was totally awesome.! right infront of my very eyes and face..
hahah, very shiok noh e feeling, took some shots..
i caught e star one, and like falling stars de.. freaking pretty eh..
wonder how they make got pattern come out, and make them so huge~
it was really awesome, i want encore encore.! =x
biibaaboom~

hahah, oo at marina square there saw amylia and karen..
its like so qiao, woots..
that cute karen, suddenly clapped infront of me..
i really got stunned and scared dao eh..
well well, exams coming, and after that..
woohoo, almost two months of HOLIDAY..

now i abit like holiday ler, maybe poly life too tight..
thou fun, but too tight arh e schedule..
must get a break, eat some kit kat.. =x
oops sorry to be lame, kekek.. xiao xin gan mao ler..
take care`all..

~ive learnt to let go, i will be happy for you~

2005-07-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

hiiya, im back to blog..
did nothing much during this holiday arh..
hahah, yesterday chose CDS.. =S

at first say hao hao 10am choose, then..
i tired arh, so i about 12 then go choose noh.. =X
then dont have film in e choices given, dont know why..
im so sadded, hahah..

oo then played maple, as usual..
then les called me noh, say go watch wetdreams2 at bishan..
and at first meet 5.30, changed to 6..
went to tpy interchange, only saw wx..
and we went to bishan noh, hahah..
on e bus saw my pri school friend, and ex neighbour..
but i think he couldnt recognise me..

so we went there, and roxanne, les, chris were there..
then johnson came, then isaac, then tuck..
so saddening de lah they, tu til change to fantasic4..
in e end never watch anything sia.. =S
tuu til blame here and there, very funny..
hahah, nevermind noh.. xi guan jiu hao..

then some ate ler, some of us haven eat, hungry..
no place at bishan, so go back tpy..
eat burger king, after that zl came also.. then dota..
gonna keesiao noh, everyday face computer..
at home, computer.. outside, still computer.. XD

play play, quite fun de.. hahah..
until third match, e last then not fun liao..
dont know why too laggy, then gave me headache.. =(
after that go home noh, hahah..
continue mapling.. everynight still same, 2+ to 3+ sleep..

next day (today) woke up at 10, cos tuck say 1 meet at bishan..
we going gym ma, hahah.. last week improper attire.. =X
then in e end change to 2.30 meet..
hahah, made me so sleepy..
then reached there, made my bus pass, BROKE..
went to find isaac, konghong also there.. hahah they just finish tennis ma..
after that find tuck noh, he stomachache.. =S

then we walked to e gym there, so many ppl there.. -.=
nevermind noh, then did alot of workout..
i abit lazy lah, i do one 5mins, change.. 5mins change..
lazy to run also, zz.. no lah, cos i dread running.. =}
then after that do hands and legs stuffs, not bad..
but cannot put too much weight, cannot even lift up..

then do e chin up thingy, hahah i didnt know how to step out..
i just step out, then e weight drop down BOOM.!!
hahah, everybody turned sia.. then i super paiseh, they also.. =X
then e instructor came to see noh, hahah.. see got spoil anot..
hehh, then she ask me want try anot.. i say dont want, i cannot..
then she said i can, why you cannot.. hahah..

so she taught me how to use that thingy noh, wont BOOM anymore.. XD
then after that we keesiao arh, fooled around..
tuck gone crazy, hahah, they so cute de noh.. lalals..
hmm then did some more workout, then went wash up noh..
they washed up so long de.. -.=

hmm, after that went to e pasar malam there..
hahah then we bought some food, then tuck left ler..
and i, kh and isaac went kfc noh..
we ordered "One Buddy Meal", hahah..
"yO yO wAsSuP, One Buddy Meal" =X
used up all my cash noh, totally empty wallet..

yea then ate finish, went to buy my thing.. kekek..
just my zen neeon de stik-on lah, yea so pretty now.. ^^
actually want buy e skirt from newworldorder noh, very pretty..
but no discount, so didnt buy.. ayy, how sad.. 30+bucks, no money..
then walked around, then went home ler..

oo kh say he want dye back his hair, means dye black..
ayy he say ppl think he paikia, i suddenly feel i ruined myself also..
hahah, im guai kia.. should i dye back my hair.?

anyway, actually never went home noh, i saw kh to his house there..
then on e way home, hahah actually very tired de..
in e end i went entertainment de sakae help my family take que..
hahah i saw so many ppl, i thot they inside liao..
in e end they haven reach, heng i took que noh, hahah..
i walked there, they took bus.. -.=

so sad, i should not have eaten that kfc, used my money..
hahah, quite full ler so ate abit sashimi and dessert nia..
sibeh shiok that itailian dessert, feel like trying all.. =p
very funny noh, we workout, then i ate so full..
like wasted.. -.=
nevermind, will go workout again ba..

hmm nothing much, hahah..
suddenly.. i found someone very cute.. ^^
in my class hor, i only think hes cute..
holiday gonna end ler, oww.. monday got lab test, oww..
hahah, actually i prefer schooling.. YEAH..

~look for the girl with her broken smile, hidden tears~

2005-07-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

yozzie, hahah.. just came back..
today went out with kaisheng and shawn..
err, nothing much..
went to douby ghaut de arcade noh..

hahah, kaisheng say meet at 2.45, i 2.45 then go bath and leave house..
then i took taxi, then actually no need de.. -.=
hahah, went there dont know where e place..
was walking down e stairs, then oo its just up another stairs..
so hidden, no wonder so few ppl there lah..

then just chiong arcade noh, played alot of games..
video games, shooting games, para also..
then went to ps, cos kaisheng said he hungry..
then waa, he really treat me e seafood coroke sia..
hmm, then went to ps de arcade.. see ppl catch e toy..

hahah, so suay de noh.. they caught e toy..
but when e claw went up, jerked.. then e toy dropped..
ALOT of ppl like that, then ALOT of money wasted..
and ALOT of ppl gave up in e end, hahah..

japan de better, their toys super big and quite exp de..
then e ppl there very good de, i still remember..
they will approach then ask which you like..
then they will put at e hole there, say push e toy in.. XD
then if still cannot, they open and put closer..
its like touch abit drop ler noh, hahah good right..

anyway then they all bluffed me, i was gonna dine outside..
hahah, but in e end at least they good..
pei me eat, hahah.. i dont mind ppl looking at me eat de..
then eat and chat noh, hahah e noodles suks.. =X

and eat finish liao, go back that mrt there de arcade..
hahah, then played awhile more noh..
hmm actually told wx i will go crc, hahah.. in e end i 8+ then leave e place..
chionged there, in e end zhenleong say no need..
haixx, always like that de.. hahah..
then played dota noh..

teamed with kev, chris and wx.. then les, johnson and zl another team..
first match won them, second match we lost..
but chris nuts, ownself kill our throne.. -.=
then after that, went home noh..
so so tired, abit headache.. but cant sleep..

oo i dreamt of him again.. why.? i was happy in e dream..
yet im such a fool, hahah..
anyway dont stay, i will forget you..

~im afraid to close my eyes, theres you deep inside me~

2005-07-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

hii, waa this afternoon internet got problem eh..
i think, or my comp got problem.?
anyway..

yesterday (sunday) went to bishan de gym noh..
with tuck and isaac..
oo before that, saw m502 de CP, hahah..
forget his name, so i just say "you m502 CP right.?"
hahah then i told him where im from, he asked me where i go..
blah blah..

then met them liao, went to e gym..
hahah, then we squeeze our stuffs into e 40cents locker..
they contributed 20cents each, then put in liao..
nevermind, i forget put in handphone..

hahah then open, then i contributed 40cents..
nevermind, i improper attire.!
omg noh, i was so paiseh.. not allowed to e gym..
hahah, then e instructor gave us refund within a week de..
so next weekend then go.. -.=
i was really paiseh noh.. they can go, but didnt go..
sorry sorry..

then after that, stucked..
so went to see children doing gymnastics..
very nice noh, i got think before why i young my mother never let me learn..
how fun sia, hahah can sumersaut..

after that, we wanted call ppl arh..
but like nobody de.. hahah..
so we went j8 buy something, then isaac went back ler..
and we went to crc meet zhenleong..

hahah played first round, was join other ppl de game..
then we owned them lah, very fun..
after that, got younger boys asked to play..
they total got 6ppl, we 3 nia.. =(
still got clan somemore, tsktsk.. then we sorta got trashed lah..
XD got afew round kill them, but in e end still lose lah..

anyway after that, we went to hawker center..
too many ppl, so went my house downstairs de "ze cha"..
hahah, we ordered horfun, which they didnt prefer actually..
and ku lu yok, and tie ban toufu.. and they had plain rice..

hahah i still remember i was in school canteen..
wanted to order toufu, i kept saying tower..
dont know what im thinking.. -.=

anyway we ate super long noh, we talked alot sia..
hahah so long, that even thot of running away, but better not lah..
then kept saying those funny stuffs, like last time sec school de things..
very funny noh, sometimes dont know we are naughty or just smart..

oo, then i in my school.. dont know why so simple eh..
so simple that, my expectation turned high..
i kept aiming for full marks.. -.=
but usually i cant remember acouple of stuffs de.. hahah..
get at least distinction noh..

hahah, then after that chris came noh..
then we stucked one place to another, dont know where to go..
in e end we went arcade, hahah..
very funny lah, we played quite afew games noh..
not bad eh, got new metal slug but abit hard to play..

then i played para, they say i cute, haixx..
so paiseh noh, hahah..
then i see tuck to my house e bus stop there, hahah i so good..
hmm then went home maple arh, one day level up one noh..

then today woke up my fingers super pain eh..
hahah, gonna kee siao ler..
moreover arh, nowadays i everynight 2-3 am sleep..
everyday 9-11am wake, and wont sleep back de..
dont feel like sleeping noh, hahah..

oo then actually maybe lah, going out with my classmates..
but they want go century, i dont want noh..
too far ler, i lazy..
hahah but they say tomorrow maybe go douby there, so maybe go noh..
its funny, one of them i dont like de..
but talking to him is quite interesting..

and hor, haixx..
e two guys dont really like de, they both have gf de.. ee..
hahah, like abit what noh, they still got nickname for me..
ask him what it means, dont want tell me..
blah blah, whatever noh..

hmm, oo got crazy guy..
he called me bytch, want to make friends with me..
wth noh, hahah.. get lost lah..

yupps, im crazier, but im still sensitive eh..
=( my classmates alot too open ler, hahah..
thou i can play along with them arh, but..
sometimes will scare say wrong things ma, then..
too personal de stuff, really sometimes very unpleasant to hear ma..
dont mind, but really.. ayy very hard to say..
XD

anyway this holiday, dont know do what noh..
scared nothing to do everyday go maple, sure keesiao noh..
schooling is still best.. ^^
tata~

~why would i want to be your only one~

2005-07-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

finally~ Holiday ler..
gonna change my blogskin, it suks.. soon ba..
oo hahah, but Ngee Ann Poly de bad lah..
they holiday then test..

anyway yesterday went sakae to eat noh..
my parents want to get e VIP card arh, hahah..
must get 300$ for about two months like that..
then eat finish liao, played arcade..
saw a guy so familiar, so i asked he is it fabian..

i knew him from network webby de, hahah..
then he said yaa, then i told him im who lah..
he abit gan jiong like that, hahah..
anyway then played abit of parapara..
then my bro very pro at e soccer game noh..

play finish liao, then go home..
kekek, then next day.. means today..
went for test late arh..
cos was super stressed eh, dont know why..
i felt like breaking down noh, but never lah..

in e end, i finished e test, thou some say cannot finish..
but may got careless mistakes noh, cos i just on time finish..
didnt get to check, haixx..
and went to play badminton noh..
before that, went cyber played computer..

chatted with friend..
yaa shes right, hes not important to me, why should i be like that..
i dont want to snatch, so hes just a memory, a past..
whether will forget anot, will still forget him sooner or later ba..
then my another friend say maybe someone will replace him..
then i will forget even faster..

hmm anyway, then played badminton til my arms gonna break sia..
wed 1hr badminton, thurs 5rounds of para, today 2hrs badminton again..
hahah dont know tomorrow what sports..
oo then hor, my friend and i went to tampines mall and century there noh..
looked at e arcade, then played para para again..

hahah, then we played e marvel fighting game..
very funny noh, i dont know how to play.. was like gonna pull out e josstick..
then he nearly completed all arh, until e last part..
and we played metal slug, so funny..
i abit gan jiong arh, then played and laughed noh.. quite fun de..

hahah maybe next time play again ba..
but there so exp noh, except for video games i mean, zz..
then took my 1hour 10mins bus, just then reach home..
headache now, hahah..
i will try to be crazy and cheerful always, thankies to all my friends..

~under the same sky, we will meet again somewhere somehow~

2005-07-07T13:50:00.000+08:00

hiiya, today "holiday" so come and blog..
just woke up, going to cook something to eat..
hmm, monday no youth day for us.. =(
cos we old ler, hahah but anyway can treat today as youthday ba..

oo sunday went watch InitialD noh..
with isaac, johnson, les, wx and zq..
not too bad arh, ending very sad noh..
e show abit expected like that, cos e main star (jay) confirm win ma..
but still, quite exciting, see e show is better than at e arcade de.. XD
then we bought quite late de, so went crc played awhile..
tuck watch before ler, so stayed at crc.. =S
then finish liao, went home study..

so anyway monday was dfund, haixx..
had confident to score super well, until..
i had a careless mistake, on e 14marks qn..
soured my heart, dont wish to think about it..

cos arh, in poly..
one qn, even only got afew steps, carry so much marks..
it can be simple, but dont know if one step wrong..
can get how much sia..

haixx forget it, then tuesday iT and CF..
hahah, didnt study much for it, but think can pass ba.?
oo morning jess came then told me..
e guys same lecture as us invited me to go their chalet..
i was like "huh", dots de.. dont really know them, they also abit.. not3not4..

then she told me its e guy asked her to go their chalet, then ask me along..
then she asked him isit invite her, cos want me to go..
then e guy so direct said yaa, wth sia.. she sad then say dont want go noh..
so i asked her can bring e guys along, she said they said no guy friends..
more wth noh, then i dont want ba.. even she also know i wont agree..

then we thot of alot of freaky ideas, like we book a chalet next to them..
and hang our undergarments outside, so funny noh..
then we bbq sausage, purposely burn them til black black and throw at them..
hahah, and also put charcoal into their shoes to see them dance..
we are nuts ba, hahah.. but just ideas..
i also dont know if i could plan an outing, winson maybe going overseas.. =S

oo didnt know between after 30mins of e paper,
and before 10mins e paper ends, can leave noh..
then after school wanted to meet milky, but needa book court..

hahah didnt know he also at one-stop there..
his friends really all about his height de.. XD good for him..
then finish liao, went bus stop..
saw melvin, weiliang and dont know e guy but is my schoolmate..

hahah then melvin, again say take 23..
then we all took 23 noh, in e end.. melvin dropped us at wrong place i think..
so funny de, then we chat chat.. then i milky and weiliang went bk..
then i ate mos burger de that vege beef thingy..
zz, so hard to eat noh, too much sauce then drip drip..
hmm, was quite fun.. cos quite long never see them ler..
except milky, always see him around de.. =S

and yesterday de ckt, morning meet them as usual..
i had no appetite arh, so bend e fork and spoon and ate abit and played..
then nigel is crazy, cant finish m&ms and 100plus liao..
he go put e m&ms inside e 100plus.. then shake shake, ee so ligusting noh..
e water turned green sia, its like very dark de green noh..
then got abit of chocolate particles..
and he poured out e water, e chocolate still like wont melt, got e shape..
they looked like shyt noh, hahah~
category 1: nuisance in public.. =X

hmm anyway for e paper, i felt quite satisfied..
at least i think i memorize e formulae correctly..
lalals.. after school went to eat, then went manhin house..
on e way kept playing with e big big rocks, threw then will break..
hahah we are nuts.. then went his house help him install maple..
then talk talk, heng never play gundam seed..
my thumb oready got a hole, cant play.. later bleed..

then 3pm liao, go play badminton..
ayy i nowadays i abit sad inside.. =S
hahah played okok noh, then very funny..
we went to play badminton at e volleyball net there..
so high noh, then just play for fun, ownself make rules..
quite funny arh, can cheat de, cos e holes super big..

played finish liao, went to eat noh..
then yesterday night played maple with james, shawn, jasper and winson..
hahah quite fun de, we party..
then left james and jasper, they brought me to see monsters noh..
kaos, i got 200+ hp, e dino breath one fireball, i died..
so kelian noh, then saw alot of monsters i never seen before de..
quite nice, nice exploring with them.. =]

then played til 2+, actually not very tired..
i need to be level 15 sia, one more~
then can wear nice stuffs liao..
e stoopid monsters killed me, then my exp went down.. -.=
oo then got alot of nice ppl in maple de noh..
they gave me stuffs, then i got quite alot of stuffs..
esp my arrows, ppl gave me til 7000++ arrows sia.. ^^

anyway its not so addictive ba, just play for fun noh..
thats why i dont mind chionging e monsters.. =X
and died..

today is my mama's birthday..
I Love my Mother <3
__/\_
>' ' ,< my shining star..

~you could just light up my fire~

2005-07-03T12:31:00.000+08:00

hiya, tomorrow de week term test ler..
hahah, gonna study hard eh..
i think all my tests got 90%+ eh, hah..
but sad lah, all cos forget or careless, zz..
that manhin got all full marks, kaos..

hmm, i didnt update, so i forget how my days went..
oo got one day we quite early dismiss i guess..
then we went to run against e sprinkles..
damm funny sia, so fun..
we thot its like obstacles, but not really arh..
first few sprinkles can go thru..
e rest cant ler, they sure will tio us acouple of times..
we are nuts.. XD

oo got one day someone wanted me to help do survey..
i thot it was fine, so i said alright..
and when i told my friend, she started warning me lotsa stuff..
real scary sia, then i was like omg, scaring me eh..
hahah, then i actually still decided to go, and see how it goes..
and she called me again, told me all e scary stuffs..
i was like, omg better not then..
hahah then heard from her that guy meeting me only..
i one person do what survey in e whole of tpy arh..

so i was kinda blessed, to her arh..
cos i was using school comp (as always) then i saw her in msn..
so i just chat with her, since so long never chat with her..
then i told her about that guy, and she was worried..
hahah, so i was blessed to see her, and to let her know..

hmm, then what uh..
e day before yesterday went to play badminton after school noh..
quite fun arh, at first only me jess and james..
then we called manhin, his father tagged along also..
waa so fun sia, i think i not bad if i warmed up.. =D
cos im a lazy person ma, then i lazy to run for a save or what..
warmed up liao, will run abit..
waa they like to shoot straight shots or light shots..
quite jian, but some i can kop..

and yesterday went to my sec school's carnival noh..
to me, really alot of ppl went arh.. i mean ex schoolmates..
hahah, then was quite fun arh, joking around..
hmm, and after that they wanted to play pool or dota i guess..
but i cant.. =( cos i went to cut and highlight my hair..
while my mother did rebonding, next week then highlight..
at my father's friend's lor'eal salon..

kekek, funny eh.. i chose copper brown, i got blonde..
zz, and that hairstylist gave me a hairdo, really different.!
omg noh, my heart was like so sour, cut soo many layers..
moreover, short layers.. sigh, e comment i gave was..
"i look like a lion" and everybody there just laughed..
really noh, and my bro said i looked like a paikia..

blah blah, after that i and my bro went to eat nachos with extra cheese..
damm shiok sia e cheese, heyy im a cheese fan.. =]
we ate finish liao, i was like sucking all e cheese with a straw..
LOlzz yea its gross, but i just ask my bro to hide me just in case ppl dont like to see..
then that was our dinner, hahah..
and we bought 3 ice cream, and he had abit of beef noodles..
while i took one beef ball, hahah..

quite shiok arh, i didnt pay for anything..
all my parents and didi pay de..
and oo, my father's friend didnt charge us also..
was quite surprised, such a nice guy..
but err, alot of male hairdresser like kinda.. feminine.? =S

so if any of my friends want to have a cut or what, tell me noh..
i bring you all go there, its at great world city.. not far..
near orchard.. =D

hmm, oo then went to meet my friends after that..
and we chatted alot arh..
didnt know alot of ppl have e same kinda problems de.. in relationship..
sigh, we all are failures.. =(

i cant forget my past, but i got like someone else..
but why.?
why.?
why..?
that guy should knew i like him, why wont he give me an answer..
isit cos he dont like me.?
even if its so, why wont he at least let me know..

anyway doesnt matter..
i became a truthful person since then..

~if it is so popular, why dont i like it~

2005-06-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

hii, just now went out..
hear e 5cents per minute plan thingy..
hahah, had an interesting talk with a bunch of adults..
they were chatting ma, then think they very cute..

anyway yesterday midnight, still online ma..
suddenly got one private number called..
so i just answer noh..
he was like "hello ah girl arh.."
i was "hello who are you.?"
he said "oo i dont think you know me"..
i was "huh.? then why you calling me"..
he then said "you last time isit got go irc de.? nick isit ahgirl.?"
i said "yaa.." and he said "oo maybe you know me lah.."

it was freaking weird arh..
then i was abit scared also, hahah..
so i said "err next time then talk.."
he asked "oo, busy arh.."
i said "yaa, bye"..

hahah wth sia.. dont know who.?
dont tell me nicholas, but that guy's voice more man..
hope he wont dii siao me anymore..

oo, on friday.. i went to watch A Lot Like Love..
hahah purposely bought midnight tix..
oo it was a very nice show..
its like.. 2 years later meet, together.. then seperate..
another 2 years later meet, together.. then seperate..
total of 7 years, still together or rather finally together.. so fun arh..

oo was at crc, wished vincent happy birthday..
then play lan arh, play with outsiders..
hahah was arguing away with my team mates..
they say i childish, lalals.. i dont care..
they more childish noh, DIE MEANS FEED..
WHAT SENSE.. but we never angry at each other lah..
play game sometimes have to take risk and chiong ma..
or else wont be so exciting liao, kekek..
hahah then my score e best, 1 kill and 1 death..
cos they all steal my frags de, IDIOTS.!

so long never blog ler, hahah..
im so sadded arh..
firstly, elf interview.. failed..
i didnt get into elf, paul bluffed me..
he said i got a big chance, in e end.. im not in e list..
sighh, but doesnt matter.. im still in ac..

secondly, i thot visual central will email to my hotmail..
waited so long, no mail, thot haven start..
yuan lai, they email to TP account de..
piangs~ then e day i checked mail..
was e day e registration for a workshop closed.!

so saddening..
oo finally all e quizzes over ler..
but dont think ckt can make it, thou i was late to class..
i first to chiong out, HAH..
cos i finish fast, of cos.. and i cant remember..
got mistakes, due to careless or remembered wrongly noh..
so louzy memory i have.. =(

oo i also first to finish for IT and engdraw quizes..
yea im nuts.. sorry if i make you feel stress sitting beside me..
^^ my typing quite fast ba, and i have some interest in them noh..
for lab, slowly getting used to it noh.. did quite fast also..
hahah, remember that day nothing to do.. just practice on our own..
nigel go make 120++V, by connecting two dcc machines together..
COOL right, was like making many sparks and burning stuff..
XD

hmm, sometimes i think e ckt lab tcher..
abit.. dont know.. e feeling..
like hes abit odd.. kekek.!
BOTH e ckt tchers are weird.!
lec tcher christopher diong likes to SMILE ALOT..
well wells, ckt made them crazy.? =S

rest of e papers, theres a possibility to get full marks de noh..
yea, then next week exam period ler.. after that, break.. how sweet..
i cant think of any outing arh, why arent you all giving me ideas.?
really want chalet, oversea, cruise..?

oo yaa, hahah.. i think im quite good at engdrawing ma..
then that dominic tcher, OMG sia.. (why cant he say my name, hes always calling me class rep)
i dont know whats he doing, hahah..
i was talking away, suddenly got someone hitting my head..
i turn, he was using e worksheet to hit my head..
so i took it noh, and he never say anything.. or i never hear.?
then i continued talking..
someone hit my head again, and again was him hitting my head with another worksheet..
i was shocked this time, i took e paper and asked what you doing..
hahah, i didnt catch what he said arh.. or he never say, or i couldnt hear..
but really odd lah, really funny noh..

so thats all.. tomorrow bringing camera, again..
this time hope to take everybody, at least someone ask me to bring de..
XD dont know you are vain or self loving..
yet im honoured to be your personal photographer, mr six-pac aka pull-up guy.. LOL~

chaos.
my heart stays the same; wondering why..

~really addicted to music, just like you as my eye candy~

2005-06-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

OMG, i met him.! after two years, i finally met him again..
hahah really freaking qiao noh, somemore same school as me..

it was like, i saw this guy freaking familiar walking past when i was sitting down at canteen..
then i eat eat, i suddenly remember noh.. OMG, hahah..
then i want to see him again, after school really saw him behind me..
so i approached him, but he dont recognise me sia..
to confirm, i asked him he went to Japan last last year with his sis and mother right..
hahah, then i told him i was e birthday girl, he remembered liao..
he also abit surprised noh.. then he turn out to be same school as me also..

hahah, really funny sia.. hmm he grew abit old, then not as shuai i saw him before liao.. =X

so lalals, nowadays got quiz arh..
currently doing.. great~ kekek..
feel so smart, hahah oops..
please dont feel stress sitting beside me, i can teach you also de, YOU KNOW.?
hahah, so albert never talk to me liao since then..
they say why so fast chapter close, ayy i dont mind de actually..
we are still friends ba, cos i chat with him in msn he got reply arh..
hahah sometimes i feel like asking him "ehh you dont friend me liao arh"..
but like abit childish, so forget it.. i also never lose anything..

what uh, oo saw my msn space de blog.?
\you turned your back.
i cant see you, but you are still there.. gosh, actually i dont know why i still think of you.. probably i still love you, but somehow i cant go back.. i held too tight, and i let you go.. left me with shattered pieces, each piece lost wherever we went to.. wonder what you think, or are you still a coward.? anyway you changed your number, i cant contact you cos i dont know.. i knew its over cos you changed all your passwords also.. well well, its been 4 months liao.. i wonder what you did to that box, or you didnt recieve it and its gone.? anyway so take care, it doesnt matter.. like that song goes, i will find love in someone else one day.. =]
kekek, didnt know i so "chi qing" hor..
actually not much of "chi qing" ba, its just cant forget noh..
anyway ive been isolated by him..
whenever i wanted to talk to him, i will think of those things he had done..
then i dont feel like talking to him liao, its so obvious..

today i abit keesiao i admit, hahah cos not enough sleep arh..
i played dota til 1am+ sia, really crazy..
went school abit fun arh, =S hahah..
oo yesterday more funny..
was sitting at e top row ma, then was playing around..
then that stoopid junli sitting infront of me, pulled me sia.!
and i fell down one row lah, freaking funny and shocked..
everybody scold junli noh, xia si wo ler..
then i pull myself back up noh, heng never tease or what arh.. or very paiseh de eh..

junli still dare to say "want to fly anot", when i listurb him..
tsktsk, and heng never wear skirt.. =p
oo vincent (a friend i met at camp) asked me out sia, see movie..
aiyo actually we hardly know each other, he always send me those nice msgs..
can like sense something arh, but too bad im not interested in this vincent.. =S
err abit bad sia, i kinda rejected him.. in a way..
then he like abit sad sia..

well wells, tired arh..
more tests, zz..
tomorrow gonna shop for my mp3 player, YEAH..
like my friends alot, never a dull day.. lalals..

~i cant see you, but you are still there~

2005-06-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

hiiya, so long never blog ler..

this week nothing much arh.. got tanner and tanner.. =S
hahah, cos went to adventure camp.. then today went e high and low elements thingy..
got suntan, again~ then today really shiok i guess..
its like low elements are for team work, so okok.. quite fun..
then high elements, all i can make it.. except that climb up e log then jump to grab that stick..
so sickening, i cant jump.!

anyway its still great to know more and more friends too, lalals..
oo yaa, so yesterday i did went out with albert..
i found him, then i was like standing talking to him, while hes sitting down..
then my friend from another corner was like signaling me to sit down..
hahah actually i wanted to, but albert like never say anything ma..
hmm, then at first thot he not gentleman.. and we went up e bus noh..
we chatted, hmm he doesnt like to study at all arh.. his mama force him de..
so kelian, and hes not really paikia ba.. maybe abit..

hahah i still remember, my friends were like so worried..
say be careful, must go back in one piece, and one person..
meaning, dont have another person in me lah, hah..
then get back, we played pool noh.. hes quite good i guess..
only some shots he slack, or let me.. im not sure..
cos im very louzy, =( i won 3 cos he shot in 8ball..
and he won 5 times lah, he everything also better than me..
we everytime play msn games (cos he was bored)..
he said he louzy all those, then he kept winning me de..
yaa, then he treated me sia.. so quite gentleman.. ^^

and he off to e JJ concert in my school, while i slept in e bus..
haixx, maybe bcos of e weather arh..
almost my whole class got sore throat eh.. so lihai right..
we were like blaming jess, cos she likes to HEM HEM loud loud..
then we blamed her for spreading e virus noh..
err actually i think its not true ba.? later she saded arh..

just reached home, going out again.. lalals

then thats all ba, nothing to say liao..
kekek, why that guy everytime wear same colour shirt as me.? =X

=shou fang kai, xue zhe deng dai=

~muscle strains + sun burn = PAIN~

2005-06-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

today, fun day.. but very tired arh..
hmm laughed almost whole day cos of jess right.. =P
and some other craps and jokes lah..

hahah, then what uh..
oo, was at lecture hall.. then suddenly one guy behind tapped my shoulder..
then i turned back, he said want to get my number..
i was so shocked, so direct like that..
then i see another side, looking and thinking..
cos mostly my bros will help me reject arh..
then i was staring at my friend, he also like blurr blurr de..
hahah then i think hao liao, so ownself said dont want.. =X
but that guy said not for himself de, its his friend want de.. then said make friends lah..
hmm then i anything noh..
waa i was really totally in shock noh, first time got ppl suddenly like that actually..
cos totally dont know him de, not my friend friend nor what.. xS

i very kelian leh, everytime kena teased by my friends..
they made one long list of "boyfriends" for me, kaos.!
actually i felt very paiseh eh, and abit uneasy..
its like jess may felt sad.?

haixx, then freaking tired lah..
yaa i was buai song today, cos..
i dont know why arh, i somehow did alot of things..
mostly is i initiative ownself do de noh..
somehow somewhat, lalals..
then e guy like no respect never call name or what, just whistle to ask me help him pass up..
ayy, then i ignore e rest who called me.. =X and was really tight hearted lah..
really buai song noh, then i dont care just go out and with my friends, sure better de..
cos we everytime crap and make fun of each other ma.. =]

yaa, thou we just knew each other for less than 2weeks..
its agreed that we are like we knew each other for very long..

yeah, [JAN]^2 rules..
really qiao stuffs:
2Js - Jessica, James.
2As - Alicia (me), Alton.
2Ns - Nigel, Nat.
register numbers:
1. Alicia
2. Nigel
3. James
15. Nat
16. Jessica
17. Alton
surnames:
Alicia Ang, Nigel Ang. distant cousins.?
Jessica Teo, Nataniel Teo. distant cousins also.?

really qiao, and super nice right.? =P
oo yaa, sometimes they tease me till quite stress sia..
hope i wont get angry with them, or else.. i dont know what to say ler.. =S
and tomorrow its Nigel's birthday~

~never judge book by its cover, sometimes also read between e lines~

2005-06-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

oo finally back from that adventure camp, yeah.! on friday, after school went tpy with milky, then had dinner together went home.. then pack finish my stuff, i took taxi to school noh.. lazy arh, cos it will be my first time going to pulau ubin ma, so just bring everything on e list given.. and my bag super big lah, still got water bottle and sleeping bag eh.. hmm so reached there just on time, 6pm yaa its weird to go camp quite late in e afternoon hor, not morning de.. then made one friend soonwai, cos i see her alone just talk to her noh.. i went that camp alone leh, i dont know anybody in e whole camp de, they all say i so steady arh, hahah.. then what uh, oo at first my team "Belatok" (nobody knows what it means, even e seniors) got 5 ppl only, then slowly slowly got more of cos.. anyway in e end got 14 ppl arh, hahah i think e most ppl.. then first night was at school camping all those noh, got night walk then played games de.. my team is a very energitic and quirky group noh, cos we shortformed our group name to "batok", buttock lah.. then invented crazy batok cheers, kekek.. yaa its really fun to be with them arh, then at night sleep under e fan in e sports hall.. blah blah then next morning woke up at 6, but actually dont know why very hard to sleep arh.. soonwai and i chatted alot also, so qiao she was my pri school mate sia, but i dont know her.. then i keep on sleep wake sleep wake noh, so woke quite early.. then we brush teeth all those, and still early we went to see sunrise arh.. but cannot see, only can see moving clouds and e smiley moon.. after breakfast, we setted off to ubin noh.. very fun lah, but ubin has nothing.. no light, no water, no good food, no nothing noh.. e thing which ubin got alot is organisms, like weird looking insects, lotsa mosquitoes, eww.. next day we went trekking, some sorta treasure hunt, walked alot and sweated alot.. moreover cannot bath, hahah but have to tahan lah.. and we camped beside e beach noh, and we had to pitch our own tent, and e worst part was my group got 7 girls noh.. then boys also full, cannot share.. so dinner we ownself cook de eh, use alot of simple equipments noh, and not bad lah.. then at night we had campfire, each team had to perform noh, hahah.. alot of funny skits noh, then washed up.. not really washing up de, just wipe body and change.. but alot of ppl never even wipe body nor change de, hahah like survivor lah.. but e most important stuffs are insect repellent and powder, without them really cannot survive i think.. then chatt chatt, then went our own night walk, which was completely dark everywhere de, cannot see a thing de.. we didnt walk far lah, alot of ppl scared.. hmm after that talk cok somemore, then go sleep.. haixx sad case arh, cos 2 girls oready slept then they occupied quite some space in e middle, we seperate 2 one side, 3 one side and rolled into balls and sleep noh.. morning woke up, so many mosquitoes in e tent, so surprised that i got no bites at all.. hahah, then slacked abit, 8+ then woke my team friend, together go brush teeth noh.. oo yaa, i dont understand sia.. in e toilet got one big bucket, inside filled with stailed water, its like as if for e mosquitoes to bear their babies arh.. its really crazy noh, everywhere got mosquito, toilet also got.. hahah its so sick noh, then after that ate breakfast.. then ppl got chosen to play tug-o-war, hmm after that cleared our tents, and kept them.. then we setted off to basketball court there, played games and ate lunch.. hah i learnt alot of new games during this camp arh, some quite fun.. hmm then made fun of e very hyper and crazy guy, we said do what he really go do noh.. crazy guy noh, hahah.. then got two guys asked for my number, actually im not sure for what lah.. then finally took ferry back to changi, took bus back to school and finally took taxi home again.. must bath very clean from top to toe noh, or else like very lisgusting.. yea and abit of muscle strain, and tio sunburn also.. hahah arms also got afew poka dots, they say its sand flies.. but dont itch de leh, hmm then next saturday maybe going to play low and high elements, yeah thats what i want actually.. then i actually miss my classmates eh, we shared alot of things then got more things to talk ma.. at e camp, its like not much things to talk about de.. hmm anyway tonight gonna sleep early i guess, i cant sleep now also.. =P playing online games with my friends..

~i can see it in my heart, dream is just a waste of time~

2005-06-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

hiyee, long time no blog ler.. why.? cos very busy of course.. monday after school, james nigel jess and me went to eat lunch first.. cos alton went home take rackets, while nat went to play his bball.. then we chatt chatt, they actually said bad things about one of our friends sia.. hahah it was like, we knew each other for about a week only, we started to say bad things behind his back.. hahah funny right, then e booking time liao, we went to play badminton in our school's sport complex noh.. rented somemore racket, there were alot of people sia, cos it was e same day as badminton cca trial.. then james didnt join us arh, he always pangseh us de.. =X but its alright lah, then we asked for our court noh.. hmm then we played 2by2 at first, woo i and alton quite strong lah, we stayed for 3-4 rounds.. then i think i got tired abit, so lost noh.. and we get to rest anyway, hahah after that played 1by1 de.. hmm after that we left at 7+ like that, and it was quite dark liao.. hmm yesterday also abit crazy arh, hahah.. i suddenly split out my secret, hahah.! not what big deal secret lah, its just that.. i usually look everybody equally, so i may tend to get crush on both guys and girls.. but not all lah of cos, its like to me, shes very attractive then i may admire her noh, but im still straight lah.. yaa then i finished school at 5 ma, then i went to suntec find weiling.. it was fun lah thou, chionged arcade for afew hours.. hahah quite nice noh, then went to eat arh.. saw afew restaurants, but either exp or not suitable our taste.. then we decided to go pizza hut eat arh, eat til quite shiok also.. damm full noh, then her someone also at there working.. hmm then considered we ate quite alot eh, hahah growing fat for one day nia.. i need alot of energy to carry my heavy bag and books, and walk long distances de noh, and im also not afraid of getting fat or what.. hmm then eat finish liao, she still want play arcade sia.. oo we played e bball game, quite fun sia.. but cant beat e high score lah, its really crazy noh 190+.. e highest we got was 48 i think, hahah i think must score every ball and fast fast then can beat.. then played finish liao, we went to cd shop where she bought her cd.. then we sat down, chatt alot of stuffs arh.. laughed and listen to our discman, hahah.. shared afew stuffs also, then she also waiting for alvin noh.. hmm then 11 liao, we went down to find him and they dialed for cab noh.. hahah dialed afew times then finally got cab to go home eh.. so i said crazy day becos i reached home at 11.30 like that noh, then my mama nagged lah.. say no need go school next day all that, lalals.. then slept, today wanted to go wc pop.. in e end i really really dont know whats going on sia.. nobody answered me, i got pangsehed lah.. walked around and stood around for nothing, i was so tired and sad lah.. hahah, but its alright ba.. waa then today also got maths bonus test, so sad lah.. if my last qns wrong, it will be careless mistake noh, will be so disappointed.. haixx, why like that, i want to get full marks de noh.. hahah actually i dont mind lah.. hmm and we went to e cybercentre, played their comp.. so fun but no lan games sia.. oo i brought my camera today arh, then took photo with two potato heads.. hahah quite cute arh, but only i and jess took.. e rest shy arh, and even say those things are ugly, cute noh, lalals.. later after lunch, i and nigel nothing to do arh.. nat played bball, jess went mahjong.. then i and nigel just walked around e school for hours noh, and chatting, hahah.. many things we are almost opposite noh, like he like this, i like that.. quite interesting, lalals.. then busy busy busy lah, friday going to pulau ubin liao, sunday then come back.. hahah, everybody say will become "black" (actually should be tan) after i come back.. shall see ba, then got homework to do noh, hand up on friday, another is ready by monday.. hahah oo i always kena bullied in class leh.. not so lah, but like kena listurbed noh.. what people are falling in love with me, cos they asked and got my contacts.. rubbish noh.. i talk to guys, they kept "oo why never continue somemore, we dont mind de".. hahah heyy come on noh, i had to "take care" of 1girl and 20boys, cannot help it de right.. simple minded, hahah.! then today also abit paiseh, i wore pink, james also wore pink.. then i felt so odd sia, heng we agreed someone should sit inbetween us.. but he got stood next to me, i oready felt weird.. hahah, but its alright lah.. we are all friends, happy family remember, infront of e cable tv we sqeeze together in e seats.. lalals~
oo yaa, i want to say something.. afew asked, and some wondered, can i really just like that forget my past.? of cos not lah, still will think back and yaa i do love him.. but really, some things done may be leading to hate, so its hard to turn back.. some things are also shattered, hard to mend back.. so dont ask anymore, but i dont mind cos i dont have any hard feelings towards such things anymore.. so just let it be lah, i knew i cant do anything, thats all..
KEYS..signing out..

~i want to be an angel, to draw stars and paint rainbows in your dreams~

2005-05-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

hiya, school is fun arh.. as im class rep aka Keys of e class, i had to take care of 1girl and 20guys.. hahah, then at first only i and jess together go here and there, and break time.. since dont know when we started to join nat, nigel and monhin noh.. after that james also join us, so its a group of 6, quite fun, we are lame, funny and get along well noh.. theres still another group of boys in our class, they like to joke and talk, alot.. =X some of them are seniors arh, quite old de.. then e rest, anyway i call all of them e ahbeng group lah.. and we are e guaikias clan, keke, when we free we are gonna play cs together.. my school everything also got arh, its just dont have those fast food restaurants nia, but e facilities are there good enough liao.. anyway i still okok with them arh, but james dont know why like dont like them sia.. sometimes i do have e feeling, as they are "mature", they think we act childish.. hahah, maybe one fine day we will all get along.. then lastly, are foreigners, got from india, china, indo.. their friends suppose in other class de ba, so never really interact much.. oo on thurs my pants de that main button dropped out sia, get what i mean.? e zipper is my only hope arh, then very paiseh.. i kept pulling up my pants as i walk, hahah.. hmm then in my group, i can say lah, each of us is different, something like got special features noh.. but we still like to joke and chatt non stop arh, so im glad lah.. hah then jess asked for their numbers, then they exchange exchange, i like abit dont bother noh.. just started nia, i haven find e need yet.. so far jess, nat, nigel and shaun (i think hes name is this, still haven familiar with names arh) got my number, but i never ask for theirs except jess'.. hah then i rejected james (i was joking but lalals i dont care) and taufiq, oops.. hmm oo then nigel look very alike wenquan leh, hahah really sia.. only that nigel is much skinnier, he doesnt eat much de eh.. =S then shaun got e image of panweibo eh, no joke, abit lah.. only that shaun is shorter, and more meat, hahah.. oo monday we 6 are gonna play badminton, so fun sia.. monhin booked de, but an hour only.. then i think tuesday im gonna have rock climbing session, ive joined adventure club and archery noh.. hahah johnson said next time my arms become very big, really meh.. >.> i dont want sia, but like fun fun wa.. hmm i next friday to sunday going pulau ubin camp noh, got go into e wild sia, still say may meet bears, kaos abit excited noh.. yaa yesterday went to play dota with gwy, meow, les, wx, ck, js, tuck then kh also there.. hahah we lost noh, abit can win but still lost.. aiya i use rhasta too slow ler, dont blame me.. hahah then les abit stress like that, aiyo then i remember my APEL class, Andrew Kor (everytime i say his name, my friends everytime say hes ur kor, not mine LOL) got say "dont take things in life too seriously".. yaa noh, then he said "dont get into a serious relationship, u gotta have INCOME first.. then TRY to quarrel (he said must quarrel, as if purposely), if still together, then GOOD." alot of shyt lah, he said very funny noh.. "oo my PIE, my lovely PIE" is e lamest thing ive heard.. then everytime say must forgive others, cannot judge others, bad things must modify as can be used in future.. then what arh, oo APEL class de motive is to dont know what, something like teach us how to live happily like that.. hmm most ppl will think maybe TP alot of ppl go commit suicide, hahah.. yaa then e session is every week an hour nia, quite fun lah e class.. no need stress so much, just listen to that Andrew Kor talk about FACTS OF LIFE, and listen to his favourite phrase "its ur choice".. hmm then im glad noh, my subjects are mostly physics and amaths stuff, im glad i took those in sec school and understand fairly.. yaa altogether im taking 8 subjects, 3 subjects like that got recommended textbook, and each textbook cost 40+$ de, so exp right.. somemore all our notes is ownself buy de, everything ownself purchase de noh, somemore use for one year nia.. next year buy everything again, hahah poly life can really suck ur money sia, but still good got government's help, but still when work i think have to pay back or what.. oo e lockers more keesiao, one year 45$, thou my mother say dont mind, but i cannot lah.. so exp sia, maybe if need to keep class things then il think about it.. hahah then i also got tool box de, so cute noh.. abit paiseh also, a girl taking tool box but my tcher say will get used to it de.. so far all e tchers also quite fun lah, except maths de tutor, damm hes almost or totally like that last time sec school relief tcher de mr lim, louzy lao kok kok, damm sian noh.. hahah then everytime edmund walk past me, he give me that stoopid face and stare cos usually i never notice dao him, then everybody thot he my bf, nahs.. hmm oo i also found out my class got some people, they just lost their someone sia.. so sad, but i never share much, hah.. hmm then yesterday finally got back my ft cd, can play liao.. wont be that lag noh, then e graphic also better.. yaa e weather also abit jialat, rain or very hot, zz.. hmm just now went out arh, actually was meet weiling nia, go orchard walk walk.. suddenly she say change to kbox or meet first then say, at tpy.. then reached liao, she said her friend meeting us, hahah.. then one boy, then his two friends, then his two friends got another big group of friends, all boys.. hahah at first, like dont know doing what de noh, abit sian.. hahah abit surprised arh, its like gathering noh, get to know more friends like that.. then want to eat, have to wait their friends all reach first.. dots de, then all reach liao, went to longjohn eat.. hahah after that went arcade play, quite fun noh.. played parapara, then played daytona(cos that jason only know how to play that), then played drum, freaking funny sia.. at first i one stick, weiling one stick, then i think i dont have e beat noh, then like shuagu.. =X e two boys behind laugh sia, cos we also laughing at ourselves.. but still its fun eh, i still think one person use two stick more control lah.. then she not bad arh, i can see she more "rythme" than me, those music press buttons de she also not bad.. then we also got play e 3 buttons, red green blue, must fast fast that one.. i quite lihai ba, keke, then mas and drew also there.. hmm mas suddenly played parapara sia, like soo soo long never see him play ler, he played til quite high also, like jump here there hip hop noh.. then i felt abit concern actually, so i asked drew why he so high, he told me e saddening news noh.. his gf left him, waa fancy she everytime haolian to me, gonna marry him have house have dog, so much shyt, suck his money for daily use and hp bills, HUNDREDS somemore, what a bytch sia.. fancy she had an outside bf, one leg step on two boats, he still forgive her, really sanba sia.. aiya then happy day become sad noh, my heart damm sour noh.. my buddy like still happy happy stand beside me, pei me dance parapara mode.. drew also played, hahah.. i still remember last time is mas influence me in parapara, then i influenced e rest, everybody noh.. hahah then almost everynight or weekends go chiong parapara, yaa those were e days.. slowly slowly all also know how to play expert, and parapara dance, somemore can use one hand to dance.. so fun noh, last time may be more popular, now abit nothing much.. soo good to hear some own e vcd or music cd, I WANT.!! hmm anyway after that went to eat with weiling and jason, cos he hungry.. then joke around noh, hahah then walked e night market, quite small nia, then took photos.. hahah so cute arh, acted xialan still got smile de, then i sent them to mrt there nia.. saw benson and shuhua, after that went home noh.. hmm sometimes found e world change alot, suddenly feel got alot of "ahsengs" and "ahlians" around me, sickening guys also.. thats all ba, ciaos~

~i want to dance in e breeze of dandelion, in my dreams of reality~

2005-05-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

yeah hii, today school wasnt bad noh.. hmm morning reached bus8 there 745 like that, 2 buses left wl then reach, he really 8 then reach.. hahah then took bus to school, chat and listen listen to songs, then reaching soon keep keep.. saw my mentor, hahah then he said what arh, oo he last time first day of school 1half hour early reach school, what bond bond.. hahah abit crazy arh, then he said wl my bf arh, pengs sia.. hah then he said wl handsome, happy ma.? hmm then i told him got this jackie guy arh, or girl i dont know, smsed me yesterday night say wed 230 meet to collect tool box, venue to be confirmed later.. yaa abit weird arh, hahah then he also dont know who lai de.. anyway then reach school liao, i went to find my class noh.. i went up, it was laboratory arh.. then e lab got light, but nobody de sia.. then got another lab got light also, but got one person inside doing something.. so i asked "err is it students have to assemble somewhere.?".. he said "whats ur class.?" i told him i found it, but nobody in it room 156.. hah he said that class start at 11 ma, i said "huh but its in my timetable 9 eh.." he said "today tuesday leh..", then i understood liao, i shouted "oo jialat arr~".. hah very funny noh, i too blurr ler, then walked around e school noh, all my friends start class liao, or haven start.. then 30mins like that, i sat at e block there noh, listen my discman.. then saw jessica, hahah then she joined me together chat chat noh.. hahah i think her attitude better liao eh, she will at least say "no lah.." after she said something bad.. hmm then we had lectures noh, i didnt have anything, no notes no nothing, cos i friday didnt go school.. blahh classes still can lah, only thing is my maths arh, mostly are like amaths, learnt before liao.. listen to e lectures and tutorials abit can sleep sia, hahah.. e teacher got say "just bear with it, treat it as a refreshment", i understand, not everybody studied amaths arh.. hmm our class like everybody more friend friend liao ba, quite fun lah.. hah im a very "smart" class rep arh, tcher asked me to collect money and help my class buy notes.. i said "no, isnt e treasurer suppose to do it.." hah, sorry arh elton.. but at least i got go help him carry, hmm then e most fun will be our "english" lesson called TSC, its like learning to write compo ba.. e female tcher speak de english, too accurate ler, her "sheeetts", hah.. =X then got one worksheet have to do e defination for certain stuffs like thermometer, pen, SIM card, alot of craps arh.. hahah for pen i said "tube with ink in it", everybody laughed, but really wa.. then thermometer, "tube with mercury in it", hah nahs everybody know what is it de.. hmm then lao hua yen, dont know how to say ma, say eye flower, yaa we really very cute arh.. got reading de, then we have to try an exercise is describe e product, very interesting also.. yaa at first go into this class, 2hours, all 1hour each nia ma, then we thot very sian, in e end quite fun.. only e last part arh, got homework, gosh.. hmm in sec school arh 35min each lesson we abit cannot take it, dont know why my lectures and tutorials 1hour each, very fast over de eh.. e feeling is different, maybe e environment, and e tchers, hah they finish what they want to say or happy, they let us early, very early also got.. hah then very funny sia, e kept smiling de malay guy, he took out his hp.. then he said "hey class rep, can i have ur number.?", i said for what.. he said "u class rep wa, can sms u..", hah i said "huh for what..", really ma just started nia got what thing to discuss or give out.. then his friend said "aiya he want to know u lah", then i said "said so lah..", then he looked at me but i ignored, hah cute sia.. =X hmm then after school went library with jess, very nice sia my favourite is 3rd floor.. e atmosphere is really very relaxing, i love it very much sia.. then 5th floor can rent vcd, music cd, dvd, and watch vcd, so awesome right.. hah then after that went to find my mentor take my notes and tools, really screwdriver all that arh.. my senior cum friend cum neighbour cum ex school mate also in there, hah they all dii siao here and there noh.. then talk talk, jess went home, i wait for my friend together go home.. freaking sia, 3 THICK (i mean it) notebook, 3 thinner notebook and a bag of tools, then my bag de stuffs, very heavy noh like crazy.. poly life also can lead to brokeage, subject de revision book costs 40+$, then heng so far i only know need to buy 2.. while i have 7 subjects noh, still got somemore notes need to buy arh.. then imagine all these only used for one year, then really can lead to brokeage noh, especially those one subject need one revision book de, hahah gila arh.. then tomorrow got NE forum, we must attend 2 to graduate arh.. 2 hours like that noh, should be fine ba, if not listen discman but have to hide lah.. i only know e refreshments after that is great, hahah.. when my sick hao ler, i gonna eat that carovan whatever, forget how to spell de lemon chicken rice sia.. 2bucks nia, business school de 2bucks western food also, lalals.. ^^

~if a single flower rep every wish to be with u, i`ll walk forever in my garden, until u come~

2005-05-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey ya, hahah today did nothing much arh.. was burning my cd, can listen when going to school arh.. hmm then les said go watch movie, then i said anything.. then he playing game ba, haiya soo stoopid of me leh.. now i know why my bros dont let strangers or their friends to make friends with me liao, hahah so i know this guy from gunbound ba.. he suddenly asked me in msn who am i, hmm maybe he that time got add me or what, my list full liao so i never accept ba.. he said im in his list, but hes not in mine ma, but we are friends in frienster eh, dont know which is him in gb also.. so we chatted alot of stuffs arh, his ex imigrate ler.. so he looked at my friendster, he asked is it i changed my style after graduate, hahah.. i said nope i changed my style after i broke off with my ex, then he said most ppl change style after graduate, hmm maybe.. anyway then we chatted alot arh, he said he can feel im a very caring person, in good and bad ways, yaa true.? hmm then he started saying i remind him of his stead, omg sia i know got something liao.. i think i too relax liao, chatted too many "personal" stuff sia, then lead me to this "mess".. hahah, honestly i dont know why i dont like to make new friends, especially i never meet before de.. he said something like can he take care of me, he need someone to take care of arh.. hah im very realistic de, i also never see him before.. -.= then i explain, he gonna understand that person, see if that person suit u or got feelings then together de ma.. aiyo then i dont know why sia, i gave him my ho bei, i must be crazy.. his first sms was "hi my dear alicia.. blah blah whats ur ht.?" omg lah, i didnt reply.. =X hahah oo that was yesterday arh, then today suddenly got one person sms me "hi gal, im a lonely guy looking for friends to talk to. can i be ur friend.?" omg lah, i also never reply sia.. really very regret sia, hahah my friends say me stoopid, yaya i really am lah.. anyway then les said 4pm at tpy red circle, he still online noh.. lalals then i walked there, on e way saw wx, hahah he wore nice nice, i wore like go market.. he said why u wear like that, not go orchard meh, hahah i shocked dao.. then we went to find milky, rex and kev.. and we went to koufu, funny thing is, they dont know who call who de, then they go out walk walk nia ba.. then they said never ask les, aiya so messy noh.. hahah then les reached liao, he dont know wheres koufu, he went banquet, very funny sia.. then he on e way to koufu, they went to popular, so bad right.. all reached liao, we walk walk arh, then went to watch Amityville Horror noh.. saw quan, he doing project with his friends at mac arh.. acouple of us had money problem arh, hahah dont know which idiot go raise up e price, soo exp sia.. then we digg out our wallet to donate, hehh.. then boys will be boys lah, made les dulan, tsktsk.. hmm e show quite nice arh, they say hao hao all sit alternate seats, in e end all scared sit together, left me sit alone.. hahah but i brave arh also not scary de, lalals abit gan jiong when dont know what will happen next nia.. aiya that les kept panting they say, hahah he kept thinking "its true story" scare ownself nia.. -.= after that went banquet eat noh, then chatt chatt then went home ler.. then went down again, take my timetable from my friend, hmm tomorrow first lessons will be lab.. -.= hahah yeah then finding songs, chinese songs very easy to find arh, but english songs abit hard.. i lazy to download those download de programs eh.. scare lagg, oo my FT cd faster come back~ i want to play arr.. X]

~jie shou~

2005-05-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmm just now went out arh, actually my bros asked me to go play bball.. im sick arh, sore throat and cough noh, so i didnt go.. then my family and i went to lor8 there eat arh, zs called me.. i was eating so never answer then i called back he also at lor8 there eating.. then i ate finish liao i went to find them noh, hmm then blah blah.. we all went to wc house, awhile nia ba.. we all chatt chatt noh, watch tv.. all just now went home change and bath ma, then one by one came.. so late liao noh, then tired so i went home.. hahah, then saw someone.. i made this pic arh, anyhow make de.. i like e song arh, oo my friend intro me a webby find song de, very good sia.. ^^ anyway like quite fun, next time i make more..

~if we just look up, under e same sky we could be together~

2005-05-22T01:39:00.000+08:00

yozzy, hahah.. its midnight liao, so yesterday was a SADurday.. why, cos e day before, friday night said hao hao go sentosa right.. so excited, said hao hao 9am meet at tpy mrt there.. then midnight mr johnson said go pulau ubin arh, i never go before, so change of plans like that lah.. then they settle settle hao ler, okie meet 1pm at tpy.. but e night before really no mood, its like last min changes i buai song, hard to contact e rest going sentosa de also, abit guilty.. thou never go before, aiya then buai song so went to sleep.. morning i did wake at 8am eh, oo gwy told me she got ask flora, but im not sure also.. i asked flora which she going, she like dont know anything sia.. anyway she 10+am then chiong sentosa, i.. went to meet them at 1.30 noh, hehh.. then nevermind leh, meet liao.. all slowly reach de, hahah kel and tuck then me then kev then wx.. then les and gwy, all reach liao, we walk here there, eat walk here there, mr johnson sleeping arh, then not coming liao.. was oready 3+ i think, everybody dulan arh.. cos we totally stuck, dont know want go where do what.. kev want go sentosa de, i actually wanted but abit late liao noh.. so very SADurday arh, hahah.. everybody really sian diao arh, hahah stuck at tpy mrt there, cos everybody cannot agree on one thing noh.. hmm then saw johnny arh, then benson came.. they wanted to go buy shirt and bag arh, then gwy, les, johnny and benson left to orchard.. SADurday sia, hahah then left we 5, we decided go sentosa, but no taxi want bring us 5 in.. hmm then orchard ppl sms tuck say call us go orchard, but dont want wx and kev.. hahah they should know why, but in e end wx got see e msg noh, so we all went orchard.. we went far east, then me gwy ben and johnny shopp abit arh.. benson and johnny shopp noh, for their clothes.. oo nowadays de shopping bag very nice sia, then benson gave me e bag, so nice thankies dii, ;] then jiaming came liao.. oo e rest dont know at where lah, hahah then we went to wisma shopp somemore, jiaming left.. then we went to taka, then i bought my keychain.. there was a linger to steal sia, honestly.. if u want to know, i from kindergarden i think, or younger i started stealing liao.. =X hmm its a bad thing lah, anyway then walk to cine then blah blah.. benson and johnny didnt go, so we just went to marina bay eat steamboat arh, oo saw konghong and his friends, so qiao arh.. then reached there got wl, wenyi, jim and johnson.. hmm then actually we planned gei siao gei siao, like half go in, e rest smuggle de.. in e end oready got ppl fetch us go de, then head count liao.. hahah sat in e mini van, then reached there eat steamboat noh.. 10$ each, i borrowed from gwy arh.. hmm my sore throat became worst sia, so very hard to eat.. haixx, then our grill got use aluminium foil de, kena fire sia, then like so shocked everybody look noh.. then got alot alot of free ice cream sia, -.= hahah eat til siao, i ate 2 nia.. haiyo then they dont want eat liao anyhow throw into e steamboat, put what shyt also got, even ice cream also put in e grill.. tsktsk, anyhow throw here and there, aiyo hahah i think e person sure dulan when cleaning up.. dont know what food wastage de fine anot, lalals.. then we zhao in 2 vans noh, hahah.. squeeze like siao, then looked like illegal immigrants arh, sibeh funny.. hmm then went to tpy, went crc played dota, hahah.. played 2 games, but both never play finish de, keep on got ppl comp hang, then remake noh.. after that went home noh, tired sia.. hor.? hor.? what a SADurday, it will sad-ur-day.. thankies to e busted bastard, hahah.! X]

~if there is one day we could dance, i wish you could be my partner~

2005-05-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

heyy sup, just came back arh.. hahah didnt go school yesterday arh(friday) cos woke up abit sick arh, then uncomfortable like that.. hmm also good lah, e day before that girl pangseh me alone with 19guys, i pangseh her noh.. hahah no lah, im not that bad actually.. hmm so didnt take part in dragon boat thingy all that, actually quite disappointed.. never try before dragon boat sia, may be fun.. then anyway slept til full full, very nice.. cos parents went out ma, but got cooked porridge for me.. then i ate liao, watch abit of tv then parents came back, my father help me make my comp.. yeah now using windows XP de, finally sia.. then went online, then went out noh.. went tpy met tuck first, then kev and zl came, then fer, mel, gwy and johnson came.. then together go cuppage plaza.. hmm actually didnt want to go arh, save money, but slept so much liao aiya go walk walk noh.. hahah then rex and milky there, oo finally got someone under same school as me~ milky, yeah but he different course noh.. but still good lah, engineering school everybody is friend.. then wx and les came liao, went toilet first.. i got a scary feeling sia, i saw one leg de shoes is ming ming one of our friends de, in e end he never came out.. or maybe its other ppl de ba, then got ppl knock, i dont know leh.. who so boliao, really is les and wx.? hahah anyway then play dota, first match really jialat lah, my team abit noob de.. hahah then second match quite fun sia, but real high.. that rex lah, sat beside me, he dii siao me, dii siao my mouse, peep what i private chat.. soo irritating noh, hahah we two abit keesiao right, kept shout shout and scold each other like that.. next time dont ever sit next to him, lalals.. oo really happy sia, -ar i go -repick tio LINA, my favourite Lina Inverse aka Slayer.. woohoo, so glad.. then after that never play lah, i wait for them finish can go eat.. then got one guy like very irritating, stranger lai de.. he kept talking to zl arh, teach him this that, but zl is a pro noh, he know alot of things.. hahah can tell he abit dulan, then he also teach gwy, become like help her play sia.. see liao also abit buai song noh, heng kev go approach him like that.. aiya, why never directly say him or what, hahah.. then waa in e end they played so long, totally no time to eat de.. bobian just go home noh, gwy also.. then went back tpy, gwy's last bus left so kelian, if its me really panick sia.. hahah then she went to take taxi outside, i wait for my bus noh.. reach til one bus stop, saw andrew and mas, hahah then i called them.. woots so late liao they on their way to serangoon.. hahah yeah, then tomorrow going to sentosa arh.. wee` can go swim liao, hahah.. and gwy say want eat sakae sushi, omg dont suan me if i again acted too direct to e waitors arh.. ^^ i too "brother" liao, hehh.. its good to keep wake early, can start training ma.. ;] cyazz..

~as memories stay, e heart ever change, there will be a time to move on~

2005-05-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

hii, today still freaking tired arh.. hahah met zheqi in e morning then went school together, chatted abit and saw our school de shaun arh.. anyway reached there quite early, so pei him look for his classroom like that.. after that went to find my classroom, i totally forgotten where sia, then anyhow went up 6th floors two times then found my classroom sia.. our school too many blocks ler, moreover they are not in order de, hehh.. so reached there, they say 830 de ma, in e end e tcher really 10 then come sia, or rather late for 8mins.. real sian noh, slept abit, our mentor about 9+ then came to entertain us.. then had chicken rice with ju hua cha, nice sia.. then we did flag making, really fun sia.. err most of e things is i think de, cool right.. our class is 501 ma, then i made it into 5ero1, its like e 5 is some sorta Z, get it.? then drew powerpuff girls, at first i was just joking, then they really asked me to, so i drew a ppg as zorro, so cute right.. then what arh, got empty spaces, so i suggested draw ENG with tools, then i sketch out.. then drew cosmo, first time i just drew in front of ppl on e floor but dont care, got ppl help me colour all that too.. =] then after that, e mentor collect money, then we ownself entertain ourselves.. we played paper basketball, then i anyhow threw they all laughed at me sia.. so funny noh, then chatt abit.. know some name, like taufiq, hes weird he kept smiling de.. then haixx that girl, very straightforward girl, said something bad about myself, she will say "can tell".. then abit haolian also, say alot of things.. but i dont really felt much, sometimes abit surprised, sometimes abit disappointed.. my mother say scare she is bullying me sia, i never speak up.. lalals i dont care anyway, when going for lessons mixed class hope wont see her noh.. oo our CP is call andrew kor, he late arh then i say he went to kor sai.. whatever it meant i dont really know actually.. =X then he want talk one by one, he said alot of things to me arh.. he really really like to say about life stuffs sia, but our mentor say got even worst cp, woots.. then what arh, went to listen to lecturers talk, hes really funny sia.. then got some part i really bth can sleep sia, e guy infront kept stretching backwards, nearly touch my leg, then when really touched dao he then never stretch so much.. then what arh, went to sports complex hall there, learn new cheers arh.. oo played games, waa each diploma need 20ppl ma, then i only girl sia.. play e game is like run run then lie onto each other stomach, in zig zag manner, see which fastest.. then need to laugh noh, hahah cute right, ours got second i think.. then dinner was horrible, one small piece of carrot cake, one small piece of 9storey kueh, one medium sugar donut and one small swiss roll.. and two bottles of water, really more like tea break or snacks sia.. and then had an indoor campfire cos raining arh, and it was so so nia arh.. see each diploma perform, our performance is e best, it was a dance.. i never join lah.. then played games, our diploma is e worst, hahah.. cos is like e emcee say need how many this that, then need to gather.. what pink shoe lace, 1cent coins, long strains of hair, so many rubbish our diploma so few girls how to find sia.. then got beauty pagent as finallee, its each diploma one babe and one hunk noh.. waa got alot of ppl pointing me sia, but e mentors at e other end, they saw another girl, look more decent so too bad.. hahah e cat walk is scary, very sexy arh.. hahah i dont think i wish to try doing those also, too paiseh liao.. hahah then tomorrow will be walking to bedok resourviour.. then im going to participate in dragon boat, according to a friend mentor.. woots should be fun ba.? then tomorrow also, all e schools together challenge cheer all that ba, hahah.. oo btw, thankies weiliang, for ur concern.. i was actually quite surprised when u called me, really appreciate..

~the love may be fake, yet the heart always stay true~

2005-05-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

Damm. I'm soo freaking tired arr..
woots, today went to my institution, wasnt really far actually.. 45mins or so ba, hmm woke up real early, 6 like that then laze 15mins.. went out took bus to interchange, then took bus8.. lucky it was a double decker, then listen to my walkman, listen to e song then cried.. -.= i dont really understand ba, probably still emotional, or is there a deep scar.? i dont really know, anyway reached liao, got ppl asked me do survey, remembered one girl name nia.. hahah, then qued up to take our matrixcard, its like our id ba.. psst, e photo i took i really looked very mature, hehh.. after that went into e auditorium, real huge.. then alot of things lah, briefing then cheers, video clips then briefing then cheer again.. then my course really alot of guys sia, and very spontaneous sia, will just like that shout out and sometimes shoot e emcee.. i abit paiseh arh i didnt participate in any of e cheers, i just laughed and clapped, its weird, also no friend to support me.. got many talented ppl ba, played band, e electic guitarists are great, e singer is great.! oo he really sounded like Red Hot Chilli Pepper that main singer, so man right.. hehh, then im in e first class of mechantronics, then got 7 or more classes i think, each class only 1 or 2 girl nia noh.. hahah this class is not really e study class noh, lesson classes will assign again, then everybody mix up they say.. e class we got assigned, is like share problems de, then we under one teacher call our Care Person.. yeah, time table haven ready yet, cos still got DAE de students haven know appeal results arh.. oo im e class rep eh, so fast arh, hahah so fast can earn SEAL points liao.. its like CCA de points noh, oo still cannot decide sia.. photography, drama, sports or music de.? sheez, i like so many, so many to choose from, i cant decide sia.. hmm and my class heng got one girl noh, Jessica.. err shes really cute noh, then she kept saying she fat.. i think shes just chubby ba, but still cute, and shes one year my senior noh, cos she graduated from 5n.. whao she stayed at bukit batok sia, even further than me, needa wake even earlier than me sia.. hmm then we got to know our Care Person, his name is.. hahah, i forget liao.! then he talked alot arh, alot of logic.? hahah hmm i really like to look at ppl talking arh, got unique or cute style or pattern de.. its like very special and nice to look at, hahah.. =S then what arh, oo got free food, rice with vege and toufu and chicken arh.. we eating, he still talking eh, say treat him as radio or what.. he really really, really got alot to say.. some going rounds, whao some really funny sia and his actions.. and then went downstairs, sat on floor, did cheers again, learn new de also.. hahah whole school of mine no friend, only one senior friend, he saw me.. he said waa my eye bags so big, hahah i said yes i haven get use to it, and no i also got put eyeliner.. =X hmm then tour around, sight seeing arh.. then saw vid kor arh, didnt know will see him at tp, hahah.. hmm he cannot recognise me or what sia.? anyway then toured finish liao, sat on e field de tracks there.. hahah got one guy looked really like jay chou sia, but some part dont really look like.. hmm then e institution has its own DANCE, its like everybody must know de, its known as a legendary mass dance.. omg its suppose to be a girl and a boy noh, then i got a partner.. my friend, J also have.. then guess what, i think cos my partner more shuai than hers (hes really decent looking de shuai sia, thou hes quiet, he still look decent.. hers is abit nerd ba), she want exchange place with me.. i said no need lah, then she nevermind.. then know what, when e emcee said girls at front row, she exchanged place with her partner arh, i abit slow de, then she switched with my partner.. meaning i will be dancing with her, im a "guy".. then got ppl caught lah, they asked whos ur partners.. i pointed my partner, he pointed at me, then J's partner pointed at her.. if i were to change place, i obviously had to change with my partner ma to save e trouble, which ends me with J's partner.. oo shes smart or cunning i dont know, my mother said she had a strong bud of jealousy.. waa my mother scolded me for her, she said this kinda friend no good, dont want.. but i dont really care so much wa, somemore this current class only i and her are girls.. hmm then anyway e dancing was really fun sia, very tiring yet funny.. then after that learn finish liao, we danced e CHICKY DANCE, soo suuper duuper fun sia.. hmm dance one last time e legendary mass dance, hahah really sweated alot and damm tired noh.. after that went back classroom take stuff then go home ler, on e way back i went up e bus, i didnt get to sit or lazy to find.. it was single deck, then i stood for more than 45mins like that.? reached interchange took bus again, still no seat stood somemore.. haixx really very tired sia, my legs one day really paralyze i could blame nobody or nothing, just myself.. last time walk too much, now sit too less.. tomorrow is gonna be horrible, 8.30am gonna reach school is good news, cos today 8am.. then ends at 10PM, dammit sia, cos got what bbq and campfire arh.. i really gonna go bongkaz, headache sia, must sleep more.. oo yaa very interesting, my course no need laptop, only need tools (screwdriver all those), hahah i will be a good engineer de.. ^^
hmm, last time i posted "please forgive me" is for u, thou i dont know u know anot.. anyway now i listen to liang jing ru's "jie shou", its for u.. i cried, yes i did.. what does that mean, is it e words, is it that they are talking about me, is it my failure, or my past or u, or is it that they are so related.? is it bcos theres a scar, or is it that im just emotional, or is it e memories which hurt.? memories could never be forgetten, ups downs sweet bitter.. i started to think, if i were to be married, will i still cry bcos of things related to e past, yet my hubby sure dont like ma.. hmm im probably stubborn, or just uncertain.. i dont have any intentions, some things when they collapse and fall, and break and shattered, its hard to pick up e pieces and mend them back.. but one thing is still for sure, i wish u happy, even thou i curse u when i was mad.. if u find someone special, i hope u will be happy, and i bet she will give u many things i couldnt give u, or even better.. =] i never hate u, u can ask any of my friends..

~smile because i did experience happiness in my life~

2005-05-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

i found these really cute:

my life have colours..

since you left..

red; love, hatred.

yellow; coward, excited.

blue; melancholic, sad.

green; inexperienced, fruitful.

purple; youth.

me; black and white.

without you; colourful.

thanks anyway.

_____________________________________

*Guys should NEVER make empty promises..

The girl will NEVER forget that u NEVER keep ur promise..

*Guys should be MORE sensitive to a girl's feelings..

*Guys should NEVER neglect their GF just becoz of their buddies..

*Guys should ALWAYS BE THERE for their GF..

*Guys should NEVER LIE..

coz the Girls r SMART these days..

*Guys should ALWAYS be the BEST in everything..

So that the Girl can learn from u.. Yet DUN be TOO Arrogant..

*Guys should be MORE Patient and Understanding when

its the "time of the MOnth" for the Girls.. They tend to haf MOOD SwIngs..

*Guys should learn how to SHOW more AFFECTION to their Loved ones..

*Guys should ALWAYS take the FIRST STep..

*Guys should MAKE DECISIONS... Not say "dunno la.. or anything la.."

Girls like guys who can make decisions.. whether is where to eat or go or do..

*Guys should Try to send their GF home from sch or work if they haf the time despite the distance..

*Guys should learn NOT to be toooo Messy.. in the things they do..

*Guys should learn to call and sms their GF ani time of the day/nite..

Basically give their GF thesense of SECURITY.. tats wat girls want from most of their BF..

*Guys should try to let their GF know where and wat their doing all the time..

SO should their Girl..

*Guys should NEVER Flirt around too Much..

Everyone would know that ya a JErk.. Girls can gossip quite alot..

*Guys should learn to be more Passionate..

*Guys should be SMART, Quickwitted and STRONGWILLED..

*Real Guys DO CRY.. they haf feelings too.. But dun CRY to Often..

Coz its NOT very manly.. Besides ya be known as a WIMP..

*Guys should KNOW their GF likes and dislikes..

*Guys should know their GF contact NumberSSss by Heart..

*Guys should never give excuses like

` - SOrry I fell asleep..

` - Sorry I was caught in a jam..

` - Sorry my hp went Low..

` - Opps.. I didn't know that..

` - Oh i forgot..

*Guys should Never use phrases like

- ya not angry r u? (when its OBVIOUS she is..)

- I dun like it.. ( when u haven't even try )

- I dun like them ( when u haven't even met them )

*Guys should always TRY new things and learn to adapt..

*Guys should ALWAYS make a good impression on the Girl's Parents..

*Guys should know how to make their GF happy..

*Guys should be DARING to meet ani of their GF's friends, relatives.. blah blah..

*Guys should never make their GF to beg for them to do this or that..

*Guy should Learn to behave themselves at times..

*Guys should be Fun, Talkative, Outgoing..etc..

*Guys should Never force their GF to do anithing they dun want..

*Guys should always FEEL like a girl when guys r wif their GF..

Girls like guys who can be their bestfriend too.. Understanding.. etc..

*Guys should always talk to their GF about their made-decisions.. and ask how to feel about it.

*Guys should NEVER always expect a GIRL to tell them WAT THEY DID WRONG..

when EVERYTHING was WRONG..

*Guys should NEVER be Ignorant!

hmm, its interesting noh.. well some are true, some are not, i could say.. =]

oo ya, i have something to confess.. about yesterday we played zhong ji mi ma at kfc, that cup right.. i was tasting e collostraw, then very er xin, i spitted into e cup initially.. then i tasted somemore, then poured e rest of e collostraw into that cup, then they strarted playing zhong ji mi ma.. get what i mean.? im guilty, cos i spitted.! hahah, SORRY to e 3 guys, really paiseh.. =X

yeah tomorrow going to orientation liao, must wake early sia.. long journey and needa reach there early.. zz, but abit excited.. but abit sad cos no friend under same school as me, same poly got lah.. hahah, oo wells hope it will be fun, but mostly will be ba.. too bad i cant participate in running games i think, cos my foot still pain, hahah.. lalals~

is there something wrong with us.? why we everytime play dota, lan, gaming, cs, dota, tower defence, gunbound(seldom liao), and still dota.. hahah thou quite fun, but omg sia.. like addicted.. x] play at home okok lah, can save money, but im laggy, im so sad~ hope can faster upgrade or get a laptop.. yeah ^^

~the sun will always shine, even behind the clouds~

2005-05-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

heyy, hmm my foot like still haven hao eh, since i fell and nearly sprained my ankle noh.. hahah today was quite fun de, thankies.. yet im still looking down as i walk.. well last night played tower defence awhile, waa when laggy that time really sad eh.. especially when i cant do anything to my leak.. ^^ anyway still fun lah.. hmm then woke up early, quite heng.. i woke up at 1120 like that, saw got msg, gwy said meet 1pm.. hahah at first think why so early sia, then nevermind noh.. cos gia going to school after taking cert.. actually prepare hao ler, wont late but had to help take care of sis while my mama bath arh.. hmm then went to school noh, wx late as always.. hahah, kena infected by tu shen they say.. then went there, said hii to acouple of friends, thou not very shou de.. then e girl, forget her name liao, i think felicia hazel something she called herself told me where gwy, gia and les noh.. =] then waited for wx come arh, quite long arh, all reached liao noh.. then we chatt chatt, hmm i want watch e a###ville horror leh, like very nice.? hahah, then wx come liao we go take cert noh.. then walked to mac arh, gia left to school noh.. then i ate mac, hahah after i eat finish then they eat.. i went to buy magazine arh, saw dom suddenly called me, scared me actually.. then went back, cher also there.. hahah, then talked talked, aiya then boon, ray, jim, johnson, kev, milky all came noh.. then one by one all left, in e end we decided to go play lan.. hahah boon actually dont want de, then he called and say go orchard forget what plaza arh, cappage isit.? then okie noh, zl came also, hahah then saw kh but he going to work.. yaa quite a big group, reached there liao we played dota noh, i third.. =D then played cs, then played dota, cos still got mel, edward and afew more reached and some left.. so we grouped 3v3, 3v3.. hahah, my group is ray and mel, then we won noh.. after that played cs again til keesiao arh, one part say hao play knife nia some ppl cheat de.. hahah anyway then played quite long sia all hungry, quite cheap actually at there.. hmm then discuss eat where til some ppl dulan left, but in e end only ray left by taxi.. then fooled around arh, hahah.. anyway went to kfc eat, got auntie kept staring arh.. hahah, quite funny de.. then eat collostraw (dont know how to spell. LOL), give me eat got ketchup and chilli de, thanks arh.. then eat til abit sian, then put alot of rubbish into a cup, play zhong ji mi ma, 3times.. hahah can heartattack sia, see wx and les eat til want vomit like that, only mel very steady.. but i think i today quite heng, i can guess some of their numbers.. ^^ yeah, laughed and played til kfc close noh, then walked til my house bus stop there as always, then go home ler.. =] gdnight, cant wait cant wait.. gonna rest more and prepare..

~putting our memory pieces together, it will be like a puzzle~

2005-05-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

hiya, just reached home.. was raining heavily arh, heng got bring umbrella.. today was a tiring day arh, from morning wake up go out til now noh.. hahah, oo yesterday night played tower defence, fun eh.. lets play again, tomorrow okie, or tonight.? oo but lost alot of times arh, then played dota, one match go sleep ler.. cos needa wake early arh, 0915 set de alarm clock, then snooze then walked out.. i think every morning same ba, i dont know nia, nowadays never wake so early de.. hmm got garbage truck came noh, abit smelly.. then bath bath, went out ler.. hahah weiling was late, but dont mind lah.. girls are always late, unless nothing better to do.. hmm then i drank vitamilk, she ate one package of biscuit.. then we on e way to gym noh, very small nia.. at tpy de, hahah my first time.. then quite alot of ppl arh, mostly adults noh.. and its like playground.? hahah, i kept saying lets 'play' this that, so funny uh.. at first blur blurr lah, dont know how to use e machines, then got uncle help me make arh, i like that climb hill de, very fun.. =S then alot of ppl, so have to wait for turn de noh.. oo i hurted my knuckle cos of her, hahah jkjk.. then i tried almost all ba, never go e weight side nia, she abit unsure ba cos alot of men.. then train train, hand and legs, hahah then like play around also.. never sweat much, only starting then nothing to play liao, so go bath.. bath finish then went to eat noh.. went to that hdb hub downstairs eat, ate meat balls noodle.. then went to city hall, want to find someone, then went to suntec.. finding pizza hut, hahah saw that someone, hiak hiak.. actually is her someone, lalals~ and we went to walk around e fountain of wealth, say can make wish de, hehh.. then got ppl take photo of us arh, e photographer said something free, yuan lai preview photo for free, but 10$ each.. madness, hahah then go back see her someone again, then went to buy my nike bag.. woohoo, go poly take de, im so loving it.. lalals, then went arcade play play.. she lah, pull me to play ddr, i dont even know de.. kept E E, hahah but nevermind lah, pei her.. oo got ppl dancing that time dropped 2$, never saw.. wanted to take sia, but paiseh.. in e end someone else took, waa~ then played rockfever, starting like abit confused sia.. suddenly like blurr ke, then slowly warm up liao ba, then wee.. hahah, yeah we topped (actually she topped alot, i topped once), then can take photo de, so fun uh.. we took 2 times funny faces de, then first one she paiseh ma, so only took a pic of my hand.. yeah very fun arh, then saw her someone in e arcade, cos he having break.. hmm after that see ppl compete, then nothing to do liao.. walk to bugis, chatted alot lah we.. hahah, i hate bytchy hyprocrites who hurt "best friends" of theirs, such azz, eat shyt grow up de.. thick skinned bytches, backstabbers, say bad things about their "best friends" behind and infront of them.. dont know when then wake up, struck by lightning right.. hahah, okok should be a happy day, should not let bytches spoil everything.. then dont know what happen lah, cannot tahan eh, sick again.. i vomitted, til very jialat, got tears sia.. hahah very sad lah, i think my digestion got problem ler, my friends all say maybe i ate less recently.. then went to drink peach juice, talk talk somemore.. then got nothing to do ba, went to her house noh.. on e way was chatting chatting, then dont know is heng or suay saw e ppl we were talking about, my ex and e girl.. aiyo, then never bother much ba, no hard feelings, just weird.? hahah then very funny sia, we reached e mrt station liao, my friend said "i bring u luck", immediately i fell sia, never notice e hole arh, and nearly sprank my ankle.. hahah nearly kena heart attack arh, then we laughed our cheeks numb.. then went to her ahma house, abit paiseh arh, hahah.. watched vcd, then asked me to eat i dont want cos still feeling not so well, so her mother gave me milo to drink.. e show very funny arh, then haixx i dont know eh.. her mother kept saying go home early, later my mother worried all those.. i dont know what to say eh, its not like, i dont have own home eh.. =S then e show finish liao, chatt chatt somemore, her mother say go home liao.. then i also left noh, say bbyex to her family, then she pei me down walk halfway then went home.. hmm at tpy mrt there saw alot of my school de ba, but i dont know de.. yupps then waited for benson to fang gong, oo saw wc.. i thot nobody will recognise me arh, he said he recognised me by my shoe, so cute noh.. then he had to go home, then awhile more.. walked benson halfway home, halfway my home also.. then rained heavily noh, heng got umbrella, but benson dont have.. =S hmm actually i dont know what im doing lah, like a loner, lost liao.? or just wanted to talk talk noh, hahah sorry if i bothered any of you.. tomorrow thon de, err dont think going, e guys keesiao now sick, anyway pok also.. next time ba.. =X nevermind, can still chiong at home.. X] hmm know something.? in my previous blog i did say he seemed to like someone else, cos he cared so much about her.. now i see him with her, is this expected.? lalals, anyway i dont mind.. i only mentioned if i were to be still with him, how should i react.. now i also not with him, so be it.. im still cool, i never hide run from anything or what.. e only sickness i get from this is im "once biten, twice as shy", oo wells.. =S

~its their loss, if they dont want you~

2005-05-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

today everybody tired arh, hahah then my friend talked to me.. she want walk walk arh, then i pei her noh.. hmm, long time never go out with her ler.. e last time was eating sakae sushi ba, hahah remember eat until want vomit eh.. then i think i really did.? forget liao, quite long ler.. yeah so fun arh, we were chatting all e way arh, hahah.. hmm we went bishan walk walk noh, we walked e whole place, and chatted about everything ba.. yupps then we sat down at mac, she ate fries, i ate sundae.. shared some secrets, shh shh.. omg~ hahah, yeah alot of secrets, which i never knew and i also never say out de arh.. hahah alot of "steam steam" sia, wonder why i never feel anything eh.. hahah sometimes i really want to know what he did to that box i gave him eh, got all e memory pieces in it de.. but i dont know leh, ask for what also.. but still abit curious lah, still exist anot.. anyway nice eh, she said want go tp then we can same school liao.. ^^ hmm then we walked somemore, i bought bands and a tee, so cute.. then we chatted somemore, hahah she said we chat til like cannot stop de.. then chat she said go liao ba, i took bus home noh.. hmm we tomorrow going gym arh, never go before.. hahah, i think its like playground sia, but dont think will be like any playground.. she said bring what bring what noh, then abit excited eh.. hahah, first time going to gym, wee.. but, later wake up next day confirm everywhere ache de, i also dont have habit doing any exercise.. waa then if sunday go thon, body everywhere pain, dont know can tahan anot, hahah.! yeah really really crazy over jerry yan's songs liao, im loving them~ suddenly felt abit bad girl and gothic eh, saw alot of tees with corky messages, and one voodoo brand arh, very nice.. should i date you.? i kinda want to, but abit shy.? =X ..
yeah oo wells.. its great to always have at least one friend to have alot of common with u, can share everything.. =]
and guess what.?
____*i cherish everybody in my life..

~in this isolation, i want to forget myself~

2005-05-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

hiiee, yeah i love jerry yan's songs.. hmm yeseterday arh, thurs.. went to watch moovie, hahah House Of Wax.. with gwy, wx, les and isaac arh.. err very lisgusting arh that movie, everybody also think very er xin, hah i watched til cry sia.. hahah i dont know why arh, maybe cos im afraid of pain and blood, then waa so much lisgusting violence noh.. hahah.! to those who have weak hearts, dont watch it.. oo dont know why bishan de cine, or isit all become so strict about everything sia.. must check ic again and again, cannot bring outside food in, got ppl want watch movie de they also dulan eh.. hmm anyway after that went crc again, aiyo i dont think i want play anymore liao.. at home can play also, thou abit lag.. then also can save up for that sunday midnight package thingy, then again.. i dont know if i want to go anot actually.. =S we reached tpy liao, then walked towards mac, i saw my papa and sis, i said "thats my father" they thot i joking, hahah.. then my mama came noh, hahah then went up to mac find johnson and kev, then we help kev eat his fries, then we all went up ler.. played first game 4v3, me kev and wx vs e rest, then les' comp hang played again.. then iz come join us, we won noh.. hmm yeah im kinda excited for my orientation, its next week wednesday to friday noh, must wake early sia, earlier than i normally go sec school arh.. then i also dont know which cca to join, hahah.! i liked alot of cca noh, still thinking, i probably want go photography, drama de, music de, or adventure, or sports de.? lalals i dont know, slowly think think arh.. yeah nothing much to say arh, had fun thou im still sad inside.. i even more sad when i see or read about things which is alike from things which made me sad, which will affect my sadness.. hahah its alright.. goodnight.. i want to sleep more, store energy.. wee~ oo yaa im glad my friends are still talking to me, i thot all dont friend me liao.. yeah i love and always miss u all.. =] friday e 13th, its tzewei's bday.. X]

~theres something about e way u made me feel~

2005-05-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

hii, just now went out arh.. at first was watching Steamboy, its a really nice show.. then kev called me arh, said go town or what.. hahah, got milky and fer noh.. then i left house liao, wx haven go.. hahah i told him to wait for me, then he said no its i wait for him.. then okie noh, les reached tpy first, then saw anthony and denise arh, hahah.. they said they heard ive slim down(really meh) then update update abit noh, said i now very trendy and modern, hahah and their bus came liao, so they went off first.. then gwy came liao, then wx.. he always so slow de lah, hahah.. then gwy wanted to drink her milk tea arh, we went to buy noh, all of us.. after that we chatted arh, a number called me, "ahgirl.." with a familiar voice.. oo was my friend from upstairs looking down.. hahah i thot nobody might recognize me anymore eh, oo then gwy no money.. then we chat chat arh, les kept saying tpy got alot of boliao ppl.. cos one girl was.. dont know doing what arh, i abit embarrassed to say.. okok yaa abit ba, alot of ahsengs and ahlians also right, hahah and crazy ppl.. les hungry then went hdb hub there eat arh, i ordered rojak, long que eh, okok lah e taste.. after that e orchard ppl reached liao, they at crc.. then we went there noh, aiyo yesterday play today play again.. hahah then played noh, two rounds.. yaa first round was normal, then second round was e newer map, e hero i nvr seen before de.. okok lah, hahah but still abit dont know arh.. oo then got uncles wanted to play with us, hahah we kicked them out arh.. after then went to eat noh, we went to a open food court eat arh, there gonna close.. they kept asking for any last orders noh, hahah.. then i ate til quite full sia, aiyo dont know why i ordered that bowl of meatballs but i really like leh.. hmm then we walked to opp my house that bus stop noh.. gwy's bus came then she chased for it, milky said later got car bang, les said later fall.. hahah very bad noh they all, then les' bus came liao, he had to chase also.. then they said he say other ppl, he also.. then wx left, cos he not walk same direction as us de.. then i crossed road noh, got cars kena banged then they discussing ba.. both also silver cars, then one e door there dented in arh.. yaa thats all, my ft cd lent away liao, now downloading cd crack, hope can.. hahah i very good right, but to my bro i so bad arh.. tsktsk, Mulan 2 also very nice..

~e heart gives love unconditionally, can i share with u~

2005-05-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

hii, oo i do have a "secret" blog like say my inner thots.. i never password it or what, and i got link it, hahah have to find it urself de.. but nowadays nvr blog it ler, i blog here.. anyway just now went to tpy central eh, ate dinner with my family.. we went to one place alot of ppl eating western, then we asked need to wait how long.. e guy said "jiu ge zhi", i abit slow arh.. my papa immediately say dont want ler, i said "huh.. (think) 45mins arh.?" hahah madness right.. then we went mac to eat noh, e counter got one guy.. i dont know lah, like abit weird de.. he asked "what sauce do u want.?" i said "all.." then he really gave me all eh.. he said "tartar sauce, curry sauce, sweet and sour sauce, ketchup, chilli..", hahah then i said waa, no need all lah.. but my papa said nevermind, then i take finish liao, he still say bbyex to me sia.. hahah then eat finish liao, go find wx.. waa they all bluff me sia, then waited for wx first.. past him e cd, then waited 2hours plus for boon, ray and dom.. waa we chatted til abit thirsty arh, hahah.. oo my friend called and said date me next weekend, hahah.. =X then they reached liao, we went to play dota noh.. then i and wx vs they 3.. we restarted 2 times then can play properly, cos dom choose de comps all louzy.. hahah, then we won~ ole, so happy.. i died ONCE, by that stoopid rikimaru de dont know what planted shooter.. grr, sad sia.. hahah then very cold arh that place, play til quite happy de.. lalals~ today its Mothers' Day, did nothing much eh.. i bought one body scrub, mint mint de, and gave her one perfume (actually is ppl give me de), hahah.. but dont know why she dont want eh, then e body scrub i put in her bathroom, she got use noh.. sure very song de lah, so cooling still got tiny bits as scrub.. my mama hor, alot of ppl also say.. she spoilt all of us noh.. in e house hor, everything she do actually.. =S take care of sis, tidy up our rooms, like e whole house e if she wants to tidy up, she will de eh.. take out everything, then clean clean then put back.. sometimes i see i want to help but i dont know de arh.. she also know how to cook alot of things, so im trying to say my mama is like supermother arh, everything also do.. hahah but i can iron clothes, help take care of sis, wash dishes, wash clothes, hang shirt and put them to dry, fold clothes.. yaa like that ba, hahah sometimes i feel abit bad eh.. im a girl yet dont know how to mop, cook, tidy up and clean all that.. if my mother nvr take out everything and ask us to tidy up arh, all my drawers have alot of shyt de.. hahah, anyway..

I <Lov3 my Mummy, muackss..

~e candlelit burns, to bring warmth from me to u.. feel e sparks~

2005-05-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

hiya, backz from celebrating our dear friend cum brother's birthday, milky~ hahah, oo over liao.. anyway just now i thot going other place eh, then i wore nice nice, put eyeliner gao gao.. =X then in e end go tpy central nia, i meant with my family.. hahah then i kinda have a hard time finding ppl eh, cos milky, wx and kev gone to orchard.. then milky is such a nice person, should celebrate birthday ma.. then walked around central with my parents and sis, finally les said okie he coming to tpy.. then i was oready there ma, i cant find anymore ppl ler, i walked to red circle first.. i looked at e cakes first noh, e breadtalk de nice sia, got 4 types small small de.. then e rest, those bigger ones are all heart shaped, for mothers' day de.. hahah then les reached liao, we looked at e cakes noh.. at first said want buy all 4 types of breadtalk small cakes, then went opposite to see.. really all big big de, and all heart shaped de, thou nice but abit exp and for mothers day de.. later milky become our mother, hahah jkjk.. and he said buy pandan cake, i thot joking nia, then think think awhile.. heyy actually not bad arh, then since got a hole in e middle, go breadtalk buy one round de put in e middle.. hahah then we really bought a pandan cake, a round cake from breadtalk, and a pack of biscuits very nice de, called Milky Biscuits.. hahah and we wanted candles, e girl at breadtalk only gave one.. waa then we went fairprice find candles, in e end cannot find we bought sparks.. hahah at first think will toxic anot, later eat til die.. but aiya anything de, so bought noh, then went to buy lighter.. after that we went to near kfc there de "garden" found one spot and camped there noh.. then they on e way liao, we prepare e "masterpiece".. hahah around e pandan cakes got e sparks, then in e middle stack e small round cake (blueberry flavour) and one candle.. can imagine.? very simple de noh, and quite nice lah.. abit funny lah, cos looked very.. unique arh.. and it was oready raining bit bit arh, then les went to get forks, but no knife.. hahah then waited for milky and wx come, so long sia more than 30mins like that.? after that they coming arh, they at first dont know where were we.. hahah and we were squatting.. after that les go lit e sparks, nvr light up e candle, so sua.. lit e sparks all finish first, then cannot sing yet, cos too smokey.! hahah, very funny noh, 18 sticks eh.. cos milky 19 years old(if not wrong), then 18 sparks, one candle.. waa very smokey, after that lit up e candle, then sing noh.. hahah then blow liao, take off all e sticks then milky used fork to cut e pandan cake.. no knife is like that de, hahah.. after that he ate e blueberry cake noh, we ate e pandan cake.. actually wanted to use fork, but abit hard arh so used hand.. -.= after that, milky also eat then we all eat together e pandan cake.. oo yaa, when we lit up e sparks, got one mother and alot of childen came and see eh.. hahah, then we cleared up arh after that looked at e statue, then one guy came around e statue to see also.. hahah maybe we like inspecting e statue, he curious come and see.. after that we went to entertainment de mac arh, drank water and played with e lighter.. actually wanted to make bunsen burner, become lao gas.. hahah and we had to throw away wa, bobian e dustbin sure alot of paper stuff, i wonder if hard hard throw.. will explode.? hahah jkjk, then les said want watch movie, 9+ de.. he still dreaming, oready quite late liao, hahah after that went to arcade walk around arh.. then walked out, then to my house opposite de bus stop, and les de bus came liao he bbyex.. then we three walking seperate ways de, hahah but wx lie down there.. so we left first.. lalals oo i played e police game hor, my leg really tio cramp eh, very pain.. hahah~ oo im glad that nobody say i looked like paikia, instead i looked like vampire.. oww i like vampires.. =E

___the sky is crying`` it has never been well..without you*]]

~do all fairytales end this way, will there be our way~

2005-05-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

i have a friend hor, she waited for five months plus leh.. waa so lihai hor, but something went wrong arh, she said all her hope all to a waste eh, so sad.. then she said she hate him.. hmm five months plus of waiting, thats really something.. then this girl, i accidentally my hairstyle same as her, then i think i looked like her eh.. -.= then we chatt chatt, she suddenly copy my font sia.. i felt abit weird, hahah we chatted alot of stuffs.. we said we hate this girl, she stole away my precious kor.. hahah then we talked alot of bad about her noh, and i thot she was her good friend.! gosh, many ppl have different faces de.. but nevermind lah, hahah i first time saw her i like her liao, cos she had a sweet voice and looked cute.. not like her "good friend", first time see dont like liao.. snatched away my kors, still so act big act cute attitude zuay zuay.. lalals then what arh, oo seemed like alot of ppl sad.? i also sad leh, i like this guy but i dont know want tell him anot.. hahah i scared he later dont talk to me liao.. how much longer does it take to cure this.? i cant ignore if its.. lalals~ today is my friend bday, Happy Birthday Lao Da.. waa im brotherr sia, why sia, i want to be sisterr.. hahah nevermind anyway.. hmm yesterday saw alot of flash movies hor, but i like this alot.. =]
FF Tribute: Chocobo Mix [very cute]

~let e music play, im e owner of this lonely heart~

2005-05-06T13:56:00.000+08:00

yeah, yesterday arh, went to meet them then went pool there noh.. got les, wx, iz, ty and kel, then gwy came liao.. hahah, after that we together go meet e girl, then paid for e things we bought, then chat chat.. after that went to eat at koufu, hahah.. e last two stalls, selling satay beehoon and chicken rice, e guy selling chicken rice said he and e guy are brothers.. then he asked and said alot of things arh, aiyo.. after eating, ate dessert, then chat somemore.. after that went to play dota noh, i used lina til level 25 and quite lihai eh.. hahah after that another round eh, les and wx vs ty, gwy and me, so hard sia -ar.. then lost noh, hahah, i also dont know how to use my hero.. after that js and kev came, then we going off liao.. hmm then chat somemore, then went seperate ways.. lalals~ somemore flash movies..
The Matrix Still Has You [cute]
BunnyLove [sweet and cute]
Whatever!! [err, funny and interesting]

~accused for loving, im guilty.. please bail me out~

2005-05-05T15:32:00.000+08:00

halo, halo.. hahah now feeling better arh, yesterday my friend talked to me, then i laughed then cried.. going to sleep cried again, lalals.. im silly, e reason is.. dont know how to say, its just that i read someone's blog then her relationship ended, then think like about e same as mine so very low noh.. u know, girls are very special eh, most dont regret loving anyone, especially those they really love or loved, deep down they actually still cared alot for them.. some stubborn may not show, some outspoken very thick skin, and alot are very sensitive.. my friend told me before his gf also very sensitive, like me sia.. but i still dont know how to cure lah, i only know e girl sensitive cos she afraid to lose her love ones and she always want that special someone to be always be there for her, and reassurance in everything that guy doing, e rest is see each other understand one another anot.. actually every problem has its own solution or solutions, its all depending on e decisions made.. hahah my friend quoted (with my hairstyle now, i looked almost like her) "love is happiness, but loneliness is freedom".. hahah interesting quote, but get e meaning de lah.. anyways yesterday hor actually said meet 2pm, then got friends working, hahah.. and i dont know still going anot eh, then yesterday played dota with kev, les and jim.. hahah 2v2 nia, then we lost.. but i got second eh, hahah ayy so sad noh.. actually wont end that fast de, i wanted to buy things ma, if not i will look after my tree ler.. hahah nevermind, then today woke early eh.. then rained, then got ppl want come my house do something de, then i like abit unsure also.. like nobody said anything, then i asked wx, he also dont know.. hahah so nevermind noh, then gwy going 3 said she just woke up, hahah quite heng arh.. dont know about les.. then like that noh, meeting later.. then today i woke up, guess what i did.. i cooked porridge for my mother and me, hahah.. and it was horrible ba, no guidance eh, like seen before my mother cook then wanted to try.. i loved e sticky sticky type of porridge ma, so wanted to cook that, then i added small white bait, egg toufu and afew pieces of carrots arh.. hmm can eat lah, but e porridge got one weird taste, dont know how to describe.. then my mother taught me from my mistake lah, she said next time like that like that noh.. hahah, heng my father not in, he no hope in me de, everytime i said i want cook, he always said "dont lah".. guess he know me well.? but my mother is like "i dare u" something like that, like if i wish to try, just do it, then i can learn faster also.. and she also can point our my mistakes then next time wont do.. actually fun eh, thou my family know im totally slow and blur and totally dont know anything when im in e kitchen.. unless i cook for myself de, i dare to add anything i like to my food eh.. hahah once i made udon then add one piece of cheese on top, very nice leh.. then add honey, ketchup, macdonald's sweet chilli, alot of things i like de noh.. =] thats all, oo i think i very bad leh, afew of my outside friends send me a couple of nice sms, i one also nvr return, aiyo.. found afew flashes, very cute de.. enjoy..
Hot Fish [very nice]
There She Is! [i love this]
Cake Dance [part2, love this too]
Numa Numa Dance -jap [addicted]
Numa Numa Dance [err..]
Kitten Cannon [great game]
Ramen [cute]
Adventures of Mr. Coo [interesting]
If... [very sad]
Bunny Kill [yeah, hurhur]
Bunny Kill 2 [killer bunny]
The Non-Livingstons [creepy nice]
The Non-Livingstons 2 [grossy nice]
Final Fantasy A+ [fight homeworks]
Hoy te amo [sweet~]
Days after those Days [ever feel stoned]
The Race [sweet.!]
Rush [gosh, i like this creator]
and these are my few favourites.. =]

~i want to walk, but i run back to u~

2005-05-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog about today, but really sad now arh.. haixx~ today was a fun and tiring day, walked and shopped whole day noh, somemore rained very heavily hor.. i didnt buy anything lah, no money and bought alot liao.. oo wells, other time ba.. -tatas-

i dont believe in fairy tales too, but there should be hope in everyone of us.. =]

~write a diary, to remember our memory pieces~

2005-05-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

hiya, still tired nowadays.. oo yesterday night arh, played dota with lancraft.. my bro did warn me not to play that map, then i just play, then near end of e game lagged out arh.. hahah too bad arh, really very laggy cos of those pop ups and spyware arh.. then zl kept scolding me.. =( anyways just now went to tanjong pagar arh, should be meet at 3 de, i earliest arh, then gwy came.. then kev came, we went to mos arh and kev kept complain want go home change.. hahah then poor kev, gwy dont let him, then les came liao.. oo got pretty girl sat beside me eh, waa i really wanted to look at her de.. but i paiseh sia, later she thot i crazy.. hahah, then her date quite cute de, talked alot and abit clumpsy, when went to take sauce he knocked to two chairs.. oo they talked about something something, he said in chinese "u date me out de, must tell me *something something gossip*" hahah, oo im not kpo, they let my ear hear de.. after that we went hdb hub there de food court arh, then kev went home.. hahah and they at finish liao, we went back red circle and waited for kev and wx.. kev came first sia, then wx, then we sat there tio gan, hahah.. after that we went tanjong pagar noh, wanted to go tp plaza arh, e directory pointed there, i said go there then wrong arh.. oo then we went to e cipital tower to take a look arh, e tower quite high sia.. then on e way gwy said news got say birds thot e glass de reflection is sky then alot bang til die, nvr heard before.. then on e way les kept pointing upwards, "you long arh.!", hahah then we say go try in a crowd.. then he really did eh, "wah lao eh.!" very loud sia, but nobody reacted, hahah.. and there was a pond full of kois arh, they touched touched, tio gan by e mangkali.. hahah then js and cm came liao, they touch touch again, dont know who got swing leg ba.. e mangkali came with another mangkali, then very fierce sia, hahah.. he said "just now i said no hands, now i see legs, whats e meaning of this.." something like that, very fierce sia then e other said sit properly at e bench or else will gan us if again.. actually got another group of girls there arh, they heng, only tio gan dont sit near e pond there.. lalals then cm spitted, hahah why not put whole body in, see he say what.. waa throw bread in also fun eh, e kois quite big eh, some really damm big, then e water quite shallow, then e fin top of water de.. dont know will evaporate or dry or what eh.. =S anyways then e facial girl said come and meet us liao, and we went to mrt there noh.. hahah gwy said forget how she looks, i smart sia, i looked at e girl i said isit her anot.. really her arh, quite cute looking, then had to intro ourselves like that noh.. hahah everybody got christian name or nickname except wx, aiyo he should said bear.. =D hmm then she brought us to e place noh, on e way asked us one by one what kinda facial problems we have.. then went there liao took off shoe, and we got a free trail of facial treatment arh, actually its just half a face nia.. cos just a trail and see if we like it anot, and see e effect arh.. hahah then abit weird arh, but fun.. cos we (2 girls + 5 boys) doing facial treatment, got eye bag de, e nose de blackhead de, then mask arh.. hahah then very tight when harden, then dont know want laugh anot.. quite fun lah, like a bunch of kids doing mask treatment and dont know what its about actually, laughing, touching their faces and playing around.. then e part expected came arh, one by one asked to buy our preferred treatment.. whao all those we tried de arh, if buy every one of each cost 414$ eh, siao arh.. hahah, then talked alot of things arh, like normal chat.. treated her like my friend, lalals.. then i can can lah, quite interested, so i did a favour and bought.. ;) i bought like mint mint de soap, last time got use before, so not bad lah.. really right now not interested and dont really care about my face, hahah.. she asked when i will be, i said i dont know, probably afew years down.? she said so long, hahah.. actually really fun chatting with her, les also right.? hahah, waa they chatted til pri school all those eh.. and i remembered "i need medicine to cure my fan-ness", hahah something like that, waa very indirect de rudeness sia.. but not bad arh, then only js and cm nvr buy anything, les also, but still considering.. they smart.? poor.? or buai paiseh after free treatment.? hahah, jkjk.. then went to tpy lor8 eat arh, chat chat all e way.. then eat finish liao, go home ler.. lalals~ e weather is still warm sia, take care alls..

~its as if the whole world knew except u~

2005-05-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

hahah i dreamt of him..
okok it was just a dream, hahah at least not bad arh.. hmm it was like im sitting on e pathway, then he came from behind holding me.. cos we chatted last night, something something, he said "best friend" [bf, get it.?] then we laughed noh.. cos i was with my friend, he was with his friend.. then i and my friend walked to somewhere, they said preparing for syf performance.. then e performace started, got one team was using cute cushion instruments and played a song, then another was acting dont know what eating de, still got kangkang eh.. then i forget liao eh, thats all..
yesterday went to suntec, alot of ppl sia there.. then bought nike slippers and shirt, aiyo i love e whole shop actually.. whole singapore only suntec and heeren got that nike shop, e newest one.. hmm then go tikam, my bro as usual, i said i want what, he tio what for me.. so happy arh, then we went arcade, play play.. wanted to catch that pooh bear, ehh actually can leh, but didnt want to waste money.. my friend caught one bear for 50$ arh, siao de noh, actually like 10 or 20+ caught it liao.. then wanted to catch a second one ma, but cannot so 50$ noh that toy.. another game my bro got -minor gift- but can continue to get -major gift- then he didnt get til major arh, but wasted can get e minor one.. hmm then my mother fell arh, hahah my father told us e story, kept repeating noh him, he said got one big dirty patch on e floor.. then he walked around it, then he thot my mother will follow.. next he heard a bang very loud, he turned to see who fell, in e end he recognized e clogs and knew it was my mother.. he said he wanted to laugh, but sure tio gan, so he had to be angry.. hahah then blah blah, very tired sia yesterday.. then went online chat chat, then watched tv then slept.. lalals~

~arms wide open, to let go and to hold on~

2005-05-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

oww, got viruses again.. reformat and reformat still e same, must be got problem.. dont care liao ba, hmm.. e day before went to buy pants, quite nice de.. oo it was my mother asked me to buy de.. so got two colours, one dark one light.. then e dark looked dirty, and e light one looked bright and clean lah.. i think e clean one nicer, but i like e darker colour one.. dont know which one, then my mother said e light one, e salesman said dark one, cos easier to pei.. then i said okie dark de, but still hestitating cos light one nice arh, then my mother bth bought both for me.. hahah cos discount, so good arh.. oo then went to play arcade with my bro, so fun eh.. he paid for everything, some was we together play de, some was i wanted to play de, then he gimme tokens.. so good arh, then we went shopping eh.. we both each bought a glow in e dark figurine, cos very cute.. hahah he bought a star, i bought a pig.. so cute arh, then he paid also.. then we went to arcade again, he so mafan i asked him dont waste money catch e soft toy, heng he only used one token, then e rest he play.. hahah then we wanted to tikam, cos my mother caught a bear, then my bro wanted that girl will change hair colour on different temp.. i love him alot de, he everytime say tio what, he will tio.. cos last time got one machine is princess de hankechief, i said i want all, he tio all e different princesses handkechief for me leh, very lihai right.. then he very cute, he wanted to hang that girl onto his handphone, i shouted Ee at him, then i told my mother.. she said dont lah, i said yaa lah like ahgua sia.. hahah i thot he wanted to catch that for his gf [yaa he got a gf, quite long liao], in e end he.. hahah then i said later he like psycho arh, everyday sayang e girl, dont let other ppl touch, like those show got psycho tiko men treat e barbie doll dont like like what real woman like that, so lisgusting.. hahah then i said maybe he treat that as his gf, everyday muacks e doll.. then took bus home, hahah i have kiasu parents, lalal alot of funny stuffs lah.. so today went out to have lunch with my buddy, cos we two just woke up then we both haven eat.. hahah so we meet at one time, i thot i very late liao, in e end he more late.. oo saw edmund, then we chatted, cos i will be entering e same course and school as him arh.. hahah but he gone to aerospace liao, i wanna go 3d gaming.. hmm then he told me about e course noh, do what study what.. aiyo he said my course must study everything in engineering, means bao ga liao.. like gonna siao eh, needa learn so many stuffs.. then my appeal to Np unsuccessful arh, abit disappointed but abit expected cos my marks so border line.. but nevermind lah, ren ming noh, not that bad lah.. hahah then my buddy came liao, oo edmund also going to eat, but he going to da pao go home de.. so we walked to prata house, hahah we chatted.. oo then i wore my purple eyeliner, quite long ago bought liao, yesterday i try wearing.. think not bad, but nowadays not enough sleep so i looked like vampire, i think.. so we ate, i ate til very full sia, i ordered one cheese one egg onion and one milo dinosaur arh.. waa i first time drinking that milo dino, sibeh song and nice to drink.. hahah got top with cream, at first i thot its ice cream hor, so song.. like drinking chocolate milk shake, but i dont like chocolate.. =D then i said whao so nutritious sia this drink, hahah cos my gu ma [aunt mother] always make milo shake for me to drink.. her simple famous drink, only need powder and cold water and ice can liao.. then waa i ate til very full sia, cos got cheese and all those ba.. but not very very full, or else i must dig out to vomit cos i cant vomit on my own de, and e stuck vomity feeling really suks.. then i told my mother, my mother will scold me cos its bad to dig out and force urself to vomit, if cant vomit yet want vomit really bobian wa.. -.= oo then he treated me noh, not bad arh thankies thankies.. anyway then we withdrew money, then tuck said go crc play noh.. then i and my buddy walk walk first cos still early, we went to arcade then walked around.. haixx, dont know why my this buddy knows me so so well arh.. just like my da ge ge, but long time nvr talk to him liao.. oo im a stubborn girl, yet he know who i deep down actually care for.. =D never say out nia, hahah dont know why.. then wanted to rent this serial vcds, 7$, 5days, then it wrote "10$ deposit" i thot pay 10$ then will get back 3$.. in e end e lady said "altogether its 17$", i looked at my wallet, i gave out a "wah".. then like that isnt that i will no money, then i said i dont want liao sorry.. hahah, then we went to buy drinks from shop and save, then went crc.. oo i thot why so late liao they like nvr call me, yuan lai i put into silent mode when i went to e library, i forgot.. hahah then gwy, fer, tuck, kev and ignaz came liao, we started playing dota.. its tuck asked my friend to join in de noh, hahah then he first time play eh.. abit louzy ba, keep kena killed.. then i first round abit sian also, forget what liao arh, got last second.. abit dulan cos of something, dont want to say, forget it.. and js came, wx and milky also, milky awhile then left ler.. then after that we play e game arh, i like know what to buy liao like that.. so i kept getting 3rd, hahah i remembered for 3 rounds i get 3rd.. oo then all e games were allrandom, at first abit sian, then get used to it liao, like suddenly feel more confident.. i think i know how to play liao, yeah, i was so happy.. lalal~ i dont know lah, hahah, then my friend said got pool table, so he went to play with his friends ba.. say later go home together go home, no need sorry, i ben lai jiu want let u enjoy play de.. oo then got one group of nescafe gang wanted to play with us.. they created game liao leh, then they dont know, they all left.. =S hahah oo wells, then abit late liao ma.. so we went to eat at prata house, again.. i ate teh peng and one egg onion, blah blah then i and gwy ran, dont know for what actually.. oo saw this afro head malay man singing to himself, quite interesting.. hahah then she took taxi home, fer took bus home.. then i left, wx also left then go home ler.. friends are always, but i wish..

~u twinkle stars in my dreams.. without knowing~

2005-04-27T01:25:00.000+08:00

hii, yesterday did what arh.. oo went to tpy central, hahah i thot only at tpy then anyhow wear.. then went to mos to find them, saw that guy e day before asked us to donate.. he asked me to donate noh, then i gave 2$ noh, nevermind de.. thou im pok liao, hahah then went to mos, got gwy wx and kel.. hmm and we just sat there, hah kev came, we still just sat there noh.. gwy said all like buai song face, quiet quiet never say anything.. =S then js they all at far east arh, then we had to go orchard.. then wx, kel and me wore abit like go downstairs nia ma, aiya nevermind just go noh.. hahah then i called js asked far east where, shopping centre arh.? he said yaa.. then we went to e underground there, yuan lai they at far east plaza.. and we waited noh, oo we talked about teh kor (short pants) and teh kor (underwear).. err abit paiseh to say but just say okie.. err im like e only human who dont wear undies at home.? =X hahah, but really noh.. anyways then we sat around and walked around, and they came.. hmm js wore til abit formal.? then mel "joined our side", hahah cos we anyhow wore.. then we went to play dota arh, 4v4 for first two rounds, then last round 5v3.. 4v4 is kev, js, kel and me, then wx, fer, mel and gwy.. first round okok lah, i forget what liao.. second round, yeah i over that Dominating liao, i got a Monster Kill~ quite happy and got a second.. hmm then last we all vs kev, js and kel.. thou we -ar but they like tio e hero quite good ba, and we lost..badly.. hahah, then really sian and i no money ler.. i owed benson 10$ and owed kev 10$, so sad.. and we went to mac, ayy then chat chat eat eat.. then i had to go, cos my mother got cook for me actually, my father kaopei me.. then they also followed, hahah and we went home.. then e school sent e letter say i forget to add one paper, kaos so mafan arh.. that time nvr check properly and say everything finish.. lalal then thats all, watched finish all my vcds ler.. whao so hot nowadays.. =S

~chances are all around us, it only matters Are You Ready or not~

2005-04-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

hiya, today i went to carepoint.. so long didnt go there and see amylia ler, hahah.. hmm firstly i met with zs and yf cos they at my house downstairs, then i chiong arh, forgotten to wear my necklace, abit weird feeling.. but nvr go think about it, its just that my shirt quite low, then like quite bare that place.. anyways we walked to interchange to wait for jane, waited til 4-5 buses went off eh.. oo i saw one guy from quite far looked like ck, then i walked towards really him sia.. hahah abit weird how come he one person stand there ma, then gwy came, and a guy asking for donation came.. aiyo dont know why that person like dont like me, abit dont care me like that.. anyway then js came liao, they went NP, i walked back and jane came we bought drinks from VD shop.. hahah then took bus there, was not talking was thinking last time then zs came and stood beside me, another side e girls were chatting.. we said how much we missed sec school, oo hr said he waited quite long liao butt gonna rott, then what arh.. went in hi hi, amylia haven reached, oh congrats being promoted.. then we went into our cafe, not bad e feeling.. but got abit of problems, haixx.. then amylia came liao, we discuss discuss.. decided hao liao noh, then we still thinking of somemore ideas ba, e place abit wulu.. then we went to a S11 nearby, dao pi liao, so funny.. we asked what happened, e worker said no money to pay rent so closed down.. omg but e seats were still there so we sat and discuss about e conclusion.. woots not bad lah, we connecting well and having quite afew ideas.. abit excited sia, but im gonna start school in a month's time liao, will got time meh.. =S then we went off cos e workers gonna eat i think, they suddenly crowd at e seats next to us.. then we talk somemore and waited for e bus, "thou we very long never see each other, we dont feel e distant.. why.? cos we have a strong bond of friendship".. then said bbyex to amylia, hahah we teased her.. then we went to tpy to have dinner, dont know who arh.. in e end we sat outside koufu those seats there eat, so hot sia.. but can enjoy e songs arh.. then we eat eat and talk talk, suddenly black out sia.. hahah everybody went "orh.." de, very funny.. oo only koufu outside we siting that area and downstairs de vcd area.. dont know why bank and koufu and popular there nvr affected leh.. then we went to Cd Rama, i bought my first various artists chinese cd neh, very nice cos alot of songs i like.. dont know why i like MayDay alot now, i like their cute mtvs and cute songs, lalal.. hmm then we walked somemore, talked somemore, then kev called me to go crc.. i left them, then saw wx at library outside, i walked towards.. hahah then iz dont know from where came, i walked behind him.. then i listurbed him, he abit surprised.. hahah then we went in, got flora, js and ck.. then we went up crc liao, kev dont know why sia.. i wanted to play that touch screen de, i inserted 1$ coin then suddenly got e alarm (very soft nia) and it ate my coin.. then i told e guy, he said he not boss, then i asked for refund, he said he not boss also.. waa then very sad lah, hahah that guy always talk to me he like that treat me.. oo he asked us to bang and hit e machine, we banged and hitted still got nothing sia.. very funny lah, then iz and i shaked e machine.. guess what, suddenly got 18 credits sia.. laughed til pengs.. 1$ should be 2 or 3 credits, then 1$ became 6$ or 9$ sia, so "worthed it" hah.! then we played noh, can anyhow play til keesiao also.. but we maybe made it spoilt, e machine become very laggy arh.. then we restarted it alot of times, still got e credits left seh, but very laggy.. then play and play, i abit worried for someone, dont know what happened.. ayy then we left noh, i went home tried battlenet dota, waa very lag sia.. 4v4 singapore game, too laggy all quitted, i dont know opposite team left how many ppl, i only know my team only me.. then i owned everybody, sibeh song i first time kill and kill all e way nvr die dao.. Holey Shyt, beyond Godlike, Wicked Sick.. aiya e opposite team can manage all his players ma, kept chiong middle, we played middle nia noh.. thou i kill and kill his heroes, i nvr manage my other heroes ma, so they still came into my base noh.. then sure lose de ba, i quitted noh, yeah got a first.. lalal~ then my fren sms me (for so so long) saying he stoopid, -.= then i think i will buy him something he lost today.. for no reason at all.. see how later i no money, oo he very funny.. cos he at tampines de army camp, i studying at Tp.. he say we sms each other, when break or after school if he also can, we together go shopping first and eat.. =] ayy kinda sad for him also, we friends for so long, didnt know.. err, to my good friend: i hope u are safe..

~when that smile of urs creeps into my mind~

2005-04-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

hiya, hahah just wanted to try on italic font.. hmm, just now went out arh.. i, wx and kev actually wanted to meet go town or what de.. then very very unconfirm so in e end nvr go.. hahah, then wx slept i woke him.. then abit late ler, so he had dinner at home.. alot of uncertainty, aiya.. then talked to kev on phone, then i helped him found someone to eat with him.. he kept playing his game arh, i kept pushing him, then he kept taking his own time arh and asking alot of questions.. i kept "go liao lah", hahah til abit bth.. then i went first, later wl wait ma, i got patience de.. then what arh, oo wl thot i reach very slow so went to buy things, so i waited.. then i stood outside Shop N Save arh, he thot i waiting for who.. hahah i was feeling e air con, then he suggested we go in walk one round.. then he told me about friday night incident, aiyo.. then went outside wait for kev noh, hahah they talked about blink, windwalk alot of things arh quite funny.. then he reached liao kev say want go kou fu, wl dont want.. then they say say til go kou fu noh.. then i saw tzewei, hahah he abit funny, he said "free come up snooker zone find me".. but i dont know who he playing with, confirm wont go ma.. hehh then kev past thing to rex, then went koufu eat.. then very funny, got e ru hua that show, then we sat one row sia.. abit weird then quite funny e show, i abit dont know some part what they saying cos my chinese not very good lah, cannot read.. then went ntuc buy stuff, mel.c came noh.. oo he didnt see us thou we were infront of him nia.. then what arh, we went crc to see if han was there, on e way saw andrew, and his new gf.? hahah i dont know, he still call me ahgirl, hmm kinda miss those times.. oo wells then couldnt find han, they went home.. kev pei me rent vcd noh, hahah then we stayed there til e shop close.. then i treat him eat curry puff, hahah.. then pei him walk to traffic light then bbyex ler.. we everytime pei lai pei qu arh, hahah.. finally got e photos, yeah~

~wo and my jue jiang~

2005-04-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

computer got alot of problems arh.. i blocked my cookies then i cannot tag.. -.= want to say thankies to "me!!".. anyways these few days went out arh.. oo if u smoke, and put one finger on top of ur lips, u can create a heart.. quite interesting, i nvr do of cos, its my friend tried.. hahah, today went out walk walk with my buddy, oo we went to eat, then saw his friends.. hahah heng i smart, he told my buddy he wanted to know me arh.. but too bad, i dont like him, he talked to me, i didnt look him at e eye and abit bo chap him.. he bobian had to say bye, hahah.. he said bye i gave him a sec look and nodded and whispered a bye, hah sorry arh.. then saw alot of his friends sia, then played lan at parklane.. haixx worried for him, smoked 3 sticks then said problems.. there nothing to play leh, i only know cs nia.. then talked and walked and bought some stuffs.. both of us are poor people, so talk and walk around..

hmm e day before [friday 22nd] i reached tpy first thou change of time, then i reached there e guy holding on document i saw didnt ask me anything, i thot safe.. then i stand awhile he approached ler, talked about e life time membership of an online book store.. heyy actually not bad, but i dont have any cash, i kept asking can ask my mother anot.. he said no need all those, then he ask "do u love ur mother.?" i said yes, he gave me a free spa coupon.. then waa i quite happy sia, then he asked i how old, then he said my hair can go school meh, i oready said i waiting to go poly noh.. =S then benson came, he talked somemore, then in e end we rejected him and he took back e spa coupon, wth.. hahah, and his last words was "i really like to give u this, but i cant.." then he looked at me then e coupon, and then said again "yaa i really like to give u this, but i cant, sorry.." hahah, he looked cute actually.. then i and benson went to value dollar shop arh, really very friendly and fun sia at there.. e auntie talked good about benson and talked bad about that ahseng looking guy.. so cute sia e auntie.. then got one weird looking, skinny and tall uncle hor, =S heard he stole things from e store.. oo then we went up and down alot of times right, then all came liao so headed to cine kbox, hahah used e 1dollar coupon, in e end need to add this and that became 10.30$, for 3hours.. oo we sang and danced, sang and danced.. only i and gwy hor, we danced and sang e song so loud, hahah.. then e Sun Wu Kong then all danced and sang loudly on e sofa, til e guy came in all paiseh.. hahah, oo Pieces Of Me cannot sing lah, Ashlee's voice too girl ler, i and benson sang thats why zhao sia lah.. hahah then we sang The Reason, zhao sia version, AND WE DIDNT CARE cos purposely de, it was freaking funny.. "i found out e reason for MEEE~ to change who i used to BEEE~.. and the reason is youuu" in mono zhao sia tone, hahah nice right.. lalal, fun fun next time go again again.. sang old songs, i liked e feeling i can still sing them.. but got one picture taken arh, Evidence: saying thats what friends do behind ur back.. HAH JKJK.! then ferline late arh, we going for Speech Day, so we split 3 and 3 took taxi.. actually wanted ferline to take e first taxi, in e end she took e second one but they reached first, and we more expensive also.. =S then after that at Speech Day, quite fun ba.. oo starting help e guys book place, sibeh paiseh lah.. we four people booked two rows, then so many people came in, very paiseh noh.. then after that went down to eat and talk, then i went to crc with those guys, full house so they sat around, and some of us played e touch screen de.. i laughed til stomach pain noh, cos we like anyhow play de.. wasted my 1$ and 3 credits for 3 times.. hahah but fun lah, e slingshot nicest i think.. =] then they decided to go matrixcafe play, i decided not to play so went home, oops sorry.. =S

that day before [thurs 21st] we went to e movies.. oo wanted to meet 2.30pm at tpy, but i late.. why, cos i went to cut hair, and i didnt know it will take 40mins+ like that.. sorry arh gwy, then went to De Elements, no customer except me.. then got one guy i think quite new, he shuai ge neh.. e one cutting my hair, Alan, asked him washed my hair.. then we chatted noh, hahah he spoke de chinese different de.. we chatted about movies, alot of things, first time got people chat with me when washing hair.. oo he said he 2+am one person watch eye10 at home, and everybody sleeping, but he was laughing away, what a "horror" movie.. then cut hair, alan said he went to KL see fashion show, and this haircut now quite popular, so cut gimme.. alot of funny things happened actually, hahah.. one was that after washing he combed my fringe down and it covered til near my mouth.. then they blowed, still leaving e fringe covering half of my face.. then he cut every part of my hair, then said what its gonna be like, but nvr mention about my fringe.. then after awhile i bth liao, i said "how i see like that.?", he laughed and said later will cut off de, and i told him before i dont want short fringe.. i said oo, and knew i was silly.. =S and another was he die die also want to cut a outer bob layer, i die die also dont want.. he gave childish face, saying its like e whole fashion package noh, i still insisted i dont want.. lalal~ then he changed e bob to layer noh, but his heart still sour ba.. hahah sorry.. =S at e end i was abit surprised, my comments to him was "isnt this abit too cute".. blah blah, he kept saying cute is good, my eyes so big.. big meh.? oo at e beginning when i stepped into e salon, he said "u have big eyes, i want to give u a cute haircut", i said i dont want.. he said "u have bf.?" i said no.. he immediately said "thats why. after e haircut u will attract many guys.." i laughed and said dont want.. then he pointed e shuai ge and said "let this ah-du be ur bf.?", i laughed and said no.. hahah then "ah-du" paiseh looked away.. in e end he still gave me e haircut, but changed abit cos i kept rejecting his idea, sorry arh alan.. he said again trying to change my mind "after e haircut u will look very cute and attract guys.." i said i dont want.. hahah, then he said "u want girls arh.?" then i laughed and said yes.. then he said "cham arh like that".. lalal~ then i said "that guy malaysian arh.?" he said yaa.. hahah i so lihai arh, that shuai ge is malaysian.. then cut finish liao, went outside.. e guy outside said "go pat tuo arh.?" i said "no, group outing".. hahah he said oo, and that was e third guy asking me that question at that salon.. okie, then went to find gwy n js, my face still got small hair so U turn to toilet.. heard behind js saying dont know what, so turned then saw them.. washed my face, then waited for wx and kev arh.. then fer, mel, johnny and jm came, then mel wanted to eat so fer came with us.. then went yishun to watch Infection [gan ran] noh.. very few people at e cinema arh, then gwy kept screaming out loud, err abit paiseh.? hahah, then e show like not very nice leh.. dont really have e kick, hahah.. then went to north point, then went back to long john eat.. hahah, went to meet les, ck, wl, ch and mel at crc to play dota.. I Was So Happy.. two games also won neh.. first round, we [me, js, les, ck] won wl, ch, mel and gwy noh.. e Gods lost, to me abit surprised.. =S then zl and kev came also.. oo zl got help us abit ba, then next round was me, gwy, wl, ch and mel vs kev, les, ck, js arh.. at first i abit dulan noh, 3 people taking middle, i kept kena killed.. then i like sian sian, then i didnt know i can kill bone fletcher, i abit song liao, hahah.. then got one part we all chiong middle, then lost.. oo then in e end we won noh, and i got first~! its e second time i got first ler, thats why happy.. hahah, then went home ler.. errs i like lost count of my days and nvr update alot of things, dont know why quite busy also and no time and tired.. bbyex`- OMIGOSH~! =]

~listen to the voices within~

2005-04-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

whao these few days nvr online, watched vcd and went out noh.. fun days, and late nights.. nowadays suddenly i felt something wrong with me eh, i neglected ppl, ppl neglected me.. haixx, im sorry noh bud, i lied.. wont understand de lah.. anyway today went to town, oo on my way to e mrt.. got one guy stopped me, he said "i know u are busy meeting ur friend, but pls gimme a min" i said okie.. then he said "lost and found (my tee), i found u", i smiled and in my mind "what a corny guy".. hahah then he started talking about e girl with cancer, i moved and was really uncomfortable.. he said "dont be afraid of me" what not de, uh please.. he was standing so close to me, and i was so uncomfortable.. he kept saying meet bf, e free gift give bf, i said i dont have any.. then he said he be my bf, i said dont want.. oops probably abit direct he diam diam and dont know want turn where.. then he asked me to donate, he said "not one hundred or what.." i nodded, he said "but 99$.." i looked at him and laughed abit, he said not funny arh.. i said yaa, then he said 10 or 20 noh, i said okie i go withdraw money upstairs.. he said he accompany me, then he asked me how old, he introed himself.. so hes e same age as i am, same poly but appealing to NAFA, same as me waiting.. oo he better dont same poly as me sia, hahah.. then he said he scare i run away, then he said he wait outside, i guess to get more ppl.. then i withdrew liao cant find him anyway so dont care lah.. went down missed e train then saw a figure at a distance away quite familiar, hahah its kev.. quite qiao, then i walked towards him ask him where he going.. hahah at first bluffed me meet his friends, yuan lai same as me.. then wx came, n we left to town.. and we shopped, then walked then played dota, then ate.. oo got my Dominating again, won 2 outta 3 games, quite happy.. then waited bus with gwy, hahah wx had to go home, tio gan.. then all went home ler noh.. ive got nothing to say liao, zz.. got, but dont want to say.. e lost lost type of feeling.. its making me dull, oo wells bbyex..

errs, felt like blogging e day before.. oo firstly met with benson, cos gwy late.. we went to raffles place first, and we walked around, quite alot of shops eh.. hahah, then bought a drink, cant see e meal fibre but can eat dao.. hmm then gwy came liao, we went for e medical check up noh.. hahah i waited for them, but quite fast de cos nobody.. yeah its good eh, then after that we left to town.. oo actually say wanted to walk to city hall or bugis arh, hahah benson said keesiao.. anyway then went to cine we wanted to watch -the pacifier- noh.. hahah, so we asked ppl go, i asked wx and kev.. at first they said okie de noh, then we walked around cine, got dj then like got fun activities.. firstly was spot e spider on ur 2dollar note arh, hahah.. one girl found, but couldnt say so we all dont know.. then took neoprint right, then walked around cine.. waa then they in e mini toons soo long sia, i abit bth.. hahah, then wanted to buy tix liao, kev at first said he will go lie down awhile, 5++ call him.. then 5++ liao, needa confirm ma, couldnt reach him, so gwy bought for johnson and ck first.. hahah.. then we ate dinner with jane also, then kev called liao, he said he want.. then gwy went up to buy noh, sorry arh cos we still eating.. hmm and we took lift up couldnt see gwy anywhere, we thot she took e escalator, hahah.. quite funny, then i went toilet found her noh.. hahah, then got e spongebob game arh, but like cannot go anywhere.. hmm then we went down again, benson bought his justea.. then kev came, and we took lift up.. oops forgot about johnson and ck, so sent kev down one level to call them.. then they came up, we went in noh.. actually wanted to random de leh, kev kept saying otherwise.. lalal~ then we watched e movie, very nice eh, and funny.. got one sad part, we teared hor.. hahah, then went back to tpy arh, e guys wanted to do something lah, then benson and gwy went off first, i walked with them noh.. hahah johnson ate ock, he got stucked.. hmm then went kev house outside, we talked about our dreams hor.. hahah, then went to prata house and cm come liao.. then talk talk, then they want go play billard, i went home on e way noh.. hahah.. oo then e day before, i forgotten what we did ler, remember then say.. hahah i chatted with someone quite long arh, we walked up and down e path.. cos he sent me, then i sent him then he sent me then i sent him.. hahah but not bad arh, shared our lil secrets.. then i ran home, hahah scare kena scolded, everynight so late.. lalal~ oo today [21st 12.20pm] i had a nice dream.. later i come home then say.. tata~ scully i forgot, oo wells..

~if i could make it obvious~

2005-04-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

hiya, today was a tiring day, went around whole day.. firstly woke up in e morning then pei my mother bring sis to see doc at thomson medical, took taxi.. my sis e day before had fever arh, but e flu and cough haven go away, then she like quite xinku keep crying neh.. hahah then my mother forgotten to bring her birth cert, e nurses asked weird qns de.. anyway after that took taxi went to TP, cos ive forgotten to sign one paper, so mafan hor.. go so far just becos of a paper, aiyo.. then took taxi again go home, then i faster go interchange arh.. hahah benson one person waiting, so kelian.. then i cannot find benson de, then suddenly gwy from behind hit my head.. scary sia, then benson came.. then we waited for isaac, hahah he go make his hair like last time my friend de mickey mouse hairdo.. hahah i past him english tys noh, then he went for tuition, so hardworking arh.. then went to bank, then went eat at koufu, then went banquet find kev, zl, les, kel and wx noh.. oo then got one call.. e guy said "im from blah blah, u remember u went to this blah blah shopping center blah blah supermarket.. blah blah" then i said "huh.?" then he said "oo reception no good.? il call back later.." then i said okie then hung up.. after awhile he called back again, "is it better now.?" then i said yes.. hahah then he said again "im from blah blah, remember u went to blah blah blah.." i said "pardon.? will u repeat where.." he said again.. something shopping centre, something supermarket.. i said "no i dont recall.." he said "oo its alright, maybe u will recall later.. anyway our company blah blah has 30 consulation prizes, blah blah.. got 1 italian watch worth 150$ and a free one week stay at thailand or sentosa.. and u are one of e lucky winner.." i said oo okie.. then he said "when does ur working hour end today.?" i said "huh.. i dont work" he said "but its stated here u r working, mrs cheyy (i forgotten)" i said "no im not" and he apologized.. hahah okie thats real and it was hilarious, fancy if i can get those prizes.. then went to crc played dota, fun lah.. got a Dominating again, then played cs, quite fun also.. then played dota again, then went to eat kfc.. after that went snooker zone, then i left to find hanrong and siong noh, so wulu sia e place.. we had meeting and discussed about e hub or cafe noh, hahah fun talking to u again.. then got rats fighting de sound, so scary i dont dare to sit down.. then late liao, so walked to my house de busstop then went home rest liao ba, goodnightzz..

~dou jiang you tiao~

2005-04-13T01:48:00.000+08:00

memories can make me sob, hahah.. but im still cheerful, and light hearted, right.? "You haven't felt this romantic for -- well, for a very, very long time. Does that mean you should give in totally and do what they want you to do? Nah. You've got to love yourself before anyone else." hahah, so funny arh.. actually quite true neh, i felt something yesterday.. lalal~ anyway yesterday [cos now midnight] went out lah, firstly pei kev go check up.. i so good arh, cos all not free.. actually meet 2pm to go orchard, one need shao mu, one need pei mother go out, one pei friends, one tutoring, hahah.. oo at e clinic saw two alicias, very funny de.. e young alicia i think is my last time block de neighbour eh, its like that.. e counter de person call "alicia" i dont know why i nvr react, maybe cos i know i nvr do anything.. then e young alicia need check up, she said e blood test pain.. she very cute sia, i think she said she fat or something, cannot get blood thats why very pain, then say her blood colour quite dark de, then dont know what lah.. e girl next to me quite cute de, when i helping kev arh, she helped me.. then kev saw his pri school friend, i saw him look at kev arh.. kev called his name, then e guy said who u.? i laughed sia, hahah.. oo then kev check up finish, e young alicia left liao, why i say young alicia, thou she probably same age as me.. cos later arh, e counter de person call "alicia" again, its an auntie.. hahah so qiao so many ppl same name as me sia.. then go pet shop see pets, e uncle quite frenly de.. bought two turtles, so cute arh, kev also bought two.. those turtle are long neck, soft shell then their mouth sharp sharp de.. then js came arh, oo we explored e frogs.. oo then i forgotten to buy turtle food, so dumb sia.. buy turtle never buy turtle food.. -.= tomorrow must go and buy, or else very poor thing.. hmm then we went to kev house arh, take container for my turtles, thankies arh and e pebbles.. hahah then i and js went to withdraw money, then i bought drink, he bought bread, we waited for kev sia.. then talked about kev, hahah im a light hearted girl okie.. he ordered teh peng, then kev came liao.. hahah, then kev disappeared again, js call him arh, then i walk saw indian small girl skipped pass me, her mother called her "alicia", waa another alicia sia, three liao.. hahah then went to somerset find wx, waa e mrt 1min coming liao so say have to chiong, zz sia.. i always have phobia of walking thru that mrt entrance thingy actually, cos i kena clammed before, waa then kena clammed again, so pain eh.. then i sat down, saw one guy take that bag so familiar, then he sat down.. kong hong, we called him cannot listen de him cos listening to discman.. hahah hey i really like his hair eh, sunday saw got tell him very nice.. =X then flora, sh, jane n jm at lido there arh.. shld have stopped at orchard, then walk there noh.. waited for kev again, he went into his workplace there.. hahah, then went to find him, cannot find dont know he where.. oo he at outside liao, then went play lan noh.. played dota arh, restarted alot of times right.. hahah, then first match lose lah, wx and kev everytime use those heroes.. blah blah, first match finish flora need to go liao, sorry for being so late arh.. =S then play again, hahah we 3v2 noh, not bad lah, i soo long finally got one Dominating then i chiong ma, and died, then kill somemore, wasted sia.. won noh, then i go join other ppl cs, hahah.. after that we ownself play cs, quite fun arh.. i really broke liao sia, then i said dont want play ler.. hahah yea noh, can use on watching movies de noh.. =S then went to eat burgerking arh, eat eat, les, gia n ck came ler.. then js siao de, mention about e cute thing.. he asked how ck say, then i say, i blurr ma.. then quite paiseh eh, i lean back so ferline can cover me, hahah.. then we went to borders arh, cos very cold.. we were eating bubble gum and walk walk and chatting merrily there.. hahah, then after that went to tpy noh.. benson and gwy came, cos they wanted to eat dinner.. ck quite kelian eh, then chatted with me arh.. hahah then after that we walk walk saw one cat on top of another cat, with another black cat beside them.. hahah wx say why never move de that upper cat.. oo then e poor cat want run away i think, but e top cat still want sia.. then e cat finally ran away, e two cats chase after.. hahah very interesting show, then another cat joined in.. gang bang.? three cats chasing one cat.. hahah then pei gwy, benson and gia near my house there to eat, e guys went crc arh.. after that pei them walk til bus stop, alot of xiao qiang arh, then home sweet home ler.. my turtles sleep ler, goodnight..

~if i could, then i would.. i will~

2005-04-11T15:20:00.000+08:00

currently 26++ hours never sleep, hahah.. gonna keesiao liao.? yesterday thon crc noh, or aka chalet arh.. but should be last liao, cannot liao lah.. hmm, at first arh quite confusing.. wx said iz go then he go, so i say if wx go then i go.. hahah, then les dont know why tell wx dont have play, then kev said have.. then i called weiliang, he at first said should be got, then he said got got.. oo then met kev pei him eat arh, then iz came very long sia.. nowadays people say on e way, very very long then reach.. then went to buy bread for e long supper then went to crc down liao.. oo iz sometimes eat or drink things will offer me if i want a bite or sip de, hahah.. kev dont know say what, then iz say im his zharbo, paiseh lah dey.. weiliang keep shooing us faster reach arh, very funny.. oo we went to shop and save buy somemore stuffs, e big bottle of water 50cents each nia, dont know why so cheap arh.. =X oo we like going picnic right.. then wait for everybody come, quite long sia.. wl want imitate other couples right, keep listurbing me arh, hahah paiseh sia.. then ch n wl keep getting free gifts from 7eleven hor.. hahah, oo quite alot of people went that night.. got js, les, iz, zl, wx, wl, ch, kev, ck, kh, mel, fian bro.. then as usual crc time different from normal time, so they started playing e porn photo hunt, still cant beat e top score arh.. play liao, at first quite sian dont know want play what de, too many ppl ba.. played gb, so heng i tio room 14 arh, then finally played dota.. but keep on got ppl lag out, hahah.. louzy comps, then played cs.. so fun arh, thankies kh and bro cheering for me.. then use shotgun so fun eh, but i still quite slow i guess, then scare scare de.. then kh sleep arh, hahah.. played plant and defuse bomb, oo keep on got ppl suicide so funny.. hungry then wanted to eat my last bread i let bro play, he still quite pro sia thou he said he very long never play ler.. hahah, oo got alot of psycho killers arh, die liao still want shoot and slash.. then played dota again arh.. after that no more liao, morning liao noh.."ehh just now not Sunday meh.? how come so fast Monday liao.." hahah, then go mac eat i nvr eat.. listen to them talk about dota, then made fun of ck.. oo hes just kinda weird to keep saying me cute and lihai, goosebumps sia.. hahah then after that went to school one by one bye bye.. quite fun sia, talk and walk to school then sit in school talk, then take invitation cards for everybody eh.. must go leh, all e invitation cards with me.. hmm then went amk to find e ocbc bank, go rounds rounds to find.. oo saw jane sia, then dont know who said scully will see their halfs.. hahah, e auntie also so funny.. say so many ppl go e bank, actually is to excort one person to e bank.. then she said i princess arh.. hahah, then they said no all are hiadis, then im princess hiadi.? hahah so lame, then went to bishan check up.. saw farz n her mother, she also went for check up.. then fian bro said later one by one see their half isit.? i forget liao, then they went in to que, e rest went outside wait.. then we chatted outside, then went in chat at a corner, where theres a table and chairs for kids to play e toys provided.. played and laughed noh, waited quite long sia, then rested afew times.. js go orbakak my eye, pain sia.. oo cos les, wx n fian had to do e check up, then did finish liao fian bro said later next is shihui [iz].. hahah then in e end e next person really is shihui sia, but is another girl, so coincidental noh.. then went to j8 to eat, saw flora and then farz again, waa so qiao arh.. but never saw e rest liao.. =X hahah, wanted to buy toto or 4d sia.. oo then walked around around, then iz bought his curry puff then went to bus stop.. dont know want plan go where, but tired.. so went home ler.. dont know if i want to sleep anot.. lalal~ next time make gb got those sound effects arh right.? hahah, DOMINATING.. =X

~nothing i have is truly mine~

2005-04-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

hey, now listening to my discman, suddenly remember arh.. weiliang lost my ear piece, how could someone lost ear piece de, going to buy me back one anot.? hahah, u told me okie, but still dont have.. anyway today went to play dota two times, price= 9.90$ and 3.60$, whao gonna be broke ler.. haixx i owe kev money forget to give him just now, benson also owe for e other day de seoul garden, but i prepared e money liao.. hmm oo yaa, played dota with kev's cousin and his cousin's friends.. dont know who so xialan, keep suan me.. at first say "dont keep dying leh", i wanted to say "u think i want de arh.." but in e end i said "(in my mind= u so lihai) then u take top lah".. hahah, then he\she say i accompany u.. whatever lah.. then play til quite lihai, keep got ppl want join then restart and restart and restart de.. then sibeh sian sia (sss) liao lah.. oo got one game arh, e enemy was running and dying soon, used my laguna ler, so i chasing.. that person said "wheres ur punge".. i said "he was running lah dey.." he\she said "kk" then awhile "next time got chance use".. use brain lah, lina punge must accurate or else useless, running how to punge.. last game played -ar, get an alien hero like i know how to play sia.. that person suan me again "i think u better quit dota".. i know i louzy lah, but think i want to play with that person de arh.. suan my friend also, want die sia.. in e end not me most kena killed noh, talk so much rot.. lose my fault arh, also got team de part wa.. if nobody want help me, what can i do.. keep let me solo.. okok, maybe i dont think about tactics, i dont think about e enemy's skills and weakness.. blah blah blah la la la.. anyway then went bishan (for nothing but its alright) then back to crc play dota.. oo i saw that girl at e nwo shop, i was shocked to see her.. she was stunned also, hahah she recognise me ba, everytime see her and ask her same question.. aiyo i looking for that nwo the beatles print de tee very very long sia, cannot find.. then she said no more liao, so sad.. should have bought long long ago, but long long ago i had no money.. anyway played with ty, gwy, gia, wx, les, kev, js arh.. play with friends better than alienic ahsengs and ahlian.. at least more comfortable and not so sian.. at first its 3v2 nia, i and wx vs ty, 2g.. hahah just start so dont know can win anot.. then restart arh, then GG we should be losing ba.. then play again.. used medusa, learned all my skills, got soul booster and crystallis, on mana shield, attacked frozen throne.. woohoo~ after 6-7 rounds, finally won sia.. i feel actually im not crazy over any games eh, so sian.. dota at first quite fun, then after that.. e feeling is like just another ordinary game.. sometimes cs more fun, cos more exciting ba.. sometimes dota more fun cos can train and chiong all those.. play.? just play noh.. gb also abit sian.. usually go in see see then see got nice room just play noh, usually 1v1 de or 4v4 aduka or 2v2 friendly match.. or else with friends of cos, but no feelings liao.. wont dulan, see xialan ppl wont argue much.. hmm, ive done all my poly package de stuffs liao, done medical check up, done shading and filling up forms.. now waiting for my appeal results, if fail then pass up liao.. ready to go TP~ excited ba, hahah.. err, who want pei me go school.? =X

~he wasnt~

2005-04-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

i like its mtv, very cute.. got devil and fairy, pretty and nice..
err, something stupid something funny inside me.. i dont know what to do..

There's not much going on today.
I'm really bored, it's getting late.
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming, the day I hate.

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I've got, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

This is where I start to bite my nails.
Up in my room and when all else fails.
I think it's time for me to bail.
This point of view is getting stale.

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I've got, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

Na na na na na, we've all got choices.
Na na na na, we've all got voices.
Na na na na na, stand up make some noise.
Na na na na, stand up make some noise.

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I've got, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I've got, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
Like I was special, cuz I was special.

Na na na na na.

-Avril Lavigne-

~those were the memories~

2005-04-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

yeah just watched finish My Brother, was a nice and touching show.. teared quite alot, hahah my bolster caught my tears.. go watch, its really very nice.. oo i found some 6f photos, dont know want laugh or cry sia.. they are really funny.. let you all see, but dont laugh.. at me.. can you spot me.?

my class de girls.. hahah cant really remember taking this..

hmm, this is an excursion or what ba.. dont really remember also.. hahah..

lalal~ this is the most hilarious one.. pengs sia..

-\ woohoo \-

2005-04-01T16:47:00.000+08:00

found a couple of nice blogskins, but i cant decide to change my blogskin into a music one or final fantasy de.. cant decide sia~ both also very nice.. or maybe i make two blog.. Lol, create one new final fantasy blog, then e music de use for my own.? lalal~ tonight then slowly decide then make ba, gtg bbyex`..

-\ if i could be invisible, i would be invincible \-

2005-03-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

You are a music girl. You have a good beat and you
are a great singer. You like to have people
look up to you and you like your 'i'm good and
know it' that's what probably gets the men.
You are very confident and men like it.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only

Ok you are a romantic anime girl and you love and
care for a lot of people.There is no evil in
you soul or your heart.Though sometimes people
don't feelt he same way as you do you keep on
trying to change their mind.You love to help
people out and you are always happy.Keep on
trying to make the whole world smile because
you know smiles are contagious ^_^.Oh and if it
seems like there is nobody who could love you
as much as you could love them it doesn't
matter the thing is that the only thing that
matters is that he cares and loves you and it
doesn't matter how much well maybe it does but
don't set you standards to high cuz then you'll
find nobody

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)

You either lost somebody you love or somebody broke you heart so bad that you can't pick up the shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You think nobody can heal your wounds but don't stop looking because you never know who loves you enough to try hell the one special guy could be right infornt of your eyes and you don't even know it.You also love to day dream because it seems like the only place that makes you happy.BBut little do you know that people all around you are trying to make you happy and you won't let them in fearing you'll get another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just try and if things go wrong just brush it off and try again.It never hurts to try.

You are PUNK! U like being around those who are
really close to u. You get depressed most times
but you just wanna live!You have alot of
feelings and thoughts inside that you keep to
yourself! sometimes you dont know who to trust.You have friends that believe in you and know the
real you, which means the most.Thanks, please rate

Are you GOTHIC, PREP, PUNK,UNIQUE (girls only)

Your Gothic... Maybe even a bit Vampyric... Your
very sensitive, sometimes you can be outgoing
in your own population. Your sometimes Lonely,
but when your alone your much happier. If your
suicidal, it's okay, because your the kewlest
person I know!....well don't actually know you
but yeah! Write me and Tell Me if you picked
Napoleon or Ron!

Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?

-\ one meter away is still an isolation \-

2005-03-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

wee` i think ive sprained my neck abit.? lalal~ blogging what i did these few days ba..

-friday- [good friday]
went to watch eye10 with ben, fer, milky, wx, johnny n kev.. actually its wx who wanted to watch, then he said milky n johnson going.. then fer n ben also went, yeah.. then johnny came, johnson dont want go.. then actually want 3 meet i think, wx confirm with me was already 2.40.? then i was thinking everybody sure late, so slowly lah.. then i prepared hao ler at 3+, he told me confirm time was 4.. then i told milky arh, hahah, i walked around my house.. milky wont late de, he reached 3+++? walked around central, tsktsk.. then i reached 4, thot nobody will late cos time shifted from 3 to 4 ma.. in e end still same arh, we two waited for them.. then went to lido, waa e que was so long.. then i and fer went to e que next to e online booking, which was short.. then we abit dont know that que was buy tix one anot, then it was.. glad no need que so long, lalal~ then 3 ppl owed me money arh.. hahah, then we watched 9.30 de, we were there almost 5 or 5+ i think.. wootx~ needa wait so long.. then we went to play lan, dota~ we played 3v2, milky with fer n ben, then i n wx.. we won, so glad first time hit dao that frozen throne.. hahah, oo when i was hitting frozen throne, wx said "noo i haven play finish, dont kill it.." i said oops and stopped hitting, but e trees hitted it, then we were victorious, hahah.. then next game was i and milky, wx with ben n fer.. quite fun arh, i first time max level 25, then fer n ben afraid of me, yeah.. hahah, but wx also quite strong de, and also my attack not very good.. like can win, but i chiong n died afew times noh.. then lost.. =( oo then played cs arh, quite fun de.. kept cannot find milky, lalal~ then fetch johnny, then off to e movies.. we saw nansen with his friends, then we random picked our tix, fer dont want corner so i took.. it wasnt really corner, cos we 7 ppl were seated in e center of e row.. omg, it was a stoopid movie, wasted my money.? err, cos e ghosts looked funny, n i kept laughing not really scared.? oo wells, then mel came to fetch fer.. then we took bus home, hmm.. how come i felt like almost e same scenario i went out with iz, kh, ben, fer, johnny n flora..

-saturday- [easter day]
oo, we kinda promised to go watch e play at 7.30 at indoor stadium by cityharvest church de.. then i, wx n les were conferencing arh, fer was "online".. then we thot she slowly, in e end it was her cousin, she at tpy already she said wait for us.. hahah, then i n wx chiong arh, cos we haven bath n prepare.. then we like pangsei les, he in e end also go with us.. we took a long time to reach there.? late of cos, cos we ate mac then we drank water then we jalan jalan then we took bus.. we sat quite front eh, then i sang.. omg so long liao i still can sing church songs, then e play was nice eh.. ehh remember that part they sing e song.? one was rapping of Numb arh, but they change it.. then another was Tuo Diao, that was very creative and funny sia.. hahah, oo then les had to go close cafe, so we pei him.. after e demons dance finish, then got fire boom~ pangseied nansen, sorry arh nansen.. we went to find taxi noh, walked n walked to a deadend, then heng heng one taxi turned in we were running n waving like crazy, then reached raffles hotel.. waited very long for them to prepare everything then close shop eh, then walked around, took photos arh.. then walk, kena dii siao by that johnson, then went home ler..

-sunday-
i was eating lunch, then iz asked me go play pool.. didnt saw, abt 40mins later then replied him.. he said waa so long then reply, then meet noh.. played pool with ahba, wx, kev n iz.. e place abit odd and e balls are odd, e cues are odd too.. oo then i broke my nail.! then it was PAIN, i asked e auntie for a nail cutter, most aunties have them in their bags.. then i cut, dont know want cut e whole nail out anot, its was very PAIN.. honestly, im really really afraid of pain n blood, so i laughed n cried.. hahah, they said dont cry.. then i decided not to cut it out lah, i now look at my nail i also feel like crying eh, cos its really pain lah.. oo after that they teased me, haixx.. then we went to eat dinner, not bad arh.. haixx they teased me again.. "dear".. =X then we played arcade, so fun arh.. we punched that big belly guy, then i only can punch max 30+kg.? forget liao.. they punched 90 to 120+ like that, isaac e downtown hero.. then we played lan, 1hr 1.50 so cheap arh.. played cs til we four kee siao, til more than an hour.. hahah, then headed to tpy, iz went home eat dinner first.. found benson cos kev was looking for panadol, then we waited for ben to dismiss.. headed to 7eleven, kev bought panadol n self service to e water, kena gan.. hahah, i remembered i at e same 7eleven pressed e soup (should be press once only) i kept pressing til overflow, tio gan also.. that poor 7eleven, gonna die liao.. went to find les, wl, js, ch.. they sat there for like more than 2hrs.? hahah, then ty came, zl also, iz also came, then we started e thon or "chalet".. got me, zl, ty, kev, wl, les, js, ch, iz n then mel.. dota siaoed, time quite fast over actually.. from 11.30 like that start, played n played 7.30 liao.. then ate breakfast, no appetite cos dont have e habit thou hungry.. walked around, everybody kee siao liao ba.. i not really tired dont know why, but i slept anyway, not very long.. felt nothing much.. take care all~

this guy, so long liao, rejected him so many times.. still haven die, still asked stoopid qns.. haixx, flowers, roses, exp, yes give me why dont want accept e flowers, but SO.? hahahahah.. =X sorry for being direct, but what to do..